Very strong pill. Only Half at 8:20pm and was peaking hard 10:30pm-2am

Anyways it was a great night lots of fun. But right before my peak come up I got really anxious/sad. And I asked myself what I was doing with my life. Then I had the realization that literally ALL that mattered was the present moment. That's all I can experience. The past is gone, it's just a collection of present moments being remembered IN the present moment. And the future is just a projection. Of possible present moments that may or may not ever exist. And I was in complete euphoria with this realization and I had wave of chills all throughout my body.

And in this euphoria i thought of what I'm doing with my life. And I realized that while I DO see myself as very far ahead of most people in my age bracket(better looking, taller, stronger, more will power, more intelligent, great socializer, more life experience, bigger perspective, more opportunities because of parents, more loving, etc), I'm not using it to my full potential. I may be very far ahead of most people, but I'm also a HUGE PUSSY compared to others.

There are very disciplined men out there. Tough men. Who have been through things I can not even imagine. And they have less opportunities than I do, but somehow they do MORE with those limited opportunities. And I need to grow up and be a fucking man. Not some pleasure seeking spoiled brat. Who complains and whines when it's not that hard. Time to grow up.

you're an egoist

you might be tall and muscular (literally useless traits) but you're far from this charmastic intellectual you keep insisting on

Not once have I seen Jive try to insist that he's an intellectual. What you even talking about?

Fuck where you're from

But I'm actually trying to move past the looks are everything chapter in my life!! Believe it or not. Those are my opinions and experiences from 2014-2016 and while they do still bleed through to my beliefs, I'm trying to rid myself of my ego. Or lessen it or whatever

i'm calling it.


jive one day will get fat.

Quote from: SecondClass on January 01, 2017, 11:34:00 PM

you're an egoist

you might be tall and muscular (literally useless traits) but you're far from this charmastic intellectual you keep insisting on

i disagree. Very useful traits.

I used to be short, skinny, much more unattractive. And now that I look like I do, the difference in my life is night and day. You get treated SO differently when you're one of the attractive people it makes me mad actually. People are nicer to you. You get invited out more, more respect. You make more connections and generally it just becomes very pleasant to be around people, because everyone likes you more.

It's something that's hard to grasp if you haven't experienced both ends of the spectrum.

Being tall is super unattractive. Same with musculature.

Being attractive has value, being tall/muscly doesn't.

Is this the lead up to where you sign up to build houses in africa as an aid worker?

You should reflect on the scope of your ego and contemplate the value of humility.

NORMIE GET THE FUCK OUT

Quote from: Desty on January 02, 2017, 12:46:00 AM

Quote from: Aether on January 02, 2017, 12:36:58 AM

You should reflect on the scope of your ego and contemplate the value of humility.

NORMIE GET THE FUCK OUT

you've gone incoherent

Nah, man, it's normie Zen wisdom

When did it become cool to be a self-absorbed cunt?

Late 2015

Oh wait, my name ain't fucking Peter Griffin, and I do workout. As for the girlfriend and money part, I haven't got the time or the money.

>mdma induced epiphany

this is why i hate drug users.

it doesnt give you insight into jack.

It can give you some kind of emotional insight into yourself, and how you relate to other people.

But this is just Jive being Jive.

every new jive thread is an episode of a sitcom i would love to watch