... but when it came to business, you failed to put effort into it? Or even worse, you managed to put effort, but results were so miserable by your own standarts that it additionaly double down any left in you motivation to do a thing?

My issue is that I'm dying for a chance to do something, but my current position prevents me from doing so, and yes I have tried. I'm used to working in substandard conditions, but what I'm in right now is beyond me. And what sucks about it is that, so like for 3D, with all the people I've talked to, I have potential, but I need to put time into it that I don't have because work plus commute takes up to at least 12-13 hours of my day if I don't stay for overtime. On top of being in an ill-suited attic bedroom that I can even stand in. Not tryi g to bitch, these are just issues I've struggled to find solutions to. Hell even in our last house I was able to find a way to paint, but I unless I want to invest money in this shithole that I'm tryi g to leave, there's no feasible way

All the time, partner.

One thing that let me achieve things is if I forget I have a choice.

basically, whenever a thought like "Oh yeah, I need to do thing X" - you immediately proceed to do it instead of postponing it for later.

You have no choice. there are no shortcuts in the life of an adult.

Diet. I always end up eating poorly even though it always makes me feel awful. If it weren't for portion management and low-moderate exercise I would likely be obese.

Diet. I always end up eating poorly even though it always makes me feel awful. If it weren't for portion management and low-moderate exercise I would likely be obese.

Oh, that's interesting. Dedicated diet is something I've always wanted to have, but I don't have knowledge or money, depending on what kind of diet. I tried keto, it seems to went well, but it's very hard diet to support.

I do have some sort of gear in my brain that controls what I eat, so I try to eat what is best for my health as long as I can afford it, but sometimes I really want to go and just eat 300g of fries or big bag of chips and I go and do that, and sometimes I'm just too lazy to cook, so I can skip it. In recent years however I managed to bring the idea of breakfast as necessity to my brain, so I try to have food soon after I wake up.

Exercise is something I wanted to implement as well, and there was perions of time when I went running every next day or at least go for a long walk, but right now is raining season, with bunch of work to do, so it flopped.

Brother, I always wanted to replace my arms with drills, and my legs with wheels, but I get too queasy thinking about it... Like how will I be able to love those I care about, when I fucking drill holes in them, and run over their corpses? Sometimes for me, it's good to have cold feet and be lazy about not murdering your asshole boss at night.

calm down discount edward scissor hands

i feel that for real

you can always try to be a better person than you were 5 minutes ago, in whatever it is you want to be better at or whatever you believe makes you a better person

I felt that 2019 was the year for me where things just didn't work out. When I was younger I expected to be in a very different place in life. Having a family possibly, living elsewhere, with a good job and degree. None of that has come to pass, but I am working towards the degree again. My jobs also feel like failures because I've had so many as of late, nothing long term works out.

But I will find a way dammit.

This seems to be a much more common trend among Y/Zoomers, I'm finding.

I felt that 2019 was the year for me where things just didn't work out. When I was younger I expected to be in a very different place in life. Having a family possibly, living elsewhere, with a good job and degree. None of that has come to pass, but I am working towards the degree again. My jobs also feel like failures because I've had so many as of late, nothing long term works out.

But I will find a way dammit.

hey thats the spirit! things rarely work out as planned, especially once you start building up grand ideas and scenarios in your head.

the best mindset is what youve got - keep on trying regardless. just cause u aint there now doesnt mean u never will be, and u got time