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Considering I mostly lurk here, I never really had any interaction with him, but I appreciated his more serious/level-headed/mature presence.

He seemed like a good guy, may he rest in peace.


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Oh...


Well this sucks
I want to apologize for this post. It struck me that my post comes across as extremely apathetic and that's not what I intended, I just didn't know what to say. I still don't know what to say.

I won't lie, I didn't know him well at all. I didn't have any experiences or interactions with him like some people here are recounting, and I am sorry I never did. He sounds like a loyal and kind soul, and my thoughts and prayers are with his family and friends.




 
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I think I've finally managed to put some words together.

People have been sharing PMs from Sandtrap in memoriam. I wish I could do the same, but almost every conversation I've had with him through private messages has been too personal to share. We trusted each other perhaps a little more than two guys on the Internet should. He's taken a couple of my secrets to the grave, so I intend to take his to mine.

That said, like a few other people, I took him for granted. I wasn't always receptive to his requests for late night convos--half the time (I wanna say), I'd tell him that I was "too busy." Too busy what? Masturbating and shitposting, telling some kid he's a dumbass for liking anime? I really couldn't have spared 10 minutes having a meaningful conversation with this guy, just because he's a little long-winded? Am I that much of a selfish piece of shit?

Apparently, because every time I did engage with Sandy on any subject, it was always meaningful. I always had something to take away. Even if I disagreed with his perspective on something, I respected his ability to articulate it in such an agreeable fashion. As someone who likes butting heads with people, I never felt any compulsion to do so with him--in part because I knew he was going through a hard enough time without me, and because he was a genuinely kind and understanding person who I wouldn't dream of upsetting.

We talked a lot about his cancer, too--which unsettled me intensely, because it was like watching an hourglass. I talked a little bit about suffering and powerlessness in Meta's last Serious thread, and Sandtrap was definitely in mind when I posted that. I hate problems that you can't solve--it's so infinitely distressing to me.

That said, knowing how much he suffered--and, of course, I don't. I haven't the faintest idea, so let me wheel back and say something more accurate. Having been given so many personal accounts of his suffering through these private conversations, it's immensely relieving to know that he'll never have to experience it again.

And, perhaps--depending on how death works, because I've never claimed to know--we could end up having that coffee table discussion about Dark Souls he always wanted after all.

Rest in peace, friend.


 
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i remember at one of my lowest points, i was venting about my life in one of my late-night depressive threads. a lot of people took advantage of my moment of weakness to hurt me, as was deserved, but sandtrap shut them all down. he noticed how fundamentally broken i was and stood up for me. he took our conversation into private and we talked weekly for several months. helped me process my situation and even move past it to where i'm at now. it's hard to describe the level of honesty i had with him... he was distant and trustworthy enough to be completely honest with, almost like a personal jesus you can lay your sins down on. and losing that (the first time) was extremely difficult to cope with. it's not any easier now.

i became a little skeptical of his situation, i won't lie -- at one point, i got an email claiming he was dead, only to see him posting again under another account a few months later. after that i started talking with him less... which i now regret. i always wanted to fly out to see him, but i just never got the nerve to ask him where he was staying or any other basic information. i felt like it would have made it too real.


 
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The Rage....
i read this thread while listening to music and it went to sad shit. WHY GOD? SANDTRAP I HOPE YOU ARE OVERLOOKING US. YOU DONT DESERVE THIS FATE AND NEVER DID YOU MAGNIFICENT BASTARD


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well, that just ruined my week. I really liked sandtrap, he's always been one of my favourite users, even far back in the reach forum/Flood days on B.old. I can't think of anyone with a more laid back level headed demeanor than him. his input on any topic was always a good read, though I will admit, I did sometimes skim read his posts cause he'd drag it on maybe a little too much.

we used to talk more back on Bnet, I didn't know how bad his position was until just recently, but now I feel like shit and regretting that I never shot him a PM to see how he was holding up.

farewell sandtrap. we will all meet again, some day
Last Edit: April 06, 2017, 02:03:12 AM by Boomdeyadah


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He hit me up a few months ago, i think november. I noticed he aluded to being one handed and what not in some vague posts. I asked him how he had been and he said I probably wouldn't like the details, but he hoped I was doing well.

Sandtrap posted on this forum while missing an arm for months......just crazy to think about.

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Oh god, last April was when he got beat up and mugged.


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Rest in peace. Great guy. Always had time to listen to other people's problems here despite what he was going through.  Sad to hear a fantastic human being depart us like that.


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Sandtrap was an amazing guy who had to go through a lot of terrible shit in his life. I am sad to learn that he is gone, but at the same time happy that he is finally at rest. I hope that he has found inner peace in the after life. May he forever be in our memeories. <3 RIP Sandtrap you will be missed, but never forgotten <3


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They say you are what you eat, but I don't remember eating mYsELF
I remember the first time he posted in a picture thread, my first thoughts were
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Although I didn't know him personally, I always read his posts and followed what was happening in his life - and admittedly, I wish I had interacted more with him.
 It was plain to anyone that he was a great guy, RIP.


 
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Can't say I really had the chance to interact with him on a personal level, but always appreciated seeing him around and our casual banter.

May he forevermore rest easy.


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Ya fuckin' ganderneck.
He always seemed to genuinely care for people on here. I know he messaged me more than once about my health issues and depression but I never opened up all that much about it. I really regret that because what small amount of conversation we had was some of the most significant and meaningful conversation I've ever had with anyone on the web.

Now I'm very sad I wasn't able to speak to him one last time. . damn.

R.I.P. Sandtrap, you had a weak constitution but you were still one of the strongest people I've ever met.


 
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I don't have much to add... A lot of my sentiments have been echoed already in this thread. This news hit me a little harder than I expected it would. That being said I take comfort in knowing his suffering is over. He was a friend and a damn fine man. Thank you Sandtrap.


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Very sad news. Even without knowing him in real, it was obvious he was an extremely nice guy.

What is wrong with the world, that a guy as selfless and caring as Sandtrap, had to endure not just everything he went through but suffering at all.

Rest in Peace, Sandtrap.
Last Edit: April 06, 2017, 01:33:20 PM by Luke


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We spoke about three weeks ago and I promised to get him Rick and Morty.

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I remember me and him had a long conversation on b.net just venting our frustrations with the world. At the time I really appreciated it, and after my suicide attempt he gave me a lot of reasons to why my life is worth living, and if he had never told me that I wouldn't have had that to go back to and read. He fought the world hard but the world won. Fuck the world. I know I don't stay in touch with you guys that often but now it feels like I should. You all helped with the biggest change in my life and Sandtrap was no doubt the one who affected me for the better the most. I'll miss that guy. Rest In Peace buddy


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Don't let this ruin your week; seize this week and honor this guy's memory.
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Don't let this ruin your week; seize this week and honor this guy's memory.
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im remembering all of my weird conversations with him now

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RIP my man. Didn't always agree on things but you had my respect.


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I got a letter in the mail from Quin. And some news from his family. He's been cremated. There's going to be a service held for him in the area where he lived in the next two weeks. I'll be going. He also left you guys something. He asked me to withhold it for a bit. Here you go.

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"You always have another option. You always have some direction that you can take. It's something to think about when you're faced with the off switch and wanting to hit it. Glad to see that you're still breathing, Jester."

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I do wish I had another chance to talk to him, but I'm too late. Had I know he would die this year, I would have said something last year.


 
 
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