I felt that 2019 was the year for me where things just didn't work out. When I was younger I expected to be in a very different place in life. Having a family possibly, living elsewhere, with a good job and degree. None of that has come to pass, but I am working towards the degree again. My jobs also feel like failures because I've had so many as of late, nothing long term works out.

But I will find a way dammit.

hey thats the spirit! things rarely work out as planned, especially once you start building up grand ideas and scenarios in your head.

the best mindset is what youve got - keep on trying regardless. just cause u aint there now doesnt mean u never will be, and u got time

If you're into scifi I highly recommend The Expanse books

i'll slap it on the ideas list. thanks!

Tomorrow resolution thread:

- write proper response to this thread
- write proper response to your ama thread
- surprise my mom with alarm that I set up on my phone to wake up tomorrow on time
- ignore alarm, sleep more, because I can't go sleep right now
- do housekeeping
- try NOT to play videogames and study instead
- try to find common topics to talk about with person that is always busy with job (not you) as a person who has no job

i approve lmao

hey it took me a month to reply to u so no rush lol

Still hoping to be run over by the shitty school busline

that is a good one fellow millenial/zoomer

Fuck if I know. Move out like I was supposed to in November, I guess. Other than that, I dunno, might still aplly for school that starts in August this year rather than wait till next seeing what with the election and Iran and whatnot

hell yeah what u gonna apply for? and where?

better do it soon so you can avoid that draft baby lmao

New Years Resolutions

post your new years resolutions

ive never done a formal new years resolution, but this year i want to. ive been on the self improvement train for a while, and im inspired to write down and stick to some actual ones.

Ive actually made a few:

My Resolutions

1.   Read 1 to 2 Books Per Week

I'm going to shoot for two, but if there are longer ones or life gets in the way I'll settle for one. I'll be able to gauge this more after reading a few. It's been god knows how long since I've read a book. I used to read a ton as a kid, but stopped at some point after developing the "books are lame, fuck reading" mindset. I've recently been feeling guilty about this and recognized a while ago this was childish. I want to get back into it. I believe reading improves intelligence and one's ability to communicate ideas.

If anyone has any good book recommendations, let me know. I prefer novels - something that tells a story. I've tried reading informational books, though I tend not to become as invested in them as I would with a good story, even if I find the subject matter interesting.


2.   Begin Working Out Regularly Again

I started working out regularly spring semester 2019, and really went hard over the summer. I went to the gym every day after work, lifting weights on weekdays and doing cardio on weekends. I saw visible gains by the end of the summer. I continued towards the beginning of the fall semester, but soon fell off due to a combination of schoolwork, extracurriculars, laziness, and other responsibilities/distractions. Towards the end of the semester I was going once a week at most, sometimes less. I'm still in good shape, but I've definitely seen my body degrade slightly since.

I have two goals for this resolution:
1 - Be able to bench two plates.
2 - Attain defined abs.

My pecs and abs are definitely my least developed muscles. While I've been able to develop my arm muscles with ease, I've always struggled with my chest. Improvement has been slow and slight. Since losing weight and working out, they are definitely defined and are no longer man boobs, but they have plenty of room for improvement. As for my abs, I rarely do core workouts. I'm slim, but with virtually no core development, I'm all flab and no ab in that region.


3.   Maintain a Regular Sleep Schedule

My sleep schedule devolved so much this past semester. Mostly due to my own laziness and unwillingness to do something about it, though living in a frat house certainly didn't help. I've become borderline nocturnal at times, sometimes pulling all-nighters for no legitimate reason. It's not healthy. I rarely feel rested when waking up, and oftentimes the sleep I get is poor since it extends into the day and is often irregular.

This is an issue I need to fix. I missed a ton of class this past semester and it was my worst academically, which a myriad of other reasons contributed to as well. I have early-morning classes this next semester, so I'm going to need to fix my sleep schedule if I actually want to attend them.

My long-term goal for this is to be in bed by midnight. However, I want to build up to that. I'm still brainstorming, but I'm thinking about setting 2 a.m. as my current goal and soon bumping that to 1 a.m. Once I'm comfortable with that I can try midnight. My earliest class is at 9 a.m. this semester. Ideally, I'd like to get 8 hours of sleep. If I go to bed at midnight, I can sleep 8 hours and still have time to get ready in the morning.

Also, If I want to have the energy to work out, sleep will be integral.


4.   Improve Study Habits

Like I said, this past semester was my worst. Fortunately, my cumulative GPA is stellar, and being in my senior year, it won't change much regardless of how I do. However, I still feel shitty about my performance, and want to graduate strong. I've got a mean case of seniorities, and I have the GPA to support it. I'm not looking to 4-point this semester, but I'd like to get at least a B in every class. Historically, I've always shot for A's, but like I said, I'm pretty checked out at this point. If I can get B's in my harder classes and A's in my easier ones, my semester GPA would be just fine.

My resolution is to get all my homework/studying done on campus during the day. I've got some gaps between classes I can utilize, and can always stay longer if need be. If I set aside two to three hours each day to stay on campus and study, I should have no problem getting everything done. This will help me with my sleep resolution too, since I ideally won't be up late doing homework/procrastinating. One thing I've learned since starting college is the best place to get work done and study is on campus. Studying at home will never be as efficient. There are too many distractions, especially if you live with people. I was terrible about this last semester - living in a house with 17 other rowdy gentlemen is not the best environment for getting work done.


5.   Practice Conversation

This one I'm not sure how I'm going to set a concrete goal for besides "talk to random people more." I've historically been bad at socializing outside of my close friends, but I've become a lot better at it throughout the past two years, especially 2019. I've struggled with social anxiety my whole life, which I've only recently started to overcome and seek help with. I feel like I'm years behind in terms of my social ability because I've had less practice than most people. I usually shy away from socializing outside of my circle of friends. However, I've had so many opportunities to improve this aspect of my life the past few years, and I've capitalized on every one. This past semester, my living situation essentially forced me to be social 24/7. Also, taking on various leadership positions has drastically reduced my fear of public speaking and talking to people in general. In fact, I now find myself seeking out and initiating conversation with random people and looking forward to giving speeches. I still have room for improvement, but I'm very proud of how far I've come.

What I really want to focus on now is getting better at talking to women - flirting especially. I suck at this. Take the natural nervousness most people get when talking to someone they're attracted to, add social anxiety to the mix, and you've got a recipe for disaster. This is something I've been working on but not to the extent I'd like. I can say I'm no longer as anxious as I used to be when talking to girls - I still get nervous for sure, but that's normal. It becomes a problem when it's debilitating.

A goal I have in life (not necessarily for 2020) is to eventually be in a long-term, serious relationship. I have to start small though. I'm determined not to be the clingy guy who immediately starts taking things too serious. That definitely drives chicks away.

I've found that I'm actually really good at deeper, emotional conversations. However, I suck at small talk and oftentimes find myself trying to jump into deeper topics way too soon. I've learned my lesson with that. You have to go through the motions of small talk and getting to know someone before going deep. Fortunately, most women like guys who are emotionally available, so I've got that in the bag. I've found that I enjoy listening to people talk about their feelings and being there for them when they need me. I'm also not afraid to talk about my own emotions and problems. As far as that deeper connection shit goes, I've got that in the bag. My problem is getting to the point where that kind of conversation is acceptable. Save it for the pillow talk, not the party.


Conclusion

That's all I've got for now. These resolutions will probably evolve a bit since I just brainstormed them today. I might even add a few more. They all seem attainable - I said I had never made a formal new years resolution before, but I did put together a list early on in 2019 of goals I wanted to reach to better myself, and I actually followed through with them. I've been feeling proud of my accomplishment, but also recognize I have a long road ahead. I want to continue setting new goals to further my progress. Towards the end of 2019, I began slacking on some things, I think in part because I hadn't set any more goals since early in the year. I find that if I write my goals down and tell people, I hold myself more accountable and set my mind to succeeding.

That's about it. If y'all got any suggestions for more or additions to what I've got, let me know! Also, feel free to share your own resolutions in the comments below. As you can see, it's almost 8 a.m. as I'm about to post this lol. I have a ways to go for Resolution #3. This is so sad can we hit 50 likes? I also accept money via venmo. All my patrons get special patron-only benefits based on donation-tier. Only $100 for foot pics. Hell I'd settle for $1.

Alright I really should go to bed.

for sure

much of my life improvement has been jammed into the past year. i set out to better myself as a person and to better my life. i evolved so much. all in all, 2019 was a good year for me. had some really shitty lows and failings, but i learned from em and am better cause of it.

just gotta keep on truckin. i finally started taking the steps i needed to improve my life that i should have started years ago. i still got work to do, but my accomplishments have been staggering.

 the number one thing that held myself back was myself. i was afraid to make the changes i needed. im still afraid, but im learning to confront my fear more and more. and its paying off

Sup faggots. I'm here to do your cable and then fuck your wife.



I haven't driven my own car since like, october, shit's not even inspected anymore. Battery is stone dead I don't feel like climbing in to the trunk from the rear seat to remove it. So sad. rip harambewagon

dads garage

i cook a damn good ribeye. rare to medium rare. cast iron pan. nothing beats a cast iron, you cant convince me otherwise.

i use regular thickness ribeyes. the extra thick ones can be tricky to cook right with the brief time period of high heat i use. always pick a fatty boi. i like a nice fat strip on that cunt. also look for some good marbling throughout. try to avoid ones with visible gristle.

ribeyes are the best dont @ me. best flavor imo.

coat steak in olive oil and a liberal amount of salt and pepper.

crush some garlic cloves to open em up and release the flavors. these will be used in the pan later.

put a liberal amount of butter in the pan, crank the heat up until the butter starts to slightly smoke. put the steak in and sear the shit out of that bad boy. flip once, then add garlic cloves to the butter. use a spoon to baste the fucker with the butter, which is now infused with garlic.

once you cooked her to your desire, take her out and eat that bitch hot. i dont let mine rest cause thats fucking wrong. pussy shit. chomp that fucker while she still steamin. voila. perfect steak.

should have a dark, crunchy crust but the inside should be pink and moist. should melt in your mouth. perfect flavor profile assisted by salt, pepper, garlic, and butter, though the steak's natural flavor should shine through as the star of the show. the seasonings should serve to bring out the natural flavor of the steak, not overpower it.

i am the steak god. thats my shit.

fucking beautiful

a cunt

Quote from: basically GOD on December 05, 2019, 01:28:46 AM

i exclusively code in C cause im a fucking chad

tbh tho C is actually my favorite language not even joking. with C i can do whatever the fuck i want whenever the fuck i want wherever the fuck i want. i got no problem dealing with the nitty gritty parts of C people hate. I can malloc my own memory ty very much. i like the low-level of abstraction as i get to have complete control over everything that happens in my code.

I'm coding in C# mostly, not exclusively, not really because I like it but because I ended using it the most. I wish to learn either C++ or C, but it takes time to learn and I don't feel like I have time to convert into it. I can't do much with C# alone either, partially because I'm not really good, partially because it lacks some tools. Funnily enough best thing I've written there is parser, I parsed sites with laptops and their prices and then outputted them into table or database. Funnily because C# is not even suits well for parsing.

Quote from: basically GOD on December 05, 2019, 01:28:46 AM

so heres the deal. im like a mathy logic cunt. aint really interested in web dev type shit. miss me with that front end shit. like seriously that shits boring to me. if imma be backend id wanna be making some actual dank algorithms or like mathy shit. aint doing no fuckin database shit or server networking shit. HTTP more like HTTPhucking boring that shits boring. i like math.

Oh yeah, fuck web dev, frontend especially. No 1 annoying thing there is clients not being satisfied with how their site looks while programmer not being satisfied with what domain name they picked, No 2 is frameworks and how shit breaks when you update framework or PHP version, that sucks. Backend... ehh I think I can do databases and shit but PHP annoys me...

to empower your webdev experience

Quote from: basically GOD on December 05, 2019, 01:28:46 AM

alright OSs. so lemme see here. fuck coding on windows because it sucks ass so thats out. if u code on windows ur a masochist or your just wrong. i been using MacOS lately since i got a MacBook but i prefer coding on linux but only slightly.

i fucked around partitioning a hard drive once for a linux distro (MintOS I think) but didnt fuck with it for long. my uni’s computer labs got Red Hat Enterprise Linux and that’s worked well enough for me. its also maintained by our university IT department so its p gucci. our uni’s supercomputers run Red Hat I believe and you can SSH in to code remotely. Btbh ive not delved deep into the world of linux distros enough to be some snob about X or Y distro. in general tho i like coding on linux. shits just smooth ya feel. made by devs for devs.

I tried to learn linux but I either didn't have time or maybe just didn't put enough effort into it, but I will convert to it one day. I wanted to convert once but I had test task with software that didn't have option to use it in Linux, so I was doing it in Windows... I have still virtual mashine and have Mint on it, and I have also Kali distro lying somewhere, maybe learn Kali one day and going to do hacking and stuff.

Yeah, but windows sucks, generally, only thing you would use it is for gaming, but I'd rather sacrifice all games and switched to linux. I will eventually. Hopefully.

Quote from: basically GOD on December 05, 2019, 01:28:46 AM

im currently taking a computer graphics course and i gotta say for the first time in college i am actually passionate about a  class. like ive always enjoyed coding sure but “coding” is a very general term. i like the math and logical flow that goes into coding. my mind is just good at that. shit makes sense to me. IMO web dev is just not my thing cause it’s not the type of development I’m interested in. It’s not the mathy logic algorithmic stuff i like. tho if ur bad at math but like coding then i can see the appeal. not to shit on web devs or anything it’s just a different path completely from my own interests and skills. (web devs are CS majors who failed Calc 2 dont @ me)

Computer graphics... Hmm, I can make 3D models using SolidWorks. I actually used SolidWorks API for C# and I wrote a program that built me a 3D model of PC power supply in SolidWorks and I then researched it for different conditions like does cooler manages to cool it down, what temperature is there etc. I then asked my teacher to give me job in it and he gave me two test tasks. First test task was easy, I did it in less than week, I modelled gears and then I assembled them in a system of 4 gears, 3 was forming a triangle and the forth was inside, and task was by using 3 gears outside assemble a system of gears that would change direction of gear inside and I done it. I flopped on the second task, which was to model a wall relief and I was only given a photo, no sizes and I almost done it but I spent like 3 months doing it. I didn't really like doing it and maybe it's better that I failed. I like programming more than 3D graphics.

Quote from: basically GOD on December 05, 2019, 01:28:46 AM

fuckit ill talk about my fav editor/IDE even tho that ain’t part of the tech stack. first of all fuck vim btw miss me with that bullshit it’s 2019 ur not cool ur the fucking CS equivalent of a boomer. fuck off. ok now that we all agree vim is for fucking incels who think theyre better than everyone else at coding, im proud to announce my fav editor/IDE is Atom. Atom fucking slaps. slaps so hard dude. literally u can do whatever u want. customize that shit however u want. u wanna FTP to work on some remote files? you got it. u want an IDE for whatever the fuck language ur using? click a button and its yours. and dude its all free baby.

As C# "dev" I ended up using Visual Studio... on low end laptop.. Sometimes I just turn it off and use notepad, because resources.

I'll keep in mind about Atom if I manage to learn C, thanks about that.

Quote from: basically GOD on December 05, 2019, 01:28:46 AM

so anyway lets see what bastardized tech stack I can make here

My fav tech stack:
Linux, OpenGL, C, GLSL, GLEW, GLFW, ASSIMP, and yeah fukkit i count Atom in my stack cause its dope and I like it lmao dont @ me

My stack that I still remember how to use it:
C#, SolidWorks, Visual Studio, XAMMP.

I also know a bit of Lisp, because I was reading SICP, which I managed to read 2 chapters only, but it still helped me a lot. I used in uni all those math software like COMSOL, MathLab, AutoCad. I also was learning all these programming languages in uni which don't remember anymore like C++, Java, basic Web Dev package etc.

Quote from: basically GOD on December 05, 2019, 01:39:43 AM

by the way sorry im a bit tardy with my replies. i aint gone just yet im just havin the most stressful week right now definitely most stressful of this semester but probably all of college. not even related to classes. im dealing with bullshit thats putting the future of my organization at risk and its been eating up all of my time. the proverbial shit aint just hit the fan; God launched his shit at a wind turbine and aimed it directly at my fucking face. so yeah fuck me im pretty fuckin stressed but things are lookin good after today. had a few meetings that went really well. have another one tomorrow. then on friday, i'll take God's shit, which I've so carefully scraped off my fucking face, and present it to the powers that be. its gonna be an interesting week. fuckin hell dudes send me good vibes i need em

This is fine, sorry that my answer is all over the place and not really related to what you wrote. I am also going through rough stuff, my grandfather died recently and he was 89 years old and we was ready to it so we dealing fine with it, my mom felt and broke her main hand while we were going to graveyard and I'm right now only operational person in family and I do most of housekeeping in this house that additionally doesn't have canalization and I also have to write paper for masters diploma before end of this year, so that too. I also haven't found a job because I suck alot and I tardy as well, I fail to put effort in it.

Yeah, but this is fine, I just have to pull it off as I already did before and just put effort into things. That's my only flaw - to fail to put effort into things. As long as you try your best you'll manage shit.

On C#, C, C++:

C# is a pretty powerful language, but I agree, not the best for many applications. It's basically Microsoft's clone of Java.
I used it quite a bit this semester. It was very easy to pick up since I already knew Java. It's used in Unity, and since I used Unity to make a game this semester as a project, I used C# a lot. It's good for game dev cause its object oriented and it manages memory. if you havent used C or C++ for instance u prolly dont know much about memory management, but not having to do it manually is p nice. i like managing my own memory tho cause i like to have complete control over whats going on under the hood, which is one reason i love C so much. C is as "under the hood" as its gets short of like assembly language.

I definitely recommend learning C++ and/or C. These are staples and great stepping stones to later learn other languages. most languages are based off of C either directly or indirectly so yeah. C++ adds a ton of nice stuff tho like being object oriented


On web dev:

yup fuck web dev. fuck front end. i could do it just fine but id hate my life.

php is outdated. ive used it. it works, its easy, but its outdated.

that pic in your post is funny. definitely a common occurrence in the industry. at that point the best option is to start from scratch but unfortunately thats not always an option. development cycles have deadlines, so shit like that happens a lot where many different devs keep adding shit to some frankenstein abomination over the years, making it more and more fucked until you need a rosetta stone to translate it. clear and concise documentation is a must so shit like the login button color issue doesnt happen. thats such a cursed issue too lmao. you shouldnt code some event to depend on the button color. if its a web app i fuckin hope this isnt referring to its CSS-defined color. thats the worst fucking idea lmao. a site should work independent of its CSS.


On Linux distros:

Actually another linux distro i forgot to mention i use a lot is TailsOS. though not for coding lol. i use it to access the dark web to, shall we say... purchase items of a hypothetically less than legal nature (feds if ur reading this im joking bro haha). you can use it for coding too tho of course and its actually used a lot in the hacking/cybersecurity community since its networking is entirely routed through Tor and also its extremely secure. its not susceptible to much. the whole thing is encrypted and your system is wiped on shutdown. you can configure persistent data though to save files/executables cause not having that would kinda suck.

linux is great for development and its easy to "learn". if you know how to use Windows or MacOS, especially MacOS, you can learn linux quick.

linux is great because its open source, efficient, easily customizable, there are a ton of different distros available to accommodate different needs, theres a huge community for it, its command line is awesome, and its just fucking reliable. there isnt all the bloat that windows has that bogs your system down. its so good for programming cause you can bend it to your will and do whatever the fuck you want with it (same reason i love C lol. Linux + C is god tier)

i definitely recommend you use linux. or MacOS (which is basically linux but not bendable to your will. you'll likely use linux at some point as a programmer. it just works.

also i dont have much experience using virtual machine, but id recommend an actual install of your distro. lots of people partition their hard drive to install multiple operating systems on one. id look into that over VM. you might notice efficiency improvements cause you wont have all the windows bullshit running concurrently. only perk to VM is that if you make a big oopsie its contained in VM so you wont fuck up your whole OS. just dont be an idiot and this shouldnt be an issue though lol.


On computer graphics:


yeah so i loved my graphics class. it was the perfect marriage between math and CS for me. getting to see my math translated into the visual space was so satisfying, which is ironic since i hate front end web dev shit. its VERY different from that though.

some of the shit i coded was stuff that apps like SolidWorks do under the hood. i had to create 3D models using C/OpenGL, specifying each vertex of each object in C. objects in computer graphics are created from triangles because of math reasons. basically triangles are easily represented in a 3D coordinate system and you can make anything out of them. u can import models created with a 3D modeling app into OpenGL too (which will still be made of triangles), but many of our assignments did not call for that. 3D modeling apps are useful for stuff that would be nonsensical to tediously code yourself. they end up making the same shit, but you dont have to painstakingly specify each vertex in C. they handle that stuff under the hood.

For OpenGL, C or C++ is used to code linear algebra math to manipulate the transform matrices of objects. this allows you to scale, translate, and rotate them. A a shader language, in my case GLSL, is used to shade objects. this allows you to simulate stuff like light, color, and shadows by using the normal vectors of an object as well as their orientation to shade them, giving your scene visual effects. Without this, objects would be a solid color and corners wouldnt be visible since there is no shading to differentiate surfaces. GLSL files are then specified in the C/C++ code.

Image of shading examples:
i had to code all of those actually. those are the simplest of shading techniques in the computer graphics field.

Another thing i did in my graphics class was raytracing. OpenGL handles this under the hood. this is how a scene of mathematically-represented objects is translated into a 2D image as viewed by a "camera". you basically "shoot" a ray (vector) from the position of the camera toward the position of each pixel in your 2D image, and color that pixel based on what the ray collides with in the scene. lots of math. I had to make one of these using purely C (no OpenGL) as the first project of the class.

diagram of raytracer: [
fun fact: OpenGL is actually what Unity uses under the hood for its graphics. learning OpenGL can be really useful so you understand Unity better.


On C#, Visual Studio, IDEs:


I had to use Visual Studio as well for Unity development. its pretty good actually. didnt use the IDE version tho, just Visual Studio Code, which doesnt have all the nice IDE features. VS Code is free so yeah.

as for other IDEs, ive also used Eclipse and IntelliJ in the past but i didnt really like em. i like barebones shit with the ability to modularly add the features and tools i want.

definitely research Atom. its good for any language really. supports em all given the right packages.


On "Tech stack"/shit i know:

Stuff i know well: C, C#, Java, Python, Visual Basic, Assembly, OpenGL, GLSL, Verilog, MATLAB, Unity, Unix Kernel

Stuff i kinda know: C++, Karel, PHP, HTML, CSS, JavaScript, SQL, XAMMP

probably some other shit that im forgetting. im a 4th year Computer Engineering undergrad so most of my experience is with what i've used in class. which is mostly C and Java. mostly C.

i sorta know web dev shit cause i did limited web dev stuff in my Team Software Project class. hated it. our project sucked. hopefully i wont have to deal with that shit ever again. not my cup of tea.


On conclusion:

once again sorry for the tardiness lmao.

also sorry to hear about your grandfather. my grandmother died in february. rough shit. good that yall were ready for it. we were p ready too. she had a ton of health complications towards the end of her life (MS, blind, heart attacks), so it was an end to her pain honestly. doesnt make it not sad tho. still hard.

sorry to hear about your mom too.

seems like you got a lot on your plate. cool that youre going for your masters. Whats ur major and whats the topic of your thesis?

i graduate with my bachelors in Computer Engineering this semester. I plan to start my Master's in Computer Science in the fall. still gotta finish that grad school application tho. im on break rn so i got some free time.

organization and work ethic are key, man. been learning a lot this year. I just finished up my term as my fraternity's president, so thats a weight lifted off my shoulders. the whole situation i was referring to in my reply was cause i had to deal with some big bullshit regarding my fraternity and a judicial investigation from the school. sucked a whole lotta ass and took up all my time for a hot minute. ended up coming out fairly unscathed though. i'll take credit for that. put a ton of effort into our case and it definitely paid off. so ready for my retirement though. it's gonna be a fun semester now that im not on E-Board anymore. no way in hell i was running for pres again.

lmao im a month late but here ya go. better late than never.

PS hope ya like headers cause i didnt feel like separating quotes lol


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Quote from: basically GOD on December 05, 2019, 01:28:46 AM

The graphics API we’re using is OpenGL. as for languages, we use C for our applications and GLSL for our shaders. the prof makes us use C for his own reasons

What the fuck?

Graphics programming in C is like writing an essay on a stone tablet. Just why?

literally my first time doing it. its what my prof wants us to use, so im usin it. like i said, im thinkin bout tryin out C++ instead but for the scope of this class, nope

What is your software tech stack, favorite programming language etc.?

i exclusively code in C cause im a fucking chad

tbh tho C is actually my favorite language not even joking. with C i can do whatever the fuck i want whenever the fuck i want wherever the fuck i want. i got no problem dealing with the nitty gritty parts of C people hate. I can malloc my own memory ty very much. i like the low-level of abstraction as i get to have complete control over everything that happens in my code.

so heres the deal. im like a mathy logic cunt. aint really interested in web dev type shit. miss me with that front end shit. like seriously that shits boring to me. if imma be backend id wanna be making some actual dank algorithms or like mathy shit. aint doing no fuckin database shit or server networking shit. HTTP more like HTTPhucking boring that shits boring. i like math.

alright OSs. so lemme see here. fuck coding on windows because it sucks ass so thats out. if u code on windows ur a masochist or your just wrong. i been using MacOS lately since i got a MacBook but i prefer coding on linux but only slightly.

i fucked around partitioning a hard drive once for a linux distro (MintOS I think) but didnt fuck with it for long. my uni’s computer labs got Red Hat Enterprise Linux and that’s worked well enough for me. its also maintained by our university IT department so its p gucci. our uni’s supercomputers run Red Hat I believe and you can SSH in to code remotely. Btbh ive not delved deep into the world of linux distros enough to be some snob about X or Y distro. in general tho i like coding on linux. shits just smooth ya feel. made by devs for devs.

im currently taking a computer graphics course and i gotta say for the first time in college i am actually passionate about a  class. like ive always enjoyed coding sure but “coding” is a very general term. i like the math and logical flow that goes into coding. my mind is just good at that. shit makes sense to me. IMO web dev is just not my thing cause it’s not the type of development I’m interested in. It’s not the mathy logic algorithmic stuff i like. tho if ur bad at math but like coding then i can see the appeal. not to shit on web devs or anything it’s just a different path completely from my own interests and skills. (web devs are CS majors who failed Calc 2 dont @ me)

but anyway dude this graphics class is so sick. its like u get to use math but to make shit aesthetic as fuck. kinda ironic since i hate front end stuff, but this shits literally just math and matrices and like making light physics out of vectors and shit. fuckin matrices everywhere dude im in heaven. fuckin raytracers dude. like goddamn dude you can trace my ray any time if ya know what i mean. shits sexy.

The graphics API we’re using is OpenGL. as for languages, we use C for our applications and GLSL for our shaders. the prof makes us use C for his own reasons, and im happy with that but might want to try out C++ with OpenGL sometime. not sure if theres any benefit either way (C might be faster) but it seems like there is a lot more documentation and a larger community available online for using it with C++. The libraries we’re using are CMake, GLFW, GLEW, and ASSIMP for handling some other shit that  makes our lives easier. Been doing most of my work on my Mac, but occasionally ill go over to the computer science building to code on the linux machines. id rather not be surrounded by a bunch of greasy neckbeards tho, so generally ill just use my mac at home.

im glad i took this class cause up till now ive intended on going to grad school but have had zero idea of what i wanna do besides “programming” lmao. ive finally found a field i might be passionate about which is cool. also, learning computer graphics could be useful for like machine learning type shit if i wanna get into that. there are a lot of options for what i can focus on in grad school and a lot of really knowledgeable professors. one dude im considering to be my graduate advisor got his PhD from johns hopkins lmao not to brag or anything its no big deal 😏. this school has very good computer science and engineering programs. among the best in the country so thats pretty doled but yeah there are a few profs who do AI/machine learning research so maybe imma hop in on that idk.

so ya as far as my favorite “stack” goes, that doesnt really apply to me unless you wanna really stretch what you can call a stack. I generally only hear that term bandied about for web dev type shit or similar applications but i guess it can apply to anything really.

fuckit ill talk about my fav editor/IDE even tho that ain’t part of the tech stack. first of all fuck vim btw miss me with that bullshit it’s 2019 ur not cool ur the fucking CS equivalent of a boomer. fuck off. ok now that we all agree vim is for fucking incels who think theyre better than everyone else at coding, im proud to announce my fav editor/IDE is Atom. Atom fucking slaps. slaps so hard dude. literally u can do whatever u want. customize that shit however u want. u wanna FTP to work on some remote files? you got it. u want an IDE for whatever the fuck language ur using? click a button and its yours. and dude its all free baby.


so anyway lets see what bastardized tech stack I can make here

My fav tech stack:
Linux, OpenGL, C, GLSL, GLEW, GLFW, ASSIMP, and yeah fukkit i count Atom in my stack cause its dope and I like it lmao dont @ me

yeah so C is the best goml

what were you on when you wrote that first post

life bro

i just like spreading the love like using my powers for good and shit

i used to be more of a cocksucker not talking bout just forums but like in life in general. my toxic trait is that i get a kick out of annoying people. kind of like an irl troll i guess if thats the right word. but not like by being mean but by just being a nuisance, sabotaging shit, stirring the pot, etc. not a direct assholey cunt but rather a devious cunt. idk how to describe it. mmmmmnapalm/tblocks might be able to describe it better than me tbh cause they have had a good third person perspective of me and definitely know what i mean. @tblocks @mmmmmmmmmnapalm

its something ive been trying to work on in my life. ive realized theres no point in it cause all its gonna do is drive people away. its definitely affected my mental health in the past since itd have an effect on relationships with people. id annoy the shit out of friends and theyd start getting pissed at me/not trusting me even when i wasnt doing anything.

i still catch myself doing it. its one aspect of my life ive been trying to improve upon. one of many. i think ive been successful overall especially in the other aspects of my life ive been actively trying to improve. im proud of myself but i still have a ways to go

i try using my dumbassery to be more of a kind person. i still act like a fuckhead but when i do i try to spread positivity instead.

this post i made literally out of the blue cause i was up the other night talking to mmmmmmmmnapalm on PS4 and was like lets pop in on sep7agon and see what verbatim and the boys are up to. then i was like imma make a dumb aimless post and as i was writing it it basically turned into a letter to verbatim and a message of positivity.

i have a weird kind of nostalgia for this community (and bnet before). like i dont really miss it but i look back on it fondly. when i popped in i saw a post where someone said something like “kill yourself retard” and i was like wow. thats just stupid and immature. like whats the point of saying shit like that. my first thought was that some people dont change. while its definitely immature, a bigger part of it is that an internet forum gives people anonymity that creates a sort of detachedness from the other posters. a smaller community like this gives everyone the chance to get to “know” each other. but theres still that element of anonymity. its on line so you can say whatever the fuck you want and not think about it cause you dont see the other person. saying “fuck you retarded faggot” in person is much heavier than saying it to a computer screen.

yall who’ve stuck around this long are here for a reason. it is a weird kind of family. even if some of yall hate each other thats just how a family is sometimes. ive never been consistently active on here like some of yall but ive been around enough to see whats up. i am after all the 12th member to join sep11agon.com. i mean fuck its crazy to think this sites like what 5 years old now? and most of the people here knew each other before that. like you may hate verbatim or chally or das boot or secondclass but at this point youve known them for a good chunk of your life. theyre your family. even deci is your family.

i dont hate u deci (or any of the peeps i just mentioned) sorry im just using you as an example of someone people hate on for whatever reason. i dont like to hate on people cause hate hurts. a lot of yall dont think twice about the hatred you spread on line cause you dont see how it affects the other person. you never know how someone is affected by what u say to them. this goes especially for the on line medium since you dont see their reactions. theres no body language.

were all adults now save for like maybe one outlier, and this definitely shows. theres still immaturity for sure and perhaps that will never fully go away. but compared to a few years ago, it seems to have improved considerably. hell i dont think ive seen a single n word on here the past few days!

yeah so i just felt like sharing this stuff cause i think its interesting to think about and i want yall to give it some thought. i dont see a lot of positivity on here so i think its good to post some wholesome shit for a change instead of the normal vitriol lmao.

i literally stream of conciousnessed my original post without really revising anything cause it was meant to be dumb and aimless and along the way became what it is. so yuh.

to answer your question: cocaine. lots of cocaine.

Do you prefer the RYNO or the RYNOCERATOR

idk what that means tbh but i like the sound of adding erator on the end of it so i will go with that one cause it sounds badass and epic