Two hours to go gentlemen until I hop in my truck and roll off. Off to where? Hmm. Call it an adventure. New roads. New town. And maybe, a new friend. One last shuffle for the sake of trying.

I can say today is probably the happiest day I've had in a while. And there's a lot of shit in my way folks. My vehicle had some nice jury rigged repairs on my end when it tried to break down on me yesterday, and I went over stuff and got it into tip top shape for today's trip.

Surprisingly, this is a big deal for me. Haven't had a big deal in a while that was good. I second guess myself too much but I am aware that I have keen eyes and this interesting person, far off in another town is worth the trouble of going through to get up and say a simple hello to.

You folks haven't lived up here. The remote nature and distance of everything makes finding folks hard. Especially if you're different like me, which, by now should be a given. So, I've gotta jump.

And I think it'll be fun.

But I am aware that there are so many damn things that could go wrong with this trip, traveling so far, on ice and snow in this cold. And most of all, I am aware, that my chances are decreasing everyday.

I refer of course, to the cocktail of shit that's been blasted into me for a good week and a half now. The wonderful thing doc's call Chemo. I'm not handling it well. My body's a mess, and in conjunction with all the winter effects on people which are harsh here as well, I am, at this point an actual walking corpse.

Day by day I get worse and now I'm on counter drugs to help with some side effects that are manifesting.

So. I feel like I'm a bit of a cliff here. And I am aware, that even if this day turns out well, and goes perfect, I can still lose. I could still stand the chance of giving out under all the strain as of late.

But, that's the way things go sometimes.

I would like to thank all of you folks. Every last one of you no matter who you are. Six or seven months ago when I really started to open up, and made some friends to talk to, I never expected it to lead up to this.

I never expected the challenges of this year and I did my best to fight against what was thrown at me.

But to all you people, whether you be a good friend, a person that I admit openly that I love very much so, or you're a good friend that helped me better define myself and learn who I was.

Whether you were a friend who read my stories and did not do what I expected.

Whether you be a friend I enjoy talking to and with.

Whether you're a friend that I fight for and try to help because I legitimately care.

Whether you're a person I don't know yet, and haven't gotten the chance to know better.

Whether you're a person who's new on the spotlight.

Or you're just an acquaintence and we've only talked a few sparse times.

All of you deserve thanks. You all deserve thanks because it was the culmination of these experiences, moments, fights, friends, laughs, and other things that were shared with me that have allowed me to even live to see this moment.

It's been a rough year. And I'm not afraid to say that without these moments, I wouldn't have pulled through alone. And hopefully, today, I can find somebody interesting like myself on home ground who I can fight for and reach out to.

I always try to hope for the best.

But, I can't turn forwards on the road ahead, without acknowledging the people who were there for me.

So.

TL:DR

To these friends of mine, wherever you are now, I remember you for what you’ve given me. I remember the lessons taught, the experiences shared, and the new windows each and every one of you has given me. You all have my thanks, and now I give it, in light of a debt I will never be able to repay you for.

Smiggles- You were the first. I opened everything up to you.

Floppytub- You brought comfort and sparked pride in me for what I do.

Vien- You brought the knowledge of common ground, knowledge that I was not alone.

Noelle- You opened new windows for me, and taught me to look for the hidden details.

Mr. Admirals- Your love for a favorite universe of mine is boundless, and has always helped me find an anchor.

Gojira- You gave what I sought for so long. Someone to discuss the merits and finer details of my work.

Baconshelf- A fellow writer in arms, a friendly face in the storm, I enjoy your worlds and your stories.

Nuka- You supported me and strengthened my resolve that I was not wrong in my writings.

Kiyo- That fire in your eyes and unexpected friendliness brings a smile to me in my dark days.

And to all of you people who's names I don't mention. I thank you too.

You folks were the reason I've managed to come so far to even be alive to see this or even try. This trip I'm taking today has the potential to be my last. I'm running out of fight to give physically, but by now most of my friends know that my sense of humor and optimism can't be killed without a fight.

So. To all of you. Bungie.Net, Sep7agon, Halo Archive.

I thank you folks for the moments shared, the friend made, and the comforts and experiences given.

So. One last shuffle, and we'll see where things go from here right?

You know it folks. Lets see what new roads lie up on the path shall we?

If I find something new and interesting, I'll show up here in due time with a spring in my step and a fight to move and be happy even if I'm a bit of a walking corpse.

And, if I don't come back from this road trip and something bad does come of it, well, I tried. And it was you folks that allowed me to come this far.

So.

Thank You.

Yours Sincerely, Sandtrap

No matter where you go, how hard you need to fight, how much you want to give up and how shit you may feel, just remember that we're always here. A bastion of stability, and a community that almost universally adores you.

You have a very admirable character, and a brilliant amount of strength and commitment. I wish you luck on your adventure, and hope you're able to keep your measured temperament during these dark days.

I think I speak for everybody when I say we love you, and you'll always be pillar of this community.

I always read your threads and always wish I could think of what to say. I always wish I could provide that extra piece of advice, that extra little push to make your day better, but I never know what to say. I look forward to your posts to see how your doing. To see how you're tackling the momentous stresses and obstacles in your way. All of us here have played the videogames where your tough guy protagonist is staring death in the face, gives it a big middle finger and pushed past it. However, very few of us have ever been in those shoes. Many of us don't know real fear. We don't know real challenges. Hell most of us are still in school, be it college or high school or younger. Our biggest issue is passing a final. You do know fear though. You're facing true adversity yet you come here, post about it, open your heart to people, and even at times joke about it. I've never met. We've never even spoken, I have no idea what you look like, or even if you're a man or woman. But I find myself admiring you. So thank you. Thank you for being strong. Providing a reality check. I can't imagine what your facing. Thank you for being awesome Sandtrap. Good luck on your road trip, enjoy it because your deserve it.

Go out, get some poontang, have fun.

Gimli approves.

You go. You come back. You go. You come back...

Someone's indecisive.

I bark at you

I bark at you

Teeth and claws and bone. How very much like you!

To that I say, these bones tell me to move.

So, I shuffle my corpse!

Quote from: Sandtrap on December 17, 2014, 11:55:50 AM

Quote from: Smiggles on December 17, 2014, 11:41:51 AM

I bark at you

Teeth and claws and bone. How very much like you!

To that I say, these bones tell me to move.

So, I shuffle my corpse!

You better get it good you fart
Come back with good news or I'll crush your hands

Joke's on you my hands are being affected the most. Nasty shakes.

You couldn't hit em' if you tried.

Seeya buddy.

Still waiting on that challenge >.>

When we die and go to hell we'll all make Satan our bitch. I guarantee that.

Wrong thread.

Dark humor thread is that way ——-->

I'll miss you
Thanks for being you, and for that marty pounding bungie gif