I've got nothing to lose

Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 01:18:01 AM

I've been doing a little bit of thinking tonight Flood. And I'd like to take a moment to talk about something of mine. It's something I've worked on for years. Learned and grown with. It's a part of me, and I can't change it. I would never trade it for anything. It's the fact that I'm a writer.

But what do I write? What have I spent three years of my life writing? What kind of short stories do I make?

It's a good question. Because honestly, I don't know what they are. It's a question I've worked on for years. And I've done my best to find other people like me. But I can't. I search everywhere. And finding anybody, any person at all who walks a blurred line like I do, has proven nigh impossible.

So you know what? I've got nothing to lose. Nothing to hide. Whenever Anarchy rolls in, I'm going to post one of my stories. Just one, for every Anarchy.

And, for the most part, I think I'm making a mistake. But I just don't give a fuck anymore. I'm tired of waking up to the life that I live. So I'm going to change things. Even if that means from here on out I get the weird stares and the flak from all the sacks of old sacks that dwell here.

So I'll say it.

A simple person, would try to shunt me into the category of "A writer of erotica." And you know what? They'd be partially right. But over the years it's changed. I put something more into it than just simple, mindless sex for the sake of sex.

And that's it folks. This is my last little secret of mine. No longer a secret now. I am strange by nature, and I can't change that. Nor will I fight it. And, if there's a chance that even one person here would enjoy what I write, then why the fuck not?

One life to live. One shot, one chance at everything. So, I'll be seeing you in Anarchy when it arrives folks. You ready to get a little strange?

Septy · October 16, 2014, 01:19:58 AM

Are these going to be life stories or what?

Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 01:20:36 AM

Quote from: Septy on October 16, 2014, 01:19:58 AM

Are these going to be life stories or what?

Nope. Machinations from my deranged noggin. When I say strange, I mean strange. You're going to be walking down fuckville avenue strange.

Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 01:21:54 AM

Quote from: Nuka on October 16, 2014, 01:19:14 AM

uhm....

okay

YFW.

Septy · October 16, 2014, 01:25:32 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 01:20:36 AM

Quote from: Septy on October 16, 2014, 01:19:58 AM
Are these going to be life stories or what?

Nope. Machinations from my deranged noggin. When I say strange, I mean strange. You're going to be walking down frackville avenue strange.

Looking forward to it

Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 01:30:19 AM

Quote from: Septy on October 16, 2014, 01:25:32 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 01:20:36 AM
Quote from: Septy on October 16, 2014, 01:19:58 AM
Are these going to be life stories or what?

Nope. Machinations from my deranged noggin. When I say strange, I mean strange. You're going to be walking down frackville avenue strange.
Looking forward to it

Best thing is, you have no idea what you're going to be walking into. I'd bet money that half the people who gaze upon what I conjure up will turn away in disgust. I suppose the next Anarchy is a ways off. Gives me time to pick the very first piece of writing I throw into the fire. Tough choice really.

Also, Like I said. You get more than just simple "Johnny rammed his jackhammer into her crumbling tunnel and promptly made a mess of the thing." Characters, worlds, rhymes and reasons. Kinks and all that. For the illiterate of this site, or those that have trouble reading, I can tell all I'll get is TL:DR.

Hahahaha very funny Zonda · October 16, 2014, 01:32:01 AM

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Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 01:34:31 AM

Quote from: Nuka on October 16, 2014, 01:29:25 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 01:21:54 AM
Quote from: Nuka on October 16, 2014, 01:19:14 AM
uhm....

okay
YFW.
Actually it's really not that big a deal. Maybe because the internet has desensitized me...dunno.
I just don't get why everything needs such a long drawn out explanation.

Because it's a secret of mine that I've kept safe and hidden for a very long time. Sorry if I can't just toss whatever reputation I have here among people out the window without pause. Maybe you can, but all my life I've been the outsider. And here, I wasn't so much of an outsider. And now, I will be. I'll always have this little label over my head wherever I go.

People will bring it up. Attempt to start arguments with it. Make wonderful comments. But they're irrelevant. So, I set myself free.

Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 01:36:12 AM

Quote from: ねこ on October 16, 2014, 01:32:01 AM

Truth be told I don't see how someone can criticize you everyone had a secret they've never told anyone

Everybody's got one thing about them that others disagree with. Everybody has a flaw, or a secret. The only thing is, most people don't look in the mirror before they start slinging shit. Criticism is easy to do when you're too afraid to look at yourself and realize you've made a mistake.

Jim · October 16, 2014, 01:37:02 AM

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Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 01:39:00 AM

Quote from: Prurient on October 16, 2014, 01:37:02 AM

I skimmed the OP and saw the words "Sex" and "erotica" so you have my attention.

I can tell right now. You don't have the guts to slog through one of my stories in full. You're going to skip the best bits for the steamy bits. I eagerly await your TL:DR.

Septy · October 16, 2014, 01:41:34 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 01:30:19 AM

Quote from: Septy on October 16, 2014, 01:25:32 AM
Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 01:20:36 AM
Quote from: Septy on October 16, 2014, 01:19:58 AM
Are these going to be life stories or what?

Nope. Machinations from my deranged noggin. When I say strange, I mean strange. You're going to be walking down frackville avenue strange.
Looking forward to it

Best thing is, you have no idea what you're going to be walking into. I'd bet money that half the people who gaze upon what I conjure up will turn away in disgust. I suppose the next Anarchy is a ways off. Gives me time to pick the very first piece of writing I throw into the fire. Tough choice really.

Also, Like I said. You get more than just simple "Johnny rammed his jackhammer into her crumbling tunnel and promptly made a mess of the thing." Characters, worlds, rhymes and reasons. Kinks and all that. For the illiterate of this site, or those that have trouble reading, I can tell all I'll get is TL:DR.

We'll see c:

Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 01:44:30 AM

Quote from: Septy on October 16, 2014, 01:41:34 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 01:30:19 AM
Quote from: Septy on October 16, 2014, 01:25:32 AM
Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 01:20:36 AM
Quote from: Septy on October 16, 2014, 01:19:58 AM
Are these going to be life stories or what?

Nope. Machinations from my deranged noggin. When I say strange, I mean strange. You're going to be walking down frackville avenue strange.
Looking forward to it

Best thing is, you have no idea what you're going to be walking into. I'd bet money that half the people who gaze upon what I conjure up will turn away in disgust. I suppose the next Anarchy is a ways off. Gives me time to pick the very first piece of writing I throw into the fire. Tough choice really.

Also, Like I said. You get more than just simple "Johnny rammed his jackhammer into her crumbling tunnel and promptly made a mess of the thing." Characters, worlds, rhymes and reasons. Kinks and all that. For the illiterate of this site, or those that have trouble reading, I can tell all I'll get is TL:DR.
We'll see c:

You know, I think I know exactly what I'm going to post. Something a little homey. Something, at one point in time, we were all familiar with. Something we all have origins on. Ultimate sacrilege, and a good way to make an entrance.

Hahahaha very funny Zonda · October 16, 2014, 01:48:25 AM

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Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 01:48:28 AM

Quote from: Nuka on October 16, 2014, 01:43:16 AM

Bring it on, Sandman. I think you'd have to try pretty hard to revolt most the people on this forum.

I can't lose. I either get what I'm expecting, or get something unexpected. If I get the first, then no biggy. If I get the second?

Spoiler

October 16, 2014, 01:52:13 AM

Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 01:54:29 AM

Quote from: Vien on October 16, 2014, 01:52:13 AM

October 16, 2014, 01:57:54 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 01:54:29 AM

Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 01:59:54 AM

Quote from: Vien on October 16, 2014, 01:57:54 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 01:54:29 AM

Good to know I've got one person solidly on my side bud.

October 16, 2014, 02:00:40 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 01:59:54 AM

Good to know I've got one person solidly on my side bud.

I am the epitome of your submission.

Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 02:09:18 AM

Quote from: Vien on October 16, 2014, 02:00:40 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 01:59:54 AM
Good to know I've got one person solidly on my side bud.

I am the epitome of your submission.

Flee · October 16, 2014, 07:49:59 AM

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Kinder Graham · October 16, 2014, 08:02:43 AM

You can be our new Wednesday...........

BlitzFiend · October 16, 2014, 08:08:14 AM

lookin forward to it

your attitude towards life reminds me of myself

Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 08:27:02 AM

Quote from: Kinder Swageington on October 16, 2014, 08:02:43 AM

You can be our new Wednesday...........

I don't remember Wednesday. Name rings a bell though.

Flee · October 16, 2014, 08:28:51 AM

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Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 08:45:24 AM

Quote from: Flee on October 16, 2014, 08:28:51 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 08:27:02 AM
Quote from: Kinder Swageington on October 16, 2014, 08:02:43 AM
You can be our new Wednesday...........

I don't remember Wednesday. Name rings a bell though.
Spammer on B.old that sent out mass PM's with erotic stories, if I recal correctly.

Oh. Boo. I'm not some simple minded spammer! I have a little class you know!

Flee · October 16, 2014, 08:46:20 AM

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Sandtrap · October 16, 2014, 09:03:03 AM

Quote from: Flee on October 16, 2014, 08:46:20 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 08:45:24 AM
I have a little class you know!
I guess we'll find out when you post your story, won't we?

I guess we will. But for fun, let's try to put things into perspective. A little base to work off of.

So, you ask, why would little old me even bother posting here? Well, if memory serves, I've been writing for four years. And I've been searching, for four years. There are hundreds, if not thousands of erotica based places out there for writers. And none of them ever held anything good for me.

Four years of searching. Either what I write is so terrible that nobody can read it, or I walk a very, very fine line, between something else. And with the labels tossed around for writers, shades of colour and a title to match like a prison, finding a place to call home that suited me has been no easy task.

So let that sink in, and come November, we'll see if I'm just a terrible writer or something else.

TB · October 16, 2014, 09:25:02 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 09:03:03 AM

Quote from: Flee on October 16, 2014, 08:46:20 AM
Quote from: Sandtrap on October 16, 2014, 08:45:24 AM
I have a little class you know!
I guess we'll find out when you post your story, won't we?

I guess we will. But for fun, let's try to put things into perspective. A little base to work off of.

So, you ask, why would little old me even bother posting here? Well, if memory serves, I've been writing for four years. And I've been searching, for four years. There are hundreds, if not thousands of erotica based places out there for writers. And none of them ever held anything good for me.

Four years of searching. Either what I write is so terrible that nobody can read it, or I walk a very, very fine line, between something else. And with the labels tossed around for writers, shades of colour and a title to match like a prison, finding a place to call home that suited me has been no easy task.

So let that sink in, and come November, we'll see if I'm just a terrible writer or something else.

Buddy stop doubting yourself! Have confidence! Believe in your abilities!