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Messages - ๐ Aria ๐ฎ
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« on: May 24, 2021, 03:19:52 PM »
Tried before and found that, personally, the pain of living is less scary than the numb void that comes with death. Yeah, I have people I care about and wouldn't want to hurt but honestly, when making the decision fear is the only thing I had left to make me reverse course.
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« on: May 23, 2021, 10:34:45 PM »
Berserk will always be more interesting to me for its legacy (inspiration for so much dark fantasy and many other writers/settings) than what it is (deeply edgy grimdark filled with gore and rape with good art). This is still rough news; I hope it pushes policy/attitudes towards giving manga authors more room for breaks to decompress and deal with their life issues without looming deadlines.
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« on: May 23, 2021, 10:24:15 PM »
Graduated High School, mucked around in community college for a few years, changed my major, and started feeling somewhat happy with my future career. Got jobs, quit jobs, and now I'm working a dead end job until I can find better work out of college. Lost friends and family, found a loving partner. I've hopefully felt my lowest and haven't felt my peak yet.
I can't help but check back in here occasionally despite nothing really drawing my attention. I don't think this forum was ever really healthy for me, or b.net for that matter either. It's taken a long time for me to untangle all of the toxic and horrible elements from my being that originated there, but at the same time I can't imagine I'd be who I am today if I hadn't had those social experiences. I don't think, if I could go back in time, that they would have been replaced with healthier connections. At the very least, most of my conversations and interactions have been with a diverse group of people (that ended with constant bullying and drama).
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« on: January 05, 2021, 01:13:37 PM »
Huh, I dropped $25 on that a while ago. It's nice to see it shoot up (even if it's on a comically small scale), but I don't think I'm going to liquidate any of it yet. I put it in expecting to get nothing back, so even if it just dropped from here I wouldn't be sad. If it by some miracle continued to rise, however, that would be quite nice.
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« on: December 18, 2020, 07:55:22 PM »
Ulbs internally, pounds externally
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« on: December 18, 2020, 07:52:14 PM »
If I had to guess, it was an ongoing kind of deal right? Either improper treatment or neglect even if the condition was worsening?
I'll just say that the VA needs more attention, that I'm disgusted by a government who creates veterans without consideration for the injuries they incur physically and mentally, a painfully incompetent standard for mental health, and the shortsighted grasp for a continual buildup of capital while casually disregarding the lives of those who generate it. I'm grateful that he's not in pain anymore, but millions more are suffering from the same problem and I'm angry with how lacking society is with compassion and empathy. And there's very little I can personally do to change it, so I donate my time and money where I can and then stew in a motivated misery.
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« on: December 18, 2020, 06:18:08 PM »
Well, wasn't expecting to pop in and find this out. I'm glad you're both alive and moving forward. Even if we can't be proud of who we are or what we've done, we can strive towards being the people we want to be. It will never change the past, but then again nothing can.
I know that all too well. I remember your name, but not much of our interactions. Only that I low-key ship you and Verb. None the less. It's good to see you again too. I'm sorry for what I did, if anything to you, even if it doesn't come across like you've any beef with me. Thank you.
For different reasons I've told my fair share of mistruth so it would be a little hypocritical for me to be upset with you for it. If it's something important, it only matters that the truth comes out. Situationally that can take a while.
And after dealing with death so much recently, it's strangely nice to see someone come back from the dead. An unexpected way to round out the year to be sure.
Hey, I always figured no people have moral high ground to stand on anyway. We've all fucked up. Although being angry comes naturally. It's what we do with it that matters. On principle I do my best never to leave on words said out of anger. Could be the last time you speak to somebody. And that haunts you. Dunno if I can say I came back. I'm still quantifying what happened out and about. It's very strange for me to be back here at all. I feel so much different to what I was that it feels as if death occurred, and yet here I am, pulling bits of myself back together that remain as they were.
You mind if I ask who you lost? Been a hard year on me too. Three died on me. It truly does make me the last man standing now. I guess I could say the same. Seeing you guys here, alive in particular is just, really nice.
Happened last year, but my dad. Lot of changes in my life since. Still dealing with the consequences of an attempt earlier that year as well. Medical debt seems to be the true American pastime.
Damn. Hate to say "I'm sorry" since it's not like I killed your dad. I just know the feeling. Medical debt and college debt, for certain.
Listen. It might sound like something far away and hollow. I'm trying to ditch my jobs. My concern is being able to fund my sister and her daughter since husband died. If I'm gonna do this shit, I'm going to take it to the maximum that I can, so that they'll never struggle. So that I can fund a friend to challenge the courts and get back her kids. So that I can pull another american out here and get him out of the college debt and useless degree trap. If I ever have the financial ability to do it, and assuming you still owe, then I'll help pitch in to cover your expenses, only if you want.
I appreciate the offer, but I'd have to decline. Can't really do much but hurt my credit since I don't have the money to collect on. The perk of poverty, I guess. A year later it still hurts that he's gone, but I've been able to find some comforting perspectives on the issue. I feel angrier with the circumstances leading to it more than anything else.
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« on: December 18, 2020, 03:08:31 PM »
Well, wasn't expecting to pop in and find this out. I'm glad you're both alive and moving forward. Even if we can't be proud of who we are or what we've done, we can strive towards being the people we want to be. It will never change the past, but then again nothing can.
I know that all too well. I remember your name, but not much of our interactions. Only that I low-key ship you and Verb. None the less. It's good to see you again too. I'm sorry for what I did, if anything to you, even if it doesn't come across like you've any beef with me. Thank you.
For different reasons I've told my fair share of mistruth so it would be a little hypocritical for me to be upset with you for it. If it's something important, it only matters that the truth comes out. Situationally that can take a while.
And after dealing with death so much recently, it's strangely nice to see someone come back from the dead. An unexpected way to round out the year to be sure.
Hey, I always figured no people have moral high ground to stand on anyway. We've all fucked up. Although being angry comes naturally. It's what we do with it that matters. On principle I do my best never to leave on words said out of anger. Could be the last time you speak to somebody. And that haunts you. Dunno if I can say I came back. I'm still quantifying what happened out and about. It's very strange for me to be back here at all. I feel so much different to what I was that it feels as if death occurred, and yet here I am, pulling bits of myself back together that remain as they were.
You mind if I ask who you lost? Been a hard year on me too. Three died on me. It truly does make me the last man standing now. I guess I could say the same. Seeing you guys here, alive in particular is just, really nice.
Happened last year, but my dad. Lot of changes in my life since. Still dealing with the consequences of an attempt earlier that year as well. Medical debt seems to be the true American pastime.
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« on: December 17, 2020, 11:39:03 PM »
Game isn't very good but I'm none-the-less enjoying it. PC version thankfully avoids a plethora of the issues people are having with the game, and most of the ones I've run into are entertaining at least. DLSS also so it looks great with a steady framerate. It will be a good game once it's finished, but it's pretty annoying how often that's the case nowadays.
That honestly kind of sucks. With so many years in development behind it too. I don't really jump on hype trains anymore, but I was hoping it'd at least live up in part so that maybe I could pick up long after release date and then ponder why I didn't pick up such a good game sooner.
By the time they release the complete edition (like witcher 3) it'll be in that place, I think. the AI needs to be fixed.
Absolutely the most inexcusable part of the game. I am floored by how dumb the AI is.
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« on: December 17, 2020, 11:36:37 PM »
Well, wasn't expecting to pop in and find this out. I'm glad you're both alive and moving forward. Even if we can't be proud of who we are or what we've done, we can strive towards being the people we want to be. It will never change the past, but then again nothing can.
I know that all too well. I remember your name, but not much of our interactions. Only that I low-key ship you and Verb. None the less. It's good to see you again too. I'm sorry for what I did, if anything to you, even if it doesn't come across like you've any beef with me. Thank you.
For different reasons I've told my fair share of mistruth so it would be a little hypocritical for me to be upset with you for it. If it's something important, it only matters that the truth comes out. Situationally that can take a while. And after dealing with death so much recently, it's strangely nice to see someone come back from the dead. An unexpected way to round out the year to be sure.
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« on: December 16, 2020, 01:38:46 AM »
Well, wasn't expecting to pop in and find this out. I'm glad you're both alive and moving forward. Even if we can't be proud of who we are or what we've done, we can strive towards being the people we want to be. It will never change the past, but then again nothing can.
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« on: December 16, 2020, 01:01:09 AM »
Game isn't very good but I'm none-the-less enjoying it. PC version thankfully avoids a plethora of the issues people are having with the game, and most of the ones I've run into are entertaining at least. DLSS also so it looks great with a steady framerate. It will be a good game once it's finished, but it's pretty annoying how often that's the case nowadays.
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« on: November 27, 2020, 07:39:28 AM »
Forums are lame, shitposting on Twitter and tiktok is where it's at
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« on: October 10, 2020, 12:49:32 PM »
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« on: October 06, 2020, 01:17:51 PM »
Back to fucking square 1 again in the UK. 16,000 positive cases went under reported because some fucking helmet misplaced an excel spreadsheet. We're in the midst of a full blown second wave. It's March all over again.
I think I low key preferred lockdown to this weird indefinite purgatory we're in now. At least it felt we had some sort of collective goal we were working towards. Now it feels like there's no end in sight.
It's insane how much unity there was in that first month (in the US, at least) of lockdown. I've seen so many people who are either increasingly apathetic or bewilderingly antagonistic toward any plan to solve this issue. It's like a disease that's killed 210 THOUSAND people (and is projected to kill another 150k by January 1st with current projections) in this country has just been accepted as a new normal.
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« on: October 06, 2020, 01:04:04 PM »
I think part of the problem with any community that's been around for long enough is that topics dry up because everybody knows everybody. It doesn't really matter what the topic is after a while, you get a feel for who's going to respond and why they're going to respond. The talking point issue can be circumvented in physical presence aka people hanging out and doing shit together but not neccessarily talking. With the shiternet being what it is, it'll always burn out like this. I've seen it happen on many smaller sites over time unless there was some bigger binding force at large.
Plus nobody has done anything with their lives the past six years so nothing has entered the ecosystem
We're like a time capsule
tbh I've just stopped posting about that stuff. I've never been comfortable with providing details about myself that would make it easier to dox, but eventually I realized that I don't see much of a point in really bringing up anything about myself unless it actually adds to a discussion in some way. While I don't see anybody using that stuff maliciously anyway, this forum has a weird way of turning events/issues in peoples lives into centerpiece discussions that never really die. Like Nuka said, there isn't a good history there and it's not surprising that that was the first of the last three pillars to die (the other two being megathreads and "sep7agon is dying/dead" threads).
Seems like we're just hanging on to the memories we've made here for the sake of nostalgia
When a group starts running out of new material to talk about, nostalgic discussion becomes de facto conversation; and when people stop visiting (or banned, when that mattered) new material comes much more rarely. It's a sad, vicious, decrementing cycle.
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« on: October 05, 2020, 11:49:04 PM »
Settled into a career path and not worrying about money, hopefully. And unless something has gone wrong, I'll have tied the knot too.
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« on: October 05, 2020, 11:44:48 PM »
Yeah sure, I enjoy it. How loud it is depends on the time of day, but that's just living on an urban/commuter route. Don't really know my neighbors, haven't talked to anyone in the building since March; that being said they've never really annoyed or bothered me, so I don't mind them at the least.
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« on: October 05, 2020, 11:41:21 PM »
I think part of the problem with any community that's been around for long enough is that topics dry up because everybody knows everybody. It doesn't really matter what the topic is after a while, you get a feel for who's going to respond and why they're going to respond. The talking point issue can be circumvented in physical presence aka people hanging out and doing shit together but not neccessarily talking. With the shiternet being what it is, it'll always burn out like this. I've seen it happen on many smaller sites over time unless there was some bigger binding force at large.
Plus nobody has done anything with their lives the past six years so nothing has entered the ecosystem
We're like a time capsule
tbh I've just stopped posting about that stuff. I've never been comfortable with providing details about myself that would make it easier to dox, but eventually I realized that I don't see much of a point in really bringing up anything about myself unless it actually adds to a discussion in some way. While I don't see anybody using that stuff maliciously anyway, this forum has a weird way of turning events/issues in peoples lives into centerpiece discussions that never really die. Like Nuka said, there isn't a good history there and it's not surprising that that was the first of the last three pillars to die (the other two being megathreads and "sep7agon is dying/dead" threads).
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« on: October 02, 2020, 05:59:51 PM »
-Yugioh! Duelist of the Roses
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so what the hell is SMT4: Apocalypse in relation to SMT4, anyway
It's a sequel, doesn't act like it in a lot of ways tho. It did improve on some gameplay mechanics though so it's worth checking out if you like the SMT formula.
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« on: October 01, 2020, 11:00:03 AM »
Picked up a few new things over the past couple of months:
GBA
-Mario Tennis: Power Tour
3DS
-SMT IV: Apocalypse (before the price spike, thankfully!)
-SMT: Strange Journey Redux (after price spike, unfortunately)
-Persona Q2: New Cinema Labyrinth
SNES
-Super Mario RPG: Legend of the Seven Stars (no manual)
-Mega Man X (upgrade to CIB)
Switch
-Langrisser I&II
-Super Mario 3D All-Stars
Vita
-Gravity Rush (sealed)
PSX
-Castlevania: Symphony of the Night
-Persona 2: Innocent Sin (NTSC-J)
PS2
-Yugioh! Duelist of the Roses
-Metal Gear Solid Essential Collection
PS4
-God of War
-Last of Us Part II
-Persona 5 Royal
-Hyper Light Drifter (NTSC-J)
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« on: August 29, 2020, 07:08:29 PM »
Never gotten anything, I think. Pretty easy to not get one when the mod staff has been lax or nonexistent for a long time now.
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« on: June 19, 2020, 10:50:38 AM »
Also: crunch
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« on: June 19, 2020, 10:46:19 AM »
Statues are inherently commemorative. People who divided the country over their desire to perpetuate chattel slavery don't deserve to be commemorated. No, we will not forget any "important" figures because their statues are gone. Just like Auschwitz sill stands, so remain the battlefields in Gettysburg and elsewhere; so remain the thousands of museum pieces; and so remain the losers who perpetuate the Lost Cause nonsense. Also an overwhelming majority of Confederate statues in the South were erected by the Daughters of the Confederacy DECADES after the Civil War ended. These aren't holdovers from when the Confederacy was alive (which would at least make the statues somewhat historically relevant), they were reminders to every Black man and woman in the South that institutionalized racism didn't end with slavery. Statues celebrating individual people are fucking stupid anyway. You can't attribute multi faceted historical feats to one person.
Except Dolly Parton, who in 1973 ushered in the new age with her seminal masterpiece "I Will Always Love You".
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« on: June 18, 2020, 07:14:06 AM »
Just went and got tested this morning. Not a pleasant experience, but at least it was free and quick. Sucks that I can't work until the results come back, but I have been so exhausted lately that it's probably a good thing for my health.
I take it you work somewhere in an essential service category? It would be a good thing, no doubt. Exhaustion of any kind wears down your immune system, among other factors. Just take it easy and be a sloth for a bit.
Ha, Georgia doesn't care about virus prevention at this point. Essential-Nonessential lasted a whole month before the governor started opening things again.
Had a friend down in Georgia. Doesn't surprise me really. How are you liking that narrative clash with the riots? I bet there's a lot happening down there.
It's quite surreal to have been present in the area when some of these events occurred. If there's one thing that's certain it's that traditional media sources are making it clear where their biases lay. Also I've gotten my results back (negative), so I can work again! Now I'll have normal money stress instead of zero-income money stress.
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« on: June 17, 2020, 11:05:09 PM »
New Pokรฉmon Snap is a dumb name. Maybe there not being a release date means there's enough time for a title change before launch. Besides that, I'm pretty excited for it. Pokรฉmon Snap is a nostalgic game for me, and recently replaying it confirmed that it wasn't just rose-tinted glasses. I'm eagerly awaiting more info.
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« on: June 17, 2020, 09:36:09 PM »
Just went and got tested this morning. Not a pleasant experience, but at least it was free and quick. Sucks that I can't work until the results come back, but I have been so exhausted lately that it's probably a good thing for my health.
I take it you work somewhere in an essential service category? It would be a good thing, no doubt. Exhaustion of any kind wears down your immune system, among other factors. Just take it easy and be a sloth for a bit.
Ha, Georgia doesn't care about virus prevention at this point. Essential-Nonessential lasted a whole month before the governor started opening things again.
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« on: June 14, 2020, 06:52:02 PM »
N64:
-Ogre Battle 64: Person of Lordly Caliber
ugh jelly, i think this one goes for a lot
I nabbed the cart for $65. CIB is so hard to find recently that I don't find it to be worth the cost hike.
yeah, i feel like N64 carts in particular are only just now becoming cool to collect, or something, because none of them were that pricey a year ago
i'm glad to have gotten a pretty good headstart, at least, even if i don't have anything super valuable in my collection
kinda sad that the "dream" right now is getting some random fucking bowling game for less than $300
F-Zero was a $25ish game before April. It's now over $40. It's insane how much worse most N64 hits are. Super Mario 64 shouldn't be $50 cart only.
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« on: June 14, 2020, 12:16:31 PM »
N64:
-Ogre Battle 64: Person of Lordly Caliber
ugh jelly, i think this one goes for a lot
I nabbed the cart for $65. CIB is so hard to find recently that I don't find it to be worth the cost hike.
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« on: June 14, 2020, 08:35:50 AM »
More titles:
N64:
-Ogre Battle 64: Person of Lordly Caliber
PS1:
-Ogre Battle: March of the Black Queen (mint condition, still has original receipt and class chart)
GC:
-Eternal Darkness (mint, with mint strategy guide)
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