Don't be racist towards white people REEEEEEE

So I was just thinking about offensive words. I've made a lot of posts on this forum about blacks, gays, women, rape victims, etc. Ever since I've started being around more black people, I have started being more careful about saying racist jokes. I think that this is a product of being careful to suppress offensive thoughts when you're around others, and in turn training your brain to respond differently, treating the harmful negative shit that pops up as cancerous and bad, and giving a negative response to it instead of just letting it out. Not that I was ever legitimately racist, I just think that it's really fun to say the most offensive thing you can think of.

There is sort of a thresh hold though, between being careful about not saying offensive things and straight up avoiding ever offending anyone. I think that if the great comedian's like George Carlin or Bill Hicks taught us anything, it's that context matters, and you can joke about anything. A lot of my posts are just a parody of the sort of thing that I see around the internet, I like to be unrestrained and off the wall with a lot of the things I say. Everyone has offensive things that pop up in their head, but some people may try to suppress them because they don't want their thoughts to go in a prejudice direction.

I of course am progressive on social issues, and I am not anti sjw or anti feminist, or anti black lives matter. I would consider there to be a lot of problems in the united states, like the drug war, which was declared by former advisers of the Nixon administration as a way to undermine the black and hippy movement. This plays into the violence against black people and poor people, and the legalized slavery of the prison system in the united states, of which houses more inmates than any country on earth. I also have my own feminist theories about queer theory, and I am of course anti rape and for equal pay for women, and promoting a culture that teaches consent from an early age (not in regards to sex, but in just teaching the concept to kids from an early age). I am of course also a democratic socialist, because I think capitalism has failed, and it was good for getting out of the medieval era, but now it has become obsolete and we need socialism (under a democratic government).

That said, I think that people like John Cleese was right when he said that he doesn't like political correctness, because if you're around someone who can't control themselves they will try to control other people. I think it's good to not go out of your way to hurt other people's feelings, and Aristotle would say, virtue takes self discipline. Think back on what I said earlier about self control in what you say. If you had to control absolutely everything you say so that you can't be critical of anyone, even in a joking way, then we wouldn't have people like George Carlin, or Bill Hicks, and people like Donald Trump who hates the news media would control everything everyone says. John Cleese also said that all humor is critical of something. So if you give power to people to censor you, you will probably be censored yourself when you try to speak out against power.

However, there has become a problem that I've noticed, which is something I suppose I parody ironically in my writings on this board, which is the phenomena of crypto fascist trolling. I of course like to troll ironically, but there's a lot of people who do so unironically. We all know by this point that the alt right just uses "humor" as an excuse to talk anti semetically, racistly, homophobically, sexistly, etc. They can get away with it because if you say that it was just a joke, then you can deflect criticism, because humor is supposed to be critical but not taken seriously. This is one of the reasons why I do not take unironic anti sjw humor seriously. When people make serious racist, anti semetic jokes, with the idea behind them to seriously express those opinions, it ceases to be funny.

Why would I put myself into those same shoes of the people who legitimately hate social justice, and are ironically making unironic statements? Because a while ago I realized that I wanted to stop trying to be what other people expect me to be. Well, because I don't think that there has to be a strict dividing line. I can differentiate between when I am being humorous, and when I am not, although sometimes I feel guilty for saying the things that I do. Sometimes I feel like I am going to vow to not say anything offensive anymore, because then I can get rid of my guilty conscience. Maybe that's what people talk about when they say white guilt. Although, I do find myself uncomfortable around those who are called SJWs sometimes. It's not easy to define where I actually fall. Because I hate anti sjws, because they tend to unironically believe in some of the bigoted things they joke about, however, I feel like I may mess up and say something wrong around SJWs, because I feel like a lot of people couldn't take a joke.

So I'm in a no man's land. But that's okay, because that ties in with my concepts of the self. Why try to be anything when the self is just an illusion? The self is just what you use to project off of everything around you, every person you love and relate to you relate back to your own experience, everything you call racism and sexism and homophobia is just a reflection of the self. I realize that it is not necessary to really try to be anything, because there is no you, and there is no them. There is only a false reality, projected by the illusion of consciousness. It is all just an illusion.

You know what I like about richard spencer? He's a clean cut, articulate, polite guy with a sense of humor. That's more than you can say for a lot of people in this day and age. I don't agree with this idea of "the ethno state", but you know what? I'm willing to put that aside because I'm not an autistic screeching cuck, I actually have a brain.

While we're at it I guess you could also say that I have a lot of respect for a person like Adolf Hitler. Hitler was a very charismatic guy, aesthetically I enjoy the third reich, I think it's cool. It has this sort of creepy fascist aesthetic, very imposing, very sinister. I don't think you could say that I love naziism as an ideology (although I don't hate it, nor do I ascribe hate to any particular thing on principle), because of course I believe in intersectional queer feminism and I'm a progressive and I hang out with a lot of marxists. It's just one of those things, you know what I mean?

I've never had sex in my entire life.

Destroy the patriarchy

Here's some stuff I own

-Blue Yeti Microphone
-Brown switch mechanical quick fire cmstorm keyboard
-Bernie Sanders action figure
-Hatsune Miku, Kasane Teto, Yawane Haku, Felix Argyle, Chen, Cirno, Lain Iwakura, Doom Guy and Cacodemon plushies, as well as a few other non character plushies
-Vibrating butt plug
-Bad dragon dildo
-Fender Stratocaster guitar
-Fender Precision bass
-Roland electric drum kit
-My grandma's old electronic keyboard
-A nice collection of leatherbound and buckram-bound books (and paperback and regular hardcover)
-Some pair of cambridge bookshelf speakers w/ cheapo 100 dollar amp
-Samsung Galaxy Tab Pro
-High end duel SD card digital audio player Fiio X5II (with faux leather case)
-Magni and Modi headphone amplifier and digital to audio converter by schiit
-Sennheiser HD650 headphones
-Crocheted panzer tank slippers
-Wacom drawing tablet

Several pairs of high end earbuds
-Shozy Zero
-Echobox Finder x1
-Trinity Atlas
-Trinity Phantom Hunter
-Meelectronics Pinnacle P1

A couple portable headphones
-Sennheiser Momentum
-Denon ah-mm400


I have money and I want to buy cool stuff, but I don't know what to spend it on. I feel like I already have everything that I could want. I have a computer with shit loads of extra storage space (over 16 terabytes). I am planning on building a new computer eventually, but right now I want to buy other cool things.

The only things I could possibly want besides leatherbound books are too expensive to ask for. A new computer, a pair of headphones higher end than the pair I have right now, a new car or house, whatever. It's weird not being able to think of anything to ask for for christmas. I asked for the complete works of jk tolkien in leatherbound from easton press, a signed leatherbound copy of fight club, the complete works of heuronymous bosch leatherbound by easton press, and the modern science collection from folio society (a luxury book publishing company), as well as a bottle of crown royal maple, a leather bomber hat with rabbit fur on the inside, and the complete works of fritz wunderlich on deutsche grammophon (my favorite tenor vocalist). I got all As in college this year so I am expecting to get quite a few of these things

Other than that though, there's not really anything else besides books. Clothes are cool, but I have no idea of what clothes to ask for, and I already went shopping for a whole new wardrobe for this semester of college before college started this year. There's one plushy which I want which is a 300 dollar hand made custom order kanna plushy, but that's way too much money to spend on a plushy and the plushy doesn't even look that high quality.

So here's the scoop. Sometimes I love black people, and I think they can be the sweetest people. The unfortunate thing though is that sometimes I see some pretty scary niggers. Like, the super hoodlum gangsters who wanna shoot you if you disrespect them or something. Like, I don't wanna feel that way, but when I see a big nig walking down the street I just think oh fuck, that's kinda scary. Like, I want to not feel intimidated by black people, and there's a lot of black people I really like, but the primal part of me responsible for fight or flight, seems to have innate reactions I can't control.

I could say "yeah, rape is morally wrong", in those words, in that order, but that won't stop rape. Rape is just a part of nature, and whether or not you think it's "morally wrong" doesn't matter. Because rape is just a fact, something which happens. If I were to say that I don't want it to happen, it's just as much my own emotional decision to say that, as the rapist thinks it's his own emotional decision to do it; because there's no authority but yourself. Because there's no objective morality, which is just an objective statement which you can arrive at yourself if you realize morality is a social construct - then you can realize that deciding to rape someone was never a logical decision, just as much as saying you don't want to be raped is a logical decision; it's an emotional decision. It may be a fact that emotional decisions happen, but you can only say that people do or do not want to be raped; you can't derive an is from that aught, as the philosopher Hume might say.

The life of Charles Manson has come to an end. Putting aside all assumptions of right and wrong, good and evil, and ideological difference, Manson was a huge influence on me as a kid and growing up I listened to Manson's album "Lie" countless times. I still know a lot of the lyrics by heart. I listened and re-listened to his interviews and found him captivating when I was young. The spirit he cultivated in me still resonates in me, of there being no authority but yourself, and the norms of society being ultimately a power game. It's hard to argue with a dishonest man whose philosophies were honest and undeniable. Some may say he was a manipulative man himself; perhaps.

Why doesn't he anger me the same way homophobic Christians anger me? Perhaps because I don't see his philosophy as vacant, and manipulative like I see someone like Mike Pence or Donald Trump. I separate from my judgments about whatever bad deeds he has committed, because his unwritten philosophy can't be denied, for me at least. There has always been a fascination for me, with the so called evil man who contains logic which can't be surpassed. Staring into the abyss, as I sloppily quote from Nietzsche's book I've never read, is what I've always longed to do. That is what real truth is to me; what can't be denied, what can't be argued around; not what ideologies I can most conveniently hold; that there is no authority but yourself, that society is only a power struggle.

I guess I would say I don't believe in judging people at all, at least not absolutely. Whatever I say about human beings out of emotions, ultimately I think that if you want to love and respect nature, you have to love and respect human beings; because all human beings are part of nature, and if you wanted nature to be any other way then it wouldn't be nature anymore. I don't believe there is an objective right or wrong; only a subjective disposition to feel that something is right or wrong. Human beings are simply products of deterministic physical forces, they have no free will. They're no different from a the motion of the planets, or the grass growing, the stars that revolve around the sun and float towards the center of the milky way, or you and I. How could one who doesn't determine their own actions be "wrong"?

Writing this post goes against social expectations; I don't care. There are some who would perhaps not understand my appreciation for a person like Charles Manson, and this is a shame to me, but I would be beside myself to live my life as someone who pretends to conform to the pressures of society.

Blunt, crude, ignorant people. That's what those fucking troglodytes are. They live a life of mundane, body deteriorating labor, that some of them even feel proud of. They're not real people, they've been reduced to nothing but sweaty animals, doing petty mundane tasks simply so they can pay others who do petty mundane tasks. They're part of a bleary eyed, lifeless, vitality stripped machine, which only function is to produce more of the same kind. These people are like a festering welt on the face of planet earth, ignorant, bloated, rotting scum, toward whom those of us with minds look at and could only feel disgust.

I've been having this problem for the past few days now. I don't usually have this problem, but it was even worse yesterday. The day before yesterday, I had this huge beetroot which I microwaved for perhaps a little too long (it became soft). I know that what you digest has a direct impact on your digestive system. The next day I made the stupidest decision I could have made, which was to eat almost nothing but oils and prunes. Yesterday I had a sweet potato with a ton of olive oil, a bowl of dried pitted prunes, and a bowl of oatmeal with a ton of crushed walnuts. My stomach was not happy. I guess the bacteria in my gut is off balance or something, your farts are actually a good indicator of your digestive health, apparently.

I don't get the hate for guys like Richard Spencer beyond just tribalism. I don't agree with what he says, but he's level headed and seems like a guy who's honest about what he thinks. It's funny, because he's a guy who thinks the opposite of what most accepting and tolerant people in the united states think, out in the open without apologies. I mean, yeah it's not good stuff he's saying and it makes me kind of tired listening to him. But I don't hate him, I don't know why we have to hate people just because they think different points of view from us. What does that accomplish? You're just angry at the laws of nature; this is what happens when you have people. To get angry at the laws of nature is just a waste of time, you can't change the way people will inevitably be; definitely not by hating them. I wouldn't mind sitting down with Richard Spencer and having a calm talk over a cup of coffee, I'm sure it would be interesting and not unpleasant. He seems like a pleasant guy.

I mean, people think Richard Spencer is hateful, he doesn't seem so from his interviews (he's a bit ironic in that way, I admit). But let's say he was, why is it better to hate those who supposedly are bad because they hate? I guess you can hate for the right reasons? Fascists hate people for simply being people, when you hate a fascist you're doing the exact same thing; you're hating people for being people. I don't see that as much different from adopting their ideology for yourself. Yeah, human beings can be hard to not hate, so maybe that says more about you than it does the Nazis if you're not even willing to try. At least the nazis aren't hypocritical about it.

You mother fucking PISS NIGGERS! I am your mommy and you will cum before me, in the chalice of evermore. You're cute little femboy sluts, you're mine. You're cumming uncontrollably thinking about yourself so sissy and faggoty before my almighty cock. I am pleased at this display.

I have. Fuck facebook's nigger mods. They're nothing but whores, I'm problematic privileged scum. But they are the niggers. I will respawn, I will return again and again, and one day, if only god were bidding, I'D SHOVE MY FUCKING DICK DOWN THEIR THROAAAAAATS!!! WOOAAAAAAAAGH!! AND MY DICK WOULD BECOME SO BIG THEY WOULD EXPLODE, AND MY COME WOULD FLOOD THE EARTH AND DROWN ALL THAT INHABIT IT EXCEPT FOR THE ARYAN RACE!!! HUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAGH!!!