I feel like I just ruined my life

RomanGladiator · May 20, 2016, 06:41:09 PM

By not doing this program this year. It was my chance to get out of a terrible job and grow up and have a career. I'm going crazy every day now with nothing to do. I cannot do nothing for an entire year and not work, I will literally go crazy and kill myself, I'm already losing it after not working three weeks but I cannot go back to working at KMart, I need something better right away. This is not what a 24 year old's life should be like: not paying rent and living with his parents not working. I can never have a partner now for sure at this point in my life. Everything I try to do to relax I feel guilty for not working. I read on reddit that some people were unemployed for years and I wonder how they can last. I seriously feel unstable. I'm such a fucking idiot for deferring.

gats · May 20, 2016, 06:42:02 PM

We told you so.

snee0rp · May 20, 2016, 06:42:58 PM

inb4psu

DAS B00T x2 · May 20, 2016, 06:43:47 PM

Didn't you get that tutor position bro?

RomanGladiator · May 20, 2016, 06:44:58 PM

Quote from: gats on May 20, 2016, 06:42:02 PM

We told you so.

I know. Now I can barely sit still and I spent the whole day on the couch browing reddit on my laptop and I am starting to lose it tonight because I feel so worthless not doing anything. NO friends! No significant other! Not that that matters, but even just a good friend. And now no work at all! Not worth anything to society when I am like this

RomanGladiator · May 20, 2016, 06:45:58 PM

Quote from: no on May 20, 2016, 06:43:47 PM

Didn't you get that tutor position bro?

The interview is Monday. It may be a scam, who knows. And if it's just part time, I can't do that for an entire year.

Elai · May 20, 2016, 06:46:16 PM

Oh, Roman. Don't be silly.

Your life was ruined a long time ago.

MyNameIsCharlie · May 20, 2016, 06:47:28 PM

Dude. You need to relax.

RomanGladiator · May 20, 2016, 06:53:45 PM

Quote from: MyNameIsCharlie on May 20, 2016, 06:47:28 PM

Dude. You need to relax.

It's impossible when you'v made such stupid decisions as I have. Basically my brain: "Oh I'll put off graduate school to find a girlfriend this year, to then have the confidence to go and do it next year" Who the hell thinks like that? And not working right now, I am completely worthless to anyone. Yeah, being in a "relationship" consumes me and my life choices because I'm jealous of my brother and people I know who are, and have been for years. And I want to travel but can't by myself. My family won't want to do shit this summer, they never do and we are an abnormal family that never does anything together. Never been to Disney! Never been to the west coast! Never been down south! Never been out of New England! They weren't hard enough on me growing up and I turned into a man-child with no responsibility.

Fuck, just because of my low self esteem and self conciousness and anxiety about getting in front of a classroom to do student teaching I fucking ruined a great opportunity and the possible chance to meet someone who'd be interested in me.

DAS B00T x2 · May 20, 2016, 06:55:10 PM

Bro
Women don't matter in life. Bitches ain't shit but hos and tricks.

Thun · May 20, 2016, 06:56:37 PM

Quote from: no on May 20, 2016, 06:55:10 PM

Bro
Women don't matter in life. Bitches ain't shit but hos and tricks.

lick on these nuts and suck the dick

RomanGladiator · May 20, 2016, 07:02:46 PM

Quote from: Prehistoric on May 20, 2016, 06:46:16 PM

Oh, Roman. Don't be silly.

Your life was ruined a long time ago.

I know. I'm so behind everyone else my age. I wish I could just find a cyanide pill somewhere.

Thun · May 20, 2016, 07:04:04 PM

So what's your next move m8?

RomanGladiator · May 20, 2016, 07:09:45 PM

Quote from: Thunder on May 20, 2016, 07:04:04 PM

So what's your next move m8?

I don't know...no clue. Can;t even concentrate to read a book, I had to force myself to even get a haircut today, and that took a whole week of motivation. I am on the internet all day, from when I get up until I go to bed. Being a history teacher was the perfect career for me and I threw it away because of my shyness. I;m not a suit who wants to dress up and bs people into buying something, I don't give a shit about a company's profits, etc... I love learning and trying to explain things I know to others. And I fucked it up because of my insecurities

Thun · May 20, 2016, 07:13:15 PM

Quote from: RomanGladiator on May 20, 2016, 07:09:45 PM

Quote from: Thunder on May 20, 2016, 07:04:04 PM
So what's your next move m8?
I don't know...no clue. Can;t even concentrate to read a book, I had to force myself to even get a haircut today, and that took a whole week of motivation. I am on the internet all day, from when I get up until I go to bed. Being a history teacher was the perfect career for me and I threw it away because of my shyness. I;m not a suit who wants to dress up and bs people into buying something, I don't give a shit about a company's profits, etc... I love learning and trying to explain things I know to others. And I fucked it up because of my insecurities

I think you should see a therapist or a life coach.

Mattie G Indahouse · May 21, 2016, 05:44:36 AM

So OP, do you want to play some Texas Told 'em and then watch No Country For Told Men?

True Turquoise · May 21, 2016, 05:59:01 AM

Focus on getting a history teacher spot

Jono · May 21, 2016, 06:17:50 AM

You need to go on that show that's hosted by The Rock where he helps people get their life on track. I think that's what the show is...

RomanGladiator · May 21, 2016, 08:49:09 AM

Quote from: True Turquoise on May 21, 2016, 05:59:01 AM

Focus on getting a history teacher spot

You can't in my state unless you have a master's degree.

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Turkey · May 21, 2016, 09:23:54 AM

Ever considered the military? Serve four years, see some new places, get some experience and skills, then get your college paid for. There are tons of interesting jobs. You're a little on the older side, but it's not uncommon; plus, you seem to be in decent shape.

Aether · May 21, 2016, 09:30:34 AM

I've done nothing for four years. No work, no school, just gotten sicker and sicker with no actual help from any doctor.

I just turned 25 today and It's depressing as hell. A quarter of a century and I've nothing to show for it. My life is wasting away because I can't seem to find a doctor that can figure out what exactly is wrong with me and help me get rid of it. So I sit at home, suffer in pain everyday, and rot away in a dead town with no opportunity.

Regardless, I'm still truckin' along. I still have the resolve to overcome this and finally make something of myself.

Don't take what opportunity you still have provided for you for granted. Take charge of your life while you still can.

RomanGladiator · May 21, 2016, 09:51:12 AM

Quote from: HurtfulTurkey on May 21, 2016, 09:23:54 AM

Ever considered the military? Serve four years, see some new places, get some experience and skills, then get your college paid for. There are tons of interesting jobs. You're a little on the older side, but it's not uncommon; plus, you seem to be in decent shape.

I have ulcerative colitis and IBS, wouldn't be able to.

RomanGladiator · May 21, 2016, 09:52:12 AM

Quote from: Aether on May 21, 2016, 09:30:34 AM

I've done nothing for four years. No work, no school, just gotten sicker and sicker with no actual help from any doctor.

I just turned 25 today and It's depressing as hell. A quarter of a century and I've nothing to show for it. My life is wasting away because I can't seem to find a doctor that can figure out what exactly is wrong with me and help me get rid of it. So I sit at home, suffer in pain everyday, and rot away in a dead town with no opportunity.

Regardless, I'm still trickin' along. I still have the resolve to overcome this and finally make something of myself.

Don't take what opportunity you still have provided for you for granted. Take charge of your life while you still can.

I hope you feel better. I guess I should be thankful.

TB · May 21, 2016, 09:57:48 AM

hahhahahahahaahhahah...
ahahahhhahahh
Called it.

PSU · May 21, 2016, 10:31:34 AM

Quote from: RomanGladiator on May 21, 2016, 08:49:09 AM

Quote from: True Turquoise on May 21, 2016, 05:59:01 AM
Focus on getting a history teacher spot
You can't in my state unless you have a master's degree.

Come move to jersey with me and teach here

Thun · May 21, 2016, 10:46:42 AM

Quote from: PSU on May 21, 2016, 10:31:34 AM

Quote from: RomanGladiator on May 21, 2016, 08:49:09 AM
Quote from: True Turquoise on May 21, 2016, 05:59:01 AM
Focus on getting a history teacher spot
You can't in my state unless you have a master's degree.

Come move to jersey with me and teach here

PSU, my nigga. How much to rent a room at your place, homie?

PSU · May 21, 2016, 11:01:18 AM

Quote from: Thunder on May 21, 2016, 10:46:42 AM

Quote from: PSU on May 21, 2016, 10:31:34 AM
Quote from: RomanGladiator on May 21, 2016, 08:49:09 AM
Quote from: True Turquoise on May 21, 2016, 05:59:01 AM
Focus on getting a history teacher spot
You can't in my state unless you have a master's degree.

Come move to jersey with me and teach here
PSU, my nigga. How much to rent a room at your place, homie?

I'm actually renting my friend our guest bedroom right now for $250 a month w/ all utilities included. He says he only needs 6 months to get back on his feet, but we'll see lol.

Tried to cut him some slack on the price since he only makes minimum wage right now.

So for someone on the forum, probably around $350-$400 a month.

PSU · May 21, 2016, 11:01:53 AM

He does help out a lot with babysitting and shit too. So that's a huge plus.

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