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« on: January 01, 2017, 11:31:11 PM »
Very strong pill. Only Half at 8:20pm and was peaking hard 10:30pm-2am
Anyways it was a great night lots of fun. But right before my peak come up I got really anxious/sad. And I asked myself what I was doing with my life. Then I had the realization that literally ALL that mattered was the present moment. That's all I can experience. The past is gone, it's just a collection of present moments being remembered IN the present moment. And the future is just a projection. Of possible present moments that may or may not ever exist. And I was in complete euphoria with this realization and I had wave of chills all throughout my body.
And in this euphoria i thought of what I'm doing with my life. And I realized that while I DO see myself as very far ahead of most people in my age bracket(better looking, taller, stronger, more will power, more intelligent, great socializer, more life experience, bigger perspective, more opportunities because of parents, more loving, etc), I'm not using it to my full potential. I may be very far ahead of most people, but I'm also a HUGE PUSSY compared to others.
There are very disciplined men out there. Tough men. Who have been through things I can not even imagine. And they have less opportunities than I do, but somehow they do MORE with those limited opportunities. And I need to grow up and be a fucking man. Not some pleasure seeking spoiled brat. Who complains and whines when it's not that hard. Time to grow up.
962
« on: December 26, 2016, 05:32:24 PM »
I don't have any problem with fat people TBH. Never understood fat hate. I don't get disgusted or feel pity or even superiority over them srs
963
« on: December 26, 2016, 03:25:18 PM »
2016 has been the craziest most eventful year of my life. I enjoyed the ride
964
« on: December 22, 2016, 05:07:18 PM »
This is so weird. I feel like I'm a husk of a person right now. Walking, talking, everything I have to force and it doesn't feel genuine
965
« on: December 22, 2016, 05:05:39 PM »
Jive, is this the crazy one I said to get out of?
yeah I kinda think I fell in love with her Now I'm sad as fuck
966
« on: December 21, 2016, 11:58:28 PM »
Abortion is bad
im the ultimate sadboi right now
967
« on: December 21, 2016, 11:49:56 PM »
I don't have any other outlets. J don't talk to my friends about these things.
My ex girl ha been acting weird these past few days. I called her today with no pick up. Then I get a text a few hours later from her ex boyfriend, saying he was with her asking why I'm calling her, and that he thought she cut me off. So I had a man to man conversation with him where we revealed she was lying to both of us. And He was with her today because he took her to get an abortion (his baby)
I was so angry. Pure anger. I went to her house after and dropped off something and told her I never wanna speak to her again. And she tried to get me back. And she's texting me nonstop trying to get me back. And I'm so heartbroken and sad. And I'm also sad because I really do care about her so much. And I know she's in a dark place right now and I want to help her.
Fuck this relationship bullshit I'm never opening up y heart again in my fucking life. I hope none of you ever have to go through something like this.
968
« on: December 20, 2016, 03:39:30 AM »
Masturbation never really drained anything out of me except time, which is why I stopped.
how much time would you spend on it before? (No homo  )
969
« on: December 20, 2016, 03:38:02 AM »
How many times a day do you fap
This was the first time I have in over a month. Feels bad but I also have this weird placebo type deal built up in my head from years of failing/starting nofap where I feel guilty and drained if I DO fap
970
« on: December 20, 2016, 03:14:14 AM »
Cumming inside of a woman=feel accomplished
Cumming into a paper towel in your bathroom by yourself=feel drained of life force energy
I'm gonna speed up the replenishing process by taking lots of zinc and only eating veggies/fruits tomorrow
971
« on: December 19, 2016, 11:43:20 PM »
Gone too soon 
972
« on: December 19, 2016, 11:38:00 PM »
Pipperoni pizza pal
973
« on: December 19, 2016, 01:10:47 PM »
So much money smh
2-3 nights a week
$6000 a month
>He thinks 6k a month is a lot.
Lmao, poor fags should be gassed
6k for a 60 hour work MONTH isn't a lot? Fuck out of my face
974
« on: December 19, 2016, 01:09:33 PM »
Don't worry Loaf I read it
I didn't understand anything but still <3
975
« on: December 19, 2016, 01:08:10 PM »
So much money smh
2-3 nights a week
$6000 a month
976
« on: December 18, 2016, 11:35:17 AM »
I'm being dead srs yo
I drive from my city to a different one a few hours away, drop something off, then come back. A few times a week.
I'm definitely NOT going to take it though. But it was nice fantasizing how it'd be if I did
977
« on: December 17, 2016, 10:49:09 PM »
Real easy stuff, just drivin really
978
« on: December 15, 2016, 03:39:23 AM »
My mom was beautiful when she was young. She used to win pageants and stuff in her late teens early 20s. Her "look" (white/light skinned Latinas with big eyes) is pretty much the type I'm attracted to right now.
My young-dad was not good looking. He wasn't BAD but he wasn't handsome(my mom has told us this too). But he had a badass vibe to him idk. 6'1" broad shoulders, had a motorcycle and was really tough.
979
« on: December 15, 2016, 03:09:56 AM »
Anyone reading this who goes to the gym just know the big guys are ALWAYS judging you!!!!!
980
« on: December 15, 2016, 03:08:11 AM »
I'm experimenting with different flannel colors. Current fav is my tight dark red one with light slim jeans and blacked out shoes
981
« on: December 15, 2016, 03:06:20 AM »
Buttoned up Red flannel
Thick winter coat
Dark slim jeans
^^^^^^Fancy looking^^^^^^
Open Green and black flannel
Black undershirt
Jeans
^^^^^^^casual chill look^^^^^^
982
« on: December 12, 2016, 11:55:01 PM »
I'm currently renovating a home and learning how to install wood flooring
Next week I'll be on a farm shoving my fist up a cows ass
I feel like a buff Mike Rowe
983
« on: December 12, 2016, 01:42:06 AM »
Compassion>>>>
984
« on: December 12, 2016, 01:39:34 AM »
I've never even heard this quote in my fucking life
985
« on: December 09, 2016, 01:56:53 AM »
White people made achievements in history so HEH, that means we're the superior race. It's just facts, kiddo. The blacks haven't achieved anything!
What, slavery? That wasn't ME. I didn't enslave anybody! Why are you trying to make me take credit for things I didn't do???
White people are the superior race because they're more attractive. And life is all about the face everything else is just cope
Facts~ it's over boyo
i dunno, asians are pretty beautiful
I was just being silly with this btw, I think latinas are the most gorgeous women Asians are very average to me, but I find mixed asians crazy stunning
986
« on: December 09, 2016, 01:46:50 AM »
I like their song "Shepherd of Fire" it goes hard af and is great for hype
987
« on: December 09, 2016, 01:43:09 AM »
Going from a synthetic testosterone fueled sex drive back to a normal one makes me feel meh
988
« on: December 09, 2016, 01:38:59 AM »
My girl is paranoid that I'm gonna cheat and I'm paranoid she's gonna cheat
This ain't good smh someone's gonna end up cheating for no reason
989
« on: December 09, 2016, 01:37:01 AM »
White people made achievements in history so HEH, that means we're the superior race. It's just facts, kiddo. The blacks haven't achieved anything!
What, slavery? That wasn't ME. I didn't enslave anybody! Why are you trying to make me take credit for things I didn't do???
White people are the superior race because they're more attractive. And life is all about the face everything else is just cope Facts~ it's over boyo
990
« on: December 07, 2016, 02:11:43 PM »
No but sometimes I wake up and be like "meh :/"
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