I can't accompany her. I leave Florida with baby Alex and I am guilty of interstate family kidnapping.

But we have 6 months, like it or not, and we have a choice. Build a new relationship, or call it a day.

Having the two of us together is best for the children. That may not be possible. But we owe our boys to at least try.

If we separate it will be joint custody. 50% there, 50% here...

CA is a no fault state. That means cheating is irrelevant. I would have to prove the children are in danger, which I couldn't.

I have to stay level headed and not lose sight of what is best for my boys.

You're in California too?

Move to a city.

Are towns and cities not the same thing? If not, I am in a city, and this city sucks.

I'm beginning to lose it. I have over a million things to think about in my life and I can never rest because of it. I'm not even a busy person so to speak.

It's the same shit for me everyday. Nothing but getting on the internet. There is nothing new in my life. My town sucks, the people living in my town suck and there is nothing fun to do here, and having to put up with this crummy place since the day I was born makes me regret being alive if I can't even get off the ground and support my own ass by leaving.

Hell, I don't even know where I'm going with my life anymore. I at least go to college, but that's only 2 days a week for my digital sculpting and 3D Character Animation classes.

I'm still actively looking for a job but no one is calling back.

I remember why I used the internet to escape. Sadly it's a false escape. I just feel like I'm in limbo the entire time. Nothing ever seems to fracking change no matter what I try to do.

For fracks sake I can't even help people anymore with their own personal problems like I used to. I'm losing it!

I haven't been happy for a long time, I may have a few occasional laughs here and there but that's about it. I'm usually just bitter and mad mainly because a good amount of blows to the head will frack anyone's brain up. If not in a physical way then in a mental way. Perhaps both.

Growing up in middle school and being forced into becoming an outcast at 12-13, I wanted to kill myself. Because going to school everyday was fracking torture. Not because I had to learn no, but because I would get beaten up every fracking day. It was like prison minus the showers and minus staying there for 25 years to life. Hell if showers were mandatory in PE I'd probably get anally raped. And of course, the staff didn't do jack shit. If anything they would go against me saying that it's my fault.

So me being 13 and not knowing how much of life is out there, I honestly thought killing myself would be the perfect thing to do. If I didn't get any help I would have attempted it.

By the time I was in 8th grade and I was turning 14 soon, I just didn't care anymore. I couldn't put up with people's shit. I got really bitter and really mean, like how I am right now. This one kid decided it would be a good idea to make fun of me. I got so mad that I used my skull to headbutt him, hard.

Let's just say after that nobody fracked with me, expect for a few assholes that were to dense to get it. I got in trouble often in 8th grade, but I didn't care. I was hoping I'd get my ass expelled but no. Just a fracking referral and dentition.

After middle school I switched to independent study for 2 years to get my schooling done and then switched to a continuation high school in order to rack up on credits and graduate early.

And here I am now in adulthood. I feel like I've been through so much and have accomplished my escape from hell, but in reality I haven't accomplished jack shit. Aside from one Student Award that I earned during my high school graduation, if that even counts.

I feel worthless. Alone with my thoughts and half the time I even begin to annoy myself just for being me because throughout my life nearly everyone has found me to be a really annoying individual.

I'm looking back to my past thinking "Was it wrong that I made the choice not to kill myself and just suffer through hell?"

Nothing is obviously stopping me from killing myself right now, but I know it's not the answer as far as my adulthood goes. Maybe it was when I was a teenager, but I don't know about now.

No need to be alarmed if anyone cares, I'm not going to kill myself anytime soon. Though to be fair I do think about it often when I'm depressed.

I'm most likely going to get help if things don't get better for me.

What do you think Flood? I'm not asking for advice, I just need to kinda vent this out a little. If I'm asking for anything, it's your opinion really.

Quote from: Nuka on October 01, 2014, 02:06:51 AM

Quote from: Blackbox Rob on October 01, 2014, 02:05:51 AM

Quote from: Nuka on October 01, 2014, 02:00:24 AM

You don't need to be 27+. I helped my buddy get it when I was either 24 or 25.

Can we be buddies and you help me?

No.

You HORRIBLE HUMAN PIG SMELLY! HOW DARE YOU MAKE FUN OF AN IRKEN INVADER?

GAIS!!!!!!

WHAT IF BUNGIE REALIZED THEY MADE A MISTAKE BY WORKING WITH ACTIVISION AND DECIDED TO MAE DESTINY CRAP IN ORDER TO BE UNPROFITABLE AND ACTIVISION HAVING TO GET RID OF THEM?!

That would be company suicide. I could have sworn in their contract that they own the IP and not Activision.

But if there is some loophole bullshit in there, Bungie is really done for. I don't see them taking over the world anymore.

They can always improve the situation with the second release, and it wouldn't be such a crazy situation where a franchise drastically improves with a sequel (or flops completely with one). A good example that comes by my head is the Terminator franchise, as the original movie was received much less than the success of its sequel, which sparked a bunch of sequels, and a whole series.

I think it's early to throw the towel, and think that Bungie's done for.

Hollywood may have it's tricks to getting it's sales right, but that's not how game studios let alone game development works.

If Bungie doesn't get more than $500 million back on sales, they're in trouble. I'm surprised they even managed to stay afloat after Halo Reach because Halo Reach had it's price dropped in less than a month, at least in my town. Not to mention they released a demo because it wasn't selling. Try to find a demo version of Halo 3 or Halo 3 ODST or hell even Halo 4, they don't exist.

Bungie forgot a final step to add after their 7 steps of world domination.

Step 8: File for bankruptcy.

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 01, 2014, 06:43:14 PM

Quote from: BC1096 on October 01, 2014, 06:36:55 PM

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 01, 2014, 06:31:39 PM

Quote from: BC1096 on October 01, 2014, 06:25:15 PM

Spoiler

Hai

One day I'll post a shirtless pic for the hell of it, but that's require for me to be drunk haha

Ugh. No. I swear if you're one of the many in this generation that say "Swag" you're nothing but a ghost to me.

What?

If you don't know what I'm talking about, then I was wrong. My big mistake.

I'd explain but I think I'd leave you in a bigger state of confusion.

I mean, at least try and explain. Please lol

Okay....

This is a possible chance that you might get offended.

The guys that randomly say they have swag and act all trashy and use the acronym YOLO without knowing the meaning. Well....

You almost dress like them. I don't know if it's just today's generation or what, but usually the people that say that kind of shit. They dress like that.

inb4banhammer.

I'm just gonna leave this here.

Not sure why i'm finding this funny, dam, humor can take you to the next level seriously.

...

Quote from: Mega Sceptile on October 01, 2014, 05:42:27 PM

Quote from: Death on October 01, 2014, 05:11:40 PM

This is why I never want to get married.

Not all women are like the bird charlie married. You might be lucky.

I've just seen it happen time and time again. So i figured the probability of finding an honorable woman is very slim. So despite how unhappy just going on dates will be, I think it will save me in the long run...

I am the same way. In this day and age especially in this generation, finding the right girl is next to impossible.

Quote from: Zizzy on October 01, 2014, 06:36:19 PM

Quote from: Vien on October 01, 2014, 06:34:30 PM

Quote from: BC1096 on October 01, 2014, 06:34:10 PM

Half say yes, half say no.

I have no clue.

Is it necessary to make another?

What's the harm? Shitposting is allowed.

Yeah the mods discussed this a while ago. There's none of that designated thread shit. Let the duplicates run wild.

*sigh*

Quote from: Death on October 01, 2014, 06:12:19 PM

Breath, Eat, sleep, and just stop caring so much.
The less I started caring the happier I became.

This is actually good advice.
It's really hard for me to not care about certain things, but when I do I feel much more at peace mentally.

I wish I could speak the same for me, but sometimes I feel like being angry is what helps me get through in this world.

It's hard for me to be happy.

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 01, 2014, 06:31:39 PM

Quote from: BC1096 on October 01, 2014, 06:25:15 PM

Spoiler

Hai

One day I'll post a shirtless pic for the hell of it, but that's require for me to be drunk haha

Ugh. No. I swear if you're one of the many in this generation that say "Swag" you're nothing but a ghost to me.

What?

If you don't know what I'm talking about, then I was wrong. My big mistake.

I'd explain but I think I'd leave you in a bigger state of confusion.