I'll give you a serious post

Don't feel sorry for venting about it because odds are you're bottling up emotions. You've had that guy for you the majority of your life, and you probably loved him to death. You have a special bond with your dog if you show him the amount of love I suspect you did. No other animal will love you as unconditionally as a dog will.

I had to put mine down 2 years ago now, and I've had him since 2005 as a small puppy. I loved the guy to death, and went with him to hold him as he got injected. I remember the week before we took him, I just hugged him and broke down crying because I hated seeing him get so old, he had trouble even sitting down at that point. The worst part is you think the decline in health will be slow, and you'll see it coming, but nope, it all happens within a matter of months, just crashing down on you. Such is life though, and it's rough.

I'll never forget the look in his eyes when we finally put him down and gave him the mercy I knew the poor guy wanted. It still hurts thinking about it.

If you need someone to PM and talk to about it or vent, I'm more than willing to listen and all that. If not, I get it, just figured I'd extend the invitation.

Keep your chin up, and take hear in knowing you did the right thing though by putting him down. We're selfish as humans, wanting to hold on to those we love for our own reasons, even when we know it's not in their personal best interest.

Gone but never forgotten