i just died in your arms tonight

it mustve been something you said

just turn off your emotions with drugs, alcohol, and obsessing over tv shows

mental distractions are the best way to keep depression subsided

Quote from: Joyce Byers on August 13, 2016, 12:04:40 AM

just turn off your emotions with drugs, alcohol, and obsessing over tv shows

mental distractions are the best way to keep depression subsided

thats actually what ive been doing for the most part

you may have noticed (or may not have) but ive kinda mellowed out recently and im feeling a lot better, depression-wise at least

i guess im just regretting my life so far because i couldve been actually living had i had these inhibitions removed a long time ago

idk i feel like my life can finally start now but its too late to have the experiences everyone else already had

what experiences are you talking about? Nothing you can do at 15-20 that you can't do at 20-25

except like prom and all that, but I assume you did that

Quote from: ⊿ Eli on August 13, 2016, 12:06:36 AM

Quote from: Joyce Byers on August 13, 2016, 12:04:40 AM

just turn off your emotions with drugs, alcohol, and obsessing over tv shows

mental distractions are the best way to keep depression subsided

thats actually what ive been doing for the most part

you may have noticed (or may not have) but ive kinda mellowed out recently and im feeling a lot better, depression-wise at least

i guess im just regretting my life so far because i couldve been actually living had i had these inhibitions removed a long time ago

idk i feel like my life can finally start now but its too late to have the experiences everyone else already had

what experiences are you talking about? Nothing you can do at 15-20 that you can't do at 20-25

except like prom and all that, but I assume you did that

idk, just experiences. rites of passage i shouldve already gone through. i cant explain it but i feel like i missed something.

i mean yeah i can still do them all but im effectively an adult now. im not going to school when all of my friends and peers are so i feel like theres no time to catch up.

i went to prom yeah but i was miserable cuz i wasnt allowed to bring the girl i wanted to and i was just being lame.

Quote from: ⊿ Eli on August 13, 2016, 12:10:48 AM

Quote from: Joyce Byers on August 13, 2016, 12:08:23 AM

Quote from: ⊿ Eli on August 13, 2016, 12:06:36 AM

Quote from: Joyce Byers on August 13, 2016, 12:04:40 AM

just turn off your emotions with drugs, alcohol, and obsessing over tv shows

mental distractions are the best way to keep depression subsided

thats actually what ive been doing for the most part

you may have noticed (or may not have) but ive kinda mellowed out recently and im feeling a lot better, depression-wise at least

i guess im just regretting my life so far because i couldve been actually living had i had these inhibitions removed a long time ago

idk i feel like my life can finally start now but its too late to have the experiences everyone else already had

what experiences are you talking about? Nothing you can do at 15-20 that you can't do at 20-25

except like prom and all that, but I assume you did that

idk, just experiences. rites of passage i shouldve already gone through. i cant explain it but i feel like i missed something.

i mean yeah i can still do them all but im effectively an adult now. im not going to school when all of my friends and peers are so i feel like theres no time to catch up.

i went to prom yeah but i was miserable cuz i wasnt allowed to bring the girl i wanted to and i was just being lame.

I feel like a lot of people have that missing piece syndrome

you take life too seriously, even if you end up as a hobo and everyone you went to school with become marine biologists, who cares? You do what you want, not what will make you comparatively successful

marine biologist is a shitty career anway

Have fun living on a boat looking at phytoplankton all day faggots

like i never had my rebel phase. i guess im sorta in it now but most of the stuff im doing now is legal for me to do so its not really rebellious.

i never had girlfriends and shit. i had girls in my life but i have bad taste so they always fucked me over, and anything less than complete infatuation wasnt worth it to me. id get bored as soon as they reciprocated.

never really partied. i went to parties but i ws always the guy watching kill bill in the basement.

seriously in the sense of letting your sadness get to you

life is the worst thing ever but it's better than accepting the concept of nonexistence

um what

accepting the concept - much less experiencing it - is impossible

if you think it's so great then why wouldn't you just commit suicide?

Quote from: Joyce Byers on August 13, 2016, 12:14:09 AM

Quote from: ⊿ Eli on August 13, 2016, 12:10:48 AM

Quote from: Joyce Byers on August 13, 2016, 12:08:23 AM

Quote from: ⊿ Eli on August 13, 2016, 12:06:36 AM

Quote from: Joyce Byers on August 13, 2016, 12:04:40 AM

just turn off your emotions with drugs, alcohol, and obsessing over tv shows

mental distractions are the best way to keep depression subsided

thats actually what ive been doing for the most part

you may have noticed (or may not have) but ive kinda mellowed out recently and im feeling a lot better, depression-wise at least

i guess im just regretting my life so far because i couldve been actually living had i had these inhibitions removed a long time ago

idk i feel like my life can finally start now but its too late to have the experiences everyone else already had

what experiences are you talking about? Nothing you can do at 15-20 that you can't do at 20-25

except like prom and all that, but I assume you did that

idk, just experiences. rites of passage i shouldve already gone through. i cant explain it but i feel like i missed something.

i mean yeah i can still do them all but im effectively an adult now. im not going to school when all of my friends and peers are so i feel like theres no time to catch up.

i went to prom yeah but i was miserable cuz i wasnt allowed to bring the girl i wanted to and i was just being lame.

I feel like a lot of people have that missing piece syndrome

you take life too seriously, even if you end up as a hobo and everyone you went to school with become marine biologists, who cares? You do what you want, not what will make you comparatively successful

marine biologist is a shitty career anway

Have fun living on a boat looking at phytoplankton all day faggots

You're an idiot.

I calls 'em like I sees 'em. I'm a whale biologist.

1. no means.
2. i have social obligations.
3. im scared of dying.

3 is what I'm talking about

nonexistence is the most terrifying possible thing

fuck 1 and 2, 1 is easily amended and 2 is worthless

you'll grow past it

what a worthless reply

Quote from: TBlocks on August 13, 2016, 12:49:39 AM

Quote from: ⊿ Eli on August 13, 2016, 12:27:29 AM

then my friends are coming over for laser tag so cant really complain

fuckin' right

do you know what time youre going to swing by?

Very much depends on when I wake up. I'd probably head out between 10:00 - 11:30.
I also need you to text me your address.

Quote from: ⊿ Eli on August 13, 2016, 12:51:10 AM

Quote from: TBlocks on August 13, 2016, 12:49:39 AM

Quote from: ⊿ Eli on August 13, 2016, 12:27:29 AM

then my friends are coming over for laser tag so cant really complain

fuckin' right

do you know what time youre going to swing by?

Very much depends on when I wake up. I'd probably head out between 10:00 - 11:30.
I also need you to text me your address.

will do. just hmu when you decide to wake up.

bren and i are going to raid a few pawn shops is youre interested in joining. just killing time until mark and potentially liam show up.

Quote from: Joyce Byers on August 13, 2016, 12:50:59 AM

Quote from: ⊿ Eli on August 13, 2016, 12:45:58 AM

1. no means.
2. i have social obligations.
3. im scared of dying.

3 is what I'm talking about

nonexistence is the most terrifying possible thing

fuck 1 and 2, 1 is easily amended and 2 is worthless

well i actually care about people so it matters to me

being scared of dying isnt the same thing as fearing nonexistence. one is a process and the other is a concept.

I guess that makes sense

and the process just involves physical pain though, and maybe not even that depending on the means

Quote from: Joyce Byers on August 13, 2016, 12:52:08 AM

Quote from: ⊿ Eli on August 13, 2016, 12:51:10 AM

Quote from: TBlocks on August 13, 2016, 12:49:39 AM

Quote from: ⊿ Eli on August 13, 2016, 12:27:29 AM

then my friends are coming over for laser tag so cant really complain

fuckin' right

do you know what time youre going to swing by?

I always forget you two know each other

yeah man hes one of my oldest friends

I would be embarrassed af if someone I knew saw my posts on here lol