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3751
« on: March 14, 2018, 03:58:09 PM »
And I know that only few people can do what I do. I know that not everyone can get any job and that there isn't a perfect career out there for everyone. Of course that's bullshit. I'm just saying that you shouldn't sell yourself sort. You're clearly not an idiot and seem to have more potential than what you're making things out to be. i appreciate the optimism, and i respect that you're just trying to help the reason i called you glib is just because i get kinda tired of people who refuse to see how shitty life really is i just want someone to admit to me that life really does fucking suck for a lot of people, even for cozy privileged sheltered internet-having white people like me, and that your optimism is about as effective as prayer when it comes to these things furthermore, i'm just not convinced that you have a good enough picture of my situation to be able to give me any real advice—i've tried to illustrate bits and pieces of it to give you a taste of what being me is like, because i don't want to bore you to death the full picture, but if i were to give you the full picture, you would be singing a different tune you say the "bad things i fear about work" aren't inherent to every job in the market—but by saying that, you're saying that there's a job out there that doesn't involve doing any work, doesn't involve any time investment, and doesn't involve any other people (customers, bosses, coworkers, or anybody) these are things that i hate intensely, and they are indeed inherent to all jobs, otherwise they wouldn't be jobs basically, 1.) how am i supposed to enjoy work when i don't even want to enjoy work, and 2.) how do i deal with people in the workplace without wanting to suplex them off a cliff these aren't questions anyone can answer, they're things i have to figure out myself and i'm struggling really hard i am utterly insatiable—i feel like all i can do is just grin and bear it, while dying inside Like I said, I just don't want you to wake up one day with most of your life already behind you and suddenly realize how much you've missed out on and how many opportunities you threw away because of your militant state of mind and currently very negative thoughts on all this stuff. i don't want that either, but i don't want a lot of things i find bitching about my life on the internet to be extremely cathartic, at least, so as long as i have that, i think i can endure just about anything—i just won't enjoy it, and other people won't enjoy it either numbing myself like carson has to his job is not an option either—that'll lead to alzheimer's at 40
3752
« on: March 14, 2018, 11:17:01 AM »
3753
« on: March 13, 2018, 05:48:23 PM »
Based
how does it feel knowing that the only people who agree with you on this subject are the absolute dumbest members of the forum
You shouldn't talk about Nuka like that
so you're either dumb and didn't realize i was saying "people who agree with you" or you're saying you agree with nuka
I believe Nuka to be a genuine case of this disease, that's why I can respect him. He wouldn't have gone through the things he has for childish reasons.
..............woooooooooooow lmao,, why don't you go take that soy back to tumblr you fucking SJW fag?? Spoiler honestly good on you, not really what i expected from you though
3754
« on: March 13, 2018, 05:38:19 PM »
Based
how does it feel knowing that the only people who agree with you on this subject are the absolute dumbest members of the forum
You shouldn't talk about Nuka like that
so you're either dumb and didn't realize i was saying "people who agree with you" or you're saying you agree with nuka
3755
« on: March 13, 2018, 05:24:44 PM »
Based
how does it feel knowing that the only people who agree with you on this subject are the absolute dumbest members of the forum
3756
« on: March 13, 2018, 05:18:12 PM »
i haven't ruled it out
3757
« on: March 13, 2018, 05:16:44 PM »
good post
3758
« on: March 13, 2018, 01:25:37 PM »
bethesda saved fallout
3759
« on: March 13, 2018, 11:21:47 AM »
verb, thank you for existing
you're pretty much the only reason I still poke my head in around here
admit it i'm the only reason you continue posting here too
3760
« on: March 13, 2018, 10:49:36 AM »
the only other time i've heard of this is when YMS reviewed it, but
>natalie portman
sign me up
3761
« on: March 13, 2018, 09:48:50 AM »
your rice is undercooked, and your scallops are a joke
3762
« on: March 13, 2018, 01:55:43 AM »
so at what point do you have to admit to liking anime
cuz you now like more than i do
my ratio of liked to watched is like, 1:20
3763
« on: March 13, 2018, 01:11:41 AM »
what
i like anti-humor and robot chicken-y type stuff
3764
« on: March 13, 2018, 12:55:47 AM »
so i watched fucking texhnolyze or whtever
congratulations to markham for being the first person to ever recommend me an anime that i thoroughly enjoyed
thoughts later
3765
« on: March 13, 2018, 12:53:48 AM »
ITT: characters that remind you of Verb.
For me it's Kefka - intellegent, nihilistic, and with a wicked sense of humor.
3766
« on: March 12, 2018, 08:10:47 PM »
There's jobs that you might find more compelling and worthwhile though. There's also some things you can't realistically do without it being a job.
Spoiler i really wish the first statement were true, but i'm afraid it just isn't
if there really was something out there for me, do you not think i would have found it by now?
though, to be fair, what i'm basically struggling with is my mentality
even if i found the perfect job, i would still find a way to piss and bitch and moan about it, because i have such a perverted sense of self-fulfillment that being miserable almost gives me a perverse sense of satisfaction, just knowing that i was "right" all along, because i made myself right—that's just kinda the way i am, i literally feed off of my own negativity
you could say i just have a mental issue, which would be fair, but i also like to think that i have my reasons for being this way
jobs beget responsibilities, responsibilities beget mental burdens, mental burdens beget stress, stress begets misery
it's not to say that i can't handle a little bit of stress—it's the slow-burning cumulative effect of all the stressors in concatenation that makes them all the more soul-crushing, and it doesn't really matter what kind of job it is, because that's going to apply to pretty much all of them
obviously, none of this stuff is an issue for people who are pre-ordained to be responsible, itinerant, hardworking, normal people, but i'm just not one of those people—i have the potential to be a hard worker, but unless i'm actually passionate about something, i will go out of my way to put in the minimum effort, or i just won't do it at all
i also struggle with finding a sense of purpose—my philosophy on existentialism aside, it all really just seems like a fruitless struggle to me
on the offchance that i find an enjoyable place to work—that's still time that i could be spending doing shit that i actually want to do, which is sit around, sleep, consume art, make my own art, all while trying to be as little of a burden on the rest of society as possible as i live alone in the quiet, being a spectator, contributing nothing to a world i never asked to be part of in the first place
but what i think sounds reasonable is way too much to ask, so that doesn't give me a whole lot of options as far as my own happiness and personal comfort goes
i firmly believe that not everybody is cut out for work, and not everybody should have to work if they're so disinclined to do so—so the very idea that a person like me can exist in a world so incongruent with my values is a sick joke, and one that hasn't been funny in five years
i could go on but you're not my therapist, i'm just trying to get you see things from my pov for a moment
By any chance, do you feel shit for doing completely nothing for a long amount of time? Like you even wanted to make something done, like learn something useful, but you don`t have any drift for it and more time passes and you feel more and more shit for not progressing anywhere, and there is no drift.
And at one moment you think "let`s play some videogames, because at least I'm progressing in it" but after launch you just feel so shit, because you play a game, while you could have something done and then after an half hour you close it and...
"There is no drift for doing anything". You start to think about various things how to fix it, might be that you start to pick up some hobbies that look cool, but after doing it yourself you just don`t have a drift for it. Then next thing you start to think is "maybe I need to change my viewpoint. Well, my death is inevitable and there is no point to do anything. But even if I was immortal, even if I save my mind, my memories, myself through all those cycling, is there any point to do something?" And the answer is the same.
Just saying.
pretty spot-on
3767
« on: March 12, 2018, 08:09:33 PM »
Just to use myself as an example, I have enormous amounts of freedom at my job and the money I make is far from piddly. I don't work at a shithole but a modern facility tied to a university that's packed with hundreds of years of history. I don't deal with any customers at all but instead work with very motivated professionals and academics I work only on interesting projects of my own choosing and get to do something different all the time. None of the things you made out to be negative about a job are present in mine and there's no reason you couldn't land something similar. you say that, but you haven't given me any reason to believe it no offense, but i'm not terribly interested in your experiences in the workplace, because they're not mine—i conceded in that post that i'm just of a different disposition than most people, including you, so telling me how awesome having a job is when you've NEVER had to file 200+ applications for menial jobs you never wanted, but ones you're still pressured into getting, because you HAVE to get a job, and not having a job makes you a failure at life, etc. only to get rejected again and again and again and again and again and again and again, and THEN, the first job you ever actually land winds up confirming each and every one of your biggest fears of being employed? you don't have this experience—you could say it's an experience that you're sheltered from—so for you to sit there and tell me how great everything actually is, and how narrow-minded i am, when i've physically waded through the shit for years, only comes across to me as extremely glib look—i'm really happy that you love your job, that's awesome, i envy you you had to do a lot of work to get the job you have, though, and that's an amount of work that i would psychologically torturous and ultimately not worth it—like i said, some people just aren't cut out for work, and i think i'm one of them some people will never be happy having any kind of job, i don't think this is a controversial statement my two skills, and i only have two, are not marketable—we don't need more authors. we definitely don't need more artists. but that's literally all i have to offer. i've looked into numerous other subjects, and they all just seem like varying flavors of hell to me—the "don't knock it til you try it" philosophy doesn't really work when this is my life that i'm talking about that's kinda like when anime fans tell you to keep watching a series you KNOW you're not gonna like, "because it gets good later"—like, that's basically what you're doing here Also, you didn't really address the second point I made. Jobs can let you do things you otherwise wouldn't be able to. They can provide you with resources, opportunities and access to things that you on your own couldn't really have. there is only one resource that i want access to that i don't currently have now: time, and i really couldn't care less about anything else jobs tend to suck your time away, not give more of it to you As you said yourself, you might want to try and enjoy stuff a bit more. i was being a little half-hearted when i said that the thing is, it doesn't actually work like that at all it's kinda like saying "why be depressed when you could just be happy instead" i suspect the ease and speed at which you were able to get the first job you ever applied for has honestly blinded you to some of the harsher realities of life, in that not everybody has had it as good as you, and america's job market is trash, on top of everything else that i've cited bottom line, not everybody is capable of getting a robust career at a law firm or what have you some people are doomed to be wage slaves, that's just the reality that i see, because they just don't have what it takes to be anything more than that and they have every right to be pissed and unhappy about it, too—though for me, it IS getting unhealthy, because i do struggle to enjoy almost anything about life anymore, but i still think the notion that there's a career out there for everybody is just patent quixotic bullshit
3768
« on: March 12, 2018, 04:27:00 PM »
 he finished the group photo? I totally missed that damn. It's such a shame he DELETED it.
not that one, a one from years ago
3769
« on: March 12, 2018, 03:47:16 PM »
3770
« on: March 12, 2018, 01:04:50 PM »
pop team epic is funny
i don't want to rate things that are still airing though
3771
« on: March 12, 2018, 12:21:17 PM »
what you're describing is the problem with existence in general
but living in the system and accepting it, with all of its rewards and drawbacks, isn't hell. It's nice, and I feel better for a change
it's no 1984 here
i'm elated for you also sorry, i didn't mean to make this thread about me just having one of those days
3772
« on: March 12, 2018, 12:19:53 PM »
Are you saying that you have no passions you could turn into a career?
none, zero the passions i have are passions i wouldn't want to turn into a career, because i'd want them to stay pure and genuine forever—they're the only things i have, so throwing money into the equation would soil that in myriad ways when i finish my book, anyone who wants to read it may do so, and when the time comes, maybe i'll just set up a patreon for anyone who's interested in supporting me, if anyone, and if nobody does, then nobody does once you start naming prices, people start expecting things of you, until suddenly, what was once one of your greatest passions is now a massive burden on your shoulders i've thought about streaming on twitch, too, but the same principle applies—i would have to consign myself to playing games i dislike, because i wouldn't want to ruin any of my favorite games you could say that i'm fucked six ways to sunday the best thing i can come up with is becoming one of those youtube ranters (as if there aren't already enough of those) but gaining a following would be extremely difficult because i'm neither agreeable nor personable enough i'm also the kind of person who gets extremely discouraged whenever i see good content on youtube, because it just shows how much work it's actually going to end up being perhaps the bottom line is that i just need to find a way to teach myself how to "enjoy" work but how
3773
« on: March 12, 2018, 11:56:45 AM »
There's jobs that you might find more compelling and worthwhile though. There's also some things you can't realistically do without it being a job.
i really wish the first statement were true, but i'm afraid it just isn't if there really was something out there for me, do you not think i would have found it by now? though, to be fair, what i'm basically struggling with is my mentality even if i found the perfect job, i would still find a way to piss and bitch and moan about it, because i have such a perverted sense of self-fulfillment that being miserable almost gives me a perverse sense of satisfaction, just knowing that i was "right" all along, because i made myself right—that's just kinda the way i am, i literally feed off of my own negativity you could say i just have a mental issue, which would be fair, but i also like to think that i have my reasons for being this way jobs beget responsibilities, responsibilities beget mental burdens, mental burdens beget stress, stress begets misery it's not to say that i can't handle a little bit of stress—it's the slow-burning cumulative effect of all the stressors in concatenation that makes them all the more soul-crushing, and it doesn't really matter what kind of job it is, because that's going to apply to pretty much all of them obviously, none of this stuff is an issue for people who are pre-ordained to be responsible, itinerant, hardworking, normal people, but i'm just not one of those people—i have the potential to be a hard worker, but unless i'm actually passionate about something, i will go out of my way to put in the minimum effort, or i just won't do it at all i also struggle with finding a sense of purpose—my philosophy on existentialism aside, it all really just seems like a fruitless struggle to me on the offchance that i find an enjoyable place to work—that's still time that i could be spending doing shit that i actually want to do, which is sit around, sleep, consume art, make my own art, all while trying to be as little of a burden on the rest of society as possible as i live alone in the quiet, being a spectator, contributing nothing to a world i never asked to be part of in the first place but what i think sounds reasonable is way too much to ask, so that doesn't give me a whole lot of options as far as my own happiness and personal comfort goes i firmly believe that not everybody is cut out for work, and not everybody should have to work if they're so disinclined to do so—so the very idea that a person like me can exist in a world so incongruent with my values is a sick joke, and one that hasn't been funny in five years i could go on but you're not my therapist, i'm just trying to get you see things from my pov for a moment
3774
« on: March 12, 2018, 11:11:32 AM »
you're doing work a machine could be doing WOW that is just so productive
your insurmountable contributions to society will be hailed among the most significant fucking shit ever
3775
« on: March 12, 2018, 11:09:17 AM »
i don't even want to enjoy a job, as that would qualify as a sign of early onset dementia
I dont get this weird thing you have against jobs
it's a productive way to spend time and go out into the world
yes, i love knowing that i live in a world where you HAVE to indenture yourself to some slave labor in order to be considered "productive," and it's absolutely not okay to be unproductive—it's absolutely not okay for you to just do whatever the fuck you want to do with your own life i just love shaving off 30 to 40 hours of my week working at some literal shithole so i can deal with belligerent, retarded customers and apathetic lackadaisical coworkers every single day of my life all to get a piddly paycheck with which i can hardly survive if i wanted to live alone, and even if i could, it only means that i get to buy food, feed myself, and wake up the next day knowing i get to do it ALL over again day after day after day and this is your fucking life now wow that's so awesome that's just the american dream right there
3776
« on: March 12, 2018, 10:36:09 AM »
i don't even want to enjoy a job, as that would qualify as a sign of early onset dementia
3777
« on: March 12, 2018, 01:34:48 AM »
AWFUL show
3778
« on: March 11, 2018, 04:38:47 PM »
Hopefully doing some cool stuff
What kind of cool stuff
High school physics teacher helping kids understand their potential and encouraging them to lead healthy lives.
I don't care about much else.
what do you know about physics
3779
« on: March 11, 2018, 01:20:35 PM »
i grew up playing games like mario and zelda on NES, so when i played halo for the first time with friends in 2003 or something, it was the beginning of the end for me in terms of how i perceived video games
in that they're all fun and enjoyable
halo may have been the first game i ever played that i outright did not enjoy at all whatsoever, and it pissed me off how my friends gave up on fun stuff like pokémon just so they could play games like halo, san andreas, and a bunch of rated M games they were far too young to play, but they were still allowed because they had a shitty upbringing
when i came to terms with it all, and halo 2 eventually came out, i wound up enjoying myself more with that one, because you could play as an alien and you could use the energy sword, but whenever we played, i was just clamoring to back to my pokémon
3780
« on: March 11, 2018, 01:07:53 PM »
My mother bought me a handful of games including Halo CE for the OG Xbox in 2009 I believe. I loved the game and decided to buy the rest of the trilogy. It's what got me into gaming and why I'm even here right now.
2009? I was already on the hype train for ODST by that point but better late than never I suppose.
what does this even mean😂
"i played halo before you, so i'm cooler than you"
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