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The Flood / I'm scared of dying bros
« on: September 08, 2024, 06:29:18 AM »
I've done it once, a very long time ago, but the blackness beyond the last of your neurons firing for the time just scares me. I think about this constantly and it gets my heart racing so bad now that I have so much to live for and so much to lose the day I finally kick the bucket.

Any of you dealing with this? Any advice? I'm not in a great place because of it.

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The Flood / Anyone willing to help a brotha out?
« on: May 09, 2024, 10:22:54 AM »
Baby number 2 came yesterday, and in the hectic nature of the day I completely forgot I had an automatic payment set to go through, so now my account is around -11.62. If anyone is willing to help I should be able to pay you back on the 14th, but regardless, I'm sorry for having to ask.

In case anyone is curious, Timmy was born at 8:05, weighs 8 pounds 5 ounces, on 5/8 of all fucking days. Truly a magical time for those numbers.

Venmo is @bustanut69 if any of you guys can assist.

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Serious / Is this correct?
« on: December 05, 2022, 02:21:26 AM »
After all this Ukraine stuff, I was looking into all of the of the humanitarian atrocities committed by both sides. This was one of those down the rabbit hole moments where you just click and click, until I got to where the estimated average of any nation's military may stand at. The U.S., obviously, stands at a respectable number... but accounting for Militia, it stands at a respectable zero in comparison to the multi-millions every top ten or so nation has.

Is it because Wikipedia considers the National Guard to be that, or that most countries believe that anyone can eventually pick up a gun during any kind of invasion?

Just looking for your thoughts.

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Septagon / Mod powers
« on: August 20, 2022, 04:54:37 AM »
Make me one to clean up this cesspit. Or just let me make this a post to keep people on.

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The Flood / Haven't thought about this in years
« on: May 24, 2022, 12:20:15 PM »
but you just lost the game.

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The Flood / Rubbed heroine(?) into my eye on accident
« on: March 03, 2022, 10:20:10 PM »
Could have been meth or coke, but a miniscule baggy sitting below my mailbox piqued my curiosity enough to toss it so I didn't get the cops called on me. Left eye is so fucked right now I want to just die. Right side of my brain feels like a steamroller is running over it.

Why the fuck did I touch that shit.

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The Flood / Having a Bass battle with an asshole neighbor
« on: February 27, 2022, 01:03:46 PM »
100 decibels through my floor, everyday, for the past five months. I have a baby, so whenever he's not home you're fucked.

Dickhead is a wife-beater too, so no remorse. Enjoy 160-200 intermediately, during your late nights, dude.

I have to cover with earplugs, and it still hurts afterwards.

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The Flood / Six Months Sober
« on: February 02, 2022, 05:38:38 PM »
Really proud of this one, boys.

Alcohol has been the most destructive force in my life, and while I'm still paying for it, I can at least say it's finally under my own control.

I'm one of the few who experiences DT's long term, and knowing how far I've gotten since that last drink... I don't know how to describe it. I feel almost giddy writing this. I feel in control, conscious, and I'm loving every second of it.

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The Flood / What have you been reading lately?
« on: January 04, 2022, 01:33:22 PM »
I've been reading the Sword of Truth books with my wife over the past year, and by god is it a fucking miserable experience. The first book is a spectacular story as a standalone, but after the third it just keeps slogging on and on. I personally wouldn't have continued if she weren't adamant that we might as well since they were a gift. Here we are on Omen Machine and I'm kinda just done with TK's filler and endless reiterations.

I've been currently going through Phillip K. Dick and Harlan Ellison's works as of late. Finished off all of Lovecraft's works a couple of weeks ago, and The Colour Out of Space and At the Mountains of Madness are by far the two I most adore.

I also plan on reading through all of the Tolkien books again once the Game-Mania running through me subsides.

All Quiet on the Western Front will probably remain my favourite singular book of all time, though.

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The Flood / Dead
« on: November 20, 2021, 05:08:37 PM »
The meme aside, it really does seem like activity has hit the lowest levels I've ever seen. Just look at the latest responses on the second thread of each forum. It ranges for days to weeks, and across the board, even some of the most recent posted in topics have comments in that same spectrum.

RIP

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The Flood / Moved to Utah (rant)
« on: February 28, 2021, 01:55:57 PM »
And holy fuck does it suck.

Mugged within the second week, beaten to unconsciousness by three dudes, had my phone stolen, and here I am left with broken teeth that makes me look like a methhead, and a large ass hospital bill to boot. Literally just wanted to go mountain climbing, but NO, these shitters had to screw me over. I can't even eat anymore without pain.

The job I was promised? The company filled days before I flew out (NOT THAT ANYONE CONTACTED ME ABOUT IT, FUCK CORPORATE), so now I'm just some jobless loser, subsisting off my girl's good will.

Attempted suicide failed because four beers and about forty Xanax couldn't do the trick without my stupid body rejecting it, and now no one trusts me to be a normal human being.

Fuck this. I abandoned my family and the few people I actually care about for fucking nothing.

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The Flood / $400 for an audio CABLE!?
« on: February 08, 2021, 01:46:31 AM »
How can you justify this shit? I get electrostatics are expensive by default (which is why I'm making the thread), but consumers who allow this are fucking retarded. Even the aftermarket replacements are stupidly beyond the normal price-range.

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Septagon / Make Karma Great Again
« on: October 08, 2020, 04:24:35 PM »
Why have a feature if it's just useless? Weed out the UNDESIRABLES because NO ONE wants them.

Sure, they might contribute to a higher post count on some forum no one gives a rats ass about, but if most of those posts are just bitching/complaining ABOUT the problem, why not just remove it?

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Gaming / Picked up Three Houses today
« on: July 29, 2020, 04:13:42 PM »
First FE game, any tips for a someone who’s 99% a noobie to the franchise? I know about supports and how stat gains are randomized for the most part, but that’s really it.

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The Flood / To any who use Psychedelics
« on: June 30, 2020, 01:55:14 PM »
I’ve got four tabs that I’m planning on taking today, but I also work early in the morning tomorrow. I’m just wondering, before I commit, if the amount taken also correlates to the length of the trip, rather than just the intensity of it. Looking it up online just brings up people dosing up again DURING the trip and their opinions on it’s effectiveness, rather than the info I’m looking for.

Btw it’s only like 11 AM right now so I’ve got literally all day to dedicate to it.

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The Flood / Rate my PC Build
« on: February 27, 2020, 05:26:44 PM »
https://pcpartpicker.com/user/Blankina/saved/#view=TNpht6

Just put this bad boy together and it runs like a fucking dream. Also delidding that 9900K was the scariest thing of my life but the temps are thankfully consistently low. Got most of this stuff during cyber monday last year though so all around I only spent about 2K.

Edit: I9-9900K is currently at 5.2 GHz with idle temps of 28 C idle and 41 C under load.
2080 is at 2050 MHz (still messing with my settings, cause I could push it harder but don't really need to) for 34 C idle and 55 C under load.

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The Flood / Old Topics now locked?
« on: June 25, 2019, 01:49:10 AM »
I wanted to post in that Top 5 games on Steam list, but for some reason all oldish threads on there are locked now.

So my top five are:
New Vegas - 343 hours, not even considering all the hours played on Xbox and though mods
Warframe - 284 hours, though that's not much compared to those on here
Mount and Blade: Warband - 121 hours, plus some with mods
War Thunder - 112 hours
PUBG - 89 Hours

Most honorable mention goes to S.T.A.L.K.E.R. though, with 39 hours for the base game, with a few additional hours due to the sequels/expansions. I've put hundreds of hours into mods like CoC,Dead Air, LA, etc., and am now giving Anomaly a whirl in preparation for the sequel due to the x64 upgrade.

What are you guys playing?

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Gaming / Second PC Build is being bought, but should I upgrade the CPU?
« on: February 06, 2019, 09:34:38 PM »
CPU: i7-6700K
GPU: Asus Strix 2080 OC
MB: MSI Z170A M7 ATX LGA1151
SSD: 2 960 Evo's (512 GB & 1 TB respectively)
Ram: Corsair Vengeance LPX 2 x 8GB 2400 MHz
PS: EVGA SuperNOVA G2 850 (for SLI later on)
Case: Fractal Design R5 Blackout

Had the CPU and Motherboard on hand already due to wanting to upgrade my old PC, but I just decided to say fuck it and start a new one. I don't think the old adage of GPU being more important than CPU is going to fall out of favor anytime soon, but I just thought I'd ask if I should upgrade? This is the same CPU as my last build, which I delided for a decent boost to 4.8GHz and (obviously) cooler temps, but there really is a lot of cool CPU developments coming out nowadays that makes the 6700K seem kind of dated in comparison.

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The Flood / Why invite the worst aspects of the Flood?
« on: May 18, 2018, 09:03:01 AM »
Aside from worst=best LOL! which I assume you're emulating it' for amusement, when you aren't. Interpersonal drama  amongst completely and utterly retarded people does not make you stand head and shoulders amongst on another. You literally fight because you can't stand one another, killing the community that matters to you just to die along with them.

Why? Why kill your friends for such a purpose?

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Septagon / News
« on: May 18, 2018, 08:56:45 AM »
The News needs more than occasional holiday inputs, pasted from years gone by with updates of random, haphazard, and genuinely useless "weekends" of what basically just equate to shittalking other users with literally no consequences aside from the rules you've already established in the main forums.

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The Flood / Chally is a meanie pants :(
« on: May 18, 2018, 08:08:18 AM »
like last year he made fun of my shhity grammur and writing and that put me off posting here for a year or so and really i just thing you guys should give him a warning or something. i'm a good noodle and it just feels bad that a meanie paints like him should get away with be such a dummy all the time

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The Flood / I have been drunk for 76 hours counting
« on: February 26, 2018, 01:58:36 AM »
I can feel it in my brain, I want to vomit ever waking moment, I can feel the DTs calling for me, but I don't want this h hangover.

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The Flood / Hospital?
« on: August 22, 2017, 12:00:47 PM »
Cut off drinking about three weeks ago, but recently things have been getting progressively awful. Every night I only am able to sleep three hours, and sweating so terrible I have to change sheets. I similarly have nightmares where I die every single time. My hands, arms, legs, limbs* have have either been shaking uncontrollably or have gone numb. That said happened at work where I was almost ready to black out. I also taste blood, like half the time.

Is this liver failure? My best friends girlfriend said it might be anxiety due to stress, but I can't afford to see a doctor.

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The Flood / Just bought 24 bottles and a half gallon
« on: August 15, 2017, 08:42:52 PM »
I'm already drunk enough to where I don't need them. I just don't know what to do with them.

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The Flood / tfw shitfaced
« on: March 23, 2017, 08:19:57 AM »
When you work in less than four hours.

I should just die.

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The Flood / Why
« on: January 31, 2017, 06:22:53 AM »
does my desire to die overwhelm everything else so completely? Why must I be like this? Why am I so empty?

I just wish I was happy.

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The Flood / Just spent the last hour looking at guns
« on: January 30, 2017, 05:59:43 PM »
Need to stop drinking. All the political shit going on has me scared enough to make impulse buys.

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Serious / I am most likely an alcoholic
« on: January 08, 2017, 03:41:40 AM »
I've find found that since I've been able to drink that my happiness has been found in a bottle. I don't know how to rectify this. Any advice?

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The Flood / >tfw Amazon fucks up your order
« on: December 29, 2016, 04:30:46 AM »
>and you get double of everything you've purchased, and send the duplicate items back for a refund you don't truly deserve

I'm undoubtedly a piece of shit for cheating the system this way, but holy fuck is this the best Christmas I've had. I didn't even have to spend a dime on my family.

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The Flood / Real Talk: Why is everything so fucked?
« on: December 04, 2016, 04:29:20 AM »
Sister's in the hospital for attempted suicide, my dad killed himself, my best friend just scared the shit out of me saying he was going to kill himself and has tried a few times, everyone I know is depressed and unhappy as fuck whilst I just pad around my daily life wondering why I'm not dead yet. Just, why? Why is every waking moment filled with such misery and fucking despair? What did they and I do to deserve this intolerable fucking existence? Why does nothing every work out in my favor? Why oh fucking why are other people able to be happy when the moments of joy in my life are so fleeting that it just doesn't seem worth it to keep going?

I'm tired. So fucking tired of this shit. Tired of everything. I just want this all to stop. Nothing helps, nothing works, talking and medication only makes it worse. All I can think about is why they brought me back from the dead. Everything's so empty. I want to stop thinking but I can't. Want to start over but know there's no point to such a struggle.

I just want to forget, want to be someone else, want to leave everything behind. This is all just so wrong. So fucked. So god damned fucked.

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