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Garlemald did nothing wrong.


I would like to take this time to apologize to Chally and Co. for not taking their advice which could have easily prevented this.

So the reason I haven't responded to anyone is because I've been coming to the realization that the girl I've been struggling with has no interest in ending things on a good note (or providing closure at all for that matter), and it's been eating me alive for the past three months. I'll probably never know why she's changed, why she's clearly treating me differently, what I might have done to cause this, or whether or not our date or hanging out as friends meant anything to her at all, and it fucking hurts.

I'm a teetotaler and that's been something I've taken pride in but at this point I don't care about my ideals anymore and I just want the pain to go away. Will a liquor store still sell me alcohol even though my ID says "Under 21 until X date" even though I'm 23? Also, is Vodka a good starting alcohol? I was told it has no taste and I was just going to mix it in with Gatorade or something. I don't want anything that has a burning sensation, and I don't know what wine is like so I'm not sure if that's a good one to get hammered on.


 
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wow

kill yourself


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Hey.
I came here from b.net after a few Floods invited me. None of them post on either b.net nor here anymore, which is sad. I was still active on b.net until for some bizarre reason, b.net admins locked out people who have not played Destiny. Even if you wanted to post on the offtopic section. After that, I fully moved here and have not returned to b.net since.
Please come play Halo with me.
Dude, alco is not a solution.

Come hang with us here instead.


 
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"but verb i already am killing myself haha lol!"

no i mean right this instant


 
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how is that helpful
i'm not interested in helping


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I love you, son.
Turning to alcohol is only going to make things worse. Don't do it.


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Garlemald did nothing wrong.
Dude, alco is not a solution.

Come hang with us here instead.

That sounds nice, but if everyone else is having a good time I'd rather not sour it. My sister took me to Universal on Monday, it was my first time there in ten years, but half-way through it just got so bad I left early. I essentially wasted a park hopper ticket she gave me.

"but verb i already am killing myself haha lol!"

no i mean right this instant

I'm not going to kill myself, nor is that my intention by drinking, I just want something that'll help me feel better.


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Long live NoNolesNeckin.

Ya fuckin' ganderneck.
Of course they'll sell you alcohol. If you're over 21 you should be fine. It doesn't matter if you received your ID under  age. If they didn't then there is something wrong with that store.

You're still making a huge mistake though. You want pain and suffering to go away and you're only going to bring yourself a lot more. I wouldn't hold it against you, I know depression well and it's ridiculously hard to battle without any vices.

I'm just gonna say that, I started taking Kratom as a vice and while I don't think it's good to rely on any substances for a better mentality, it has helped me a ton with getting through the pain, both physical and mental, over the past year and I don't have to worry about it killing me, thankfully.

If you're going to use a vice regardless of the negative consequences, then at least pick one that isn't going to leave you worse off than before you started using it. Alcohol is literally one of the worst.
Last Edit: February 07, 2018, 12:37:39 PM by Aether


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Apathy is death
Thats what Hellenism lead you to.

Dunno, what videogames do you play?


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Garlemald did nothing wrong.
If you going to use a vice regardless of the negative consequences, then at least pick one that isn't going to leave you worse off than before you started using it. Alcohol is literally one of the worst.
Turning to alcohol is only going to make things worse. Don't do it.

I don't really see how. I mean, it's not like it'll kill me like Krokodil or some opioid. And no one IRL has to know.


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What's the backstory on you and this girl?


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Long live NoNolesNeckin.

Ya fuckin' ganderneck.
If you going to use a vice regardless of the negative consequences, then at least pick one that isn't going to leave you worse off than before you started using it. Alcohol is literally one of the worst.
Turning to alcohol is only going to make things worse. Don't do it.

I don't really see how. I mean, it's not like it'll kill me like Krokodil or some opioid. And no one IRL has to know.
Tf dude, do you have any idea how terrible alcohol is for an unstable mentality? I've watched my dad slowly fall to pieces over the years and make terrible mistakes because he was trying to drink his depression away. Open your eyes to the reality of the situation. In the short term it might make you feel happier, but it has significant physical effects on your body, especially if you start getting comfortable using it more often. Eventually it will wreck your gut health which is absolutely vital to your body's serotonin production and use as well as many other essential hormones. Ultimately it leads to far greater depression than it could ever hope to correct.

And that isn't even to speak of addiction and withdrawal. Make no mistake, depressed people are far more prone to addiction.
Last Edit: February 07, 2018, 12:46:42 PM by Aether


 
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>kicks himself over not taking people's advice
>continues to question people's advice

how the fuck do you not understand what alcohol does to you

and you called yourself a "teetotaler"


 
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and apparently this is all because some girl doesn't like you or some stupid shit like that

please develop a drinking habit and further justify my desire to destroy this planet


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Garlemald did nothing wrong.
What's the backstory on you and this girl?

I'm pretty sure I've brought it up ad nauseum on here before, but I'll TL;DR:

>Meet girl in late June last year
>Quickly become good friends
>Talk for hours either through text or in parking lot after work
>Hang out a few times outside of work
>Have a date in September (a successful one to boot)
>She immediately changes in October
>No longer continues text conversations unless its work related, doesn't talk after work
>Still talks to me at work but noticeably more distant than others
>Acts like we were never good friends around others
>Clearly treats others in a friendlier manner than me
>Any attempt at bringing up this change is shut down

I practically begged her on three different occasions that if dating wouldn't work out if she would be blunt with me and she said she would. This is the exact opposite of being blunt and I was afraid of this happening. I'm fine if she doesn't want anything more, I just want my friend back.


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Garlemald did nothing wrong.
>kicks himself over not taking people's advice
>continues to question people's advice

how the fuck do you not understand what alcohol does to you

Well I was more so asking for advice on what alcohol to buy.

and you called yourself a "teetotaler"

Well that's the official term yes.


 
 
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I don't really see how. I mean, it's not like it'll kill me like Krokodil or some opioid. And no one IRL has to know.
You and I both know that you very well see how alcohol will fuck you up. Don't do it dude. The pain will get better without it just the same. And it's pretty delusional to think no one has to know. Alcoholism leaves lots of traces and people will discover it.


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Apathy is death
>kicks himself over not taking people's advice
>continues to question people's advice

how the fuck do you not understand what alcohol does to you
Well I was more so asking for advice on what alcohol to buy.
But it won`t help you, neither you forget anything and it will never go away.


 
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Well that's the official term yes.
not for you

a teetotaler doesn't just stop being a teetotaler

they don't give up when somebody doesn't like them


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What's the backstory on you and this girl?

I'm pretty sure I've brought it up ad nauseum on here before, but I'll TL;DR:

>Meet girl in late June last year
>Quickly become good friends
>Talk for hours either through text or in parking lot after work
>Hang out a few times outside of work
>Have a date in September (a successful one to boot)
>She immediately changes in October
>No longer continues text conversations unless its work related, doesn't talk after work
>Still talks to me at work but noticeably more distant than others
>Acts like we were never good friends around others
>Clearly treats others in a friendlier manner than me
>Any attempt at bringing up this change is shut down

I practically begged her on three different occasions that if dating wouldn't work out if she would be blunt with me and she said she would. This is the exact opposite of being blunt and I was afraid of this happening. I'm fine if she doesn't want anything more, I just want my friend back.
Sorry to hear that man but there's really no other option than to just let it go. If she can just drop you without you even being worthy of an explanation, why are you allowing her to dictate your entire mental state? If you want closure, then just accept that she lost interest in you (something every girl does all the time) and she's not the girl you made her out to be.

Alcohol is just a destructive tool that people use when they can't deal with reality. A drug that just temporarily makes you dumber isn't going to fix your problems. You'll likely just end up doing something reckless towards this girl and regretting it.


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Did you love her? You'll get over her when time passes and your need for her fades away.

Sure you feel sad now, but that will probably change into anger or something. Alcohol then is just as good as alcohol now, only once you're angry and drunk you're just another piece of shit. Drinking while sad makes you a sad piece of shit. When you're happy you'll be a happy piece of shit. Whatever you do, you're a piece of shit, Ian, and I want you to know that I dislike your inherent flaws.


 
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Will a liquor store still sell me alcohol even though my ID says "Under 21 until X date" even though I'm 23?
Yes you fucking moron
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Also, is Vodka a good starting alcohol? I was told it has no taste and I was just going to mix it in with Gatorade or something.
Sure, it's a perfect mixer. Go with a really cheap handle (the 1.75 liter size), don't take the plastic fun stopper out of the top, and go for six second long pours for a typical sized cup.
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I don't want anything that has a burning sensation,
the burn actually helps new people not end up on the floor with their head in a trash can
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and I don't know what wine is like so I'm not sure if that's a good one to get hammered on.
sweet wines are easy to get fucked on, but emphasis on sweet. Dry is not good for quickly killing a bottle.


 
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Fuck you dude. After all the time I spent trying to help you this is what you do?


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Apathy is death
     Alcohol costs money, plus you`ll be bother to people around when drinking or drunk. Like, come on, I'm pretty sure you'll wake up tommorow with clear head and you consider your idea about drinking bullshit. Do you really want to be a drunk walking mess, which vomits on it`s own keyboard until it stops working? Are you really so naive to think it will help you ease your pain?
     
     If it eats you so much, why don`t you talk about it with someone? Are you worried about being a bother? There is so much people who share your pain and who would gladly listen to you. If you don`t talk about it, eventually you`ll turn into sad mess, people around will notice this and start worrying.

     Actually you already start leaking out your pain, otherwise this thread wouldn`t even mention you being depressed. But if you lash out it on somebody dear while being drunk, it will be bad


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Garlemald did nothing wrong.
Fuck you dude. After all the time I spent trying to help you this is what you do?

I don’t blame your frustration, thank you for at least trying though.


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Garlemald did nothing wrong.
Whatever you do, you're a piece of shit, Ian, and I want you to know that I dislike your inherent flaws.

Love is a very strong word, I don’t think I could use it in this situation. Especially someone who has never said anything nice to me before or is hurtful for no explanation. I may care for her, very much, and the last thing I would want is to hold any negative feelings towards her, but she isn’t making that easy.

And I don’t think anyone likes any bodies inherent flaws. Could you give me an inherent positive trait at least?


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Garlemald did nothing wrong.
to hear that man but there's really no other option than to just let it go. If she can just drop you without you even being worthy of an explanation, why are you allowing her to dictate your entire mental state? If you want closure, then just accept that she lost interest in you (something every girl does all the time) and she's not the girl you made her out to be.

I just don’t want to lose another friend, I’m tired of it happening and it makes me not want to even bother.


 
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Is there an ulterior motive or is this just about the girl?