I'm sitting here feeling pretty sore and stupid. I let myself slip into a deep black mood on thursday, then got to drinking. Stupid, stupid. I went out to one of my favourite spots to write, down by the river, and I actually wrote a nice little piece, but it didn't help. To cut a long story short, drinking continued, on an empty stomach, and at some point in the night I tried to kill myself by throwing myself in front of a car. I don't remember it too clearly, but I obviously didn't pull it off since I'm still here. Someone called an ambulance and they came to pick me up. I mustn't have even damaged the car because nobody ever heard from them. But in hindsight, I wouldn't want to have done that to some poor driver.

The next thing I remember is abusing hospital staff, drunkenly trying to get them to discharge me since the sun was coming up, and trying to hit on nurses with my face still covered in dried blood. I never wanted to be one of those dumbasses who gets angry at hospital staff. Now I'm sitting here, body all battered, with staples in my face (apparently I wouldn't let them stitch me up), a lot of loose teeth and one tooth missing.

Dumbest thing I've ever done. So. Fucking. Dumb. I haven't told any of my real life friends yet, I just cancelled my weekend activities and said that I'd had an 'accident.' And I certainly don't want to talk about what brought the mood on, that's far too private and something for me to deal with myself.

You can comment on how stupid I am, but please don't lecture me, because as always, I already understand everything that's wrong with what I did. Feels sorta unreal, but at least I'm still alive.

I'd stay away from drinking if it leads to stuff like this.

I'd stay away from drinking if it leads to stuff like this.

I'm going to be a teetotaller for a while.

Yeah, definitely don't drink if you're depressed. That's just an all around bad idea.

Quote from: Rocketman287 on January 17, 2015, 03:18:25 AM

I'd stay away from drinking if it leads to stuff like this.

I'm going to be a teetotaller for a while.

For goodness sake dude, take care of yourself.
I value my life enough to not put myself at risk.

I'd hate for you to end up dead over something so...........trivial.

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Ele went full retard.
glad you're ok though. which tooth are you missing now?

Now? This is the first tooth I've ever lost and I'm not liking the feeling.

Sort of a frontish-to-the-side one on my bottom jaw. Nothing extremely obvious, luckily.

lol you're not from WV, i didnt think you lost teeth on the daily.

what's WV?

West Virginia, known for mountain men and bad dental hygiene.

Ah yeah, like a place out of a Lovecraft novel.

Damn man, I don't really know what to say other than be fucking careful.

Aw man, that sucks ... Hope things get better dude, Lurulu is always here for you.

Aw man, that sucks ... Hope things get better dude, Lurulu is always here for you.

Yo. I just can't be bothered with a  full on flowing convo yet, although I see the chat is alive.

Drinking when depressed.

..... That never works

Fucking hell, you're lucky you survived.

Oh and, good thing to see you're somewhat safe.

At least you're alright.

But he's not