UPDATE: I assumed my  computer dead  but miraculously it survived! I plugged it in and it started! However, the display didn't work. Just pure black on the screen. I took off the back plastic panel with a tiny flathead screwdriver my mom was able to find. Wrong screwdriver, but it worked. As soon as the bottom casing removed, a little bit of sand fell out, and the rest of the interior was just as sandy. I spent the next fifteen or so minutes blowing everywhere, very hard, in an attempt to make my computer sand-free. I accomplished that, and restored the panel to the computer (I clicked it in, but didn't screw it in). I started it, but again, no display. I was then like oh well.

Several hours later, while searching for the longest controller charger for the PS4 we have in the house, I found an HDMI cable. And that made me remember I have a modern TV and laptop, and just need a monitor. Sure enough, once connected to my laptop, this TV works just as a monitor would. Incredible!

I hope to get a new laptop soon, but for now, this will do.

what in the bloody fucking hell

Quote from: Elai on April 18, 2019, 12:48:47 AM

Quote from: Carmen on April 17, 2019, 10:46:26 PM

Quote from: Elai on April 17, 2019, 10:03:02 PM

Quote from: Jive Turkey on April 17, 2019, 09:45:05 PM

No offense but this is why I have very little to 0 sympathy for the homeless drugged out disassociated  weirdos I see on the streets or in SF or something. We got to watch your descent firsthand pretty interesting

No offense but you're just as gross as Carmen.

how am I gross

I'm saying he's "gross" the in the same way he considers you to be gross. There are things you've done here I don't approve of that I could describe as gross (working high, stealing, b & e), but I would sooner just say "disapprove."

My problem with Jive's post is that he's trying to shame you for sucking dick... while he relentlessly talks about his sex life and posts grotesque photos of his last conquest's dismembered vulva. As if he isn't a slut. Then he tries to look down on drug users as if he isn't a junkie, too. And he does all this to fuel a superiority complex and justify looking down on people he doesn't even know. He's in no position to say anything.

Quote from: Carmen on April 17, 2019, 10:54:12 PM

thanks for actually using my name tho

Of course Although admittedly I still call you Class sometimes out of habit.

Yeah except I didn’t say anything, let alone care, about him sucking dick lol. I’m unsympathetic because he is just clearly a trashy person who is completely delusional about a ton of things, homeless druggies being his friend for one. Won’t listen to a single person here giving advice that would improve his wellbeing(far too late for that anyways). Shows up to work intoxicated(trash) steals from stores(trash), interacts with family and younger impressionable siblings while strung out on drugs(trash). I’m sure similarities of Carmens mindset are shared among a huge majority of the trashy homeless druggies that aren’t making attempts to get better.

And also, I’ve never posted any naked women on here(much respect to the ladies), have been in a committed relationship for months now, and don’t do any drugs except some social alcohol maybe twice a month and the occasional tab of acid twice a year. So my superiority over Carmen is highly justified if you ask me, I’m on a much higher ground in every aspect

Your "advice" is shit like "stop doing DXM you piece of trash", and yes when you approach me that way I'm probably going to ignore you.

No, I don't judge ANYONE - a homeless man is just as much of valid person as a rich CEO. John (name of the one I'm familiar with) is doubtlessly a better person than you. Your entire life is made of judgment.

My life, on the other hand, is fine. I'm getting a Starbucks job soon (getting that trans insurance) and I'm literally starting hormones this week when they call me. I waited at Minnie Jones for about 3 hours this morning (it's my third appointment with them), and signed a bunch of consent forms. Pretty positive outlook for my life. I've told my clinician about my DXM habits, by the way, and he was far from concerned. He asked if it helps me with my dysphoria and upon my affirmation of that, added it to my list of medications that I'm on, along with marijuana. Not everyone, even in the medical industry, is as close-minded as the people on this forum.

I'm stopping cigarettes altogether because with estrogen, there's a huge risk of blood complications if I were to continue. Please don't pretend I don't improve myself every day just because you enjoy a different lifestyle than me.

I finally went to the eye doctor and got contacts, so now I can finally see more than a foot in front of me!

Also I've been keeping up a journal which is helpful. I haven't done DXM in like 6 days but got some today, which is awesome. No weed to go with it but oh well!