to this day i have no idea what the fuck people mean when they say shit like "oh yeah i've died once"no you didn'twhatever you think happened to you, it wasn't deathif you ever died, you wouldn't come backthat's what death is
Allow me to rectify.I was dead, no heartbeat, for 8ish minutes before I was successfully resuscitated. The previous me died, there is no getting that brain matter back after being so oxygen starved. I don't write the same, I don't talk the same, I don't think the same way I did before that happened. The me before died and I am the one living in this body until it expires.I have the same wants, the same dreams, but what I (probably?) gained in emotional intelligence, I lost in the actual thing.I saw nothing. Just the void ripping shit away from me and I am lesser for it.
I frequently tell family who ask how I'm doing that I don't really wanna be here anymore (in a joking tone but still). I can't really relate except that I used to be somewhat nervous about death and now I'm more or less ready for it (I was going to use the word stoked, but that seems like the kind of thing you get worried about someone writing).What happened was that I took a large dose of weed, plugged in headphones and listened to those gateway experience tapes that are supposed to take you out of body, and I experienced some weird out of body shit that I couldn't explain. And along the way I had what I later learned was an "ego death", which I had no idea could happen on just weed, but ... yeah. It was temporary, of course, but I still have the memories and TBH it really helped.
Quote from: Cheat on September 09, 2024, 07:48:03 AMI frequently tell family who ask how I'm doing that I don't really wanna be here anymore (in a joking tone but still). I can't really relate except that I used to be somewhat nervous about death and now I'm more or less ready for it (I was going to use the word stoked, but that seems like the kind of thing you get worried about someone writing).What happened was that I took a large dose of weed, plugged in headphones and listened to those gateway experience tapes that are supposed to take you out of body, and I experienced some weird out of body shit that I couldn't explain. And along the way I had what I later learned was an "ego death", which I had no idea could happen on just weed, but ... yeah. It was temporary, of course, but I still have the memories and TBH it really helped.It's possible to experience ego death simply through meditation without the use of any substance. Though, if the brain does produce DMT on its own, then I wonder if that has something to do with some people's experience.
Quote from: Aether on September 09, 2024, 03:18:36 PMQuote from: Cheat on September 09, 2024, 07:48:03 AMI frequently tell family who ask how I'm doing that I don't really wanna be here anymore (in a joking tone but still). I can't really relate except that I used to be somewhat nervous about death and now I'm more or less ready for it (I was going to use the word stoked, but that seems like the kind of thing you get worried about someone writing).What happened was that I took a large dose of weed, plugged in headphones and listened to those gateway experience tapes that are supposed to take you out of body, and I experienced some weird out of body shit that I couldn't explain. And along the way I had what I later learned was an "ego death", which I had no idea could happen on just weed, but ... yeah. It was temporary, of course, but I still have the memories and TBH it really helped.It's possible to experience ego death simply through meditation without the use of any substance. Though, if the brain does produce DMT on its own, then I wonder if that has something to do with some people's experience.There's a gland somewhere near the base of your brain in the lower regions. It's one of the most protected parts. Anybody who's dying or who has died will have had this gland fire at maximum and release all of its contents in one shot. It's potent shit. We're talking about the longest drug trip anybody could ever have because the type of chemical dilates the perception of time. The manmade version of the stuff is super illegal just about everywhere.I think this is the only major time this gland does anything, other than possibly releasing very tiny doses of what it produces during sleep.
Quote from: E on September 09, 2024, 04:51:08 PMQuote from: Aether on September 09, 2024, 03:18:36 PMQuote from: Cheat on September 09, 2024, 07:48:03 AMI frequently tell family who ask how I'm doing that I don't really wanna be here anymore (in a joking tone but still). I can't really relate except that I used to be somewhat nervous about death and now I'm more or less ready for it (I was going to use the word stoked, but that seems like the kind of thing you get worried about someone writing).What happened was that I took a large dose of weed, plugged in headphones and listened to those gateway experience tapes that are supposed to take you out of body, and I experienced some weird out of body shit that I couldn't explain. And along the way I had what I later learned was an "ego death", which I had no idea could happen on just weed, but ... yeah. It was temporary, of course, but I still have the memories and TBH it really helped.It's possible to experience ego death simply through meditation without the use of any substance. Though, if the brain does produce DMT on its own, then I wonder if that has something to do with some people's experience.There's a gland somewhere near the base of your brain in the lower regions. It's one of the most protected parts. Anybody who's dying or who has died will have had this gland fire at maximum and release all of its contents in one shot. It's potent shit. We're talking about the longest drug trip anybody could ever have because the type of chemical dilates the perception of time. The manmade version of the stuff is super illegal just about everywhere.I think this is the only major time this gland does anything, other than possibly releasing very tiny doses of what it produces during sleep.Yes, that's dimethyltryptamine. Very similar in structure to other psychedelic hallucinogens like psilocybin, 4-aco-DMT, 5-meo-DMT etc. Supposedly produced naturally by the brains of mammals. Which makes you wonder what the evolutionary purpose of such a thing is.