Quote from: Prime Megaten on October 13, 2015, 11:59:20 PM

What?

you edited your post

the joke doesn't work anymore

HA

GODDEEM

 Reading your threads.

You could always make a Serious thread about comparing analyses of the book. It'd be easier to respond to given that I'm on my phone more than computer nowadays.

right

can i just ask, though--why was it you wanted me to read it so much again?...

That one's best efforts weren't enough, and the most beneficial thing left to do for everyone is to pass away

Quote from: Cindo on October 13, 2015, 11:54:16 PM

>tfw you wanna drink but your on meds so you can't drink

Weigh the pros and cons Cinderp

You know what you want more than drinking

Yeah, but it means I can't drown my emptiness in liquor

On the bright side, way less calories! Woo!

I can't legally pack my Rifle with me for a hike despite the mountains around me having illegal pot grows and mountain lions that have attacked people in the past.

Kinda makes the thought of a hike in my local mountains a little less than a fun. Fall is here, temperatures are dying down, and I'd love to go hike a couple places around here, but the threat is a little to high for Mountain Lions.

It's an amalgamation of things, not a single aspect. Crippling self-hatred, an inability to see myself having a future, and suicidal thoughts constantly plaguing my mind makes everything seem pointless. I've had therapists, taken many types of medication, been to hospitals and all that jazz, but nothing's worked. It's obvious that the only person that can help me is myself, but I don't see the point.

I've accepted since I was eight years old that I would amount to nothing, and that I would die alone, most likely by my own hands. As it stands, there's only a handful of thing keeping me grounded and sane - shitty anime waifus, books, and my own awful writing.

Just some offhand thinking here. I've talked with all sorts of people. Especially about school. I've talked to a lot of people who were the "oddballs" of the bunch. Naturally, all those people grouped together. They just have a way of finding each other.

Reading through this thread fascinates me. Look at the replies. Look at how so many of them share so many similar circumstances. How so many of us share the same thing. We're alone. We don't know where we're going. We don't know how we're going to get there. We don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. We resign ourselves to whatever fate has in store, and we don't believe that it has anything good for us.

And, on top of it all, the majority of us have roots in a mere, simple, out of the way gaming forum. And through some strange circumstance, we all moved here when our respective home lost it's golden touch.

Is it not funny, that we're all strangers from across the world, never having met in person, and yet, we're all here?

And what's truly funny, is that when asked, why we continue to come here, most of us would probably answer with a solid, "I don't really know."

Similar outcasts, always find one another. Don't know how. Don't know why.

But here we all are.

It really is quite nice that we all get to be here together and enjoy eachother's company.

Not having a grasp of my life or future. I have no plans and as soon I try to do something with my self it ends up failing. My job also destroys my hopes and dreams.

Quote from: Cadenza on October 14, 2015, 02:07:52 AM

Quote from: Deadtrap on October 14, 2015, 01:59:48 AM

It really is quite nice that we all get to be here together and enjoy eachother's company.

In some form at least. I might argue that unfortunately, it feels hollow. You come on here and spend some time away with whoever it is you feel like, but at the end of the road, you've gotta get up and go about your shit day. It's a shame. There's times that I've listend to people talk about what's happening on their end.

And, I try to say something decent. But I know they're going to have to leave and face whatever trouble they have on their own. I don't like it too much.

You could call me attatched, maybe. But there are people here who I'd stand by, if I could.

And I would argue that you have it backwards, that no matter how shit life gets, we're still able to wring some enjoyment out of it all. Even if it's only temporary and with people that you don't know beyond a picture and some text, it's still something worth treasuring.

And I feel the same way about wanting to help everyone, that's what makes us human.

Oh yeah, knowing that

A)chances are I won't live to see a permanent colony set up on another terrestrial body
B)i will not live to witness or be a part of human interstellar travel
C)i will not live to see things like the Milky Way-Andromeda Collision
D)everytging anyone does is pointless as everything is going to die eventually

Really puts a  downer on your day

An all encompassing sluggishness that may as well develop into apathy that prevents me from doing anything more than ordinary even though people and myself know I'd be capable of far more.

Quote from: Cadenza on October 14, 2015, 02:07:52 AM

Quote from: Deadtrap on October 14, 2015, 01:59:48 AM

It really is quite nice that we all get to be here together and enjoy eachother's company.

In some form at least. I might argue that unfortunately, it feels hollow. You come on here and spend some time away with whoever it is you feel like, but at the end of the road, you've gotta get up and go about your shit day. It's a shame. There's times that I've listend to people talk about what's happening on their end.

And, I try to say something decent. But I know they're going to have to leave and face whatever trouble they have on their own. I don't like it too much.

You could call me attatched, maybe. But there are people here who I'd stand by, if I could.

Well at the end of the day at least I'll be able to say "at least Deadtrap gave a damn." It has a person to person value, but that value surely counts for something.

A lot of things :/