So the past few months have been terribly stressful for me. A lot of shit is going on in my personal life. To name a few, I have to deal with my coworkers and the customers at my shitty retail job, I started college, and my grandfather who lives with me and my family has wandered off and got lost twice because of his worsening dementia. Not to mention he's getting increasingly aggressive as well.

If in the case video games don't cut it for me, I usually take about an hour long walk around the town I live in. I'll sometimes stop by the huge lake here as well and just enjoy the view. It's really nice.

I don't, it's why I'm not in a good state of mind, to say the least

watch anime, hang out with friends

recently i began a journal and i feel like that helps too

I live about 2 hours from the coast. Along PCH where I go, there's spots where you can park your car and just enjoy the views, weather, and sounds of the ocean. Every once in a while I will drive out there and enjoy all of that. In that moment I feel so relaxed, stress-free, and I feel like all of my troubles are nonexistent when I'm there.

I dont.

The worlds fucked and I dont give a shit anymore to be honest. Only a matter of time.

Beer and porn

Intense weightlifting has always been a great outlet for me

Meditation has basically helped me to not identify with my thoughts as much. Super helpful for any kind of emotional stress

My biggest thing though is I don’t run away or block out any emotional stresses. That’s a sure fire way to make sure you don’t become strong enough to handle them and they always come up again in the future. Instead I use it as opportunities to learn how to handle them, how to overcome whatever I’m going through. Lots of different resources like books, podcasts, videos. Content from people I admire or have gone through intense shit. It’s built a really strong emotional resilience in me, I’ve started to become the person other people go to for THEIR emotional support because of how I handle it now. I think this is the best possible thing you can do. Becoming a more emotionally  resilient person benefits not only your life but the lives of your loved ones as well

Overthinking, overanalyzing separates the body from the mind
Withering my intuition, missing opportunities, and I must
Feed my will to feel my moment, drawing way outside the lines

Not in the healthiest ways as of late, but I'm trying to make changes. I use to be a very active person, went to the gym daily and everything, but school has become very difficult and time-consuming over the last several months and it's just gotten away from me. For a long time, I just smoked to relax in my down time, but I noticed it wasn't affecting me positively with the frequency of use I was at, so I've been cutting back for my own sake.

I just try to hang out with friends when I need to give my head a rest. Either that, play video games with people, peruse the internet, or listen to music. Music is the thing that really keeps me alive nowadays.

Dude I get thunderclap headaches on the daily, full time work sucks ass and my luck with relationships is that abysmal every girl I date ends up making me want to slit my wrists more than the last.

Only T-posing at the highest point of the mountain overlooking my town brings me peace.

mail IEDs to random people