Not good as of late. Something triggered a depression spiral. Think I found out what, but I've been almost powerless to hold it off except to withhold from offing myself. Spent the last month searching for a doctor who's on par or knows more than me in terms of psychology, as I'm out of options, I think. Found the doc, but it's a hell of a process to explain all the shit behind me so that I can pitch him my theories and have him poke holes if there's any.
Weight's dropping below healthy norms and since I've been opening up old mental wounds I've been exhausted and somewhat unstable. Been having massive panic attacks and adrenaline surges. I'm just very tired.