Confession thread?

I've been feeling kind of depressed as of late, but I just don't know who to tell and how to talk about it because I don't want to come off as an attention whore and whatnot. I've been thinking bad stuff and I've been thinking about how shit i am, how I have no talents, how I'm probably never going to do anything good with my life. But I have never thought about suicide really, never. Which is good i guess but when i do think about it I feel like the only reason I wouldn't do it is because I don't want people in my family to be sad.

I'm kinda going through the same thing at the moment. I don't talk to anyone about it except my closest friend. He's really the only one that understands and he's also the only person I feel comfortable talking to about this.

I've been feeling kind of depressed as of late, but I just don't know who to tell and how to talk about it because I don't want to come off as an attention whore and whatnot. I've been thinking bad stuff and I've been thinking about how shit i am, how I have no talents, how I'm probably never going to do anything good with my life. But I have never thought about suicide really, never. Which is good i guess but when i do think about it I feel like the only reason I wouldn't do it is because I don't want people in my family to be sad.

I'm kinda going through the same thing at the moment. I don't talk to anyone about it except my closest friend. He's really the only one that understands and he's also the only person I feel comfortable talking to about this.

I don't have many friends that live nearby, most of them moved. Even if they were nearby I don't know how to talk about my problems. i'm just used to keeping things to myself like this.

I've been feeling kind of depressed as of late, but I just don't know who to tell and how to talk about it because I don't want to come off as an attention whore and whatnot. I've been thinking bad stuff and I've been thinking about how shit i am, how I have no talents, how I'm probably never going to do anything good with my life. But I have never thought about suicide really, never. Which is good i guess but when i do think about it I feel like the only reason I wouldn't do it is because I don't want people in my family to be sad.

You are young, and have so much time to figure out your purpose in life.
Find what you like, and pursue it. You've got time, and you'll have some measure of success in life, don't worry.

I know your personality, you'll do great things

suicide has entered my thoughts a lot lately.

i dont want to die right now and i dont have any particular motivation for leaving the world anytime soon, so its not a pressing issue, but im worried that eventually ill become so jaded to the idea that ill take my fate into my own hands.

i think ill be better once im done with college and settled down on my own.

College and work can REALLY make life feel so........dull.

Ever consider another avenue, like money through some alternate source and funding an education program for yourself?

Like scholarships or something? I had those, but one class took that all away -_-
So my mom is the reason I can afford college still.

I've been feeling kind of depressed as of late, but I just don't know who to tell and how to talk about it because I don't want to come off as an attention whore and whatnot. I've been thinking bad stuff and I've been thinking about how shit i am, how I have no talents, how I'm probably never going to do anything good with my life. But I have never thought about suicide really, never. Which is good i guess but when i do think about it I feel like the only reason I wouldn't do it is because I don't want people in my family to be sad.

You are young, and have so much time to figure out your purpose in life.
Find what you like, and pursue it. You've got time, and you'll have some measure of success in life, don't worry.

I know your personality, you'll do great things

Thanks Rocket.

suicide has entered my thoughts a lot lately.

i dont want to die right now and i dont have any particular motivation for leaving the world anytime soon, so its not a pressing issue, but im worried that eventually ill become so jaded to the idea that ill take my fate into my own hands.

i think ill be better once im done with college and settled down on my own.

College and work can REALLY make life feel so........dull.

Ever consider another avenue, like money through some alternate source and funding an education program for yourself?

Like scholarships or something? I had those, but one class took that all away -_-
So my mom is the reason I can afford college still.

More like pursuing something outside of the system to fill those things it can't provide.

suicide has entered my thoughts a lot lately.

i dont want to die right now and i dont have any particular motivation for leaving the world anytime soon, so its not a pressing issue, but im worried that eventually ill become so jaded to the idea that ill take my fate into my own hands.

i think ill be better once im done with college and settled down on my own.

College and work can REALLY make life feel so........dull.

Ever consider another avenue, like money through some alternate source and funding an education program for yourself?

Like scholarships or something? I had those, but one class took that all away -_-
So my mom is the reason I can afford college still.

More like pursuing something outside of the system to fill those things it can't provide.

..............you don't mean drugs and prostitution right?

There's only been a couple times in my life were I've legitimately felt depressed, most of the time I just feel sorta down, just thinking about my future and other things get me down. I know what I want to do in life but there's so many obstacles to get to that goal, and like others I don't want to be alone in the future. I guess you can say life has finally hit me, and I've just been overwhelmed.

I've been feeling kind of depressed as of late, but I just don't know who to tell and how to talk about it because I don't want to come off as an attention whore and whatnot. I've been thinking bad stuff and I've been thinking about how shit i am, how I have no talents, how I'm probably never going to do anything good with my life. But I have never thought about suicide really, never. Which is good i guess but when i do think about it I feel like the only reason I wouldn't do it is because I don't want people in my family to be sad.

You're free to shoot my a PM at any time if you'd like. I'm all ears.

thanks for the offer nuka.

I went through the same ordeal, which was further escalated to dramatic levels thanks to my mother.  She pretty much harassed me about how I had no skills (and this was just because I didn't do good in math mind you, I"m great in other subjects) and it ended up with me nearly blowing my fucking brains out.

I ended up not doing it because I had friends that care.  And I was going to prove a point to my mom and aim to be more successful than she was.  She barely has faith in me as it is, so that'll be a bigger middle finger to her when I eventually reach those heights.

I've been feeling kind of depressed as of late, but I just don't know who to tell and how to talk about it because I don't want to come off as an attention whore and whatnot. I've been thinking bad stuff and I've been thinking about how shit i am, how I have no talents, how I'm probably never going to do anything good with my life. But I have never thought about suicide really, never. Which is good i guess but when i do think about it I feel like the only reason I wouldn't do it is because I don't want people in my family to be sad.

You're free to shoot my a PM at any time if you'd like. I'm all ears.

thanks for the offer nuka.

I went through the same ordeal, which was further escalated to dramatic levels thanks to my mother.  She pretty much harassed me about how I had no skills (and this was just because I didn't do good in math mind you, I"m great in other subjects) and it ended up with me nearly blowing my fucking brains out.

I ended up not doing it because I had friends that care.  And I was going to prove a point to my mom and aim to be more successful than she was.  She barely has faith in me as it is, so that'll be a bigger middle finger to her when I eventually reach those heights.

i guess i'm lucky that i have the family I have. Hell, at the end of the day I make myself feel bad because i feel like I haven't done enough with them or I just haven't been a good enough person back to them.

There's only been a couple times in my life were I've legitimately felt depressed, most of the time I just feel sorta down, just thinking about my future and other things get me down. I know what I want to do in life but there's so many obstacles to get to that goal, and like others I don't want to be alone in the future. I guess you can say life has finally hit me, and I've just been overwhelmed.

There's only been a couple times in my life were I've legitimately felt depressed, most of the time I just feel sorta down, just thinking about my future and other things get me down. I know what I want to do in life but there's so many obstacles to get to that goal, and like others I don't want to be alone in the future. I guess you can say life has finally hit me, and I've just been overwhelmed.

Yeah, it sucks mang.

i have a very hard time getting over unrequited love, especially when i had feelings for a close friend. the friendship is never quite the same after i open up about my feelings. this is something that happens to me a lot, and while i dont blame the girls for rejecting me, its always been really hard for me to deal with. as a result, ive become jaded and anxious about approaching women, and its a lot easier for me to take solace in my solitude than work up the courage to pursue a relationship.

i finally got my first girl sometime after graduating high school, but two months after we got together i began to have second thoughts. i overanalyzed our friendship and thought we werent compatible and i figured the best thing to do would be to break it off before she got attached to me. she came to my house one night unannounced to surprise me, but i surprised her with a breakup... ive always felt like a real asshole for it. luckily, she found another guy a few months later, and now they seem to be happily engaged. i apologized to her for my uncouth behavior some time ago, i think she's better off now than she would be with me, so i take comfort in that. i havent been intimate in any way with a girl since i broke up with her.

i dont have anyone in real life with whom i really feel comfortable talking to about the way i feel. i barely have a relationship with my father and i deeply resent my stepfather. i have a hard time keeping friends. contact always breaks off after some time.. sometimes from my end, sometimes mutual, sometimes from their end, but it never fails. i dont have any friends left from childhood or even really from high school, and i havent met anyone in college. i have a hard time keeping work. i worked a custodial job for about a year and one day i was fired out of the blue by my direct supervisor.. a week after i had been told by the general manager (who hired me) at a meeting that i was doing a fine job. i had a temp job first semester of college that went kind of well, but of course it was only temporary... i was fired from my next job at a sandwich shop in less than two months, with no word other than "it just isnt working out." ive been unemployed since then, rejected or no reply'd from everywhere ive applied.

ive become complacent and irksome. my mood changes like the winds and i get angry very quickly when im displeased. im restless and disillusioned and im deeply, deeply resentful of the rat race ive been forced to run my entire life. i dont know what i would even do if i hadnt gone to college, and im in too deep to quit now. i dont remember the last time i felt truly happy. i dont know what it feels like to love and be loved by anyone that isnt close family. i dont feel like i belong where i am. i read so many books when i was younger, and now i can count the number of books ive read for pleasure in the last four years on one hand.

i dont believe in god. im not an atheist, i just dont think that whatever force governs our universe gives the slightest shit about the individual's experience. god only exists as cold, impartial order. im an indoctrinated methodist but i broke from the church years ago. by my estimation, life is suffering and then you die, so where's the intrinsic meaning or purpose to my existence? why was i brought from the void into this transient hell? i tell myself that i live for the pursuit of epicurean pleasure, but i think the reality is that i lack the constitution for suicide.

i just want to be happy. i want to be far away from where i am and i want to be truly, truly happy. i think im chasing a phantom. i dont think ill ever be happy.

i dont know why i dumped that here. i might delete it.

Well one of my friends recently moved away for personal reasons. So I've been feeling a bit down as of late.

I guess that's all I got..

To be honest, I don't think I ever really loved my ex.

I get water cups at fast food places and fill it with soda.

I get water cups at fast food places and fill it with soda.

Fuck you I hope you rot in hell you shitstain

This thread is sad. Stop being sad.

This thread is sad. Stop being sad.

I didn't mean for this...but atleast others are sharing their feelings, right? :L

This thread is sad. Stop being sad.

I didn't mean for this...but atleast others are sharing their feelings, right? :L

It's nice to get things off your chest.

I confess almost everything. There is nothing of substance to confess.

I can't think of anything

i dont know why i dumped that here. i might delete it.

I was actually touched when I read you'r posts...you really sound like you need a hug and I would to, if ya know...internet and all ;-;

I confess almost everything. There is nothing of substance to confess.

I think that might actually be the saddest story yet.

I wouldn't call being honest sad.

I get water cups at fast food places and fill it with soda.

You are the reason I hated my fast food job.
I just want you to know that >_>

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lol i did it too

suicide has entered my thoughts a lot lately.

i dont want to die right now and i dont have any particular motivation for leaving the world anytime soon, so its not a pressing issue, but im worried that eventually ill become so jaded to the idea that ill take my fate into my own hands.

i think ill be better once im done with college and settled down on my own.

College and work can REALLY make life feel so........dull.

Ever consider another avenue, like money through some alternate source and funding an education program for yourself?

Like scholarships or something? I had those, but one class took that all away -_-
So my mom is the reason I can afford college still.

More like pursuing something outside of the system to fill those things it can't provide.

..............you don't mean drugs and prostitution right?

lol. well that escalated quickly.

I have to be sure Nuka.

I HAVE TO BE SURE!

I arrived drunk to my high school at least three times.

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Justified considering I couldn't stand a lot of the people I was around.

I've restarted an old habit again.