Mental health

Five · July 23, 2015, 02:16:29 AM

Does anyone here struggle with their mental health? Since the summer started I've realized that I'm just going through the motions every day, then distracting my nights with drugs and alcohol. I definitely want to stop that (tbh more for money reasons than anything else, but it's certainly unhealthy), so I think I'm going to schedule an appointment with the counseling center on campus, which is free (/paid for by tuition). Talking to someone will probably help. Hopefully.

BrenMan 94 · July 23, 2015, 02:18:47 AM

I've been stressed as hell because my dad lost his job Monday, just over a week before I'm moving out.

btw if someone could end Alan Wilson's (R-SC) career I'd reward you greatly.

Elai · July 23, 2015, 02:38:00 AM

I've been struggling with depression for a few years now. It ain't pretty.

Unfortunately I won't allow myself to commit suicide, so here I am wallowing in self-pity.

But as for the drugs/alcohol, I really don't see why you don't just stop doing them. Unless you are routinely doing hard drugs like cocaine, you have no physical dependence on either marijuana or alcohol. Yeah it might get boring, but deal with it if you don't want the expense.

Five · July 23, 2015, 02:43:22 AM

Quote from: Prehisnake on July 23, 2015, 02:38:00 AM

I've been struggling with depression for a few years now. It ain't pretty.

Unfortunately I won't allow myself to commit suicide, so here I am wallowing in self-pity.

But as for the drugs/alcohol, I really don't see why you don't just stop doing them. Unless you are routinely doing hard drugs like cocaine, you have no physical dependence on either marijuana or alcohol. Yeah it might get boring, but deal with it if you don't want the expense.

Mostly marijuana and alcohol, adderall/vyvanse at times. And yeah, I absolutely can just stop it. And I have (for the most part; relegated to weekends now). But without them, I'm stuck laying around and falling victim to my thoughts every night. I want to talk to someone so that I have a healthy outlet for that stuff, rather than distracting myself from them.

So, stopping the drugs isn't the problem, but finding a better way to deal with things is.

Elai · July 23, 2015, 02:49:32 AM

Quote from: Five on July 23, 2015, 02:43:22 AM

But without them, I'm stuck laying around and falling victim to my thoughts every night. I want to talk to someone so that I have a healthy outlet for that stuff, rather than distracting myself from them.

Join the club, hombre. I've been up for 4 days straight because my thoughts like to torment me. I've been diagnosed with a severe case of insomnia. I'd love to have an outlet, which I've tried to delegate to this forum, video games and reading, but obviously it hasn't worked out all that great.

If it works for you, I highly suggest a psychologist. It didn't work for me, but I might be a different case from you.

Five · July 23, 2015, 02:52:14 AM

Quote from: Prehisnake on July 23, 2015, 02:49:32 AM

Quote from: Five on July 23, 2015, 02:43:22 AM
But without them, I'm stuck laying around and falling victim to my thoughts every night. I want to talk to someone so that I have a healthy outlet for that stuff, rather than distracting myself from them.

Join the club, hombre. I've been up for 4 days straight because my thoughts like to torment me. I've been diagnosed with a severe case of insomnia. I'd love to have an outlet, which I've tried to delegate to this forum, video games and reading, but obviously it hasn't worked out all that great.

If it works for you, I highly suggest a psychologist. It didn't work for me, but I might be a different case from you.

My outlet has also been forums and video games, but unfortunately that's starting to work less well... I'm going to start with the counseling center on campus, and depending on how things turn out I may seek a professional psychologist (I don't think the counseling center folk are professionals, but I'm not sure about that). We'll see how it works. Until then, more shitposting on forums

Mat Cauthon · July 23, 2015, 03:03:55 AM

Yep, been dealing with depression for sometime around five years now, of varying intensity.
Attempted more than once in that time.

Jive Turkey · July 23, 2015, 03:59:41 AM

Srs post:

I think I suffer from delusions of grandeur or something along those lines. I'm also heavily narcissistic

To be honest I don't see anything wrong with these things though, it's just good that I recognize them. If anything I kinda like it lmaaaoo

True Turquoise · July 23, 2015, 04:02:48 AM

Anxiety is all I can say I have. But I'm lucky

Jive Turkey · July 23, 2015, 04:03:11 AM

Yo also if I'm not being productive in some way I literally get pretty intense anxiety. It's bad enough to force me into pacing back and forth for a good while

^ This is like once in a blue moon though

Naru · July 23, 2015, 04:04:46 AM

Paranoia to an extent lol. I second guess just about everything i do or see. I'm still in a low mood, but it's higher than from months ago.

DAS B00T x2 · July 23, 2015, 06:31:03 AM

The army tells me I'm am alcoholic.

I've also got wicked social anxiety. It's not bothering me so much anymore as in I've kind of gotten used to it. It still hinders quite a few things in life for me...

Rinev · July 23, 2015, 06:37:01 AM

I have anxiety, hopefully it won't become too bad, a family member of mine is already on medication for it.

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Mr. Psychologist · July 23, 2015, 07:32:29 AM

Yup, I've had quite the fun cocktail of it the last few years.

PTSD followed up with a round of Depression, Insomnia and Anxiety. That was fun to deal with.
Thankfully they got the active symptoms of the PTSD sorted out, so shit like flashbacks and auditory hallucinations/echoes, then absolutely hilariously the incident that caused it in the first place happened again about two months after they sorted me out from the first one. Ugh. So that was back to the shrinks for them to sort it out so that I could hear people close doors and drop folders without going all flippy.

They got all that shit sorted out though, mostly anyway. The active stuff is gone and the memory is now stored correctly and somewhat harmlessly. It certainly left it's scars on my mind though, nothing that can't be managed but I doubt it'll be going away anytime soon. Just one of those things that shapes who you are I guess.

The Insomnia and Depression come courtesy of my utter bitch of a mother, who currently is stewing in a bottle of wine at the arse end of the country and is no longer actively fucking up our lives. Rather ironically for the depression though, the closest I ever came to shuffling off this mortal coil was when I walked out of the CPN's office. If I ever qualify and start practicing and I hear a colleague say to a patient 'just try and smile more, get outside and get a summer job!' in response to 'So uhh, I'm going to kill myself on tuesday' I'll smack their teeth out <_<
Saltiness aside, they did get their shit together after I went to a proper doctor and said 'can you refer me to someone who isn't a complete fucking moron', so they put me on the tablets to sort my head out and eventually got me seen by a proper psychologist and not a pissing joke of a nurse. It only took them 10 months to get me an appointment though, gg.

But for the most part nowadays, I'm all fixed up. The black dog is shut in the kennel and the scars are more along the lines of quirks now. The tablets help keep me upright and sort out the insomnia and all in all I'm going along reasonably well. Fucking hell if it wasn't a rough ride though.

Naoto · July 23, 2015, 10:00:05 AM

I think most people have their issues. Its good that you're being proactive in taking care of it.
Just try not to stress too much over it. Its natural to have low points.

Personally I've dealt with my fair share of depression / suicidal stuff in the past. Over the years I've just learned how to deal with myself. Figured out what I wanted and how to move forward.

Coomer · July 23, 2015, 10:40:28 AM

Poor baby :[

More Than Mortal · July 23, 2015, 11:06:35 AM

Two personality disorders and occasionally depressive moods.

God · July 23, 2015, 11:17:53 AM

Schizoid reporting in.

Ásgeirr · July 23, 2015, 11:19:56 AM

most of my problems stay in check if i can sleep properly

Jim · July 23, 2015, 11:20:33 AM

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RomanGladiator · July 24, 2015, 06:20:07 AM

Sometimes I wish it was over, and I struggle to be happy about anything. Basically I'm 23 and a cart pusher at a department store, it is ruining my life. Looking for a better job for 14 months after college. It's hard to not just lose it. Now that wouldn't be too bad if I had friends or even a social life, but I don't. And they can't give me full time hours either, not that I'd want to. But for 7 months I've been making about $200 a week. And now I want to become a teacher, but guess what? I can't be accepted into the program because I need an Econ course, which there are none offered before the deadline to apply, which is December first to apply to the program. Plus they want some experience with kids, so I'm applying to do substitute teaching. I applied for substituting teaching last year, but they said they want prior experience with kids to even do that! So you see, I can't win no matter what. All the interviews I've had I've always tried my best and took them seriously, the most recent one I hoped so much I would get.

Honestly I can't have another year like I had, working part time in retail sweating my ass of for $9 an hour, I would rather have my life be over. So yeah my mental health is struggling.

DAS B00T x2 · July 24, 2015, 06:31:43 AM

Quote from: RomanGladiator on July 24, 2015, 06:20:07 AM

Sometimes I wish it was over, and I struggle to be happy about anything. Basically I'm 23 and a cart pusher at a department store, it is ruining my life. Looking for a better job for 14 months after college. It's hard to not just lose it. Now that wouldn't be too bad if I had friends or even a social life, but I don't. And they can't give me full time hours either, not that I'd want to. But for 7 months I've been making about $200 a week. And now I want to become a teacher, but guess what? I can't be accepted into the program because I need an Econ course, which there are none offered before the deadline to apply, which is December first to apply to the program. Plus they want some experience with kids, so I'm applying to do substitute teaching. I applied for substituting teaching last year, but they said they want prior experience with kids to even do that! So you see, I can't win no matter what. All the interviews I've had I've always tried my best and took them seriously, the most recent one I hoped so much I would get.

Honestly I can't have another year like I had, working part time in retail sweating my ass of for $9 an hour, I would rather have my life be over. So yeah my mental health is struggling.

hey buddy
Umm

I could get you some experience with kids.

eggsalad · July 24, 2015, 06:41:52 AM

MDD and trying to get diagnosed for gender dysphoria so I can get to HRT. Currently in an extremely frustrating position with my therapist who refuses to get much done between our month or more distances between appointments. Because of one off-comment my mother made during a session about me being very particular in childhood I now have to get assessed for ASD spectrum which bogs down the whole process even longer. Planned to finally visit my boyfriend for the first time (LDR) and my parents turned on their heels 4 days before I'd leave and say I couldn't go because they feared for my safety. Now I have nothing to lift me out of depressive moods for the next year or so.