Lately I've been having a sort of existential crisis type deal and it's made me pretty upset. Its about the shortness of life.

I basically experience the world differently than I used to. Before and after my weird disassociation type thing in June.

I now realize that our entire life is basically just one moment. Even thinking back to the past or imagining the future happens only in the one moment we perceive. A lot of people/monks etc find peace with this but it's been making me pretty upset. I find it hard to accept that everything that I know and will ever experience is trapped in this one moment. It makes me sad that very soon the people I love, my passions, my mind and myself will all be gone with myself being last. And this will happen not in some mystical realm called the future but in the moment I perceive.

You would think this would make me appreciate all these things more but if anything it's made it more difficult. When I'm wrestling with my girlfriend in the back of my head is the idea that she will be gone before I know it. When I'm with my family I can't get the idea out of my head that literally tomorrow they could all die. And it would all happen in an instant(the present moment). I can only seem to appreciate my life fully when I look back in memory. Which makes me feel like I'm missing out on experiencing my life

 No real discussion value I guess unless you guys have some insight. Just felt like putting my thoughts out there. Smh

It's important to learn to appreciate life in the moment. Sometimes it can feel a little melodramatic to take in the things that happen to you as they happen but I'd rather that than potentially missing the significance of the moment.