Got some words to say to you sep7agon. If Psyche is posting this it means I'm dead.

I said my goodbyes before. To the people I talk to I'm sorry if I didn't tell you it was gonna be like this. Didn't want to do that to you again. We should treat this like it always was. I was living on time I didn't have. It had to end sometime.

So these are my last. I want these words to count. Some days when I was out in the woods cutting firewood, or making the long drive home on a moonlight evening and I had nothing else to think about, I thought of you guys.

I thought about your problems. Thought about what was worrying you. Even if you and I never spoke much, if you ever posted about an issue in your life I want you to know that I read it. I tried to put myself in your shoes and understand. This is about you.

Some of you live decent lives. You've got things working for you. You have my sincerest wish that your life continues as such for as long as it can. But I know there's a number of you where this isn't the case.

I know nothing I can say that can truly fix what's wrong in your life. I can give what I think enabled me to make it this far in my own life. You're not dumb. You already know that life will deal you some unfair hands. I think what's awful is that some of you are dealing the unfair hands to yourselves. Whatever one applies to you, what I'll say is something you might want to consider if you haven't.

It's going to sound cliche. Except events outside your control, everything you do and everything you are is your choice. You and me know it's not so simple. There's one thing standing in your way. Difficulty.

I don't have to tell you what that feels like since you already know. I can't tell you how to live your life or what's right for you. But I can tell you to fight your problems. Set aside your morals, your beliefs and your outlooks. Set aside your pride. Set aside your feelings or pain. You have time for those when the job at hand is done.

If you know you have a problem in your way you have to face it. You have a job to do. I get it. Some days you're going to ask why. Some days you're not going to be able to face it head on. Happens to everybody. Take a breather.

But don't let it stop you. Beat it. Try your hardest every time. Outdo yourself. That's how you keep up a momentum which takes you forwards and upwards. You need that in your life.

Life moves without you when you stop. You slide down a slope. Doors of opportunity close. If you're lucky, you can open them up again by climbing back up.

Time's not on your side. Sometimes you miss those doors for good. I don't want that happening to you. I don't want you to live a medicore life and reach an age full of regrets that you made through your choices.

I don't want you to live stupidly. I don't want you to drown in despair. Your life matters. It matters to somebody else and it should matter to you. One of my hopes was seeing you guys progress with age. I wanted to hear your stories. Hear about your victories. Even your bad days.

Remember that it's your choice. How you live your life and how you deal with your problems. Your choices affect everybody, even after you're gone. It's my honest hope that one day, maybe you'll be feeling down and played out, and you might remember what I wrote here.

Life and people will try to make things difficult for you. I won't condemn you if you don't want to live up to facing what it throws at you. Believe me. Every one of those hills you climb over will help you even if you don't see it.

If life wasn't worth living, or it wasn't worth living happy, or worth trying to make others happy, I wouldn't have gone through what I did. If the struggle amounted to nothing I wouldn't have gone through any of this to begin with. I chose to go through with this. Tried my best along the way. This is the end it got me.

Small moments to see amazing things from my family. To know that I had a hand in building that. I got to spend time with you folks. And even still, after all this time, learn and see new things from you people that caught my curiousity, made me laugh, made me think, and made my time enjoyable.

I hope what you make for yourself is something worthwhile. Keep fighting. Stay in the race. Remember to take care of yourself and know that even if it was small, I care about you, no matter how far away you are, no matter who you are. I care about what happens to you. I want your life to be a good one.