what's the cringiest thing you've done that you'll defend to this day

 
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Set up a table in front of a bunch of PETA protester and ate a steak and bacon  in front  of them


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Set up a table in front of a bunch of PETA protester and ate a steak and bacon  in front  of them
i want to do this now but also process game in front of them before cooking and eating it


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i keep thinking of cringey things, but nothing that i'd actually defend


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Nothing? There's a reason why it's cringe, and it's because it was wrong.


 
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Nothing? There's a reason why it's cringe, and it's because it was wrong.
that was my initial response as well, but in thinking about it, i'm actually not so sure

try to think of a learning experience you may have had that resulted in embarrassment, and you can't help but cringe in retrospect, but was still integral to whatever growth you needed to get where you are today

maybe there's still nothing for you, but i wouldn't rule out the possibility entirely

you could also just say liking anime
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Nothing? There's a reason why it's cringe, and it's because it was wrong.
nah there are things you can enjoy while admitting they're cringy

also what the dude above me said


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Nothing? There's a reason why it's cringe, and it's because it was wrong.
nah there are things you can enjoy while admitting they're cringy

also what the dude above me said
I enjoyed it quite a bit though I didn`t know what was happening back then


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His eyebrows sparkling, his white beard hangs down to his chest. The thatched mats, spread outside his chise, spread softly, his splendid attos. He polishes, cross-legged, his makiri, with his eyes completely absorbed.

He is Ainu.

The god of Ainu Mosir, Ae-Oine Kamuy, descendant of Okiku-Rumi, He perishes, a living corpse. The summers day, the white sunlight, unabrushed, ends simply through his breath alone.
Nothing? There's a reason why it's cringe, and it's because it was wrong.
that was my initial response as well, but in thinking about it, i'm actually not so sure

try to think of a learning experience you may have had that resulted in embarrassment, and you can't help but cringe in retrospect, but was still integral to whatever growth you needed to get where you are today

maybe there's still nothing for you, but i wouldn't rule out the possibility entirely

you could also just say liking anime
I've always see cringe as an extreme form of embarrassment; in most cases, something that the source doesn't realize despite any onlooker immediately seeing what was wrong (or in other words, it isn't embarrassment in hindsight even if the source of cringe might do so). These are things that you move forward from, but would never defend.  The only thing you could learn from cringe is to not do the cringe again, which is pretty pointless in terms of defending the initial cringe.

nah there are things you can enjoy while admitting they're cringy
This is the same line of thought as "guilty pleasures". Nobody should feel guilty about things they like, just like nobody should enjoy things that give them extreme embarrassment. Unless that's your fetish, then you do you on your own time.
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Nobody should feel guilty about things they like
wouldn't go that far


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His eyebrows sparkling, his white beard hangs down to his chest. The thatched mats, spread outside his chise, spread softly, his splendid attos. He polishes, cross-legged, his makiri, with his eyes completely absorbed.

He is Ainu.

The god of Ainu Mosir, Ae-Oine Kamuy, descendant of Okiku-Rumi, He perishes, a living corpse. The summers day, the white sunlight, unabrushed, ends simply through his breath alone.
Nobody should feel guilty about things they like
wouldn't go that far
I would. Feeling remorse for the things you like means that you don't truly enjoy them.


 
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i never learned how to drive in high school, but my house was within a 10-minute walking distance anyway, so it wasn't really a big deal at the time—michigan weather wasn't always kind to me, though, so if i wasn't trudging through 10 inches of snow, i was probably freezing to death from the wind chill (and i was too cool to wear boots, snowpants, or a decent jacket)

i was also hyper introverted during my freshman and sophomore years, and the only friends i had were the friends i've always had since elementary school

i started coming out of my shell a little during junior year, though, and by senior year, it felt like i had made friends, or at least acquaintances, with almost everyone in my class, which was great (then that all came crashing down as soon as i graduated but hey, whatever, senior year is the happiest i remember being in the past four years)

that said, i was never great with girls, but only because i never really tried—so by the time i finally decided to ask someone out during senior year, i wasn't well-practiced at all and i still cringe about it to this day

i had a crush on this girl who i met in middle school—she was very quiet and to herself (like me), was a really good student (unlike me), and very pretty in a demure debutante kind of way (a rarity for girls of her disposition), and though she wasn't quite the salutatorian, she was definitely in the discussion

she was really really sweet, too—just the nicest girl you'd ever meet—but she also had this reputation of rejecting every guy who's ever asked her out, and anyone who ever ever tried was lambasted by everyone else for even thinking to corrupt such a pure, pristine, innocent girl

i never ever spoke to her in middle school, we only became somewhat acquainted in high school—we had a couple classes where we sat near each other, exchanging thoughts here and there, that type of thing, never a lengthy conversation

at some point during senior year, though, she got her license—and she would occasionally spot me on my way home from class, and for whatever reason, she just started offering me rides home

i would always accept, obviously, even though it made me incredibly anxious—this is a girl i've been crushing on for years, after all—but it would be very silly for me not to take her up

she would do this rather frequently, and sometimes she'd even drive me to school—i would never ask her, but she would always offer—and we'd always have a pretty good conversation on the way home, where i discovered that, while we may not be interested in a lot of the same things, she seemed genuinely interested in what i had to say, which i can tell, because she asked a lot of good questions

even though i liked and appreciated it, it still fucked with my head, because i couldn't tell if she was just doing it out of the kindness of her heart, or because was she into me, and this was her way of letting me know about it (because she never rode with anyone else)

eventually, i guess the hormonal horndog within me decided it very well may have been the latter—so, after taking me home one night for what must have been the fifth or sixth time, i made a snap decision to ask her out right then and there—but i've never asked anyone out before, and my anxiety through the roof, so i wound up fumbling the execution pretty badly

the way it played out was, she stopped at my door, we said our goodbyes, and i stepped out of the car—but then suddenly, i turned back around before closing the door, poked my head back in for a second, and i either said "uh, hey" or "uh, wait"

she looked at me again, and then i asked her something like, "do you think we could go out some time"

i didn't stutter, i said it confidently, but i instantly felt an explosion of regret well up inside my stomach as i braced myself for her response

the expression on her face was hard to read—she wasn't a very expressive person in general, so i honestly couldn't get a read on her reaction at all—but either way, she gave me a "hmm... maybe!" and drove off

i think "hmm, maybe, we'll see" was her exact response

which of course means "no"
which means she really was just trying to be nice the whole time

so that might be the cringiest thing i've ever done, because it was such a pitiful attempt, but i'm able to defend it because i GENUINELY felt that she was into me, because she was giving me every single indication

she was the only girl who ever shown me any interest whatsoever, and out of them all, she was my crush—so i felt like i had to seize the opportunity

so yeah, cringe—but no ragrats at the same time

another thing—we invited each other to our graduation parties that year, and i went to hers, but she didn't show up to mine—but the very next day, i receive a LONG facebook message from her, apologizing for not being there, and that she just couldn't make it, but she's so sorry, and all this stuff

so i dunno man, maybe she did like me after all, but was just as awkward as me about it, who knows

not that any of it matters now, she moved to the south and got married there last year


 
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Nobody should feel guilty about things they like
wouldn't go that far
I would. Feeling remorse for the things you like means that you don't truly enjoy them.
hmm, idk, perhaps we just think of the term differently

when i call something a guilty pleasure, i'm merely acknowledging that 1.) the thing i like isn't conventionally thought of as "good," 2.) it doesn't technically live up to the quality standards that i've proposed for myself, and 3.) i have to go through a twisty-turny rigmarole in attempting to explain to people why i find it so appealing in spite of everything else

like, golden boy is genuinely the funniest anime i've ever seen—it's the only show that's ever made me laugh out loud at the exact beats where i was supposed to, and i can't say the same about anything else

but it's also golden boy, a show that i'm supposed to hate because it IS everything that i hate

so it's a guilty pleasure—i would never recommend it to anybody who's expecting a little bit more from my tastes


 
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it's also undeniable to me that there exist things that nobody should enjoy, and if you do enjoy it, then you should feel nothing but shame for yourself—kiddie porn, bestiality, free form jazz music


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His eyebrows sparkling, his white beard hangs down to his chest. The thatched mats, spread outside his chise, spread softly, his splendid attos. He polishes, cross-legged, his makiri, with his eyes completely absorbed.

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The god of Ainu Mosir, Ae-Oine Kamuy, descendant of Okiku-Rumi, He perishes, a living corpse. The summers day, the white sunlight, unabrushed, ends simply through his breath alone.
Nobody should feel guilty about things they like
wouldn't go that far
I would. Feeling remorse for the things you like means that you don't truly enjoy them.
hmm, idk, perhaps we just think of the term differently

when i call something a guilty pleasure, i'm merely acknowledging that 1.) the thing i like isn't conventionally thought of as "good," 2.) it doesn't technically live up to the quality standards that i've proposed for myself, and 3.) i have to go through a twisty-turny rigmarole in attempting to explain to people why i find it so appealing in spite of everything else

like, golden boy is genuinely the funniest anime i've ever seen—it's the only show that's ever made me laugh out loud at the exact beats where i was supposed to, and i can't say the same about anything else

but it's also golden boy, a show that i'm supposed to hate because it IS everything that i hate

so it's a guilty pleasure—i would never recommend it to anybody who's expecting a little bit more from my tastes
I find that to be the difference between an embarrassing pleasure and a guilty one; it's okay to feel shame, but not regret. To decide which you're feeling, there's a simple question: "if someone discovered that I enjoyed x, would I feel bad because they found out or because I liked ?"

Like, I don't talk about anime irl (except for mentioning super mainstream stuff, like Dragon Ball); not because I feel regret for liking anime, but because it tends to attract the attention of cringemongers. I wouldn't call it a guilty pleasure because I feel no remorse for liking it, but I do feel remorse for whatever misstep led to a fedora-tipper discovering that I watched some shitty SoL a few years ago.


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His eyebrows sparkling, his white beard hangs down to his chest. The thatched mats, spread outside his chise, spread softly, his splendid attos. He polishes, cross-legged, his makiri, with his eyes completely absorbed.

He is Ainu.

The god of Ainu Mosir, Ae-Oine Kamuy, descendant of Okiku-Rumi, He perishes, a living corpse. The summers day, the white sunlight, unabrushed, ends simply through his breath alone.
kiddie porn, bestiality, free form jazz music
Yes, of course. All these things belong on the same level. 👌👌👌


 
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it all makes sense now
this is literally the only thing anyone ever posts whenever i talk about my life


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Nobody should feel guilty about things they like
wouldn't go that far
I would. Feeling remorse for the things you like means that you don't truly enjoy them.
hmm, idk, perhaps we just think of the term differently

when i call something a guilty pleasure, i'm merely acknowledging that 1.) the thing i like isn't conventionally thought of as "good," 2.) it doesn't technically live up to the quality standards that i've proposed for myself, and 3.) i have to go through a twisty-turny rigmarole in attempting to explain to people why i find it so appealing in spite of everything else

like, golden boy is genuinely the funniest anime i've ever seen—it's the only show that's ever made me laugh out loud at the exact beats where i was supposed to, and i can't say the same about anything else

but it's also golden boy, a show that i'm supposed to hate because it IS everything that i hate

so it's a guilty pleasure—i would never recommend it to anybody who's expecting a little bit more from my tastes
I find that to be the difference between an embarrassing pleasure and a guilty one; it's okay to feel shame, but not regret. To decide which you're feeling, there's a simple question: "if someone discovered that I enjoyed x, would I feel bad because they found out or because I liked ?"

Like, I don't talk about anime irl (except for mentioning super mainstream stuff, like Dragon Ball); not because I feel regret for liking anime, but because it tends to attract the attention of cringemongers. I wouldn't call it a guilty pleasure because I feel no remorse for liking it, but I do feel remorse for whatever misstep led to a fedora-tipper discovering that I watched some shitty SoL a few years ago.


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I find that to be the difference between an embarrassing pleasure and a guilty one; it's okay to feel shame, but not regret. To decide which you're feeling, there's a simple question: "if someone discovered that I enjoyed x, would I feel bad because they found out or because I liked ?"

Like, I don't talk about anime irl (except for mentioning super mainstream stuff, like Dragon Ball); not because I feel regret for liking anime, but because it tends to attract the attention of cringemongers. I wouldn't call it a guilty pleasure because I feel no remorse for liking it, but I do feel remorse for whatever misstep led to a fedora-tipper discovering that I watched some shitty SoL a few years ago.
it's that such things attract cringemongers that'd start making me feel a certain kind of way about my interests

i'd start thinking "oh wonderful, i'm just like them now"

not a good feeling
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it all makes sense now
this is literally the only thing anyone ever posts whenever i talk about my life
lmao😂😂😂

But I meant in your views towards relationships etc
yeah, and that's just part of it

when all of my friends started dating, it was literally nothing but drama—people cheating on each other, hating each other, yelling at each other—i've had one of my friends literally crying over my shoulder over some girl who left him

i decided that it was all just a big hassle


 
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i never learned how to drive in high school, but my house was within a 10-minute walking distance anyway, so it wasn't really a big deal at the time—michigan weather wasn't always kind to me, though, so if i wasn't trudging through 10 inches of snow, i was probably freezing to death from the wind chill (and i was too cool to wear boots, snowpants, or a decent jacket)

i was also hyper introverted during my freshman and sophomore years, and the only friends i had were the friends i've always had since elementary school

i started coming out of my shell a little during junior year, though, and by senior year, it felt like i had made friends, or at least acquaintances, with almost everyone in my class, which was great (then that all came crashing down as soon as i graduated but hey, whatever, senior year is the happiest i remember being in the past four years)

that said, i was never great with girls, but only because i never really tried—so by the time i finally decided to ask someone out during senior year, i wasn't well-practiced at all and i still cringe about it to this day

i had a crush on this girl who i met in middle school—she was very quiet and to herself (like me), was a really good student (unlike me), and very pretty in a demure debutante kind of way (a rarity for girls of her disposition), and though she wasn't quite the salutatorian, she was definitely in the discussion

she was really really sweet, too—just the nicest girl you'd ever meet—but she also had this reputation of rejecting every guy who's ever asked her out, and anyone who ever ever tried was lambasted by everyone else for even thinking to corrupt such a pure, pristine, innocent girl

i never ever spoke to her in middle school, we only became somewhat acquainted in high school—we had a couple classes where we sat near each other, exchanging thoughts here and there, that type of thing, never a lengthy conversation

at some point during senior year, though, she got her license—and she would occasionally spot me on my way home from class, and for whatever reason, she just started offering me rides home

i would always accept, obviously, even though it made me incredibly anxious—this is a girl i've been crushing on for years, after all—but it would be very silly for me not to take her up

she would do this rather frequently, and sometimes she'd even drive me to school—i would never ask her, but she would always offer—and we'd always have a pretty good conversation on the way home, where i discovered that, while we may not be interested in a lot of the same things, she seemed genuinely interested in what i had to say, which i can tell, because she asked a lot of good questions

even though i liked and appreciated it, it still fucked with my head, because i couldn't tell if she was just doing it out of the kindness of her heart, or because was she into me, and this was her way of letting me know about it (because she never rode with anyone else)

eventually, i guess the hormonal horndog within me decided it very well may have been the latter—so, after taking me home one night for what must have been the fifth or sixth time, i made a snap decision to ask her out right then and there—but i've never asked anyone out before, and my anxiety through the roof, so i wound up fumbling the execution pretty badly

the way it played out was, she stopped at my door, we said our goodbyes, and i stepped out of the car—but then suddenly, i turned back around before closing the door, poked my head back in for a second, and i either said "uh, hey" or "uh, wait"

she looked at me again, and then i asked her something like, "do you think we could go out some time"

i didn't stutter, i said it confidently, but i instantly felt an explosion of regret well up inside my stomach as i braced myself for her response

the expression on her face was hard to read—she wasn't a very expressive person in general, so i honestly couldn't get a read on her reaction at all—but either way, she gave me a "hmm... maybe!" and drove off

i think "hmm, maybe, we'll see" was her exact response

which of course means "no"
which means she really was just trying to be nice the whole time

so that might be the cringiest thing i've ever done, because it was such a pitiful attempt, but i'm able to defend it because i GENUINELY felt that she was into me, because she was giving me every single indication

she was the only girl who ever shown me any interest whatsoever, and out of them all, she was my crush—so i felt like i had to seize the opportunity

so yeah, cringe—but no ragrats at the same time

another thing—we invited each other to our graduation parties that year, and i went to hers, but she didn't show up to mine—but the very next day, i receive a LONG facebook message from her, apologizing for not being there, and that she just couldn't make it, but she's so sorry, and all this stuff

so i dunno man, maybe she did like me after all, but was just as awkward as me about it, who knows

not that any of it matters now, she moved to the south and got married there last year
What's she doing now?