I could fill you up with my dick.

Always. Go cuddle a puppy or something.

Always. Go cuddle a puppy or something.

my doge isnt a puppy, hes like 8

Every day for long time now. Mostly everything's just a shade of grey to me, if we're going to be poetic here. Not much has any meaning or interest. Nothing has any weight, or pull to it. It's all just sort of there.

It's not that I can't feel stuff either. Just whatever I feel fades quickly. It's like blowing a candle out. Poof. One second you've got all this colour and life, right there in front of you, and then it just fades and dies, landing me back in square one, here.

It's actually tiring, if I think about it. I don't want to see anything interesting if it's just going to be crushed and snuffed out like that.

So yeah. There's your answer.

Quote from: Nexus on October 25, 2015, 06:36:21 PM

I could fill you up with my dick.

normally i would laugh but not this time

Oh sorry.

Maybe it has to do with things going any kind of good and you just feel like it can and probably will all just go away. Like you don't want to be happy because the more happy happy you are, the more devastated you will be. And now that you have downtime from it, you want it back, but you're just stuck doing something mundane.

It'll get better.

I know that feeling.  I too have also experienced those days where I just feel like nothing really makes me feel truly happy and those things I normally enjoy just don't feel as satisfying.

Quote from: Naru on October 25, 2015, 06:36:50 PM

Quote from: Nexus on October 25, 2015, 06:36:21 PM

I could fill you up with my dick.

normally i would laugh but not this time

Oh sorry.

Maybe it has to do with things going any kind of good and you just feel like it can and probably will all just go away. Like you don't want to be happy because the more happy happy you are, the more devastated you will be. And now that you have downtime from it, you want it back, but you're just stuck doing something mundane.

It'll get better.

Do I need my eyes checked? I think that's the first non hostile thing I've ever seen ya say. You're not in character man.

Quote from: Nexus on October 25, 2015, 06:41:39 PM

Quote from: Naru on October 25, 2015, 06:36:50 PM

Quote from: Nexus on October 25, 2015, 06:36:21 PM

I could fill you up with my dick.

normally i would laugh but not this time

Oh sorry.

Maybe it has to do with things going any kind of good and you just feel like it can and probably will all just go away. Like you don't want to be happy because the more happy happy you are, the more devastated you will be. And now that you have downtime from it, you want it back, but you're just stuck doing something mundane.

It'll get better.

Do I need my eyes checked? I think that's the first non hostile thing I've ever seen ya say. You're not in character man.

SHUT THE FUCK UP FAGGOT

Quote from: Avant le Présent on October 25, 2015, 06:44:23 PM

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Quote from: Avant le Présent on October 25, 2015, 06:40:55 PM

It's almost November. The depression seasons starts soon.

I feel it creeping up on me, too.

i already went through depression from june of last year to around june this year. i doubt it

I don't want to put ideas in your head, but you don't think there's a possibility of it coming back?

Regardless, people are just sadder in these months, not necessarily depressed.

its not coming back, i got reminded of something i enjoyed and now its coming back in a dumb way.

Oh wow, just skip my post then.

Quote from: Nexus on October 25, 2015, 06:41:39 PM

Quote from: Naru on October 25, 2015, 06:36:50 PM

Quote from: Nexus on October 25, 2015, 06:36:21 PM

I could fill you up with my dick.

normally i would laugh but not this time

Oh sorry.

Maybe it has to do with things going any kind of good and you just feel like it can and probably will all just go away. Like you don't want to be happy because the more happy happy you are, the more devastated you will be. And now that you have downtime from it, you want it back, but you're just stuck doing something mundane.

It'll get better.

its gonna be a one day thing.. i obsess over stupid shit for a period of time, thinking a lot about it. its not going to devastate me, its just gonna bother me for the day

Yeah, I kinda do the same thing. It's tough. I hope all goes well for you though. If you ever wanna message me on Skype. Don't hesitate. Always down to talk.

Quote from: Nexus on October 25, 2015, 06:54:52 PM

Quote from: Naru on October 25, 2015, 06:50:58 PM

Quote from: Nexus on October 25, 2015, 06:41:39 PM

Quote from: Naru on October 25, 2015, 06:36:50 PM

Quote from: Nexus on October 25, 2015, 06:36:21 PM

I could fill you up with my dick.

normally i would laugh but not this time

Oh sorry.

Maybe it has to do with things going any kind of good and you just feel like it can and probably will all just go away. Like you don't want to be happy because the more happy happy you are, the more devastated you will be. And now that you have downtime from it, you want it back, but you're just stuck doing something mundane.

It'll get better.

its gonna be a one day thing.. i obsess over stupid shit for a period of time, thinking a lot about it. its not going to devastate me, its just gonna bother me for the day

Yeah, I kinda do the same thing. It's tough. I hope all goes well for you though.

thanks, ill be good by tomorrow or tonight.

Check edit.

Quote from: Deadtrap on October 25, 2015, 06:40:55 PM

Every day for long time now. Mostly everything's just a shade of grey to me, if we're going to be poetic here. Not much has any meaning or interest. Nothing has any weight, or pull to it. It's all just sort of there.

It's not that I can't feel stuff either. Just whatever I feel fades quickly. It's like blowing a candle out. Poof. One second you've got all this colour and life, right there in front of you, and then it just fades and dies, landing me back in square one, here.

It's actually tiring, if I think about it. I don't want to see anything interesting if it's just going to be crushed and snuffed out like that.

So yeah. There's your answer.

im just getting memories of old times i used to enjoy

Oh. Well, nostalgia's no fun either. I can't blame you for that one. I'm actually kind of glad that I've got some holes in my memory. The old better times can come up to visit me if I don't remember them.

Quote from: Deadtrap on October 25, 2015, 07:03:36 PM

Quote from: Naru on October 25, 2015, 06:44:48 PM

Quote from: Deadtrap on October 25, 2015, 06:40:55 PM

Every day for long time now. Mostly everything's just a shade of grey to me, if we're going to be poetic here. Not much has any meaning or interest. Nothing has any weight, or pull to it. It's all just sort of there.

It's not that I can't feel stuff either. Just whatever I feel fades quickly. It's like blowing a candle out. Poof. One second you've got all this colour and life, right there in front of you, and then it just fades and dies, landing me back in square one, here.

It's actually tiring, if I think about it. I don't want to see anything interesting if it's just going to be crushed and snuffed out like that.

So yeah. There's your answer.

im just getting memories of old times i used to enjoy

Oh. Well, nostalgia's no fun either. I can't blame you for that one. I'm actually kind of glad that I've got some holes in my memory. The old better times can come up to visit me if I don't remember them.

yea, my short term memory is really bad, but having a better long term memory really gets to me a lot. i dislike the past, whether good or bad.

Nothing I can really help with or say to help there other than trying to remind yourself that what's done is done and that there's no point in dwelling on it. Discard it and focus on something else if you can.

i know exactly what you're talking about. used to feel like certain things just didn't matter anymore and would lose confidence in almost every facet of my life. it's not fun having to live life feeling like an inadequate piece of shit without a purpose. i'm not sure what changed in my life but i haven't seen my attitude dip down there for a good time now, knock on wood.