Okay, so let's see when was the last time you been here.. year and a half, right? My life went downhill from that big time. I haven't found a job for a year, military didn't take me cause my mom got fired and became full time pensioneer, I mostly was fucking around for around a year, but I learned Linux for the most part, but worst of all... vim became my favorite editor, so much that I actually started using vim outside of vim, like using a browser with vim shortcuts or importing vim shortcuts into VSCode, it's... ughhhhh (read: agonizing pay of joy that had come from deep arousment from oneself). By reaching this you should have noticed that I became even more sarcastic, sarcastic as I never been before.

        Nonetheless, starting this year I actually went ahead and made Linux From Scratch... and then almost never did touch it again, but I continued to use Linux. Oh yea, I forgot to say that I also set up dual boot system (pretty sure that was obvious by now tho). And few days later I got a job, my uncle helped me there, and I started working in... local rich man retail business. Building materials and tools. Plumbing. All other sort of stuff connected to that. I first been working as a programmer, even somehow managed to satisfy my boss, but soon afterwards my job became less and less programming, by now I have somehow become a marketer, a graphical designer and even a salesman out of all things. Not the worst of all outcomes, worst that could possibly happen is webdev of course. Though full time job from 9 to 6 with hour break does take a lot of energy from me. On the other hand it's in hometown. I don't know if it's positive or not tho because it's not a big town but I uhhhh was never conserned by it. Maybe my love for my town is about on same level as your love for Ishpeming.

        But enough rambling, at the end of the day as my competence grew and I got into it I started to hate it less and feel comfortableish there. Hell, even got a few friends. And I started to manage my responsibilities much better. But I can't stay there forever, I'll die as a programmer if I do and so will die any of the plans to move out of this country, so I started working on myself again when off clock with questionable results but results nonetheless. I got contacted by one company, they found out my half baked CV applying for a system administrator and umm they interviewed me and everything. I did fail test task at the end though, although I did half of it. Eventually they told me that they liked my attitude and they will contact me once they get open position, it won't be soon though. Meanwhile they gave me a list of tech I have to learn/relearn/brush up so I would fix holes in my knowledge and also I have to fix my internet too real bad. It was about month ago and while I learned something from the list they gave, I don't feel like I'm learning fast enough, so I have to pick up pace on it. Bad internet worries me more though, there are problem of lack of choice of ISPs here, there are 3 of them that can be characterized with words "shit", "less shit" and "hidden illuminati information of which is so scarce and userbase of who is so small here that I don't know what to expect" and I probably need 2 of them actually. I'm also worried about weather here becoming pretty extreme and electricity disappearing, but I can do nothing about it really. There are other work offers I consider at the moment, FatherlyNick pointed me out one company and QA line of work (with videogames!) and one of my relatives pointed me out the company where his daughter works and it's uhhhhhhhh... web development (reeeeeeeeeee). (P.S: Also Cheat if you are reading this, I'm sorry, I kinda learned Angular to some basic level, but I never helped you with Sep7 3.0 at all, I got busy with work and after work I either end up tired or playing videogames or learning Linux, and... aaaa, well I try to do something about it in short, someday)

        Now, my grandmother died on Wednesday in her age of  91 years and it was expected to happen, although death itself came quite sudden to her. I'm fine, my mom is mostly fine too, though she did break in tears sometimes these days and she also now doesn't exactly know what to do now that grandmother that she took care of died and what to do with freedom she got now, but it seems she handles it rather well, at least from what I can tell in this limited time frame. We planning to entirely move to her house at some point which is 2 houses away from our, even though we will miss our small cozy house. Need to plug in internet there first though.

        So, now that I done ranting about myself, how are you? Also how the hell do you manage to appear right after my relatives die, that's quite funny. Like some sort of angel that offers his support or something like that. Are you doing the math stuff you like still and do programming too?

i am sorry for your loss. i can assure you i aint no angel but i'll gladly take that title lol

i'm still in school, boutta be a 6th year this fall which is kinda a big yikes but its whatever. ive become very disillusioned with school and been in a sort of academic limbo for the past year or so (i.e. barely passing anything and dropping classes before i fail). ive literally had "one semester left" for the past 3 semesters or so lol.  online school fueled my lack of motivation. i stopped caring about class which kinda scares me since i went from being a near 4.0 student to now not having passed a class in about a year (i still have a 3.4 or something cause i dropped most of em so they arent calculated into my GPA). this semester i want to turn that around tho - ive reached out to a couple friends to help hold me accountable and study with me. its not that i cant pass, rather ive lost all motivation to do so.

still doing computer engineering. unfortunately i havent had an actual programming class in forever - most of my remaining requirements are upper level humanities courses (which i fucking hate) except for one last computer eng class that - surprise - i also fucking hate and have dropped probably 3 times at this point. last programming class i had was Concurrent Computing which was actually kinda cool. hard class but it was interesting and the only class i didnt drop that semester lol. multithreading and shit. it was all in C which i liked because i am a C enjoyer.

fuck VIM lol. i get why people like it but personally its just not for me. some folks are wicked efficient with it tho - props to them. im still using Atom which is basically notepad++ with mods that turn it into a fully customizable IDE.

during covid i had a lot of time to focus on my hobbies and learn new skills, none of which are related to programming or anything academic at all lol. i posted the following the other day going over all that in detail:

computer engineering

seriously starting to consider streaming or something like that instead of what people might call a "real job" because i fucking hate working the vast majority of jobs out there. i am at my most depressed/stressed when i have a job. i dont give a shit about money really, but if i dont have money then my life has no value in the eyes of society, and i will subsequently die or at the very least suffer. so unfortunately i must work a job i will likely hate. doesnt matter what it is; i hate being subject to someone else's rules and schedules. i only enjoy life when i am doing things that i want to do and when i decide to do them.

i admire streamers because they have a lot more freedom in that regard. theyve made a career out of doing what they like to do. they set their own schedules, they have no boss, and they have no employees. if they get bored with one thing, they can stream something else.

the most productive i've ever been - believe or not - was when i was on government COVID benefits last summer. i had complete freedom to do whatever i wanted, whenever i wanted. i didnt have class and i wasnt working. i was fucking free. i juggled several different hobbies, many of which given time could have turned into real careers. i started learning how to make jewelry, mainly rings. i got super into photography which i spent a ton of time studying and practicing, and still do try to practice as much as i can. i also got into off-roading since there's a ton of wilderness where im at and a lotta cool shit to explore - landscapes, waterfalls, ruins from the copper mine days,  beaches, trails; i'd go driving every fucking day exploring and photographing the keewenaw (name of the region i live in). i also became obsessed with rock-hunting, and would often spend several hours scouring old mine piles for copper. super addicting hobby - its quite a rush when you find a big ol chunk of copper ore.

i was doing something every day. i kept busy with my passions, and for the first time since probably ever, i was actually happy with my life. i wasnt working or taking classes, and yet i was the most productive id ever been.

i dread the prospect of working a "real job" after college. i am always at my most depressed when i have a job. i always thought i was just lazy, but ive sinced realized that simply isnt true. i love to keep busy doing things i like to do. unfortunately, the things i like to do arent the easiest to make a living doing. plus, i like doing what i want when i want, which is the opposite of how "real jobs" work. even if i got a "real job" doing something i love, if its not on my own terms then i will likely begin to hate it. simply put, i dislike doing anything i am told i have to do by someone else. i hate being subject to someone else's schedule, nor do i want to hold subordinates accountable to a schedule of my own creation. boss or employee, either way im shackled and held back from freely living my life however i want.

in this world: money > human life, or any life for that matter

my value is judged by the size of my pockets, rather than the simple fact that i'm a human being.

but yeah uhhh im studying computer engineering lol

so yeah im in a bit of a weird stage in my life right now. i do enjoy programming/math still but honestly i'll still end up hating my life if i end up doing those things for a job. i enjoy the creativity and problem-solving aspects of CompSci - i just dont enjoy being chained to things that are outside of my control. i lose all passion for doing something when i feel like i have to for money, rather than doing it simply because i want to. i need the freedom to follow my passions on my own terms. to do what i want when i want. without that, my passion for life drops to zero. unfortunately, the likelihood of me obtaining that freedom in the future is slim to none. its extremely depressing to me, especially after getting a small taste of that freedom last summer. i was the happiest and most productive ive ever been, and that is no exaggeration.

today, i'm mostly filled with dread as i realize that last summer was a fairytale i'll likely never experience again. for me, working a "real job" is a depressing existence. that isnt the case for everyone, but it is for me. i applaud you for your career development, and i envy all those who work such jobs and maintain their sanity. every time ive been employed, i either became extremely depressed or i completely dissociated into a robotic, lifeless state. thats what happened 2 summers ago - i did nothing but wake up at 4:30 AM, drive to work (1.5 hrs), work (8 - 10 hrs), drive to gym (1.5 hrs), workout (1 - 1.5 hrs), drive home, sleep, repeat for 4 months. i had no social life. on the weekends i was too exhausted to do much of anything. i was a mindless robot. the best way i can describe this state of being is to liken it to the movie "Click" starring Adam Sandler. if youve seen that movie, you know what i mean. mindless, soulless autopilot, void of any pleasure or joy.

i have literally zero idea what i want to do. most paths lead to a dark existence, and those that don't are far and few between.

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i think the last time i even stepped foot in that shopko while it was still there was over ten years ago

i rarely shopped at the one in houghton tbh but i liked it. was a good store. thing is with wal mart down the street and econos next door i didnt have much reason to shop there. understandable why it went out of business. probably shopped at the one in iron mountain more often than the one in houghton tbh.

how are you doing my dear friend?

graduated and finally getting my bachelor's in august, so i'm preparing for some major life changes pretty soon

pretty nervous about all that, not gonna lie, but i'll be okay

hell yeah brother get that piece of paper

what do you think of my cool idea (verba7im.net)

also are you still living in ishpeming

fuckin sick cherokee bro what year

Quote from: mojo on June 28, 2021, 10:46:14 PM

Quote from: Dan on June 28, 2021, 10:43:01 PM

Quote from: dahuterschuter on June 28, 2021, 09:52:03 PM

Strokeposting is the new meta.

what is strokeposting?

read my post there is your answer my friend. thank you for the post it was very good and i like it

It is meant to simulate the appearance of someone posting while having a stroke?

Or is meant to connote a stream of consciousness style of posting. Perhaps both?

also its meant to feel like youre having a stroke trying to read it

Should I give you a sneek peak?

that is up to you i appreciate quality posts by the posters take your time my friend

Sep7 is nearing its 7-year anniversary. Many of us have experienced significant life changes since this site began.

I was 16 when this site started, and things have changed for me in many ways since then: enough that I don't feel like listing all of them right now. Some of the major points worth noting:

- I graduated high school in 2016, and am about to receive my bachelor's degree in a couple months

- I've moved residences three times since 2017, although I've remained in the north Texas area.

- I am much healthier than I used to be. From early 2018 through early to mid 2019 I lost about 60lb (200lb to 140lb).

here's me in 2017

me now

kurt dude

bro

dude

youre fuckin hot as fuck brah holy shit. if i were gay id hit it ngl goddamn bro excellent work. eres muy muy guapito [heart eyes emoji]

Quote from: mojo on June 28, 2021, 10:46:14 PM

Quote from: Dan on June 28, 2021, 10:43:01 PM

Quote from: dahuterschuter on June 28, 2021, 09:52:03 PM

Strokeposting is the new meta.

what is strokeposting?

read my post there is your answer my friend. thank you for the post it was very good and i like it

It is meant to simulate the appearance of someone posting while having a stroke?

Or is meant to connote a stream of consciousness style of posting. Perhaps both?

moreso stream of consciousness with a splash of autism and perhaps a hint of ignorance

Quote from: dahuterschuter on June 28, 2021, 09:52:03 PM

Strokeposting is the new meta.

what is strokeposting?

read my post there is your answer my friend. thank you for the post it was very good and i like it

hey guys do you guys like to play minecraft ? i do. a lot. i play it a lot. i have a server. nobody plays with me so i am posting here as a last resort because i am desperate. please play with me

shopko is dead. i can longer shopkopost for you my friend. whenever i drive through your home ish peming  i look out my window and am filled with overwhelming sadness as i see the building which  used to be shopko is no longer.  it is a metaphor for this web site. shopko may not be the shopko it used to be but you are still here and that is what matters in the end. chester bennington (linkin park) once said "in the end it doesnt even matter" and maybe that is true maybe not i dont know but i do know that YOU DO MATTER.  i am sorry for your loss my dear friend. you were a great poster maybe the best. your number of posts is truly inspirational. you are my role model verbatim. verbatim is my role model. i said it. anyone who says they do not revere you is a liar. i love you and your posts. you are the mascot of sep7agon the web site. it should really be verba7im.net instead tbh because i just thought of that web site name and i think it is a good idea. cheat do this

to answer the topic of this post a good boot recommendation i have is das boot haha. haha get it (he is a poster on this web site cheat made)

Strokeposting is the new meta.

ive been on this meta since day one of this web site. i am the 12th memeber to join this web site. strokeposting for life bro sheeeesh lesss gooo (popular singer songwriter dababy reference). good post btw by the way. thank you for contributing to the post. how are you doing today my friend

Quote from: DAS B00T x2 on June 28, 2021, 09:21:55 PM

bro
get some good socks too bro

Socks are socks are they not?

Give me that Hanes 6 pack and I'm good

my above post was meant to be quoting the post i have quoted here in this new post. i forgot how to use this cool web site cheat made.

i am an even cooler poster than before. my posts are good and i like to post them. i am the pogchamp of posting. postchamp.

hello kurt i thought about this cool web site and logged on line. pretty cool. how are you today my friend