You give people current examples of what you make and ask what you can do for improvements.

You give people current examples of what you make and ask what you can do for improvements.

Of which I do.

I guess it's more a self-confidence thing? What I've felt is good suddenly doesn't feel good now that someone's paying me for it. The bar was raised.

can you get paid for wanking

This is one of the major things that keeps me from pursuing a career in art even though I really want to.

Gotta get some fuck it in your system, sort you right out.

you just focus on that one thing until the end of time

but what if I want to other things

Tell me about it, I'm an art major.  I've already decided I'm gonna be the weird lighthouse keeper that makes art till i die alone, and then everyone will find it afterwards

Dunno if this'll help but I'll offer my perspective. Somewhere along the way, I taught myself how to be dedicated. When working on a job, it's when I was most dedicated. Believe me when I say that people noticed. Strangers who never knew me, on the first day, would come up and say that they saw what I did while working. I can't give you a manual on how to be dedicated because I myself don't understand why I am for jobs and people around me.

But I know that it plays a part in your hobby.

Dedication to doing the best work on your task for somebody else transfers to your personal life. I wrote stories as a hobby. Over the years I had a lot of people tell me I could consider publishing if I wanted to. And I know they were right.

I got my fun from making the story. From putting my ideas and emotions behind settings, characters, and the work itself. But it was my dedication to doing the best work I could that drove improvement, and drove me to push my abilities farther every time.

In my opinion, if you allow yourself to have fun in what you do, but also have that spark of dedication to the craft, then your work can merit a proffession. That's what a proffession is all about.

It's the duality of both being something that generates happiness, but the hard gritty part where you push yourself harder through the tough spots every time.

If I knew the answer to this, I'd be plenty more confident in my apparent skill in art and maybe other subjects, I think a major part of my downfall is I let narcolepsy beat me and stop me from really getting anywhere