My dick doesn’t work

Ah, sorry to hear that. Urinary problems are always tricky.

How is everyone? I hope we're all making progress in our lives. I'm still hosting movies every night if you ever want to watch something cool. I'm of course back on DXM but it's doing wonders for me and I'm using it well. Things are looking up!

Please let me know any updates about you, too.

This is a cool thread, thanks for checking in! I've been well - really taken to this new job and Florida isn't as bad as I expected. I had some big problems with DXM this weekend (Monday/Tuesday) but I'm getting over that now, luckily. I just couldn't sleep, it was really bad for that reason alone lol. Made everything involving the trip a lot worse. The funny thing is that alcohol is what saved me, I still had some hard lemonade from a while ago and drank that so I could just pass out.

Going to be more careful in the future for sure. This was my first big binge since being here. Next time I use this substance on the weekend I need to measure my dosages with much more precision.

https://youtu.be/T9vXGlaNKg0

Wait - so are you going to actually respond to this? Hmm maybe you are doing a gimmick thing ugh.

is there someone here who actually loves their day-to-day routine?

me

Yes! Threads are good.
Though we still need a central, active Sep7-ish Discord server. . . . . I think.

No work, just me. And by weekend - sorry, I actually mean my days off. Those days are Monday and Tuesday. I've really been having a hard time with TVC/Discord stuff. The fact that this is my important issue, is a luxury. I know. That's why I'm trying to stay on the path of good.

I'll use Sep7agon a lot in these coming days. It's nice to be able to take your time with your posts. You can reword things and such. I hope that this will be a positive weekend.

Also I was finally let back into chasergen, but only in my prison throne room channel. I find many similarities to my situation and Negan's, especially considering they've had worse people come after me.

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Damn, outplayed by Verbatim again

Maybe next time

No, I wasn't. I did nothing to deserve a ban, except having the name "Carmen". You'll respond with something like "that's why it was a just ban", but I'm over it. Hope you have a good night, even if we don't get along.

I've taken the criticism I've gotten IRL and on the Internet and have applied it. The result of my sobriety is more focus on things that matter, but also a much more jaded view of myself and others. I don't make friends with people as easily, and I can't see the best in everyone anymore.

If you don't like my personality or humor, there's not much I can do there. But to ban me from a Discord for my name when I'm trying to be a nice, reasonable person is just a little bit petty, I think. You can't hate me for the party line when I haven't done those things since I came to Florida. I've been excelling at my job, and actually got my first raise of my professional life last week. I've been taking it very seriously, but I guess I'll always be a bit stigmatized here. It's disheartening for sure, but I shouldn't complain. I've earned the distrust from my past, but despite what the cynics will say, people can change. I hope the perception of me can change too.

dumb thread

I'm glad, Solonoid. It doesn't mean much coming from me, but I'm really proud of the changes you've made in your life. This might sound cheesy or sarcastic, but you're genuinely an inspiration to me and I hope you can forgive me for how I've treated you. You're a far better person than me, and hearing you say all of this made me smile.

We've all made mistakes, and as long as we admit them when we see them and try to progress, I think there's hope.

I woke up feeling bright and refreshed. My mom had to go into Orlando for an EEG, that's a neuroscience thing to get more info on whatever's causing her brain to have seizures. I took a shower, had a light breakfast, and went into work. I recently moved to Florida, as some of you know, and I'm quickly proving myself at my new hotel job. So far, I've gotten nothing but compliments and assurances of my expertise at being a front desk agent, and I really want to keep that going. Being on drugs would do nothing but weigh me down.

I spent some time today reviewing my life through the countless threads I've made on this site. I don't like the person I've made myself out to be, and I while I believe I've changed, I understand if most of you aren't convinced. While a straight-edged life is boring, it's fruitful and it's exactly what my family and myself need right now. I can't afford another slip. I can't afford anything less than perfection right now. I only make $10 an hour, my mom doesn't work, and our rent is $900 a month.

We escaped my abusive stepfather, but now we're facing reality. I don't have a lot of hormones left, and while yes, I'd like to continue my transition, any goals of passing as a girl are out the window for me. I don't have enough money for drugs, and my new mindset refuses to let me break any laws in search of a brief escape from sobriety. I'm a bad person, one of the worst I know. I'm not pretending to be altruistic, but at the same time it hurts me to see my mom and brother suffer. I kind of hate their personalities, same as I hate mine. But there's nothing left to do.

The adventure I had today was just accepting all of this. For the next long while, I won't be happy or even entertained, but I need to keep up the facade of happiness so I can be liked. No one likes a negative jerk. The point of this thread is just to get this down. My mission: to use the gifts granted to me - my natural amicability, my physical health, and my experience - to provide for myself and my family, until I'm not needed anymore. Maybe then, I'll find a place to rest my spirit.

I actually like Negan now

only bad thing is that King Ezekiel doesn't give speeches anymore