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Quote from: Decimator Omega on March 22, 2015, 02:21:42 AM

I'm depressed.

When I'm depressed I curl up on the couch, watch Mean Girls, and eat a whole jar of mayonnaise

Cool. I'm just gonna watch something on Netflix then.

Seriously though, stop being depressed

I can't.

I'm depressed.

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Whoa what the actual.....fuck....I feel sick now

Fuck I aint even gunna sip tea....I need water

I don't feel sick at all. I'm too use to this shit. It's too common here in America.

Are you kidding me!? I have never, NEVER heard of a story like this occurring in America.. Surprised this isn't national news. Ripping a baby out of a woman's body like that guy off Indiana Jones with the hearts.. that shit is very uncommon!

I used to think that way too, but the thing is.... this kind of shit happens way more often then you know. Not exactly this, but the way how miscarriages have been done before. Pretty sure this won't be the last time either.

And did you guys forget about the Scott Peterson case already? Only in that one the mom did not survive.

Banks are mobs. We all knows this.

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It's probably just a bunch of search engine bots. There are spiders crawling the site to cache everything and record or every post.

Only forums that cannot be viewed by these guys is the HQ forum and Anarchy.

Also, I get it. Lol the defaults. XD

Only a few of those are crawlers. A few of them are likely people from our advertiser, too, but that does not account for the rest of them, who are, as far as I can tell, legitimate unique visitors.

I think one of those "legitimate" unique visitors just Ddos'd our ass. I couldn't get on here for a good 15 minutes.

If this site goes down I disappear with it. I'm locked out of Bungie anyway so I couldn't go back even if I wanted to.

Support said it was an issue on their end and it was obviously fixed, so...

And this site wouldn't disappear forever. Worst case scenario: the site crashes and is down for a week while I work on setting it back up somewhere else and you lose like...the last day's worth of posts.

What if you run out of funding? What if the site is super inactive one day?

Nothing lasts forever Cheat.

That's why I'm stockpiling ad revenue, mate. We can survive half a year to, dare I say, another year, if we really had to.

Then what after that? And what about the incentive to posting here?

We gotta make a product and sell it. Game, movie, I dunno. Something. Look at Bungie. Why did we join their website? Because of Halo right? Look at Newgrounds. Why did people sign up there, because of the flash content right?

We need an incentive if you wish to attract more people, also if you sell supporter titles for like $10 and the bonus is that removes ads off the site while you get some extra money, it will work. Newgrounds does this for $25 and they're pretty damn profitable.

Quote from: Verbatim on March 21, 2015, 08:52:18 PM

i bet i could do a better malcom than lemon

I'm not even trying to do anything. I've never even seen In The Loop.

And yet ironically you're a lot like him.

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Quote from: Decimator Omega on March 21, 2015, 11:31:12 PM

It's probably just a bunch of search engine bots. There are spiders crawling the site to cache everything and record or every post.

Only forums that cannot be viewed by these guys is the HQ forum and Anarchy.

Also, I get it. Lol the defaults. XD

Only a few of those are crawlers. A few of them are likely people from our advertiser, too, but that does not account for the rest of them, who are, as far as I can tell, legitimate unique visitors.

I think one of those "legitimate" unique visitors just Ddos'd our ass. I couldn't get on here for a good 15 minutes.

If this site goes down I disappear with it. I'm locked out of Bungie anyway so I couldn't go back even if I wanted to.

Support said it was an issue on their end and it was obviously fixed, so...

And this site wouldn't disappear forever. Worst case scenario: the site crashes and is down for a week while I work on setting it back up somewhere else and you lose like...the last day's worth of posts.

What if you run out of funding? What if the site is super inactive one day?

Nothing lasts forever Cheat.

I guess you can say she got...

*puts on sunglasses* 

S\ashed

I'm not.

I'm an actual real autistic edgelord.

You ever want to see the nice side of me, PM me because as far as the board goes, I'm going to start treating the majority like shit.

LMFAO!!!

XD

> All using the same shitty Dell laptop

totes real gais

I don't think WoW requires that much power to play it.

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Too bad I don't care.

Good thing you posted in this thread. It's very important to all of us to know whether you care or not.

I don't care.

Good thing you posted in this thread. It's very important to all of us to know whether you care or not.

Nope. Still no fucks given.

Calm down Armen.

Stop using my real name.

Okay Armen.

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Quote from: Sandtrap on March 21, 2015, 06:41:48 PM

There's something else important to talk about here. And it's best not to wait. Saying, "ho ho ho, pick up a phone if you feel like offing yourself" is easy to do.

Do you know how much effort it took for me to stop leaning over the rails? Even with the knowledge of what I was doing, and what it would cause, I had to fight not to let go. Because when you're essentially past the point of no return, very little can divert you.

Very little can motivate you, and everything around you de-motivates you. When I realized that if I jumped, that I'd be a selfish bastard, I didn't feel good. The only thing it made me do is to continue wanting to jump. That's what depression does at it's lowest point.

It reflects everything back at you.

And after I climbed down from the tower, it took me five days to open up to somebody. Five days of fighting with myself internally to do it.

The point is, when you can talk about how bad you're feeling, you aren't quite at the end of your rope yet. You could be close. But not quite past the point of almost no return. When you hit that point, you're not going to want to talk. You're not going to want to pick up a phone.

So that means we can talk a little bit about stalling things.

Depression, and the end result at its core, is caused by unhappiness. Even in bi-polar people. Even more so in bi-polar people because their emotions are intense. They can be fine, and then the next minute, down. Far, far down.

Unhappiness is caused by not being satisfied.

What causes not being satisfied?

Things not going your way. Stress. Stagnation.

Stagnation is the very root of unhappiness becase when something is stagnant, it is not changing. We as people, are naturally inclined to changes. A changing environment, a change of pace.

To give an example.

Part of the reason why I am so much of a mess right now, is because a huge part of my life is stagnant.

I've been cooped up into a house for roughly 5-6 months now. It's too cold outside to do anything, and I'm deprived of sunlight. My body, physically is degrading both because of winter effects of no activity, and the meds from the doc. And most importantly, I am trying to find somebody to call a friend in my vicinity.

It doesn't matter how capable I am of spending my time even if I enjoy it. The fact that I've been waking up every day to those 4 key things now for quite some time without having visible, forwards progress and only backwards, is leaving its mark on me.

So, essentially, what can potentially divert, and remove or subside depression is change.

Positive change.

It could be learning how to do something new that you enjoy. It can be traveling. It could be meeting new people you get along with.

But the key thing here is, and it's something that you have to take seriously because you have a rapidly closing window, is to pin down what you are unhappy about.

Pin down why you're dissatisfied with your life and what's in it. Find the thing that makes you unhappy, the thing that is staying negative, and then do your absolute best to reverse it.

Go to a concilor if you have to. They can help you with finding out why you're unhappy.

The problem with really finding out why you're unhappy revolves around your sub-conscious. And dealing with the sub-conscious parts of yourself are not easy to do because they're hidden.

Don't wait until you hit the point of no return. See that you're heading there and put your own brakes on first.

That is by far the best advice I have read so far. My life is currently stagnating, I feel like I'm never going to leave this city for good.

Then you have to change that and you have to find a way how. And that's not easy. Cities are designed to be traps. And here's why.

A city is so appealing to most, because of conveinence. You can find food, you can find shelter, you can find technology, and things that you enjoy like TV, easy access to water, power, food, internet. Cities are founded on the principle of ease of access.

But, in order to benifit from what you want in a city, you have to pay for it. So, in order to pay for it, you acquire a job. Which is another trap. Because you become dependant on the influx of money that the job is giving you, no matter how much, or how small.

And the bills, the costs for everything, are fine tuned well enough so that you have just barely enough to make it. Barely enough to pay for it. Now, cities aren't such a bad thing, if that's your thing. But the problem is always monetary. And that's how they trap people, because in order to function, a city needs people working.

It's a carefully executed bargain.

It's how much a person is willing to give up of their time, in order to have access to all the wonderful things they want. That's what money is, and that's what having a job is.

Now, some people save up. And they move to a new city. A fresh location. Some people get jobs that pay a lot in return for more of their time and focus, and then take vacations at the end of the year. Some people have a partner. Arguably a partner makes the world more tolerable.

But the real key here, is finding something you enjoy doing, and monetizing it.

Because personally, I don't wager you'd do well in an environment like mine.

And that's the truth. There's city life. And then there's small town/out in the boonies life.

Of course, there is the life of being rich. All doors become open to you the richer you are. But in order to be rich, you have to give a lot. Your time, your focus, your energy.

Your absolute best bet is one of two things.

Find a job that you like, in which case it is no longer a job but a hobby.

Or find a hobby that you can monetize.

The only actual way to beat the system at it's own game is to play a part of it. But do it smart. Don't aim for some shitty retail job and go hur dur money.

That's an empty life, and one of being illusioned. Find something you really enjoy, or you're really good at doing, and push it.

Or, pack your shit up and abandon it completely. Hitchhiking to a new place. But, that's not safe these days. The world's a lot meaner.

Basically, focus on what you enjoy. Find something you're good at. And then go for it.

To me, you seem like somebody who would fare better in a city.

But your life will change if you're doing something you enjoy and making money from it. And it'll change exceptionally so if you find a partner to share it with.

I see, and I know. I already found the love of my life. I just need to be with her.

I had to....

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Deci, you would probably murder someone just to be a moderator here.

No. No I wouldn't.

I'd rather take the time to study advanced code, break into Cheat's profile, break into the backend of the site, change the numbers around, and become the new admin of Sep7agon while I change the password of the backend server preventing Cheat from accessing it.

Then I would sell a product and Sep7agon becomes the next Bungie with fanboys and desticles everywhere instead of just a bandit of old farts.

It never will happen though because all you do is talk shit.

If you took that whole paragraph seriously then you're an idiot.

You should consider killing yourself along with challenger actually.

Wow Armen you're really hurting my feelings.

Kill yourself.

Armen what the fuck man? I thought we were friends?

Drop the act. We were never friends you delinquent.

What act? I always considered you my best friend. Not sure what you're talking about.

Shut up. You wouldn't know what real friendship is if it bit you in the ass.

Biting people's asses isn't a good way to make friends.

It's a metaphor you stupid woman.

Ay, you don't speak to my lover like that.

YouTube

You watch your tone around my maiden, you trog.

Never ever.

Reported.

You fool. We don't need any mods!

get banned you sexist pig.

No.