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The Flood / originally written for my tumblr. wanted to post it here too.
« on: January 21, 2015, 02:32:52 PM »
I believe there is more than one part of your brain responsible for thinking. I think that to engage with the environment around you you have to use them, but you can use one side more than the other. I know that the two different hemispheres of the brain are responsible for different actions. It may be impossible to annotate the process of what goes on inside of your head. I feel sometimes like my body is a machine and there is machinery going on behind what I think. I can’t see it and I don’t know exactly how it functions.

What is responsible for controlling our minds? The behavior of humanity, the human condition. I see a lot of people pledging allegiance to their flag. A lot of people go to Church because they say that they need something to believe in. They need a community. There is a basic underlying need behind it. We all seem to be under the impression that we can predict what happens in the world. There really isn’t much wonder that goes on inside the mind of a religious person. They have their explanation of the world and they have their predetermined faith, they have been given something which they feel they desire. The people pledging allegiance to “god” and their country, the country is giving them what they need.

You can have faith in something else besides an invisible man though. You can have a community that is not based off of a congregation of people who all believe in an invisible man, one who imposed rules on our society that we don’t need either. I do believe that if our society splintered off the religions into our own groups, and didn’t try to contain everyone under the same banner of religious or secular, if everyone was just secular and there was no religion, then the world would have a much stronger sense of faith. If we all could just have faith in something that wasn’t something intangible. The world would have stronger characters.

It’s funny to me how people want to pledge allegiance to the country and their god. I wonder how many people actually use their own mind. It seems to me like many people would rather have other people do the thinking for them. Deeper thinkers are the ones who look at things with their own mind and don’t take what other people say without thinking if they agree. Religious people, the patriots of this country. They are all so happy with their system. The system works for them. The people who the government doesn’t work for and the school doesn’t work for don’t get a piece of the pie though. The world was set up for extroverted abstract thinkers who love obeying their authority.

The reason I bring up the different parts of my brain is because those have been abused. The part of my brain responsible for seeing, doing, and experiencing, that part has been damaged after years of abuse and neglect. Abuse by the school system, abused by the isolation and loneliness. I can literally avoid thinking about stuff and it keeps me from getting depressed. But you can’t shut off a part of your brain. The world is set up in a way that suppresses  your will to think on your own or be creative. I have a belief though. Something the pig, insipid, stupid christians never thought of. I have belief that there is something out there for me, a small pocket of humanity out there somewhere for me. I have faith that I will find it. That is what’s most important is living.

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The Flood / so how am I supposed to react to people?
« on: January 20, 2015, 09:54:49 PM »
apparently there’s a way you’re supposed to talk to people. I didn’t know that the ways of talking to people was a law of fucking nature. I can’t believe that I have to think so hard about what I say just so I can interact with someone. I hate talking to people so fucking much. It takes so much to find just one person who I can talk to who doesn't feel like I am trying to talk to a chat bot. I try to talk to every solitary person and it just ends in me feeling like an idiot. I hate trying to talk to people so much. the laws of nature are so perplexing.

There’s no one else to talk to. I’m just still in my bedroom and I’m still trying to talk to people in chat rooms and on skype. Still nothing. Still the same it has been for like 3 years since I graduated high school. What a shitty fucking life this has been. I don’t talk to anyone and I just sit on my computer all day. this is what I’m talking about when I say the world is fucked up. why can’t the world be better set up so I don’t have to feel so miserable that I can’t complete a task like school or something. sometimes when I’m sitting alone all by myself I just think about how I wish I were dead, but I don’t really wish I were dead.

all I can do is think about how fucking garbage the world is. all I can think about is every single person laughing at me. I can hear their confusion through my past experience. I know exactly how people are and they are confused… they piss me off. I don’t know how I can ever get along with people. I just hate them and I get angry and they don’t know why. they think it’s pretty funny, usually. they usually think that I am a pretty bizarre person.

let me tell you about how I feel about your attitude towards me. I can’t say one single thing without feeling like an idiot. I have to worry about other people thinking I’m an idiot. then when they piss me off I can’t say that it pisses me off or that I want to hurt them because then I’m an “internet tough guy”. people piss me off so much. why is it so wrong to say that someone pisses you off? is it really so wrong to say that I want to behead you with a machette if you laugh at me? to me when people laugh at me that sure as hell seems like a sign of disrespect. why should I respect your life if you don’t respect mine? why should I follow your rules of communication? rules just hold you back.

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The Flood / humanity is a virus
« on: January 20, 2015, 01:43:05 PM »
they will keep you locked up like an animal your whole life. that is really what society is is an animal containment center we set up for ourselves. it's no wonder that our society is in a perpetual state of decay and misery. we set ourselves up for failure. we are animals though. we are just smart enough to be self aware, so we tried to set up an environment where we can thrive as animals. we are not intelligent enough to work in such large numbers though. our society is too big, and trying to accommodate everyone is a farce.

everyone's stinking lie of a life will be withheld by the boundaries of society. It's a massive force that we have set up. it's mind control. every single person in the whole country is against you if you fight back. the only way out is death. there is no way to defeat the massive conundrum that society has put you under. you live with it, or you try to rally people together to fight for your cause. because that's all that living is really is a fight for power, which you can get in numbers and you can get through money.

fuck this life. our planet grows over populated day by day and all we can do is sit back and tell ourselves that it's okay. we have grown up in a society where everyone believes so hard that everything is okay, that we are very insecure. we will all try to push so hard for our illusion that everything is okay. in the end it will all die. the dream, the lie, it will all die when we do. then they can perpetuate it to the next human being.

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The Flood / How have your bowel movements been?
« on: January 20, 2015, 11:19:19 AM »
Have you been passing alright? Are your bowel movements hard or soft? Mine have been rather hard. I go rather frequently. Usually once a day. I think I need to drink more water or eat more fiber or something. I should be having softer ones.

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The Flood / Do you actually like music?
« on: January 20, 2015, 12:31:09 AM »
I feel like most music is about trying to get you to get up and really feel the rhythm. I really hate that. I listen to music while sitting down in my chair, in my bedroom. I apply my attention to it and I decide if I like it or not based on how it makes me feel. I am not out at the club, or dancing, or playing it on speakers with a bunch of people over. I actually like listening to music for the sake of listening to music. How many of you can say that you actually listen to music for the sake of listening to music? Can you put on your headphones and just sit there and listen to an entire album without getting bored? Or do you need alterior motive to even listen to music in the first place?

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The Flood / So what does anyone actually know about autism?
« on: January 19, 2015, 10:57:54 PM »
This is the new "autism level one diagnosis".

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1. Stereotyped or repetitive motor movements, use of objects, or speech (e.g.; simple motor stereotypes, lining up toys or flipping objects, echolalia, idiosyncratic phrases).
2. Insistence on sameness, inflexible adherence to routines, or ritualized patterns of verbal or nonverbal behavior (e.g., extreme distress at small changes, difficulties with transitions, rigid thinking pattern, greeting rituals, need to take same route or eat same food every day).
3. Highly restricted, fixated interests that are abnormal in intensity or focus (e.g., strong attachment to or preoccupation with unusual objects, excessively circumscribed or perseverative interests).
4. Hyper- or hyporeactivity to sensory input or unusual interest in sensory aspects of the environment (e.g., apparent indifference to pain/temperature, adverse response to specific sounds or textures, excessive smelling or touching of objects, visual fascination with lights or movement). - See more at: http://www.iidc.indiana.edu/?pageId=369#sthash.We9WcgLL.dpuf

This is the old aspergers diagnosis which I always read about when I was a kid. It's bullshit and describes nothing about me.

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1. Deficits in social-emotional reciprocity, ranging, for example, from abnormal social approach and failure of normal back-and-forth   conversation; to reduced sharing of interests, emotions or affect, to failure to initiate or respond to social interactions.
 2. Deficits in nonverbal communicative behaviors used for social interaction; ranging for example, from poorly integrated verbal and nonverbal communication; to abnormalities in eye contact and body language or deficits in understanding and use of gestures; to lack of facial expressions and nonverbal communication.
3. Deficits in developing, maintaining, and understanding relationships, ranging, for example, from difficulties adjusting behavior to suit various social contexts, to difficulties in sharing imaginative play or in making friends, to absence of interest in peers. - See more at: http://www.iidc.indiana.edu/?pageId=369#sthash.We9WcgLL.dpuf

It really always pisses me off that people compare me to something like that. I guess now that I look at the new diagnosis it still kind of seems like a pussy excuse. I have had a bunch of people, including doctors, parents, teachers, kids around me, try to tell me I am autistic. It's pretty offensive, but when I watch an actual video of myself or listen to myself talk, I am kind of astounded at how fucking retarded I look and sound. I honestly really hate myself for that and I feel like there is no way I could ever actually be "normal". I am extremely socially isolated too. I haven't really talked to anyone outside of the internet in years, which my therapist says is pretty extreme in my case.

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1. Deficits in social-emotional reciprocity, ranging, for example, from abnormal social approach and failure of normal back-and-forth   conversation; to reduced sharing of interests, emotions or affect, to failure to initiate or respond to social interactions. - See more at: http://www.iidc.indiana.edu/?pageId=369#sthash.We9WcgLL.dpuf
I definitely have a hard time initiating conversation with people irl. I often don't pick up on jokes in when I am talking to someone in person who I don't know very well. If I am talking to someone who I know well like my younger brother or a friend then I get the jokes really easily though.

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2. Deficits in nonverbal communicative behaviors used for social interaction; ranging for example, from poorly integrated verbal and nonverbal communication; to abnormalities in eye contact and body language or deficits in understanding and use of gestures; to lack of facial expressions and nonverbal communication. - See more at: http://www.iidc.indiana.edu/?pageId=369#sthash.We9WcgLL.dpuf
I dunno about this one. I think I have pretty good verbal communication skills. I don't think I have a hard time understanding body language and gestures at all.

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3. Deficits in developing, maintaining, and understanding relationships, ranging, for example, from difficulties adjusting behavior to suit various social contexts, to difficulties in sharing imaginative play or in making friends, to absence of interest in peers. - See more at: http://www.iidc.indiana.edu/?pageId=369#sthash.We9WcgLL.dpuf

I definitely have a hard time adjusting behavior to different social contexts, in uncomfortable situations. If I am just at a party with my relatives or something or at a nice restaurant, or at a play or concert, or anywhere that is formal and people are respectful, sure I get along with no problem. If I am at school though or trying to interact with people at school, I would be much more inclined to want to punch someone in the face. I dunno about the "imaginative play part". I definitely hate RPing lol. I definitely don't have an absence of interest in my peers. I just feel like talking to them makes me super vulnerable to them thinking I'm weird. So I just try to avoid it because I feel extremely hurt every time I try to engage with someone who I never met. It always leaves me feeling awkward and retarded.

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The Flood / Am I the only one who really respects ellion rodgers?
« on: January 19, 2015, 09:52:25 PM »
I always think about what he did. I just think about how I really resent people who have sex besides me. I really hate people who are in relationships. I think that it is a shame that he didn't plan the attack more wisely. I would have been happy if he actually managed to kill more than - what was it, 4-7 people? That's a pretty lame body count, and a pretty meager mark to leave on the world before you die. Especially when you are trying to get back at the human race for literally having more sex than you.

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The Flood / I'm gonna bust when you're down on your knees
« on: January 19, 2015, 09:05:54 PM »
YOU GIVE ME LUST FILTH AND SLEEZE!!


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The Flood / Guys I think I discovered Jesus
« on: January 19, 2015, 04:51:22 PM »
I was thinking about how Jesus died for my sins... I know that the lord is there for me. He is one who loves me and I speak to him in my prayers. I feel the warmth of his presence. Sometimes when it seems like life gets you down, you can just think about how god loves you and how jesus loves you. It's good to know that I have Jesus. The only thing I get a little uncomfortable with is how Jesus watches me when I masturbate. I don't really know how I can live with myself knowing that the lord sees me do that. I think that trying to do things that distract you from god like masturbation aren't good things. If anyone else would like to share their testimony about how good it feels to be saved by Jesus I would like to hear it.

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The Flood / Wouldn't that be great if...
« on: January 18, 2015, 08:59:47 PM »
You were so smart that everything you say is just so intelligent that people can't even comprehend it, so that way you automatically win every argument?

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The Flood / Moving to colorado, parents got me a new laptop...
« on: January 18, 2015, 11:57:25 AM »
So I'm moving to colorado alone. I already brought this up last week I think. They point is that this thing fucking sucks. I can't use my mechanical keyboard on my laptop, because putting a keyboard in front of a tiny laptop is stupid. They got me a gaming laptop and apparently for 1000 dollars it was the best they could get. It has such a fucking small screen though and I hate using the keyboard. The track pad sucks. Also, look at how fucking retarded that windows 8 setup is. I dunno how I am going to go from using my fill size desktop computer to using that fucking laptop. My desktop is a couple years old and out of date. It's just that it's going to suck so fucking bad.

I dunno what to do. Should I send it back?



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The Flood / Has anyone ever been mostly interested in guys...
« on: January 18, 2015, 08:43:00 AM »
and then realized they were mostly interested in girls? Right now I think males have more appeal to me. That's not to say that I dislike females. I spend the majority of the time I spend looking at naked people, in my free time, looking at pictures of cute naked guys. I just think it's so weird how if you tell anyone this in our society they will quickly jump on the bandwagon. They will say "just come out of the closet and you will be so much happier". Uh... I don't actually think that I am gay, and I would be much happier if I didn't. I feel like if I did then i would be lying to myself and other people. Then when they realize that I'm not actually all that bisexual then they will start to feel lied to.

Now I kinda loath the double standard that being straight is just a given and being gay is something you have to "confess". The thing is I really just don't know and I wish that somehow I could figure it out. I look at all the really cute guys and I just can't imagine myself being in a situation with them. I could much more imagine myself being in a situation with a woman, but I don't ever actually try to put myself in that scenario mentally. A lot of you guys may just say that it's denial, but I think what it really is is I am just trying to test whether or not I am gay. Also every time I think about it I just think about how everyone makes into a big joke. Maybe that's why I hate it I dunno.

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Btw I would like to discuss a dream I had last night. I was back in sailing camp in one of the boats seen in the picture above. We were going out to the open lake to race and I was in a boat with one of the people who I was friends with. The boat didn't have a sail on it and we kind of just floated around eventually we were sitting on opposite sides of the boat and I had my feet on his balls and he enjoyed it. I remember distinctly thinking that it wasn't very enjoyable and that I am still not gay. I think what my dreams are trying to tell me is that I am not actually homosexual. Does anyone know anything about homoerotic dreams?

People would be more inclined to respect someone who drinks a 6 pack of beer while watching monday night football and going to a bar to hit on women before they would respect someone with the opposite issue.

Btw here's some cute sfw guy pics (is nsfw even allowed?). I will keep it sfw. It's hard to find pictures of guys that I find super attractive. Most of the ones I have on my imgur are just femboys. Most of the ones I have on tumblr I reblog are like black and white vintage photographs of gay sex and fancy black and white pictures of male models from russia. I think most of last year I was just into femboys and really twinky twinks. I think now I realized that I appreciate guys who are more mature looking now. It is hard to find that middle ground between twink and muscle builder though. I really like these though. So this is kinda what i have right now in terms of SFW that I can show you guys. I just edited one to make it sfw.

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The Flood / so lonely...
« on: January 17, 2015, 07:54:41 PM »
it never ends... I sit in my bedroom every day, every week, every month, etc. If you have no school or no job, that's it. Your life is on the computer... my life has been on the computer for almost 3 years now. I just want to meet some other kids... I guess I can't call myself a kid anymore though, seeing as I'm turning 20 in about 4 months... I just wish that I had something to say I was happy about, but I don't. I hate my life. I'm so fucking lonely.

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The Flood / can someone tell me why the fuck all the youtube thumb nails
« on: January 17, 2015, 04:14:05 PM »
have this grey overlay that says watched? it makes it so hard to find what I am looking for in my playlists when they all have a grey overlay over the thumb nail. I remember when the youtube channel used to be fucking sweet. it was customizable with layout, colors, all that fucking shit. now it is homogenized and harder to use. how the fuck do I get rid of this malicious "watched" thing over my videos?


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The Flood / Phone place is gonna "transfer" data to my new phone
« on: January 15, 2015, 05:42:47 PM »
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so does that mean they're gonna see all the pictures on it? I remember them going through my brothers phone and stuff. Apparently they can see everything on it. I really don't want them to see all the fucking porn. So I dunno what to do. My dad is coming to the store with me because he's gonna give me a ride. I kinda want to just go tomorrow so I can wipe my phone before I get there. Anyone knowledgeable about this? I am getting the new samsung galaxy 5.

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The Flood / Come up with a sentence fragment, next person mad lib
« on: January 14, 2015, 04:19:22 PM »
My dad told me "son, when are you going to stop being such a faggot" and I said "__________________________"

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Serious / Is there any cool religions?
« on: January 13, 2015, 11:23:12 PM »
I always think of how I don't like religion. I don't like how it requires to try to believe in something that you can't prove exists. I don't like how it seems to be so focused on family values (such as things that you would only do with your kids around). How it seems to be a huge source of bigotry and hatred (westboro baptist church, kids being kicked out of their house for whatever, wars). Hell, just look at Islam. It's like the biggest source of war in the whole world. It is so hard for me to understand why people defend religion. Does religion seriously seem cool to you? What do you have to gain? All I ever hear is "oh well the magical sky daddy is really comforting to some people." :u

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The Flood / Come up with your ultimate fantasy right now
« on: January 13, 2015, 09:25:48 PM »
So to start off, I would have a completely replaceable bedroom so I could squirt water at whatever I wanted to with one of these little squirty syringes
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. That are so much fun for drinking water, but it is also fun to squirt stuff with them. I would also live in an automated, self sustaining, perpetual motion device house, that grows it's own food for me, cleans itself, and keeps everything nice and cozy for me, all for free. Then it could be just like minecraft where once you build a house you don't need to even try to survive anymore. Then uh... I would have a band that would get together and play some music with me. Ideally it would be a bunch of cute femboys who all appreciate the same type of music as I do, who could come over to my perpetual motion house and have raging hot sex with me. And I want to explore the universe and see everything that exists in it and live forever and I want to actually have the ability to enjoy reading books and I would generally like it if nothing bad ever happened ever again and I would like to live forever. Maybe if life was just one infinite steaming hot orgasm that would be even better.

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So I've seen a few anime. Violence jack, akira, Shoujo Tsubaki. Shoujo Tsubaki bordered on being disturbing, but honestly I see more disturbing things browsing through gore/extreme-porn blogs on tumblr. It feels like even the hentai industry tailors it's shows to be more suitable for a wider audience. Shows like pigeon blood, they weren't very good, because not only have I seen worse things elsewhere, I am also not really into that type of porn anyways (I hate penetration and stuff). I had faith in the anime when I first started, because I figured that such a popular medium would be certain to have some buried treasures. I never really say anything all that interesting in anime though. What's the sickest anime you know, psychologically, or something that makes your gut churn?

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The Flood / Guess who the most amazing person in the world is
« on: January 13, 2015, 05:23:40 PM »
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IT'S YOU

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The Flood / Is war an intrinsic part of nature?
« on: January 13, 2015, 04:34:23 PM »
Even on an microscopic level, things are pushing against each other. One molecule wants to go one way and another wants to push back. It seems like trivia, but it happens infinitely in nature. It's a conflict between two forces. It happens everywhere you go, in absolutely everything you do. Even typing this message requires me to push against the keyboard, and they keyboard pushes back. There isn't a single thing in the entire world that doesn't involve war. I don't think that people see it. I see it everywhere though. It's almost funny, how war driven life is. The only difference between inanimate forces and people is that people can think.

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The Flood / Report me, ban me you cunts
« on: January 13, 2015, 03:06:27 PM »
I have been here only a couple days. I can see that no one really gives a fuck unless you give to them. No one really gives a fuck about you and only wants to troll you. If you expect me to give without asking for anything in return, and then get trolled by a bunch of assholes, then put me under watch when someone reports me... you people are only give and take. Your whole ethos is based off of just blithely following the rules, and then not really giving a fuck about anyone but yourselves, then expecting it all to work like a nice little system. No wonder people live such boring and meaningless lives. You're a fucking disgrace and I fucking hate this.

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The Flood / Does anyone else have a problem with following rules?
« on: January 13, 2015, 02:15:59 PM »
I don't mean like laws. I think it's pretty easy to not break the law, because it's not really that tempting to run a red light, steal, kill, rape, murder, none of those things really appeal to me. What I am talking about is when you're at school or in a chat room. For me, obeying the restrictions of any place becomes too much to tolerate after a certain amount of time. When I have been in schools it usually takes about a few months in. I just stop caring about going to class. I stop caring about waiting to raise my hand and I may just call something out. That's because sometimes I may just hate the teacher or hate the class.

Then there's chat rooms. I usually don't last more than a couple days in a chat room. What I hate is having to respect authority in a chat room. To me a lot of moderators seem like some retard that was just given a position of power. It's used to lord over all of the members. If you don't like it then you can't speak up. Disrespecting a moderator of some sort is just an easy ticket to get banned. I feel like that wherever I go. It may be because of some rule that you can't insult someone's religion. It may be because you can't complain too much about something. It may be because you aren't getting along nicely with another person. I hate them so much.

I don't know what to do about this situation. I feel unwelcome basically anywhere I go besides my own house. It feels like when I am around my own parents I just get instantly agitated. I bet they are setting this for me for good, but sometimes I don't know; the move to colorado. They are letting me move there by myself in a college town in an apartment. I asked my own younger brother if he'll miss me and he said not really. I feel like there is no one in the world that even gives a shit about me. Absolutely everywhere you go you have to work for some sort of conditional love or friendship. My own relatives feel very uncomfortable around me whenever I am around them. They barely talk to me.

My parents are always out of the house, and I am always in my bedroom on the computer. I don't feel like I have had anyone truly love me or care for me for a very long time. I haven't had an environment where I truly feel loved by anyone for years and years. I haven't talked to any other kid in my neighborhood ever since I graduated high school, almost 3 years ago. I remember clearly in high school being an outcast who no one even talked to. I just feel embarrassed about living. I feel everything I do that causes me some sort of shortcoming, it is just another reason to hate myself for being such a worthless wreck of a human being. I can't even maintain a single friendship, or be a part of a community.

Now a days I just feel completely dead inside most of the time. I guess I just learned exactly what part of my brain is responsible for emitting the chemical that is responsible for depression. I can feel it in my head. Unless I get too overwhelmed I can basically kind of control it now. If I get too depressed then it takes over and I start to feel numb in my head and I start to feel so much mental pain. It doesn't feel like a warm feeling, like when you're angry and it gets you really excited. It feels like my head becomes numb and sensitive to the slightest mental pressure. It becomes so easy to just tick me off and then I just become extremely depressed and angry. It feels like all the blood rushes from my head.

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The Flood / How does one be funny?
« on: January 13, 2015, 09:00:35 AM »
I have examined the "joke" and "funny" and I have concluded that it is "nonsense" which you find "funny". I cannot decipher the method of your "humor". Tell me how to be "funny". 

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Septagon / did you update the likes?
« on: January 13, 2015, 07:32:35 AM »
just the first day I joined I was able to look at all the posts I liked and all the posts that people liked by me and how many people liked each post. Now I get notifications which just shows whatever new post got liked, and it shows me what posts people liked by me, but only on a short list that gets cut off, and it shows each individual like, even if it's on the same post. Can you fix this bullshit? I want to actually look at this crap and now it got screwed up like a day after I joined this website.

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The Flood / I feel agitated, like my head is boiling
« on: January 12, 2015, 06:36:43 PM »
I'm just pissed because I have been in my bedroom all day. I am feeling devoid of human interaction. I don't have anyone to talk to on skype, and there's nothing interesting to do on websites. I am sick of websites. I snapped when I asked my mom what there is to do besides get a job or go to school. She said I could play music and I said that I tried that. She said "yeah well you gave up and you didn't try very hard". So I chucked a pen across the room and told her fuck you, I did try, asshole. I just feel so irritable. There is nothing in the world that can make me happy. I feel so tired and my mind feels stricken with tons of bad feelings. I don't believe in anything happy.

I don't want to be told by people on the flood that I am an immature autist, or that I am edgy right now. I just feel absolutely miserable. I feel like all of the life has been drained out of me. I have spent about 3 years in and out of colleges. I never get to live on the campuses. I just do the same thing. I go to them, and then I try to do work, then I go home and am too bored to do the homework. So now I've failed college 3 times because each time I was too depressed and miserable to get any work done. So now I am moving to Colorado. They are setting me up with a house that someone will let me use any time I want, and trying to find me an apartment to live in in the town near the college. I will be away from all of my family (not that that matters), and I won't know anyone (just like I don't know anyone right now). I cannot stress enough how fucking miserable I am. Everything I think just hurts.

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I know that a certain someone (you know who you are) would say yes, because you never download music free. I personally don't think that I have enjoyed an album any more when I bought it than when I got it free. If anything I think that it makes the album more enjoyable to have it for free. That way if it turns out that you don't like it as much you don't feel bad about buying it. There is nothing worse than buying an album and then regretting it later.

I see people bringing up how getting music for free cheapens the experience. I disagree.

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Serious / How I feel about the use of "autism" as a derogatory slur
« on: January 11, 2015, 07:50:45 PM »
I have struggled with real life doctors telling me they think I have autism since I was very young. I always wondered why I couldn't just be normal and honestly doctors telling me I had "autism" just made me feel like I was legitimately broken. I see "autism" as an insult thrown around too much these days. It's just about as meaningless as saying "legit" or "literally", the way people generally abuse those words. I'm not saying stop saying autism... but seriously I would really appreciate if people stopped.

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The Flood / What do you think of the religion of peace?
« on: January 11, 2015, 05:23:29 PM »
You know, the one that worships a pedophile warlord and flies planes into the twin towers, and executes thousands of people with their regime of radical extremists who abuse women, and want to take over the world. You know, the religion of peace.

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The Flood / Words of advice
« on: January 11, 2015, 10:29:14 AM »
ACT NATURAL

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