Quote from: Verbatim on March 19, 2018, 04:16:22 PM

Quote from: challengerX on March 19, 2018, 04:08:23 PM

it all makes sense now

this is literally the only thing anyone ever posts whenever i talk about my life

lmao😂😂😂

But I meant in your views towards relationships etc

yeah, and that's just part of it

when all of my friends started dating, it was literally nothing but drama—people cheating on each other, hating each other, yelling at each other—i've had one of my friends literally crying over my shoulder over some girl who left him

i decided that it was all just a big hassle

I find that to be the difference between an embarrassing pleasure and a guilty one; it's okay to feel shame, but not regret. To decide which you're feeling, there's a simple question: "if someone discovered that I enjoyed x, would I feel bad because they found out or because I liked ?"

Like, I don't talk about anime irl (except for mentioning super mainstream stuff, like Dragon Ball); not because I feel regret for liking anime, but because it tends to attract the attention of cringemongers. I wouldn't call it a guilty pleasure because I feel no remorse for liking it, but I do feel remorse for whatever misstep led to a fedora-tipper discovering that I watched some shitty SoL a few years ago.

it's that such things attract cringemongers that'd start making me feel a certain kind of way about my interests

i'd start thinking "oh wonderful, i'm just like them now"

not a good feeling

it's also undeniable to me that there exist things that nobody should enjoy, and if you do enjoy it, then you should feel nothing but shame for yourself—kiddie porn, bestiality, free form jazz music

i never learned how to drive in high school, but my house was within a 10-minute walking distance anyway, so it wasn't really a big deal at the time—michigan weather wasn't always kind to me, though, so if i wasn't trudging through 10 inches of snow, i was probably freezing to death from the wind chill (and i was too cool to wear boots, snowpants, or a decent jacket)

i was also hyper introverted during my freshman and sophomore years, and the only friends i had were the friends i've always had since elementary school

i started coming out of my shell a little during junior year, though, and by senior year, it felt like i had made friends, or at least acquaintances, with almost everyone in my class, which was great (then that all came crashing down as soon as i graduated but hey, whatever, senior year is the happiest i remember being in the past four years)

that said, i was never great with girls, but only because i never really tried—so by the time i finally decided to ask someone out during senior year, i wasn't well-practiced at all and i still cringe about it to this day

i had a crush on this girl who i met in middle school—she was very quiet and to herself (like me), was a really good student (unlike me), and very pretty in a demure debutante kind of way (a rarity for girls of her disposition), and though she wasn't quite the salutatorian, she was definitely in the discussion

she was really really sweet, too—just the nicest girl you'd ever meet—but she also had this reputation of rejecting every guy who's ever asked her out, and anyone who ever ever tried was lambasted by everyone else for even thinking to corrupt such a pure, pristine, innocent girl

i never ever spoke to her in middle school, we only became somewhat acquainted in high school—we had a couple classes where we sat near each other, exchanging thoughts here and there, that type of thing, never a lengthy conversation

at some point during senior year, though, she got her license—and she would occasionally spot me on my way home from class, and for whatever reason, she just started offering me rides home

i would always accept, obviously, even though it made me incredibly anxious—this is a girl i've been crushing on for years, after all—but it would be very silly for me not to take her up

she would do this rather frequently, and sometimes she'd even drive me to school—i would never ask her, but she would always offer—and we'd always have a pretty good conversation on the way home, where i discovered that, while we may not be interested in a lot of the same things, she seemed genuinely interested in what i had to say, which i can tell, because she asked a lot of good questions

even though i liked and appreciated it, it still fucked with my head, because i couldn't tell if she was just doing it out of the kindness of her heart, or because was she into me, and this was her way of letting me know about it (because she never rode with anyone else)

eventually, i guess the hormonal horndog within me decided it very well may have been the latter—so, after taking me home one night for what must have been the fifth or sixth time, i made a snap decision to ask her out right then and there—but i've never asked anyone out before, and my anxiety through the roof, so i wound up fumbling the execution pretty badly

the way it played out was, she stopped at my door, we said our goodbyes, and i stepped out of the car—but then suddenly, i turned back around before closing the door, poked my head back in for a second, and i either said "uh, hey" or "uh, wait"

she looked at me again, and then i asked her something like, "do you think we could go out some time"

i didn't stutter, i said it confidently, but i instantly felt an explosion of regret well up inside my stomach as i braced myself for her response

the expression on her face was hard to read—she wasn't a very expressive person in general, so i honestly couldn't get a read on her reaction at all—but either way, she gave me a "hmm... maybe!" and drove off

i think "hmm, maybe, we'll see" was her exact response

which of course means "no"
which means she really was just trying to be nice the whole time

so that might be the cringiest thing i've ever done, because it was such a pitiful attempt, but i'm able to defend it because i GENUINELY felt that she was into me, because she was giving me every single indication

she was the only girl who ever shown me any interest whatsoever, and out of them all, she was my crush—so i felt like i had to seize the opportunity

so yeah, cringe—but no ragrats at the same time

another thing—we invited each other to our graduation parties that year, and i went to hers, but she didn't show up to mine—but the very next day, i receive a LONG facebook message from her, apologizing for not being there, and that she just couldn't make it, but she's so sorry, and all this stuff

so i dunno man, maybe she did like me after all, but was just as awkward as me about it, who knows

not that any of it matters now, she moved to the south and got married there last year

Nothing? There's a reason why it's cringe, and it's because it was wrong.

that was my initial response as well, but in thinking about it, i'm actually not so sure

try to think of a learning experience you may have had that resulted in embarrassment, and you can't help but cringe in retrospect, but was still integral to whatever growth you needed to get where you are today

maybe there's still nothing for you, but i wouldn't rule out the possibility entirely

you could also just say liking anime

Quote from: eggsalad on March 16, 2018, 06:51:32 PM

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nice cropped porn avatar

welcome to eggsalad

Quote from: Verbatim on March 18, 2018, 02:59:46 PM

Quote from: The X Factor on March 18, 2018, 02:45:54 PM

Quote from: Verbatim on March 18, 2018, 01:05:44 PM

now why would any self-respecting person do something like that

For food.... animals eat other animals.  It's life

so because animals don't know better, we should reduce ourselves to them.

for what reason

there's so many food sources out there, so that can't be it

Like soy

yup

The idea that you live on in people's memories is nice and sentimental, but you're also dead, so it's not like you can give a shit about that

you can't be apathetic about it either

the point is that it would be extremely out of character for a dead person to feel things they wouldn't have if they were alive

Quote from: The X Factor on March 18, 2018, 02:45:54 PM

Quote from: Verbatim on March 18, 2018, 01:05:44 PM

now why would any self-respecting person do something like that

For food.... animals eat other animals.  It's life

Don't bother, he'll just tear your asshole apart like he does to me every single time I attempt to challenge him on anything

yeah

Halo has always had flaws to start with in its story, but the direction 343 took is about as bad as the direction Star Wars took with The Force Awakens and The Last Jedi

But that's the best direction Star Wars has ever taken.

Once you start watching anime

can confirm

seems reasonable to me

Quote from: Verbatim on March 17, 2018, 06:17:14 PM

Quote from: Assassin 11D7 on March 17, 2018, 06:10:26 PM

Quote from: Verbatim on March 17, 2018, 06:08:00 PM

Quote from: Assassin 11D7 on March 17, 2018, 06:03:38 PM

Imagine being so dumb that you think major events in the history and development of humanity is boring.

again, that's more a sign of intelligence than anything

i'm too smart to be entertained by such objectively boring shit

what is entertaining or interesting about any of this, if you're a smart person

For someone who hates humanity so much, you would think that you would be well versed in it and all the various events you could cite as examples of why we should all die.

which i have, and do, because i have a laymen's grasp of history, and that's all you need

just enough to know humans are shit, not enough to have super detailed conversations about hyperspecific events

you don't have to be a fake armchair historian to comment on the atrocities of humanity

So you think it's wise to let someone with an extensive knowledge of history defeat your argument using their greater understanding of events, people, and development of mankind? Is it not the logical outcome when you limit your knowledge of a subject to be confounded by someone who is far beyond your limit?

i think people in general should stay in their lane, it's okay for people to be ignorant about subjects they're not interested in, so long as they don't completely shut themselves away from it, which i haven't

people who know their history, that's great—feel free to school me if i ever say anything ignorant about history, because i don't know a lot about it

i respect those people, but i'm just commenting on how weird it is for so many of the members on this forum to find the subject so very interesting, and i feel like i'm the only person here who just couldn't be fucked

it's weird
it's weird in the same way that everyone on bungle is trans
that's all i'm saying

Quote from: Verbatim on March 17, 2018, 06:48:13 PM

Quote from: Dietrich Six on March 17, 2018, 06:42:47 PM

English is just memorizing rules and constructing sentences using those rules. I'd much rather read about past events tbh imo fam.

wrong, retard

it's also about rhetoric, or the effective use of language

AKA some people will grasp it, others won't

there's nothing about history that cannot be grasped by anyone

History is useful for plenty of things, how to cut your hair if you want people to think you hate minorities for example.

history is useful for basically nothing

internet debates, "doomed to repeat it" meme, being smug about knowing more useless shit than someone else

that's about it

You were an English major

yeah, because english is at least remotely interesting, and it's something that you can get good at

you can't get "good" at history, and like any subject that simply involves memorization of facts, anyone can "master" it

thus, it's fucking boring

the only intellectual offerings it has are the silly debates it produces, like who burned the reichstag

but does it really fucking matter at the end of the day? the point is what resulted from it