Can't really think of anything. I got a job?

Give me control of the website. Or I will post fat man cheat

I got diagnosed with legit autism, had my first girlfriend, graduated, started studying more.

hello kurt i thought about this cool web site and logged on line. pretty cool. how are you today my friend

Has this place really been around for 7 years holy fuck

Sep7 is nearing its 7-year anniversary. Many of us have experienced significant life changes since this site began.

I was 16 when this site started, and things have changed for me in many ways since then: enough that I don't feel like listing all of them right now. Some of the major points worth noting:

- I graduated high school in 2016, and am about to receive my bachelor's degree in a couple months

- I've moved residences three times since 2017, although I've remained in the north Texas area.

- I am much healthier than I used to be. From early 2018 through early to mid 2019 I lost about 60lb (200lb to 140lb).

here's me in 2017

me now

kurt dude

bro

dude

youre fuckin hot as fuck brah holy shit. if i were gay id hit it ngl goddamn bro excellent work. eres muy muy guapito [heart eyes emoji]

This is a bit of a late response but I don't visit here too much, and it was an interesting topic.

This place started when I was 16 so in my final year of Secondary School in the UK (idk what that translates to as far as American schools go). Going through 2015 I was definitely at probably the worst point in my life, due to doing Sixth Form and studyingig subjects I didn't want to do and wasn't very good at - in retrospect I was definitely a lot edgier back then and stuff but honestly I was just kinda miserable. I'd always been the kind of person who did well in school without really trying so when I got to some level of higher education and did have to try, I didn't do very well and ended up failing hard. It sucked but it was ultimately good I think, as it definitely gave me more motivation to make a better attempt at it again - but that time I ended up going to college for IT and took a liking to 3D modelling and gamedev.

Throughout college and university after it, it felt like things definitely started to get a lot better and I think that was a combination of doing a subject I enjoyed and cared about and being surrounded by people who I had stuff in common with and I actually liked IRL. Overall I guess my reliance on the internet for socialisation sort of lessened which was definitely a good thing, and helped me grow my social skills a lot which I think was super valuable. In uni itself I managed to integrate well into a solid group of friends I see fairly regularly still, and made some super close friends I can't ever really imagine stopping talking to which was similarly good due to having some people IRL I can trust. I also ended up doing group projects where I was the lead artist and had to present to a full lecture hall of 200+ people which again was a huge deal for me in building my soft skills stuff. I sometimes feel like I might have spent too much time in uni working and not enough time relaxing, but it ended up paying off in allowing me to get a job in my field that I enjoy three months after graduating, and I recently got told they wanna keep me on permanently. It's still sort of surreal to think that I'm now able to live on my own with one of my friends just on my own work, and I'm paying my own way for stuff.

So I guess really I ended up changing for the better overall, particularly from the ages of 19-21. I have a decent job, a solid group of friends and I get to live away from my parents without issue at 23, which is something I never I would have expected I'd be able to do when this site began.  For me I think my biggest issue was that throughout my childhood/teenage years I never really had anyone around me who I really "got" or who got me, so I never really had that much in the way of people to be friends with or relate to IRL (living in the country away from anyone else was also a big thing as well). Going to uni and being around people with similar interests to me was a huge deal for me.

Throughout 2019-2020 I ended up losing quite a bit of weight too just by starting to regulate what I eat more and that was going pretty well, but then I ended up moving back in with my parents for a few months and eating whatever they were having so I'm mostly back to where I was I think, but I've been working on getting that going again now so that's also good.

I don't really have many pictures of me from a few years ago because I'm not much a picture person but here's one I took recently before i had my hair cut back to shoulder length-ish

Has this place really been around for 7 years holy fuck

Only 3 more years and we'll be as old as the Flood back on old Bnet

Quote from: Big Boss on June 29, 2021, 05:21:23 AM

Has this place really been around for 7 years holy fuck

Only 3 more years and we'll be as old as the Flood back on old Bnet

This place in three years

well, i guess you can add "graduated college" to my ever-growing list of accomplishments

Congratulations! I just cancelled my graduation so I can attend one more undergraduate semester, try and improve my gpa, and get into grad school lol

Random rambling in the spoiler.

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The timing of this thread is very interesting. My mom just brought all of my stuff into my house (yeah, actually managed to buy a house last year) anyway, there was a lot of stuff from school and uni and a bunch of old photos and BD cards from friends and a bunch of valentine cards from my ex and some other stuff from my past. So much stuff happened yet I feel like I just graduated from school a couple of years back...

2014. It was my final year in university. I met an awesome person that year who helped me get back up after a rather tough breakup. Its crazy how things happen and life makes two people meet like that.

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2020.

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Still lookin good gd. Don’t think I didn’t notice you joining my halo infinite lobby.

I'm continually getting better at drawing:
https://www.instagram.com/p/CIlvIujl-0d/?utm_medium=copy_link

+ My fitness is improving - slowly but surely!

Posted in here before but may as well drop something since it's been a ride of a year or two. Personality fragmented again, just about offed myself in November, found some docs that are helpful for once, and am slowly having my organs liquified by being a depressed bag of potatoes for over twenty years. So here goes I guess.

Been a depressed bag of potatoes for twenty years or more so I was a depressed sack when I showed up here. My distrust of people meant I generally didn't talk about it or my life unless it bled out of me. I think I'm largely the same as I was then, and that's because the only emotions I can process are still here. Humor, empathy and sympathy, and being sad.

Over the last year I've done some work with docs. While not a comfort, three of them said the same shit to me. I've been through stuff that most don't ever even get in one lifetime, and that changes people emotionally. They all confirmed my suspicions. Had first suicide attempt when I was twelve. The will and want to die has never left me, but I managed to shove most of it into my sub-conscious and combat what's left by making promises to people I gave a fuck about that I wouldn't let it beat me.

How that's come back to bite me is through psychosomatic symptoms. My mini-heart attack in 2020 and what appears to be slowly failing organs and crippling fatigue is all the result of the background of my brain wanting to die being strong enough that it's winning slowly by shutting everything down. I've done cognitive behavioral changes on my own over the years, but the docs figured its time for drugs since my serrotonine and dopamine reserves are fried(mainly because my coping methods in the past were excessive gaming and internet usage)

I visited a grave marker for my SO in october, consciously changed some things in my head, and then fell apart in November. I've bouts of I guess what could be described as psychosis or something else, and whatever's left of me shifts around. I leave behind something of my personality while somebody else steps away, and that takes time to adjust to, as for a while I don't know who I am.

I used that to make improvements, at least. Mental changes to fight better. Meds are iffy. I adapt to them quickly, but they're giving me a leg up at least.

The sole main upside to this year is that I said fuck it and decided to turn one of my stories into a comic or graphic novel of some kind. Test of everything I've learned. I've learned more in the last month than I have in two years, which is great. I learn as I work, and I love the work. I think if all I had was projects like what I'm undertaking now to do for the rest of my life, I could manage with being an emotionally destroyed sad bag of potatoes, even if I don't manage to fix these things entirely.

I don't want to say that things are better. I'm still an emotionally crippled pile that's usually sad, tired, and terribly alone and unable to connect to people without immense difficulty. I feel like a sixty year old trapped in a fourty year old's body who happens to be twenty nine. A flesh carcass, if my humor speaks for me.

But for some reason I'm still trying to fight it. And that's okay. I die one day anyway. Whatever I do while I'm alive is enough because I won't have the opportunity for any of it one day.

I feel ya man

I am almost completely financially independent from my mother. The only bills she still takes care of is the phone bill (we're on a family plan however), the toll-road pass, and AAA which has saved me from a flat tire on more than one occasion. But I still pay her for all those things they're just in her name so in a way I already am financially independent. At least more so than I ever was back when I first came here to Sep7 and more so than some of my peers older than me who still have their parents pay for their rent, internet, car insurance and other things.

I didn't even have a license eight years ago, I had this notion in my head that I couldn't reach certain milestones or goals and now I'm working towards leadership at work and the only things holding me back are a lack of projects under my belt....and I'm not the best at interviewing for promotions but I'm working on both.

Nice
Good job man