Long story short I came to the realization last Thursday where I not just felt but KNEW in every fiber of my being that I don't actually exist how I thought I did. It's all an illusion, every single thing on earth is made up of the same exact energy and so it's basically all one. There's no "me" that I think is talking in my head. And there's not really a "you". With that being said, I don't even control anything I do when you think about it because there's no "me" to control it.

this sounds like crazy spiritual shit to all of you and it used to to me too. That doesn't even matter how crazy it sounds now though because regardless I still experience it and it's kinda fucking up my life. It's like I'm half viewing the world like this ^ which feels very pointless and gives me a ton of anxiety

And half the time I experience the world how I used to. I have very little to no interest in sex right now, to me it seems gross, like two suits of meat who think they're alive squishing body parts together.

It's making me very depressed and I just wanna go back to being normal tbh. What do

you're all figments of doom's imagination

Quote from: MyNameIsCharlie on June 22, 2017, 01:14:47 AM

That's the start of ego death

I am being totally serious

You need to choose who you want to be

What do you mean choose? I want to go back kinda but it's very hard to imagine what it was even like before.

He means find your id to salvage your ego.

Otherwise you will be nothing but superego, which lends itself to erraticism, which will be your death.
Your ego is very important, but it is precariously balanced on the edge of a sword, with one face of the blade being your id and the other your superego. If you cannot decide who you want to be, and come to terms with your id, then you will lose your ego, and be left only with a pattern of choice based on absolutely nothing, not even whimsy.

Before you can do any of that though, you need to admit that whether you exist or not, you must base all of your decisions on the presumption that you do. Believing that you do is not necessary, but you must act on that notion.

stop being a sensitive philistine

what pill is this?