Honestly, pretty much fifty is alright. For most past fifty the detioration really piles on. Anything past that would have been an exercise in waiting for a clock to wind down while it also broke apart at the same time. Not a bad way to go. Still kinda prime, but not way past prime.

Since music is pretty much the only thing that registers with me anymore, I gotta say, that drum opening is absolutely bitchin.

Had to bail from camper since I couldn't maintain a temperature above zero. No decorations in there anyway. But I did get a box of stuff from my work buddies. Just some junkfood and stuff, still really nice to compliment my coffee and bleach for the holidays. I wanted to bake a bunch of shit for them but got fucked over by current medical rubbish, which sucks.

Nothing to write home about other than this being a successful test of some theories I had about scaling, perspective, and lighting in regards to my 3d engine.

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Campers count as vehicles if they move.

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Gutted my old motorhome early in the spring right before my sister's husband passed away.

I can smell these pictures

Best laugh I had in a while I think. Yeah, I can too. Camper gets all the cleaning attention and the car freshners.

Campers count as vehicles if they move.

Gutted my old motorhome early in the spring right before my sister's husband passed away.

Do you feel that this year had made you see life from a different perspective? Has this year help you grow into a much better person? And what do you wish best for 2021?

My perspective changes quite a bit all the time. Four, five years ago I was an entirely different person. In the span of this year alone, things have changed quite a bit as well. I think much of my perspective is similar to what it was, but it's got harder defined edges.

Better? Hard to say. I've always had the tendency to try and help people. No matter how bad off I was, somehow that part of me stayed intact. I made a lot of mistakes in the past, and I've done things that I regret severely. If I stand here to admit that, then it means I acknowledge my weaknesses and failures. So I suppose that fits the bill of growing to be a better person, even if it feels like I've started over from zero.

I'm not a particularily wishful person, nor hopeful. But I'd like it if the plans I'm putting together come to pass. If they do, it means I'd be able to help those I care about in greater capacity. At this point all I ask out of life is the capacity for me to help in the greatest magnitude I can. If I could achieve that in 2021 then I'd have the rest of my life to really find out how far I can push things.

That's probably because a lot of people don't sit round and ponder their favorite shows too much. Some will, but they won't really go too deep either. You're probably one in a handful that I've met who would sit round and ponder deeply. Only others I've seen are a few popular youtube names, and I think even to a degree they miss huge chunks of the media they watch. That and different strokes for different folks. Shows attract for multitudes of different reasons, even if some people can't see the respective layers. I guess that's the diversity of people for ya.

I don't think I've watched what I'd consider a perfect film or show. Unfortunately japan has it's thing with sex due to their immense repression problems, so that'd probably explain that portion. And as for christian stuff, well, that's the rule of cool at work. That one's unavoidable in any culture I think.

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I was in London two days ago for my connecting flight to Ukraine. Oh boy.

What's got you hopping about?

Can't meet up in Russia or Ireland.

Meeting up in 'neutral waters' was the only option.

Well that sounds interesting. Friends I take it?

Gf. I used to fly over to Russia about once a month but this pandemic put an end to that.
Now we will spend a month in Kiev, which is alright.

Right on. I hope stuff goes well.

With how long I've waited for this movie, and just how important it is to the anime industry; I might finally understand how all those Soyjack Redditors felt when Infinity War came out.

You'll have to explain that one to me. Why's it so important to the industry? I'm guessing if the movie took eight years to animate then it may have something to do with production quality standards in part?

I was in London two days ago for my connecting flight to Ukraine. Oh boy.

What's got you hopping about?

Set my phone loud enough that it can wake me if I manage to sleep. Only one person out here has my number who calls often, so if I miss a call, I will worry and call back instantly. Just me though. I never chance it.

Star Wars fans' assessment of whether a legacy character has been "given the respect they deserve" is based entirely on whether there's a scene of them slashing through enemies with a lightsaber.

Does that statement extend to the likes of R2-D2 or C3PO?

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If I had to guess, it was an ongoing kind of deal right? Either improper treatment or neglect even if the condition was worsening?

I'll just say that the VA needs more attention, that I'm disgusted by a government who creates veterans without consideration for the injuries they incur physically and mentally, a painfully incompetent standard for mental health, and the shortsighted grasp for a continual buildup of capital while casually disregarding the lives of those who generate it. I'm grateful that he's not in pain anymore, but millions more are suffering from the same problem and I'm angry with how lacking society is with compassion and empathy. And there's very little I can personally do to change it, so I donate my time and money where I can and then stew in a motivated misery.

Well over half of the people I met that were fucked up had all of it stem from parents that didn't give a shit about them. I'm not finding you a reason to not be angry. If I sit here and think about all those people and the broader cause for it, of course I'd be pissed. But it's not conductive. You've the right to feel angry. Just don't let it eat you. Don't stew in motivated misery.

You need to rationalize it, like I do. I know that I can't help everybody I come across as much as I'd like to. I have physical, mental and monetary limits. But if I can do it for just one person, that's enough. One at a time, slowly. One life changed, one life helped, some kind of pain eased, even if it's not enough to solve it.

We become overwhelmed with the staggering numbers, when we need to narrow our field of view to what we can manipulate within our parameters. And know that we did the best that we could with what we had. That's enough. And if everybody were like that, we'd be able to fix shit one person and system at a time.

And you have to take care of yourself too. You can't help them if you yourself are sitting in a sinking ship, as hard as it it is not to do.

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Well, wasn't expecting to pop in and find this out. I'm glad you're both alive and moving forward. Even if we can't be proud of who we are or what we've done, we can strive towards being the people we want to be. It will never change the past, but then again nothing can.

I know that all too well. I remember your name, but not much of our interactions. Only that I low-key ship you and Verb. None the less. It's good to see you again too. I'm sorry for what I did, if anything to you, even if it doesn't come across like you've any beef with me. Thank you.

For different reasons I've told my fair share of mistruth so it would be a little hypocritical for me to be upset with you for it. If it's something important, it only matters that the truth comes out. Situationally that can take a while.

And after dealing with death so much recently, it's strangely nice to see someone come back from the dead. An unexpected way to round out the year to be sure.

Hey, I always figured no people have moral high ground to stand on anyway. We've all fucked up. Although being angry comes naturally. It's what we do with it that matters. On principle I do my best never to leave on words said out of anger. Could be the last time you speak to somebody. And that haunts you. Dunno if I can say I came back. I'm still quantifying what happened out and about. It's very strange for me to be back here at all. I feel so much different to what I was that it feels as if death occurred, and yet here I am, pulling bits of myself back together that remain as they were.

You mind if I ask who you lost? Been a hard year on me too. Three died on me. It truly does make me the last man standing now. I guess I could say the same. Seeing you guys here, alive in particular is just, really nice.

Happened last year, but my dad. Lot of changes in my life since. Still dealing with the consequences of an attempt earlier that year as well. Medical debt seems to be the true American pastime.

Damn. Hate to say "I'm sorry" since it's not like I killed your dad. I just know the feeling. Medical debt and college debt, for certain.

Listen. It might sound like something far away and hollow. I'm trying to ditch my jobs. My concern is being able to fund my sister and her daughter since husband died. If I'm gonna do this shit, I'm going to take it to the maximum that I can, so that they'll never struggle. So that I can fund a friend to challenge the courts and get back her kids. So that I can pull another american out here and get him out of the college debt and useless degree trap. If I ever have the financial ability to do it, and assuming you still owe, then I'll help pitch in to cover your expenses, only if you want.