Advice

RomanGladiator · May 18, 2016, 06:32:04 AM

I put off my graduate program for a year because I was overwhelmed, anxious, and a few things happened and I realized I needed to improve myself before doing it with: anxiety, public speaking, confidence, stress-management. I emailed my adviser telling her I will defer until next year. If I am going to teach, I need to improve myself. And I am certainly not happy with myself right now either.

I am unemployed now, and trying to keep busy. I cold called a bunch of places for work yesterday, mostly newspapers and tutoring centers. I have an interview with a new tutoring company that just opened up Monday. All you need is a BA. It would be for a few different subjects, and starting pay is $18 an hour and could go up to $25. Just part time to start though, depending on how many clients they get. I do like explaining things to people, and maybe it will help me, and will certainly do more good than my last job. Still, I've barely been sleeping these past few nights, hoping that I made the right decision. Now I'm thinking what ifs...but I needed to work more too before I committed to a program that was so intensive. And thought I wasn't mature enough yet. And I'm going to try to improve myself this next year. I know you guys hate me/dislike me, but just thought I'd share.

Jocephalopod · May 18, 2016, 06:43:52 AM

good.

start fucking below 170lbs while ur at it.

BaconShelf · May 18, 2016, 07:02:27 AM

I don't really see what the point of saying anything is considering you'd ignore it anyway.

RomanGladiator · May 18, 2016, 07:05:16 AM

Quote from: Jocephalopod on May 18, 2016, 06:43:52 AM

good.

start fucking below 170lbs while ur at it.

The type of girls I like is not going to change...

DAS B00T x2 · May 18, 2016, 11:04:02 AM

Not bad bro, that sounds like it could be some good experience prior to actually teaching and if you can manage about 30 hours a week, that's not bad at all for part time work pay.

Jono · May 18, 2016, 11:05:25 AM

We don't hate you, we just want you to listen to us for once

PSU · May 18, 2016, 11:44:55 AM

You did do the right thing. You can ALWAYS go back to school.

In the meantime, you'll get a decent job, in your field, and improve the things you need to improve on.

I really don't have any advice, just don't get so down on yourself, you're doing the right things.

Ender · May 18, 2016, 11:45:02 AM

What's the point in giving you advice if you never listen to it.

RomanGladiator · May 18, 2016, 01:11:26 PM

Quote from: Saint Endies on May 18, 2016, 11:45:02 AM

What's the point in giving you advice if you never listen to it.

I will. I realized how unhappy I am. Going to bring up seeing a therapist with my parents. I am not where a 24 year old should be and I want to do something meaningful. I spend too much time on the Internet and playing games and now I'm not working.

Solonoid · May 18, 2016, 01:37:14 PM

Quote from: RomanGladiator on May 18, 2016, 07:05:16 AM

Quote from: Jocephalopod on May 18, 2016, 06:43:52 AM
good.

start fucking below 170lbs while ur at it.
The type of girls I like is not going to change...

No commitment to self betterment.

There oughtta be a law.

RomanGladiator · May 18, 2016, 02:15:37 PM

Quote from: Sunshine on May 18, 2016, 01:37:14 PM

Quote from: RomanGladiator on May 18, 2016, 07:05:16 AM
Quote from: Jocephalopod on May 18, 2016, 06:43:52 AM
good.

start fucking below 170lbs while ur at it.
The type of girls I like is not going to change...
No commitment to self betterment.

There oughtta be a law.

I don't see why what type of girl I like has anything to do with it. But I've learned my lesson from the last one

Solonoid · May 18, 2016, 02:17:29 PM

Quote from: RomanGladiator on May 18, 2016, 02:15:37 PM

Quote from: Sunshine on May 18, 2016, 01:37:14 PM
Quote from: RomanGladiator on May 18, 2016, 07:05:16 AM
Quote from: Jocephalopod on May 18, 2016, 06:43:52 AM
good.

start fucking below 170lbs while ur at it.
The type of girls I like is not going to change...
No commitment to self betterment.

There oughtta be a law.
I don't see why what type of girl I like has anything to do with it. But I've learned my lesson from the last one

lol man I'm just fucking with you, bone who you like, just make sure you like them for the right reasons.

Flee · May 18, 2016, 02:37:19 PM

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RomanGladiator · May 18, 2016, 04:14:39 PM

Quote from: Flee on May 18, 2016, 02:37:19 PM

Quote from: BaconShelf on May 18, 2016, 07:02:27 AM
I don't really see what the point of saying anything is considering you'd ignore it anyway.
This is probably the main people have stopped caring, Roman. At least, I know I kind of have. It's like with your recent thread on what happened with that one girl. I spent a decent amount of time doing some research for you and present you with actual sound advice based on medical facts, which you didn't even acknowledge but instead went on for another 2 pages about how the world was going to end because of a tear on your dick. Doesn't exactly make people want to help.

I know. Maybe an internet forum is not the best place for me to get help anyways. I really think I need some type of therapy, I just have to push myself to get it.

MyNameIsCharlie · May 18, 2016, 05:34:47 PM

Quote from: PSU on May 18, 2016, 11:44:55 AM

You did do the right thing. You can ALWAYS go back to school.

In the meantime, you'll get a decent job, in your field, and improve the things you need to improve on.

I really don't have any advice, just don't get so down on yourself, you're doing the right things.

If you listen to anything, listen to this

RomanGladiator · May 18, 2016, 07:31:02 PM

I can't fall asleep at night. Since I was in high school I never felt normal and have thoughts of suicide. They still creep up on me but I've never tried. I just think about falling asleep and never waking up. I was bullied in high school and middle school, which added to my low self-esteem. I don't know what to do anymore. I threw away this opportunity because I wasn't motivated enough to do the work and a lot of other factors...I can make a good teacher. I was bullied and can be there for students that need help, but I had a nervous breakdown about this program. I want to be a better person guys, and I'm tired of feeling that I'm worthless and have no purpose.

Ian · May 18, 2016, 07:33:38 PM

QUESTION FOR EVERYBODY ELSE:

I was dark for most of Sep7's time, was Roman always like this?

RomanGladiator · May 18, 2016, 07:54:09 PM

I really need to get mental help. I just can't relax after the decision I've made. I just want someome to talk to and relate to. I feel worthless. I need something positive to do or hear.

PSU · May 18, 2016, 09:06:36 PM

Bro you have to relax.
Your decision can be reversed in a semester's time if you change your mind. It's really no big deal.

You have a degree. That alone makes you more successful than 50% of other 24 year olds. You have your head on straight. If you want to see a therapist, go ahead. Nothing wrong with that. I've done it, I know friends who still do it to this day.

RomanGladiator · May 18, 2016, 09:27:24 PM

Quote from: PSU on May 18, 2016, 09:06:36 PM

Bro you have to relax.
Your decision can be reversed in a semester's time if you change your mind. It's really no big deal.

You have a degree. That alone makes you more successful than 50% of other 24 year olds. You have your head on straight. If you want to see a therapist, go ahead. Nothing wrong with that. I've done it, I know friends who still do it to this day.

It's a yearly program and only starts in May. If I can just find a few things to keep me busy for a year I will be fine, but I need to work and make money.

Super Irish · May 18, 2016, 09:34:35 PM

Quote from: Ian on May 18, 2016, 07:33:38 PM

QUESTION FOR EVERYBODY ELSE:

I was dark for most of Sep7's time, was Roman always like this?

I honestly only noticed when he started with "All too easy"

Kitsune 狐 · May 18, 2016, 09:38:12 PM

Get some more sleep. Sleep helps out with depression. Sleep helps with elevating your mood. Sleep is good. Sleep is God. SLEEEEP

Also congrats on the new gig. Stick to it for a while.

RomanGladiator · May 18, 2016, 09:42:23 PM

Quote from: Kits on May 18, 2016, 09:38:12 PM

Get some more sleep. Sleep helps out with depression. Sleep helps with elevating your mood. Sleep is good. Sleep is God. SLEEEEP

Also congrats on the new gig. Stick to it for a while.

It's not confirmed yet, interview Monday. and i may need a second position too

Kitsune 狐 · May 18, 2016, 09:43:59 PM

Quote from: RomanGladiator on May 18, 2016, 09:42:23 PM

Quote from: Kits on May 18, 2016, 09:38:12 PM
Get some more sleep. Sleep helps out with depression. Sleep helps with elevating your mood. Sleep is good. Sleep is God. SLEEEEP

Also congrats on the new gig. Stick to it for a while.
It's not confirmed yet, interview Monday. and i may need a second position too

Best of luck with your interview! GET SLEEP THE NIGHT BEFORE! It's really important to sleep.

Also why would you need a second position?

RomanGladiator · May 18, 2016, 09:47:11 PM

Quote from: Kits on May 18, 2016, 09:43:59 PM

Quote from: RomanGladiator on May 18, 2016, 09:42:23 PM
Quote from: Kits on May 18, 2016, 09:38:12 PM
Get some more sleep. Sleep helps out with depression. Sleep helps with elevating your mood. Sleep is good. Sleep is God. SLEEEEP

Also congrats on the new gig. Stick to it for a while.
It's not confirmed yet, interview Monday. and i may need a second position too

Best of luck with your interview! GET SLEEP THE NIGHT BEFORE! It's really important to sleep.

Also why would you need a second position?

It might be only part time, it's tutoring so it's based on need. Didn't really learn too much about it over the phone, but if it is really $18 an hour I want to do it, and also to help students. It's almost an alternative way to teach what I know. And I realized this week I have so many things to work on with myself before I can commit to an intense full time graduate program

maverick · May 18, 2016, 10:05:57 PM

Quote from: Ian on May 18, 2016, 07:33:38 PM

QUESTION FOR EVERYBODY ELSE:

I was dark for most of Sep7's time, was Roman always like this?

He was like this back on b.net when I started noticing him right after the update and probably long before that.

This is why I'm starting to think he's a troll. He's constantly updated us on all his life problems that nobody wants to hear and always ignores all the sound advice posted in his threads.