Dont wanna be that guy, but do you know anyone that can supply you with weed? Preferably butter, put that shit into brownies and itll seriously help with the pain.

100% out of the question outside of a prescription

one thing i neglected to mention during my initial visit to the hospital is that they found several cysts all over my kidneys, and they also found one in my prostate

it's actually normal to have maybe one or two cysts on your kidneys, and prostatic cysts are common as well, it's not really a big deal

the problem is that i have several, and the one on my prostate is as big as a fucking golf ball

so i'm seeing a nephrologist for that, because while cysts are rarely malignant, the fact that i have so large and so many of them is very concerning (they never once mentioned cancer during my prognosis, but i have a hunch that it's only because they don't want me to get scared—having kidney stones is a symptom of renal cancer)

during this visit i will have (another) CAT scan that will actually take contrast (color) images this time, so i'll be able to know for sure what these things are doing to me, and whether i should be more worried for them than i am about my kidney stones

i just have one question about that: why the FUCK did they not just take contrast images in the first place? i didn't ask them because i didn't want to seem like a pedantic or insolent smart-ass or whatever, but goddamn that bugged the shit out of me

so anyway, back to the kidney stones

it turns out that if i don't pass them by the 22nd, they're gonna shove a rod up my cock and blast it themselves—it's a process they put you in anesthesia for, but it seems lately that all my biggest nightmares have been coming true (get your dick out, solonoid)

right now, i am experiencing some pretty intense pain in my groin (to where i cannot sit still or do anything besides wait for it to end), and i'm not allowed to take any painkillers containing aspirin on any of the seven days before my scheduled surgery—that mean no ibuprofen—i can take my hydrocodone, which is supposed to be my "good" drug, but i'm only allowed to have one pill every 24 hours

well i took it an hour ago and it hasn't done shit so i guess i'm just fucked for the day

for perspective i started typing this message an hour and 45 minutes ago

i'm also allowed to take tylenol, but it says on the bottle to not take it with drugs that have acetaminophen, which hydrocodone does

well gee billy

is that dragon tattoo song original or a remix? it sounds familiar

it's actually a cover of immigrant song by led zeppelin with Karen O on vocals


excellent movie, better than the original i think

Quote from: Verbatim on March 14, 2019, 03:12:44 PM

Quote from: Ásgeirr on March 14, 2019, 02:43:05 PM

will trailers ever have good music

The Avengers
300
300: Rise of an Empire
Terminator: Salvation
The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo
Guardians of the Galaxy
Righteous Kill
Unbreakable / Man on Fire

I appreciate you took the time but its all examples of what i dont like

the joke is that they all feature nine inch nails songs

Quote from: Verbatim on March 14, 2019, 01:59:27 PM

glad to see my boy hawkeye's back

that trailer seemed like a whole lot of nothing, but that's just how i like them

I feel like at this point they know what theyre doing, making us excited but not giving an inch, every reason to spend dosh on that over priced movie ticket.

Not like video game trailers, give the whole fucking game away please.

you like kingdom hearts right

how's kh3 treating you

glad to see my boy hawkeye's back

that trailer seemed like a whole lot of nothing, but that's just how i like them

why hide your face like we haven't seen it before

Mate pikachu can be pretty thicc if you look on the right websites

maybe the second amendment isn't so bad after all

there's also shockwave therapy where they use a fancy machine to break the stone externally using sound waves or some shit, but that is also reserved for medium-sized stones and would be very expensive

passing it manually is painful but free

not actively pursuing anything, don't really care that much

i made a female friend recently with whom i'm gauging interest, but i'd be 100% okay if we remained friends

I think I have it much worse than you. You don't know how hard it is to have this disease. Every day it's all I can think about, and I have to distract myself with TV, video games, social stuff (attention whoring), or drugs, or else I spiral and go crazy with depression and self-hate. Why don't you think it's helpful? Don't you notice a change in me at all? Why do you refuse to believe I couldn't have gained this newfound confidence sober? I really couldn't have.

i highly doubt that you have it "worse" (or "better") than me, but that wasn't really my point anyway, because it's not a contest and it's not productive to gatekeep people's suffering like that

you talk about having to do these things "or else you will" spiral and go crazy with depression and self-hate

you know, kinda like what i've been doing for the past 10 years? which you apparently haven't experienced yet

and guess what: STILL not doing drugs, STILL not an alcoholic

i'm not trying to boast about this or anything, just the opposite--it's not difficult for me in spite of my circumstances, so it shouldn't be difficult for anyone else, and i really don't care who you are

the only exceptions might be if you have fetal alcohol syndrome, or maybe were born an addict because your mother was a junkie, in which case i'd have to concede that you were literally fucked from the beginning

I'm thinking now about how my grandmother got them in her 80s but no one else in my family was prone to them.

How likely is it the Kidney Stone Fairy is going to pay me an unfortunate visit?

i dunno, obviously you should see a doctor if you're genuinely concerned about it

all i know is that having it in the family doesn't decrease your chances

This is evidence there's a God. I take back everything I said about this site needing to be shut down. As long as Verbatim reports on his pain to this website, it deserves to exist.

i still don't really know what's causing this vitriol towards me

pretty much everyone who's once disliked me has either gotten over it, or has decided i'm not so bad after all (whether they're right or not, it's what always happens)

the worst thing i could possibly have done to you is say something you dislike, either because it was mean, or simply because you disagreed with it

i think there's a case to be made for me "deserving" what i'm going through right now, but if i do, it's certainly not for whatever i've posted on the internet

i can say that i wouldn't wish what i'm currently going through on even my least favorite user of this website

Sorry to hear that. How big are they?

4.1mm, small enough to pass on my own

0.9mm bigger, and surgery would likely take place instead, so i'm thankful for that

i mean they're both nightmare scenarios but i'd rather not be cut open to remove rocks from my groin

would it be a by product of a vegan diet or just random

in my case, it was hereditary; my dad has had them too

i wouldn't be surprised if my poor diet was a contributing factor, though

in spite of my veganism, i've never really been a paragon of healthy dietary choices—so i wouldn't pin it on being a vegan, i'd just pin it on me (somewhat—stones are kinda unpredictable, and it's considered unwise to pin it on any one thing)