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Quote from: Jive Turkey on April 26, 2016, 01:56:16 AMHAHA SIKE ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐๐๐ผ๐๐ผwhatever.
Why? You might not have the best self esteem, but you still have a good life. You have people who care about you.
Quote from: Decimator Omega on April 26, 2016, 01:57:46 AMQuote from: Jive Turkey on April 26, 2016, 01:56:16 AMHAHA SIKE ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐๐๐ผ๐๐ผwhatever.look dude I'm sure whatever problem you have isn't as bad as you're making it out to be. The thing is you have a tendency to act like you're so above any suggestion to fix it, it's pointless to even recommend anything to u cause you won't take the advice anyways
Quote from: ALIE on April 26, 2016, 01:58:54 AMWhy? You might not have the best self esteem, but you still have a good life. You have people who care about you.There are a number of factors as to why. First things first my perception of reality feels completely off. Each day I wake up I'm like "oh great, life again." because I don't really have anything good going for me, knowing that I'm pretty much waiting for the inevitable. If anything its a struggle, sometimes I wish I was somebody else, I'm not content with the person I am, the condition I have, and the fact that I can't joke around and grasp sarcasm with others. People who watch The Big Bang Theory always compare me to Sheldon and that gets really annoying.On top of that I'm growing tired of being an introvert and being in front of my computer nearly all day, but I have no where to go, I don't have club meetings until Friday and I only go to school once a week now since my financial aid has been cut and I can't handle more than 12 units unless I'm ready to torture myself each semester. I'm living in limbo basically and the toughest challenge right now is how to get out of limbo. I've also been losing interest in video games overall including game development itself. I'm having a shift between playing music and wanting to make video games, music coming back to my life with the guitar is like visiting an old friend in a sense, with that said I still want to finish what I started at the club, I just don't know what to do with my life anymore.Granted, I have people that care about me, believe me I am grateful for that. But I feel like saying it and actually caring are two different things. Maybe I think too deep but I always feel like people secretly have to hide something about me that they rather not admit to me at face value. I mean my ex said she cared and I'll never truly know if she really did or not, I know I cared about her. I've just been really jaded and find it really hard to enjoy anything anymore.Oh and therapy isn't really working. I feel like the therapist wants me to be someone that I'm not to a degree.I know everyone here has problems of there own, but sometimes I feel like people here in some way, have things going much better than I ever will.
Quote from: Decimator Omega on April 26, 2016, 02:11:14 AMQuote from: ALIE on April 26, 2016, 01:58:54 AMWhy? You might not have the best self esteem, but you still have a good life. You have people who care about you.There are a number of factors as to why. First things first my perception of reality feels completely off. Each day I wake up I'm like "oh great, life again." because I don't really have anything good going for me, knowing that I'm pretty much waiting for the inevitable. If anything its a struggle, sometimes I wish I was somebody else, I'm not content with the person I am, the condition I have, and the fact that I can't joke around and grasp sarcasm with others. People who watch The Big Bang Theory always compare me to Sheldon and that gets really annoying.On top of that I'm growing tired of being an introvert and being in front of my computer nearly all day, but I have no where to go, I don't have club meetings until Friday and I only go to school once a week now since my financial aid has been cut and I can't handle more than 12 units unless I'm ready to torture myself each semester. I'm living in limbo basically and the toughest challenge right now is how to get out of limbo. I've also been losing interest in video games overall including game development itself. I'm having a shift between playing music and wanting to make video games, music coming back to my life with the guitar is like visiting an old friend in a sense, with that said I still want to finish what I started at the club, I just don't know what to do with my life anymore.Granted, I have people that care about me, believe me I am grateful for that. But I feel like saying it and actually caring are two different things. Maybe I think too deep but I always feel like people secretly have to hide something about me that they rather not admit to me at face value. I mean my ex said she cared and I'll never truly know if she really did or not, I know I cared about her. I've just been really jaded and find it really hard to enjoy anything anymore.Oh and therapy isn't really working. I feel like the therapist wants me to be someone that I'm not to a degree.I know everyone here has problems of there own, but sometimes I feel like people here in some way, have things going much better than I ever will.Sounds like you're just in a rut, why should that make you hate your whole life?Honestly, people in general are less underhanded than commonly believed. They're blunt and rude for the most part. If someone didn't like you, they'd probably just say it. And if someone says they care about you and yet there's nothing they can gain from you, they're probably being sincere.The only question you have to ask yourself is whether you're being sincere. Are you acting as yourself, presenting to others who you really are? If so, any care or positive comments anyone gives you are legitimate. If not, they're only caring about who you're pretending to be. And yet sometimes you have to pretend. That's the big paradox.
Thing is its just really hard to keep contentment. In one way or another, I just feel like I keep failing someway somehow.
Quote from: Decimator Omega on April 26, 2016, 02:28:29 AMThing is its just really hard to keep contentment. In one way or another, I just feel like I keep failing someway somehow.Failing in what? Do you feel like you have to garner accomplishments to be content?
Quote from: ALIE on April 26, 2016, 02:36:21 AMQuote from: Decimator Omega on April 26, 2016, 02:28:29 AMThing is its just really hard to keep contentment. In one way or another, I just feel like I keep failing someway somehow.Failing in what? Do you feel like you have to garner accomplishments to be content?No. I just feel like I'm failing overall as a person. Like no matter whatever decide to do, may it be have a new job, go to school, its never enough and it will never be enough. I could be just thinking too hard on all this but everyday its rather the same deal, I don't have anything exciting going on.
So, what's up with magnets? How do they work?
Quote from: Decimator Omega on April 26, 2016, 02:42:56 AMQuote from: ALIE on April 26, 2016, 02:36:21 AMQuote from: Decimator Omega on April 26, 2016, 02:28:29 AMThing is its just really hard to keep contentment. In one way or another, I just feel like I keep failing someway somehow.Failing in what? Do you feel like you have to garner accomplishments to be content?No. I just feel like I'm failing overall as a person. Like no matter whatever decide to do, may it be have a new job, go to school, its never enough and it will never be enough. I could be just thinking too hard on all this but everyday its rather the same deal, I don't have anything exciting going on.Sounds like an internal thing, which is lucky for you. Obviously it's still a big deal, but something that can be changed with perspective. I said it earlier ITT and I'll say it again: most of your problems seem to come down to self-esteem. You lack confidence and love for yourself, which is why you feel like you're failing no matter what you do. It's a vicious cycle in a way - self-esteem is largely tied to personal success, which is hard to recognize if you have low self-esteem.You really just need to work on yourself, and forget the external shit. Once you are content with yourself as a person, you can be content with the world. And for you specifically, I think you just need to lower your expectations. You're not perfect, and people will always disappoint you. Learning to expect the very least from people and to accept your own limitations is going to bring you closer to reality, and the reality is that you're not a failure or bad at being a person. You just have autism, low self-esteem, and bad experiences with people, which naturally manifests into a desire to escape. But even if you took the longest vacation in the world, it wouldn't help a thing.
Quote from: ALIE on April 26, 2016, 01:58:54 AMWhy? You might not have the best self esteem, but you still have a good life. You have people who care about you.There are a number of factors as to why. First things first my perception of reality feels completely off. Each day I wake up I'm like "oh great, life again." because I don't really have anything good going for me, knowing that I'm pretty much waiting for the inevitable. If anything its a struggle, sometimes I wish I was somebody else
I'm not content with the person I am, the condition I have, and the fact that I can't joke around and grasp sarcasm with others. People who watch The Big Bang Theory always compare me to Sheldon and that gets really annoying.
On top of that I'm growing tired of being an introvert and being in front of my computer nearly all day, but I have no where to go,
I've also been losing interest in video games overall including game development itself. I'm having a shift between playing music and wanting to make video games, music coming back to my life with the guitar is like visiting an old friend in a sense, with that said I still want to finish what I started at the club, I just don't know what to do with my life anymore.
Maybe I think too deep but I always feel like people secretly have to hide something about me that they rather not admit to me at face value.
I mean my ex said she cared and I'll never truly know if she really did or not, I know I cared about her. I've just been really jaded and find it really hard to enjoy anything anymore.
Oh and therapy isn't really working. I feel like the therapist wants me to be someone that I'm not to a degree.
I know everyone here has problems of there own, but sometimes I feel like people here in some way, have things going much better than I ever will.
Man up.
Quote from: Dapper Droid on April 26, 2016, 09:42:38 PMMan up.Literally the worst thing you can say to someone like this. You need to grow up.
Quote from: SecondClass on April 26, 2016, 09:45:03 PMQuote from: Dapper Droid on April 26, 2016, 09:42:38 PMMan up.Literally the worst thing you can say to someone like this. You need to grow up.What else should you say? Go to therapy? He already is. The only thing left he can do is forcefully get his mind over it with help from his therapist. Or in simpler terms, man-up.
He shouldn't be changing who he is or denying his emotions.
He should be expecting less from everything, it's obvious that he has inappropriately high standards for himself and everyone else.
I'll admit you're right when you say he's paranoid about others' opinions of him, but that's just another example of him being needlessly self-critical.
AMA I hate my life
