From my experience with my roommates, I don't think your friend is exaggerating a lot, but he might should've been less harmless with his roommates.

Also, it's not like you completely abandon your parents, you still can support them from distance, if you feel morally obliged to do so. You can also find better job there and become stronger, which benefit you and your family in long term plan, and make your friend stronger, fix some of his issues which he can't fix alone. Of course, it's all gonna be very hard and it'll take time, but it will be beneficial in long term, if you succeed in any of those things.

You also gonna have an opportunity to rearrange your life, maybe start your vegan crusade or at least implement daily breakfast and more flexible schedule.

Yeah, that's basically what I'm trying to do as well. Look at it as an opportunity to mature and grow, get a new life experience. Getting a job might not actually be impossible for me, because I have something on my résumé now, and the apartment itself is smack in the middle of a very commercial area, so all the shops are in walking distance. It could very well be not that bad—I'm just too scared and pessimistic to allow that to alter my predisposition.

Quote from: Verbatim on July 15, 2018, 11:59:03 AM

Quote from: Carmen on July 15, 2018, 09:14:25 AM

just do it lol

it sucks not having your own place

an apartment is just as much "your own place" as your parents' is

yeah but what about the heart wrenching shame of not having your own place as an adult

there is none, at all

it would require buying a house, which is a ridiculous decision for most people in this country at this point in time

My best friend outside of the Internet, who I have known for 16+ years, dropped out of college a few months ago, before completing his eighth semester. He was studying for a STEM degree. We both went to different universities—he to a slightly more prestigious one, myself to the cheaper lower-class one—and after four years, he decided he just couldn't handle it anymore.

Had he stuck it out for just one more year, he would've graduated, but the fact that he "fucking hated every single person there" was an important factor in his decision. It wasn't something I didn't see coming eventually—if anything, I was surprised he dropped out so late into the game. It wasn't that he was bullied, or anything—he was mostly just fed up with the culture, and he performed poorly and failed several of his courses.

Every time he'd come home for the summer, we'd always catch up, but the only stories he ever had to tell about college were about how fucking miserable he was there, for pretty much every waking moment of his life. Every single roommate he's ever had has been a piece of shit, or an irresponsible douchebag, and they always treated him like garbage. He's never had a single positive experience he thought was worth telling me about. Not one.

What you need to understand about this guy is that he's a bit of a headcase. I feel like I shouldn't go into details without his approval, but just know that he's not all there. He's nice, funny, hardworking—but he has issues. Many issues.

So many bad roommate stories. It's natural to assume that a lot of it was exaggeration, but literally, there would be times when he'd almost be on the verge of tears telling me these things—so even if he's stretching the truth, or not giving the complete story, or whatever, I know he's not outright lying to me about anything. He's not that kind of person anyway—and again, we're best friends.

Later, he told me he was gonna enroll at my university and transfer all his credits there. I told him that was a good idea, because it is—not only was he close as fuck to graduating anyway, he'll actually be able to do it in a place where he won't want to fucking kill himself every day, because people at my campus are generally nice and pleasant (as far as I know). The fact that his closest friend studies there is certainly a bonus—but it's not like we could dorm together, or anything. Not only are dormitories insanely fucking expensive, I also can't drive. I commute to school every day on a goddamn bus. The only way we'd be able to be roommates is if we got an apartment.

And that's exactly what he wants me to do. He asked me if I wanted to last week, and at first, I had to say no, but only because I knew I wouldn't be able to pay the rent with him. My parents don't pay me to work at the record shop—I'm paid in "room and board," to quote them. Which is fair and all, but that's my situation. I can't pay rent, and that's not fair to him, so I had to say no.

Couple days later, the subject comes up again, only my mother is in earshot. She brings up that I could pitch in with the overage from my financial aid, which is true—but only if I get a decent check. Sometimes it's a lot, sometimes it's not that much. If it's less than $200, that's not gonna help much. I never know what I'm gonna get, I don't understand how any of it works, and I'm not smart enough (or bothered enough, frankly) to figure it out. The "no" has changed to a "maybe," but my friend, naturally, wants a definitive answer. It's not like we have a lot of time before the next semester begins.

So he asked me again about it last night. I had more time to think about it, and I decided that I was being an ass. I probably should've just said "yes" to begin with—my overage has only vacillated in a serious way for one semester, where it dropped significantly because my parents' income rose that year, due to my father getting himself a better job. When your family's income rises, you get more financial aid—and if you're wondering what my family's income has to do with me, the way it works is that my name is tied to my parents' income until I'm 23, which I won't be until the semester has already begun. They really fuck you pretty hard in the ass on that one. Either way, my dad has since lost that job and is working some other place—so, as a result, my overage should be a little higher this semester. Maybe. Unless there are other factors I haven't taken into account.

In any case, the "maybe" has changed to a "yes." Having put my financial concerns to rest... I guess I'm officially moving out of this house now.

It was never really about that anyway, though. That was the excuse I gave, but it wasn't the excuse I felt in my heart—which is, simply, that I don't want to move out. At all. I've lived in this house for 20 years. I realize I have to move out at some point, all I can really think about is, "Why did it have to be right now?" I don't feel ready for it. I'm not ready for it. But I feel like my hand is being forced anyway.

It feels like I'm not making a decision based on what I want—I'm making a decision based on what my friend needs. And he does need me—if he has to room with anyone else, he's gonna be right back where he was. Hating his life, being his manically depressed self. I'm the only person he can have a good time with anymore. And if you're wondering why he doesn't just commute from home—ignoring the fact that he's trying, too, to be a self-respecting adult who doesn't live with his parents at 22, like me—he also fucking hates his parents, and his homelife is just as miserable. Getting an apartment is literally the only option for him (unless he grows to despise me, too).

There are reasons I don't particularly want to go through with this, too, that aren't just based on selfish trepidation. It kinda fucks everything up. I've been working at my parents' shop for a year, and they're working jobs of their own with pretty intense hours. So even though I'm not getting paid, I don't know what they're gonna do without me.

I just feel like he's asking me to make a huge life decision, without even considering for a moment just how much weight that drops on me. I said yes, because I'm morally obligated, but I'm literally up at 5 AM typing this because I'm stressing myself out so hard over it. Maybe I'm overreacting—but even if I am, I just needed to get off my chest.

TL;DR
My depressed friend wants me to move into an apartment with him because he hates everyone and has no one else in his life right now. I told him "yes" out of a sense of loyalty and moral obligation, but I still feel shitty and spineless, because, in my heart of hearts, I honestly have no interest in doing so. I'm very comfortable where I live right now + I have a job here. This was all very sudden, and I don't think my friend understands that. The cognitive dissonance I'm experiencing right now is driving me crazy and I needed to vent about it.

I wanna be a good friend, but I feel like having these thoughts makes me a shitty friend. Or I'm going insane. Or both.

I'm really gonna miss my parents.

eat shit vien

Ripped the mace out of that degenerate's hands and getting pussy from a barely legal fat girl could I be any more based

you're dead tomorrow after i tell literally everyone

you guys try to actually beat the game?

you're not hardcore until you just give up like you're intended to do, fly over to japan, and suck miyazaki's cock for making such a PERFECT and flawless game

Shields are for strengthbros. Only dexfags rely on rolling.

i thought it was the other way around, because i'm dexfag and i use a shield

Now the question is, is this safe for use? (´・ω・｀)

Spoiler

No

but please use it anyway so i can REPORT™ you for report july

What happened to Luciana?

there's another "offsite" called bungle (with an L) that's been around for awhile, i'm sure he still posts there

that's where tru would be too, i believe

Quote from: Batch on June 05, 2016, 08:54:33 AM

Quote from: Big Boss on June 05, 2016, 08:11:59 AM

Also, that ramp you ran up with the illusory walls, was it the one inside the giant tree? It's worth searching around there.

Its about as enjoyable as clawing your own eyes out

heavy risk
But the priiize

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooo...

what "prize" were you referring to here, exactly?

what's this about jumping? it's not necessary at all to jump at any point during the fight

urgency is overrated, i don't need every boss fight to feel the same or present the same challenges

i found it refreshing, and i'd honestly put it in my top 5 boss fights, don't @ me

Quote from: Verbatim on July 06, 2018, 11:52:19 AM

you first OP

Fem cheat tbh.

you fucked up again

"describe" doesn't just mean "post a picture of"

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<- Previous update: More Likely Than You Think

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Recap:
- Killed the Demon Firesage
- Killed the Centipede Demon
- Made it to Lost Izalith

Current missions:
- Explore Lost Izalith
- Find and kill the Witch of Izalith
- Explore the Great Hollow

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Hate to give you guys such a short update, but I honestly don't have a whole lot to say about Lost Izalith. It's basically just a dreary, oppressive lava place that requires you to wear that special ring just to navigate it. There's these really big enemies surrounding a shrine that I didn't fuck with too much—I only killed one, and the amount of souls I got wasn't really worth the trouble, so I didn't bother with the rest.

Then there's these fucking abominations:



I know tryphophobia is kind of a meme, but those things might actually be the worst things I've ever seen. I got trapped in a room full of them once, and the floor was poisonous—I picked up a lot of good items there, though.

One cool thing I picked up was a new pyromancy (finally) called Chaos Fire Whip—and at first, I'm super hyped for it, because it has 80 uses and it sounds like some crazy Castlevania-like shit. The spell is actually a lot lamer than it sounds, but it's... still situationally powerful, I guess. It's better than pretty much every other pyromancy I have, sans Power Within, so it doesn't matter that it costs two attunement slots. The lamest thing about it is that by 80 uses, it actually means 3 uses. Every spurt of the whip takes about 30 points away, so it's actually quite misleading.

I found a room full of these little bug-like creatures with... masks? They look like they're wearing masks. I killed one of them on impulse, but after noticing that they're completely harmless (or at least, passive towards me), I didn't kill any more of them. I never learned what their deal was, but they were trying to get through some door.

Later, I found Solaire, except he was wearing a funny mask and was clearly delirious. He attacked me on sight, and I had no choice but to kill him. I don't feel bad about killing shitty meme characters, but I'm curious to know what I was supposed to do to save him, because it wasn't at all apparent to me what I was supposed to do to not have him go crazy.

That was pretty much the last noteworthy thing that happened. There may well be a lot more stuff to do here, and I just missed huge chunks of it, but the area isn't particularly fun to navigate, and at this point, I'm pretty much ready to just beat the game at this point. I'm kinda done thoroughly exploring areas for the time being, unless it's a particularly interesting one (like the Great Hollow, which I'll be delving into next).

It wasn't long before I found the boss.


As for progress, I'm way farther than you think I am—remember how I said I had two bosses down? I left out the other. At first, I had intended to post another double boss video, but because I managed to beat the other on my first try and had virtually nothing to say about it, I decided to just omit it. Maybe I'll include it in the next video instead as a throwaway, if only to make the next update a little longer.

always use a shield

probably

Hubby as a colloquialism needs to be stricken from the English language immediately.

also agreed