the one true God is Doctor Doom and we should all be worshiping him.
how are you any different than you were before?
One cool thing about it is that sometimes(especially in nature) I get these really beautiful moments of bliss and euphoria where every single thing is right in the world no matter what my external circumstances are
Quote from: Jive Turkey on June 29, 2017, 05:05:16 PMOne cool thing about it is that sometimes(especially in nature) I get these really beautiful moments of bliss and euphoria where every single thing is right in the world no matter what my external circumstances areFor how long has this happened since the experience?
On the contrary whenever I have those kind of experiences meditation is the thing that allows me to feel refreshed and normal again.
Quote from: Jive Turkey on June 29, 2017, 05:03:33 PMQuote from: 597 on June 28, 2017, 07:07:46 PMhow are you any different than you were before?A few weeks ago, due to a combination of extreme life stress/emotional turbulence, very elevated anxiety from a certain powerful steroid(which has since been dropped), and overall overthinking, I had a major panic attack and in the middle of it disassociated from reality and my self. It was like I was basically viewing myself viewing the world. I basically came to the full belief/understanding that there is no "me", "I'm" just a combination of lots of different factors like sensation and memory that all experience the world. Intellectually I know this because we're basically just atoms etc blah blah, but this became ingrained in me for some reason. And I have no control over anything I do really and neither does anyone else, it's all just an illusion. Again it's one thing to know this intellectually but this became ingrained in my coreEver since then I've been having on and off moments with experiencing the world like this, where I realize im not real, the person I'm talking to isn't real and they don't even know it. It really fucks with my head man smh. When I get in these moments I experience the world literally moment by moment and it's exhausting.The other half of the time I experience the world how I used to, but in the back of my head I'm aware of which way I'm perceiving it. Not sure if it's placebo, I'm going crazy, or I just have more awareness now but whatever it is It's my reality nowIf you abuse the wrong substances you can experience permanent dissociation from reality and it can happen in bursts as you're experiencing now. I'd recommend seeking help immediately. What's the name of the specific steroid you used?
Quote from: 597 on June 28, 2017, 07:07:46 PMhow are you any different than you were before?A few weeks ago, due to a combination of extreme life stress/emotional turbulence, very elevated anxiety from a certain powerful steroid(which has since been dropped), and overall overthinking, I had a major panic attack and in the middle of it disassociated from reality and my self. It was like I was basically viewing myself viewing the world. I basically came to the full belief/understanding that there is no "me", "I'm" just a combination of lots of different factors like sensation and memory that all experience the world. Intellectually I know this because we're basically just atoms etc blah blah, but this became ingrained in me for some reason. And I have no control over anything I do really and neither does anyone else, it's all just an illusion. Again it's one thing to know this intellectually but this became ingrained in my coreEver since then I've been having on and off moments with experiencing the world like this, where I realize im not real, the person I'm talking to isn't real and they don't even know it. It really fucks with my head man smh. When I get in these moments I experience the world literally moment by moment and it's exhausting.The other half of the time I experience the world how I used to, but in the back of my head I'm aware of which way I'm perceiving it. Not sure if it's placebo, I'm going crazy, or I just have more awareness now but whatever it is It's my reality now