I don't talk as much when I meet new people.

I hold back my feelings which makes people think I'm sad or mad.

I have an intense fear of rejection that deters me from doing a wide variety of things.

That's actually very surprising, given your 0fucks attitude online.

OOOOOoooh

And I dislike being lonely, but at the same time, I honestly find it hard to try and talk to new people. So I want to talk to my friends, but I feel like a burden doing so because they're all with a significant other and I'm not. So in the end, I have to feel lonely.

My falsely convey things that I'm not purposefully trying to convey, due to a form of a dissociation from most people and things. If that makes sense, tends to happen more so online.

Yay communication skills.

I don't think there's any such thing as overprotection--I guess it would have to be defined to me. Perhaps that's another flaw of mine, and I don't know it yet.

I'm an idiot.

I'm a smartass

Quote from: Prime Example on June 14, 2015, 11:45:29 PM

I'm an idiot.

Forgetful? Tactless?

Social anxiety, fear of ridicule, Dysthymia, aphasia, and a problem with understanding conversational stops.

I also refuse to ask for help

Yeah, but I look/feel like one a good bit of the time.

i mean, don't get me wrong

you make dumb choices sometimes

but you're certainly not an idiot

Quote from: Prime Example on June 15, 2015, 12:06:50 AM

Yeah, but I look/feel like one a good bit of the time.

i mean, don't get me wrong

you make dumb choices sometimes

but you're certainly not an idiot

Making dumb decisions is part of growing up, being afraid to talk because you're either going to mess up/forget half your vocabulary at any given moment or accidentally interrupt someone multiple times isn't.

I deal with people that I do not like badly.

Making dumb decisions is part of growing up, being afraid to talk because you're either going to mess up/forget half your vocabulary at any given moment or accidentally interrupt someone multiple times isn't.

Would you say your problem is rooted more in how people will perceive you as a result of these gaucheries, or is it something else entirely? Because I would certainly hope that it's a part of growing up, because I'm in the same boat as you, but my problem is mostly about the former. If I do something stupid, I start convincing myself that everyone hates me now, and is going to start treating me differently based on those little social fuck-ups.

In reality, no one cares, because everyone makes social fuck-ups, and there's not enough time to be concerned about other people's awkwardness. I find that thought a little comforting, personally, and I feel like when I fully grasp that concept--the idea that everyone else is living out their own complex lives, too--I think that's a sign of maturation, or growing up. Because it makes your problems seem smaller and that much less significant.

I can't speak for you, of course, but I mean... I don't know, I just hope you find some way to make it better.

Quote from: Prime Example on June 15, 2015, 12:19:12 AM

Making dumb decisions is part of growing up, being afraid to talk because you're either going to mess up/forget half your vocabulary at any given moment or accidentally interrupt someone multiple times isn't.

Would you say your problem is rooted more in how people will perceive you as a result of these gaucheries, or is it something else entirely? Because I would certainly hope that it's a part of growing up, because I'm in the same boat as you, but my problem is mostly about the former. If I do something stupid, I start convincing myself that everyone hates me now, and is going to start treating me differently based on those little social fuck-ups.

In reality, no one cares, because everyone makes social fuck-ups, and there's not enough time to be concerned about other people's awkwardness. I find that thought a little comforting, personally, and I feel like when I fully grasp that concept--the idea that everyone else is living out their own complex lives, too--I think that's a sign of maturation, or growing up. Because it makes your problems seem smaller and that much less significant.

I can't speak for you, of course, but I mean... I don't know, I just hope you find some way to make it better.

I have actually always struggled with this concept, and my understanding of life is only perforated by brief moments when I can comprehend that others are cogniscently similar to me.

For the most part I consider the minds of others to operate differently, almost as though they were npcs and I'm the player.

Of course the natural response is to blame video games, but I have been dealing with these ideas since I was maybe four or five, before I ever started playing games, and I think it's odd that it makes such a fitting comparison.