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The Flood / Re: blog time (tl;dr warning)
« on: May 11, 2020, 09:45:59 PM »
I’ve actually made a tonne of progress on this since I posted; seeing a psych has helped in terms of understanding the mechanics of my panic attacks and what they mean. Essentially I just need to process some shit that went down way further back in my past every time I get in a bad headspace, which helps explain why I had such a hard time dealing with them in the first place. They tell me I can essentially be better and free from such a state of hyper vigilance within a month or so

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Gaming / Re: Halo Mega Thread
« on: May 10, 2020, 11:09:51 AM »
never forget


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Serious / Re: Why don't people care about the Biden allegations?
« on: May 01, 2020, 10:45:22 PM »
Seemingly only a fraction of people that were outraged about Kavanaugh care about the Biden allegations.

https://www.jacobinmag.com/2020/04/joe-biden-tara-reade-sexual-assault-allegation-media
https://www.nationalreview.com/2020/04/new-york-times-unequal-coverage-sexual-assault-allegations-against-joe-biden-brett-kavanaugh/

The links describe the very different reactions in media coverage but it can really be extended to everyone. All week I've been seeing progressives described as "privileged" for if they won't support Biden. We'll see if trying to cover this up and basically gaslighting their own voterbase will be a winning strategy.

tl;dr:
>Kavanaugh is accused of assault when he was a teenager
>National outrage
>Biden is accused of rape when he was a Senator
>Error 404: Not Found

Imagine wondering why conservatives don't trust the media.
Imagine wondering why conservatives don't care about issues like this.

But I guess the ends justify the means :-)

edit: great video:
YouTube

Honestly from what I’ve seen of USpol in my news feed, it’s actually the biggest talking point among progressive voters. This is actually a big reason for the disillusion of Sanders dropping out, so I’m not expecting a DNC victory this time round.

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The Flood / Re: Post Trash Fetishes
« on: May 01, 2020, 10:38:19 PM »
DDLG (or any implication of pedophilia), Rape fantasies, beastiality and torture/humiliation fetishes are the absolute worst.

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Serious / Re: Why don't people care about the Biden allegations?
« on: May 01, 2020, 10:33:55 PM »

I've grown to oppose universal health care. Our taxes would be much lower if it didn't exist.
I was under the impression the funding would come from closing loopholes big companies use to avoid paying taxes altogether. Unless your last name is Bezos you won’t notice a cent of difference in your tax.

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The Flood / Re: what have you done with your TrumpBux™?
« on: April 29, 2020, 07:50:01 AM »
Probs car parts ayy lmao

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The Flood / Re: Discord Chat
« on: April 26, 2020, 09:47:19 AM »
ayy lmao link pls

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The Flood / Re: Post your vehicles
« on: April 22, 2020, 09:29:18 AM »
There are some impressive wheelbarrows ITT. How do you people afford them? Loans or just saving for years? Were they new or used? How many previous owners? Are there mandatory vehicle inspections in the US to check for roadworthiness etc?
For me it was a combination of savings and a personal loan. It cost $10k in 2017. I’m finishing up repayments and even with interest the car has paid for itself, with Manual GT-T Coupes fetching $20-25k aud (not that I’m treating it as an investment lol). We only need a roadworthy certificate  for initial registration, but another may be needed if you let the registration lapse by 3 months or you get issued with a defect notice. (used - manufactured in 1998)

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The Flood / Re: blog time (tl;dr warning)
« on: April 21, 2020, 03:03:10 PM »
I am also glad to hear that you are okay. I also would like to say that it was very smart to reach out to a psychologist in trying to sort out your problems. It was too late to fix things when I went to a councilor back in 2018 but I was at least able to make things somewhat right a year and a half later.
I’m glad you were able to at least help things to a degree. Hope things start going your way a lot quicker than my case.

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The Flood / Re: blog time (tl;dr warning)
« on: April 21, 2020, 02:59:16 PM »
I'm glad to hear that you're doing better, I had no idea. Stay strong.
Thanks my man, it’s really weird to talk about it after this time. But very relieving for some reason. The experience definitely made me grow a lot, but I can’t say I’d recommend it.

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The Flood / blog time (tl;dr warning)
« on: April 21, 2020, 02:46:05 PM »
Things were different in 2014. I remember logging back in to b.net earlier that year after a hiatus from the reach days to check out what the hype was about surrounding destiny. No surprises the forum for the game itself was an absolute shitshow and I was instantly turned off the game by its prospective community, but Offtopic was pretty cool and I found myself becoming a regular. Nearly everyone was a familiar name and I had a pretty cool group of friends to have a group chat with, including the resident 5-year old Ender. Memes were aplenty and I can honestly say the community as a whole had a really nice vibe to it.

I was 18 and unemployed at the time, so I had all the time in the world to surf Offtopic to my heart’s content. I was in all of the biggest groups on the site and enjoyed reading countless shitposts and drama from the usual suspects at the time. Even the trolling seemed to have a creative edge to it, and I was sad to see it all go the moment the July update dropped around the launch of the Destiny Beta. Usernames disappeared, never to be seen again and groups fragmented. During the teething problems of this group when it was on Proboards I became convinced it was some concotion of the worst of bungie’s toxicity for a time (mostly in part due to everyone labelling sep7 as traitors for some dumbass reason) but signing up pretty quickly dispelled that feeling. The users who crept back in to offtopic after its silent period were the biggest fuckheads in existence and I’m convinced 2 of them in particular are singlehandedly behind the worst of the later site updates (such as needing a destiny account just to post there now).

Fast forward to 2015 and I think I made the biggest mistake of my life. I was playing Mario Kart 8 and after a series of cheesy losses, I fell into the habit of hitting myself in the head when I was angry. This culminated in breaking a GamePad over my head hard enough to see nothing but red as it impacted my skull, dazing myself for 5 minutes (I am fully aware self harm of this manner is NEVER okay) and I haven’t been the same since. While there was no sign of injury to my head or brain, that moment marked a tipping point where I began to have anxiety attacks of an intensity I’d never experienced before, and still do to this day. For about 8 months this was a nightly ocurrence. I would develop a migrane, then worry I’d caused permanent brain damage or gotten a neurodegenerative disease and I was fully convinced in that headspace that I could never function again. I felt I had a really hard time thinking, I constantly lost trains of thought and got migranes really easily.

It went away for a bit and, while shit went sideways in a completely different way, late 2016-2017 were pretty normal years in terms of headspace for me. Around 2018 I found even seeing the word ‘Dimentia’ written on a pamphlet briefly brought that panic straight back and convinced me I had something like that. Co-workers always asked me what was up because one day I could be talkative, and completely silent the next. The real kicker was I wasn’t aware of what this panic was really about, so when I zoned in I couldn’t even tell what was wrong. Talking to a psychologist was helpful, but again our conversations never got to what I saw as the big issue.

2019 was a similar story in terms of mental health, but I was able to keep such instances brief, even if I was more zoned out than usual I was able to function pretty normally at work and make life decisions and plans. The Panic attacks still happened but on a milder level and passed quickly, in part thanks to getting a brain scan and being told everything is normal on that front. Earlier this year I’ve gotten comfortable with existing with this, and zeroed in on what sets me off. It’s hard to put it in to words even now, but basically I’ve come to terms with the concept of having such a disease as a workaround for my anxiety not letting me believe that I’m actually fine. And I feel better fams. Like, not 100% but I feel more like my old self than I have at any point in the last 5 years, and I just want to say I’m glad to be a part of sep7agon. Browsing this place can really take your mind off introspective worries sometimes, and I hope you’re doing well too.

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Gaming / Re: Super Smash Brothers
« on: April 21, 2020, 01:47:35 PM »
Hax has been dropping solid knowledge of late.

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The Flood / Re: PP
« on: April 21, 2020, 01:39:40 PM »
Not gonna lie, It’s 4:38 am and Slash’s nameplate title murdered me. I haven’t cried this hard from laughing since I was 12 my friends

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The Flood / Re: TFL is dead, long live TFL
« on: April 21, 2020, 01:35:26 PM »
Ok fine I’ll use discord again

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The Flood / Re: Is giving succ, gay?
« on: April 21, 2020, 01:31:30 PM »
what’s a bit of cbt between friends?

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Gaming / Re: Halo Mega Thread
« on: April 21, 2020, 08:55:49 AM »
is warzone firefight still kinda cheap? i remember the bosses have ludicrous amounts of health

then again, it might be because people didnt like to use reqs in ff
Yeah you can still get mega cheesed by enemies spawning in while you’re trying to kill a boss and legit everything can one-hit you, especially Promethians or Banshees. The 30 second respawn timer is the dumbest addition I’ve ever seen too. I’ve died so many times to peeking a Knight with an incineration cannon when they pre-fired a fully charged shot.

Aside from that even Solo Queue you should make it through 99% of the games you play, more people are willing to use good reqs than in 2016. Mind you I only play heroic
Have you completed the CP? Do you want to do some co-op?
I’d be down. I’ve completed it twice solo but never co-op

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The Flood / Re: *starts thread*
« on: April 19, 2020, 11:43:03 PM »
*gets dick caught in bra clip*

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Serious / Re: Why don't people care about the Biden allegations?
« on: April 15, 2020, 10:33:14 PM »
A lot of people do; I’m in a few groups where the left leaning members expressed disillusionment at Sanders withdrawing his campaign and Biden being the Democrat candidate. They pretty much all said they’re just not going to vote, their main reasoning being the allegations.

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Gaming / Re: Halo Mega Thread
« on: April 15, 2020, 09:39:11 PM »
is warzone firefight still kinda cheap? i remember the bosses have ludicrous amounts of health

then again, it might be because people didnt like to use reqs in ff
Yeah you can still get mega cheesed by enemies spawning in while you’re trying to kill a boss and legit everything can one-hit you, especially Promethians or Banshees. The 30 second respawn timer is the dumbest addition I’ve ever seen too. I’ve died so many times to peeking a Knight with an incineration cannon when they pre-fired a fully charged shot.

Aside from that even Solo Queue you should make it through 99% of the games you play, more people are willing to use good reqs than in 2016. Mind you I only play heroic

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Serious / Re: Coronavirus panic room thread
« on: April 15, 2020, 10:46:28 AM »
Trump's halted US funding to the WHO.

Absolute smoothbrain play there.

 But.... why?
Apparently Trump is not happy with how WHO handled the virus response in its first days. So this is his way of penalizing them.
I dunno what he was expecting they’re just a band smh

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Gaming / Re: Halo Mega Thread
« on: April 15, 2020, 06:52:09 AM »
I’m surprised people don’t use the gunner seats in tanks in wz firefight. I find they’re really good for helping a dude keep shots on when Warden/that grunt boss tries to focus them and the tank can’t fire because of the EMP.

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Gaming / Re: Halo Mega Thread
« on: April 15, 2020, 06:36:41 AM »
Hard to believe that around this time 10 years ago we were all getting hyped for the Reach Beta. Seems like yesterday.
>get home from school
>connect to the wifi on my 3rd gen iPod Touch
>see if Anoj uploaded another top 10 plays of the week for the Reach beta

simple times.

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Gaming / Re: Halo Mega Thread
« on: April 13, 2020, 06:20:27 AM »
thanks my man

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The Flood / Re: Post your vehicles
« on: April 13, 2020, 05:43:30 AM »
I'm thinking of getting a wicker bill like this for my car to make it a little more aggressive looking, plus the black will match with my car's stripes.

Does it have a factory spoiler or is it bare to begin with? Ducktails are 👌

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The Flood / Re: Post your vehicles
« on: April 13, 2020, 05:42:22 AM »
I say you should swap the gauges to make your car look more modern. It will look cleaner and nicer compared to the clunkiness of the older style.

 I did the same thing to my stereo and entertainment system when I had my Pontiac.
I agree the MFD itself adds a more modern touch. I should stop being on the fence about such things and just bite the bullet.

I’ll definitely be updating the Head Unit and speakers eventually too. GT-Rs with the existing MFD as well as one of those aftermarket touchscreens to replace the OEM head unit look tidy as fuck, so I’d love something like that for myself.

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The Flood / Re: Post your vehicles
« on: April 13, 2020, 01:24:10 AM »
I’m doing a GT-R Z-Tune body conversion soon, but I’m tempted to put that on hold to replace my Console Gauges (pic 1) with an MFD from a GT-R since there’s one for sale nearby and they’re hella rare (and an actual GTR is impossibly expensive rn)

console gauges
MFD

Thoughts? I’m in no rush either way. Certainly my bodywork needs attention, but it’s all going to be a slow process regardless and I’m in doubt over whether I’ll ever get an MFD for this price ever again.

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The Flood / Re: Post your vehicles
« on: April 13, 2020, 01:16:17 AM »
Fucking same lol. It’s been 3 and a half weeks. I get 350-400 km to a tank (~220-250 miles) and I’m not even halfway empty yet.

Is fuel really cheap right now for you guys too? With the exception of Diesel and E85 everything is hella cheap here.

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The Flood / Re: Happy Easter Sunday
« on: April 12, 2020, 08:42:01 AM »
ayy lmao have a good day

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Gaming / Re: Halo Mega Thread
« on: April 12, 2020, 08:40:49 AM »
Playing a game from Launch Actively >>> waiting several years to get it.

I don’t even want to look at PvP gametypes in Solo Queue and I want an ethernet adaptor and Mic before I start lining up with the bois  :'(

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