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« on: February 19, 2021, 10:22:26 PM »
Gods be with yee. Customer service is always a fuckin' nightmare.
I love customer service what are you talking about
Any job I can sit a a desk all day and do no manual labor is a good job
How much do you get paid
I start at $13
I've never had a customer service job that didn't make me want to tie a noose and do a backflip off the chair. Guess it depends on the clientele. Only time people weren't total assholes was when I was painting houses, just picky, which is okay. Guess we're opposites on that front. Couldn't pay me to sit round all day. Have to keep moving otherwise I'll start getting depressed. If you rolled an okay CS job, then count yourself lucky and hope it's not just a calm before the storm deal.
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« on: February 19, 2021, 01:19:30 AM »
Gods be with yee. Customer service is always a fuckin' nightmare.
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« on: February 12, 2021, 02:04:29 AM »
Hey Chak. Thought about stuff some more for ya. Can't say that I know what's up in your life, other than you're dealing with a downward slope at the moment. I've got a couple other points for you to consider. For starters, movement is key. Sitting around and wallowing won't get you anywhere. It'll just feed your negative emotions. Doing something, anything to keep yourself busy helps.
But sometimes we get stuck on our ass too. It's been a tough month for me. I've been out of work for a while and I got some bad news health wise. My heart's likely permanently throttled. My work output goes down because of that, which turned my investing plans from a two year window to about ten. And all the other work on my end is multiplying itself while my effective capacity to do anything is cut in half. There's still that part of me that'd like to give up. Would've done me a service if my heart stopped and finally put me down for good.
But I also know that's the darker part of me I keep in check. It's emotional based. And if there's one thing I know about emotions, it's that they come and go. Think of your life Chak. Is it segmented into years, or does it all sort of wind like a string? I'd figure it's like a string from start to finish. Therefore your emotions aren't segmented either. So while you're feeling shitty now, later down the road, you won't be. I can guarantee you that, pretty much on written contract.
Whatever's up in your life, it's in your power to alter, and even if you feel like a dumpster fire, there's going to be moments where you won't feel like that. It looks like a long hallway now, but it won't look that way forever.
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« on: February 10, 2021, 07:45:03 PM »
I hope you're ready for some text. I'm going to cite two times in my life where I was at my lowest both physically and mentally. The first case was the winter after my significant other was killed. She was one of the only truly decent aspects I had going to my life. There was a future and plans there. All of it got ripped away and that pulled out the one hope I ever had in my life about anything. Compounded with all the other years of bullshit I'd gone through, it all caught up to me. Did a bit of tracking, swiped a shotgun from a farmstead I scoped out, and went off into the woods to kill myself on the coldest night during the winter.
The second time was a few years ago. Let a friend's ashes blow out to sea in Quebec. I made the wrong moves and swiped cash from the wrong person. Got my ass beat to shit by hell's angels bikers. At that point I was wanting to die as well. But I got back up. Put a splint on my leg, was as careful as I could be with what I knew or felt was fractured, and I walked back to the opposite coastline. I started trying again, sorting my shit out, and making plans. The initial time I tried to kill myself after my SO died, I made a promise to her that I'd never let it beat me. That I'd never bend again and that I'd get back up no matter what.
I treat this line of thought as a hypothetical. If I had to go through those bikers again, get my ass beat and busted up to be the half cripple I am today, if it could get the person I loved back, would I do it? Yes. There's nothing I wouldn't do for her. Therefore that extends to my life in principle as well. If there's nothing I wouldn't do for her, then there's nothing I can't do for myself either. She'd want me to get my ass up and fight. She'd want me to learn how to be happy again, and undo or sort my baggage, and re-learn or discover the emotional parts of myself that are burnt out and missing. She'd want me to be alive again, like I felt when she was around. I also have my family to help and protect. To me their happiness is paramount. It's my job to protect them and help them until something kills me. I can't do my job if I'm dead or I'm a depressed wreck.
The point to all of that is, of course life doesn't mean shit to you if you can't feel it, or you feel like you have nothing. But you can always restart from zero. You can start again from nothing. Mainly, what you need to ask yourself is why you aren't happy currently? What feels wrong in your life, and how do you think it got this way? That's where you start at least. When you have that, then you can start thinking about what you can do to change it.
And it's not about asking why. When you ask why, in your condition the only answer you'll get is "I shouldn't bother." What you should be asking is how. How do I get out of this situation?
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« on: February 08, 2021, 10:07:21 PM »
Like, half the old guard of them are banned and drifting around other offsites.
Just how many offsites cropped up and stayed up after bungie made the switch to destiny?
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« on: February 08, 2021, 09:59:55 PM »
Pffffffft, I tried testing the articulation in the legs and the right leg just popped right off.
What a fucking joke.
Does this mean it goes into the cum tribute pile?
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« on: February 08, 2021, 09:58:08 PM »
PC: Rebuilt Asus that wants to be deceased at times
GF: Deceased gamer that'd like to respawn
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« on: February 08, 2021, 09:55:45 PM »
Its all just bots posting at this stage. We are all phantoms in Cheat's mind.
Truly ghosts in the machine at this point. Cheat hasn't posted since Christmas, and that's our site admin lol.
Cheat is in pain
Terrible terrible pain.
I'm actually swamped with work. Have to dose myself with edibles most week nights just to sleep because of the anxiety.
I plan on continuing v3 eventually but yeah... lack of motivation after debugging this work project's dumpster fire repository. Can't say much because of non disclosures, but this internal project I got attached to wasn't planned well, wasn't commented, and has constant cascading compile- and run-time errors I can feel my sanity slipping every time I have to interact with it.
Stay away from Angular's Firebase library, kids.
But this is fine. 
It really is a staple hallmark of coders and website engies to have their sanity undone isn't it.
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« on: February 08, 2021, 01:24:50 PM »
So what happens if Cheat just dies one day and money stops funding this place's upkeep and it just goes offline out of the blue?
Then we all cease to exist.
Well thank fuck for that.
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« on: February 07, 2021, 11:48:05 PM »
So what happens if Cheat just dies one day and money stops funding this place's upkeep and it just goes offline out of the blue?
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« on: February 07, 2021, 11:43:31 PM »
Topic with a lot of broad angles to talk about. I could see it being beneficial for medical reasons, quite a bit actually. Anybody dealing with anxiety or needing therapy of some kind. I can also see it being abused or addictive however. If internet and social media is any indicator, there's your proof. And I can't even begin to fathom the long term diseases that'd crop up.
One of the newer ones cropping up from smartphones lately is coined as digital dimentia. That arises from just brain re-wiring from constant usage. If we're talking full sensory overrides for convincing VR so that users don't get uncanny valley feelings, then I'd imagine you'd open windows to creating something like cognitive disconnects from reality.
Like any tool we make, it has the capacity for something good, but we're too retarded as a species to properly utilize much before we end up goofing it. With some of the newer tech coming out these days, it'll probably be critical that clear rules and boundries are established, which I know probably won't happen.
It still must be done. It would be fun. All the anime for people who are into it.
It's not even really a question of must. Eventually somebody will get the idea and they'll have the resources to make it happen. Yeehaw to the wonders of a new marketable thing.
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« on: February 07, 2021, 11:39:07 PM »
Considering I'm a high school dropout the subjects weren't complicated. Hard to pick one favorite because I loved science and english in equal measure. I was always god fucking awful at math, but I don't think I hated it, just the way it was taught. I find that if I'm actually left to do mathematical calculations on my own, I pick them up decent enough, but only if they're for a subject of interest.
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« on: February 02, 2021, 02:23:47 AM »
Topic with a lot of broad angles to talk about. I could see it being beneficial for medical reasons, quite a bit actually. Anybody dealing with anxiety or needing therapy of some kind. I can also see it being abused or addictive however. If internet and social media is any indicator, there's your proof. And I can't even begin to fathom the long term diseases that'd crop up.
One of the newer ones cropping up from smartphones lately is coined as digital dimentia. That arises from just brain re-wiring from constant usage. If we're talking full sensory overrides for convincing VR so that users don't get uncanny valley feelings, then I'd imagine you'd open windows to creating something like cognitive disconnects from reality.
Like any tool we make, it has the capacity for something good, but we're too retarded as a species to properly utilize much before we end up goofing it. With some of the newer tech coming out these days, it'll probably be critical that clear rules and boundries are established, which I know probably won't happen.
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« on: January 30, 2021, 12:49:47 AM »
Man, it really just kind of hits me going through recorded game history and seeing all old pals that aren't alive anymore. Bittersweet though. Glad I could save some shit to remember them buy.
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« on: January 28, 2021, 11:26:17 PM »
Are you on board with tall vampire mommy?
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« on: January 28, 2021, 01:05:22 PM »
UK has passed 100,000 (official) deaths.
but no, don't bwame poor bowis he's just doin his best. he got bwexit done and that's wat mattews.
Maybe that was the plan all along. He said he'd get brexit done, but he didn't say anybody would be doing the exiting alive.
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« on: January 28, 2021, 01:04:00 PM »
Also this forum is just one big conglomerate of mental illness.
Is anyone here actually diagnosed with anything?
I am. Did it a few times over in multiple provinces just to make sure the docs weren't just quacks.
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« on: January 26, 2021, 11:06:01 PM »
I have approached 5000 miles in my car already
You gotta step those numbers up man. I put three hundred on every day back when I was able to work. Oil change pretty much every two weeks was pretty shitty though.
I'm going to put roughly 3000+ when I drive to Oklahoma to visit my friend later this year. I'm looking forward for that trip.
Hope that goes well for ya. Pack spare tires, oil, and another motor belt if need be. A lot of shit can happen over the span of three thousand miles.
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« on: January 26, 2021, 11:03:48 PM »
Also this forum is just one big conglomerate of mental illness.
You say that like it's unique. Trust me, no matter where you go fucked up people will show up. Sorry about your wasted booze. Make it up for ya if you like. My second and now ex-job's a sobey's liquor store. If you got those somewhere down in the states I'll get ya a gift card or something.
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« on: January 23, 2021, 02:57:47 AM »
That ain't the shit I should be listening to at night, but damn if it isn't some strange kind of cathartic.
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« on: January 23, 2021, 02:27:47 AM »
I have approached 5000 miles in my car already
You gotta step those numbers up man. I put three hundred on every day back when I was able to work. Oil change pretty much every two weeks was pretty shitty though.
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« on: January 20, 2021, 10:29:11 PM »
59th?
So at least 40 years before the magic number? Shiiiiiiet.
We gotta survive to see it bud. I'm calling it ahead of time. Internet is going to meme the shit out of it and get a woman in.
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« on: January 20, 2021, 01:16:11 AM »
The algorithm keeps filling my feed up with cancer, so here's some oddly relevant shit that appears to have aged well.
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« on: January 19, 2021, 02:41:52 PM »
You don't think it's a bit of an overstatement on Trump being the worst?
Not even slightly.
While you're certainly not going to catch me defending Andrew Jackson, it's important to acknowledge that we're talking about two completely different eras here. If you're comfortable with giving Trump extra credit just for being born in the 21st century, where you can't really get away with overtly committing genocide anymore, then you can be my guest, but I'm not so charitable. The fact that we've reached a point in modern civilization where we'll probably never allow another Trail of Tears to happen again is a feather in the cap of society, not Trump.
That said, frankly, I'm perfectly comfortable with pinning 400K+ ongoing COVID deaths on the man who refused to do anything about the issue, and has even contributed to the ongoing culture of complacency that we're continuing to see in this country. Whether you agree or disagree, I think that's a perfectly reasonable and uncontroversial take on the matter.
So yeah. Worst president ever (relative to how good a president ought to be in the current year). I wouldn't call it an overstatement at all, but I'll concede that it's a statement that requires a bit of framing.
Framing indeed. That goes into tricky territory though. If you're K with pinning collateral deaths on the president then you've got to hold all the others accountable as well for their respective decision making. If that's the case, every president has a high body count if we count military activity deaths, homeless deaths, and all the other crap that's systemic in society, or respective crisis's. Trump's an idiot to be certain, and the worst kind to boot, an economically minded one. But he's also a symptom of a greater issue at hand. I'm relatively impartial to Trump because he could be replaced by other people as a result of the same symptoms. Not exact likenesses, but they'd do their own special lasting damage I'm sure. Silly to hate the man when he's interchangable with all the other idiots. Idiots voted in by the country, idiots propped up by the corrupt government parties and their backers. Jackson would've been the same. Not the cause of the disease, but the result of the disease. Same as Trump is. I gotta laugh at that Verb. (relative to how good a president ought to be in the current year) As if any of them were ever capable of being good by today's standards. They're all reflections of society. And I don't have to say the punchline about what kinda state society is in.
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« on: January 15, 2021, 06:11:18 PM »
All this buff power armour and you don't at least have one Gears of War character?
I don't like GoW
Consider my day enhanced
I'm just not fond of the designs. I've never played the games either.
You ain't missing much past the first and second. Retrospect I can see that. All sleek armors there.
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« on: January 15, 2021, 04:47:15 AM »
I wasn't really expecting to get hit with what I just did. Thought I'd stop by the archived old bungie.net and take a look at my profile. I found some screenshots I saved of something that me and my SO did together in game. She used a lag switch and we broke out of Valhalla's map boundries.   Fuck me man.
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« on: January 14, 2021, 02:59:48 PM »
The frustration is more from the fact that other movies are airing and coming out, so it feels like Anno and Co. are just morally grandstanding, especially when they’ve already had their own private screening of the movie and comes across as excluding others who have waited eight years for closure.
I know people are stupid and all, but I struggle to fathom being angry enough at a pushed back launch date to bitch about it on twitter or whatever other garbage is out there.
Here I am waiting the fifty or so odd years to get my closure and ya don't see me bitching too much on stalled due dates. I guess I can understand the frustration. Still. Pretty easy to rationalize that they'll get to watch it at some point, unless somebody's getting antsy that they won't make it through corona.
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« on: January 14, 2021, 02:42:49 PM »
I know people are stupid and all, but I struggle to fathom being angry enough at a pushed back launch date to bitch about it on twitter or whatever other garbage is out there.
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« on: January 14, 2021, 01:35:05 PM »
This is just ridiculous political theater, he's not getting convicted when he has literally only a week left.
the goal, of course, is to ensure he'll never able to run again, so the number of days he has left doesn't really matter—it's about destroying his future in politics
it also piles on yet another well-deserved mark of disgrace to the worst president in history, which is also good
You don't think it's a bit of an overstatement on Trump being the worst? Andrew Jackson set a pretty high bar with what he did to the natives and advocated for. Trump advocates a lot of stupid shit but he didn't go for ethnic cleaning(yet or that I know of).
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« on: January 14, 2021, 10:08:41 AM »
This is just ridiculous political theater, he's not getting convicted when he has literally only a week left.
Consider me uneducated, but I've got a theory. If he gets impeached, does that not open the door for legal alteractions later on down the road after his term is up? Trump would be much more vulnerable to legal action after his term was up. But it seems like there's not ever much for legal action taken against ex presidents(maybe due to some constitutional protection writings?)
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