Obligatory blog post, I can't help it right now.

For me, I'll say always often recently. Anything and everything I usually try to do just ends up going to waste somehow. Its even worse if I'm talking with family or other people irl. Midway through my sentence I get interrupted by someone either by having the subject changed or having the subject changed and directed to someone else in the room. In my head I begin thinking "did I just waste my fucking time again?"

It is so fucking infuriating you just want to be a total dick to them and pull off the same shit, oh but when I do that its considered rude. Such hypocrites.

Even if I make a thread online or talk about it irl about tech and how to do something involving tech. There is nothing worse than some shithead telling me its useless information. Its like bitch, you learn to crawl before you walk, not the other way around. Me explaining the beginning on what to do will help you because if I just get to the end you'll be left confused. And say I do skip to the end for the sake of argument.

"huh? what?"



Wasted effort! Even on the internet, back on B.old I used to make more and more constructive threads and it went fine, now, on this B.old clone, I'm either sperging out or its automatically considered shitposting. What constitutes actual shitposting anymore? Its getting confusing? Hell, what even constitutes sperging? Does writing paragraphs of something mean that you are sperging?

Either the world around me is crumbling as humanity plummets deeper and deeper into technology, disregarding when actual quality material exists or I've just completely lost my touch with human beings all together and became the next Sheldon Cooper, minus the really high IQ that he has.

Internet, Sep7agon, what I'm trying to say is, is there anymore incentive left to actually try at something? Such as decency itself? Or is that dead?

Because I am beginning to believe its dead. Each day I feel more inadequate than the last. There is always someone that is going to 1UP you no matter what you do, at least that is the case for me, either that or its all at random luck and it just so happens to be that I'm really fucking unlucky.

So, assuming you read all of that, do you ever feel like no matter what you try, it eventually leads to an wasted effort?

Since this is predictable as clockwork, go ahead and skip all this and just post TL;DR because I already know that's more than likely going to be the first post. That or I get no replies. The interactions in real life translate online so damn well. I get it both ways. I mean if it was just this place sure I get that I'm infamous, but its everywhere.

I feel this way mostly with people, which is why I try to just avoid them.

Problem is we scientifically haven't found a way to get rid of companionship or basic human interaction. Its a basic need.

101% of the time

Life is a waste of space.

101% of the time

Life is a waste of space.

Welcome to harsh cruel reality.

Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 08, 2016, 10:55:13 PM

Quote from: Prime Multivac on February 08, 2016, 10:53:21 PM

101% of the time

Life is a waste of space.

Welcome to harsh cruel reality.

You can't hide
What's inside

Reality is a nice place to visit but I wouldn't wanna live there.

Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 08, 2016, 10:57:24 PM

Quote from: Prime Multivac on February 08, 2016, 10:55:42 PM

Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 08, 2016, 10:55:13 PM

Quote from: Prime Multivac on February 08, 2016, 10:53:21 PM

101% of the time

Life is a waste of space.

Welcome to harsh cruel reality.

You can't hide
What's inside

Reality is a nice place to visit but I wouldn't wanna live there.

You're racing against the sun there.

You're one to talk.

Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 08, 2016, 11:00:02 PM

Quote from: Blazed Iron on February 08, 2016, 10:59:12 PM

Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 08, 2016, 10:57:24 PM

Quote from: Prime Multivac on February 08, 2016, 10:55:42 PM

Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 08, 2016, 10:55:13 PM

Quote from: Prime Multivac on February 08, 2016, 10:53:21 PM

101% of the time

Life is a waste of space.

Welcome to harsh cruel reality.

You can't hide
What's inside

Reality is a nice place to visit but I wouldn't wanna live there.

You're racing against the sun there.

You're one to talk.

What? I was trying to say that reality is inevitable.

Oh.

Well reality blows.

Quote from: Rocketman287 on February 08, 2016, 10:52:42 PM

Depends on what the majority of my efforts consist of. Arguing online with someone? Yeah pointless.
Doing something out in town? Nah that's good for me.

How are your interactions with other human beings irl? Do people at least listen to you?

Of course. No complaints about my interactions with friends.

Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 08, 2016, 10:53:52 PM

Quote from: Rocketman287 on February 08, 2016, 10:52:42 PM

Depends on what the majority of my efforts consist of. Arguing online with someone? Yeah pointless.
Doing something out in town? Nah that's good for me.

How are your interactions with other human beings irl? Do people at least listen to you?

Of course. No complaints about my interactions with friends.

Maybe I'm just overly critical and paranoid, but I feel like people are hiding the truth about me. When I was a kid I wouldn't stop talking, I got so much shit over how much I talk that I do my best to remain as quite and not so much talkative, because once I become talkative, I annoy the shit out of people again.

All the time because I'm a deadbeat.

Okay fella I've noticed you've been having a hard time lately so I'm gonna read everything then shower thinking about it and reply, be back in like 15

Okay.

I try not to worry about things I can't control.

I wish it were that easy for me honestly.

It's not easy for anyone

key word there is "try"

Each time I try harder and harder, I feel like all I'm doing is just throwing a pebble at a concrete door, not even opening it.

Okay fella well I think your biggest problem is that you need to realize that you definitely overreact to a lot of these situations. You need to realize that not everyone is a mean rude person without decency, it's just the way you interpret things. That's how YOU are taking all this information and processing it.

Now there's nothing wrong with this, it's good to accept yourself for how you are. But the best thing to do would be to develop better "self awareness", which is stepping outside of your shoes so you can see how other people interpret you. Can you put yourself in the position of another person and accurately see how you're coming off to them?

It's a very important skill to have. I'm extremely self aware, I can see exactly how I come across to everyone and everything I do is with this in mind. another very self aware person I can think of on here is Verb. Some less self aware people I think are Desty and to some extent Elegiac.

Google how to increase your self awareness and read articles ect. The main goal is to help you recognize when you are misinterpreting other people's actions/words and to realize you're being unreasonable and to chill out.

I don't understand. I like to think I do a pretty decent job putting myself in other people's shoes. I'm understanding. Maybe I just see myself as a negative presence rather than a positive one. I don't know. I'm not looking for pity from people, I'm just expressing how I feel, and honestly I feel useless pretty often.

I get that a fair bit, but normally it's when I've decided to give up on doing something when whatever I hoped to accomplish was literally just around the corner.

Nowadays it's like I plan my day and try to account for as many situations as possible, and then get caught by surprise by something unexpected that should be obvious too, as the main thing for me that goes wrong tbh.

I used to.  I'm living on my own terms now, so things are falling into place a lot better for me.  As for people not listening?  Yes to that too.  I don't speak so factually in the real world, there's little authority in my voice because I'm not out to control how anyone lives, if it gets brushed off then that's fine.  But if I want to have an actual conversation with someone, then I need to be talking to different kinds of people.

With the shift in my life came a new group of people whom are far more considerate to who I am as opposed to the overall corporate atmosphere I live in (but am in no way affiliated with).  It's brought me to a better place, especially when it comes to dealing with people I'm on a completely different frequency with.  People can be great, people can be fucks, in either case there's a good reason for it.  It's better to accept that rather than to hit your head against the wall over it.  People can romanticize about how opposites attract and all that (in terms of friendships or relationships or whatever), but nothing beats being with 'your' people.

In short, you are who you are dude.  I wouldn't try to appeal who you are to other people or worry about it too much.  If you want to talk and to be heard, start talking to the right group.  I'm not saying this in a "fuck the world it's shit" stance, but more in line with finding people you resonate a bit better with.  And in short, sometimes it is a wasted effort trying to get through to some people, but understand that to a differing extent, you're like that too with other people whether you see it or not.  We all are.

If something's not working for you, change it.  If any person has any authority over something, it's their own life.

Well said actually. I wish that could be explained to my own brother-in-law. He's dense as hell and he believes whatever he says is right. Just had an argument with him actually, not too long ago.