Where are you, lately, in terms of internal change or conflict?

ΚΑΤΑΝΑΛΩΤΗΣ · January 26, 2016, 09:24:37 PM

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eggsalad · January 26, 2016, 10:52:55 PM

Used to be a fucking rollercoaster but after spending a few weeks with bae and his fam I suddenly have things to live for and don't descend into panics anymore. Although haven't hit the first waves of tests so who knows.

Sandtrap · January 26, 2016, 10:58:23 PM

Able to recognize that yes, I do indeed have particular spots of the day and things that make me happy. And trying to contend with things that would otherwise drag me down.

There's some medical stuff lately that's starting to get under my skin a bit.

Kiwicake · January 26, 2016, 11:07:31 PM

I'm pretty much going through a process of shedding off that persona I've had for years and becoming an actual person with feelings and emotions beyond just "happy"

There wasn't even anything to me, other than "happy", and I grew pretty tired of it actually. So now I'm on one of those journeys of self discovery to discover the true self.

Oh, and working through real life issues too, but I'd hate to bring that up for the millionth time.

🍁 Aria 🔮 · January 26, 2016, 11:34:29 PM

Quote from: Kiwicake on January 26, 2016, 11:07:31 PM

I'm pretty much going through a process of shedding off that persona I've had for years and becoming an actual person with feelings and emotions beyond just "happy"

Are you going to have an edgy phase?

eggsalad · January 26, 2016, 11:36:59 PM

Quote from: Prime Megaten on January 26, 2016, 11:34:29 PM

Quote from: Kiwicake on January 26, 2016, 11:07:31 PM
I'm pretty much going through a process of shedding off that persona I've had for years and becoming an actual person with feelings and emotions beyond just "happy"
Are you going to have an edgy phase?

tsundafruit when

Kiwicake · January 26, 2016, 11:37:13 PM

Quote from: Prime Megaten on January 26, 2016, 11:34:29 PM

Quote from: Kiwicake on January 26, 2016, 11:07:31 PM
I'm pretty much going through a process of shedding off that persona I've had for years and becoming an actual person with feelings and emotions beyond just "happy"
Are you going to have an edgy phase?

yeah

i gotta be a teenager all over again

🍁 Aria 🔮 · January 27, 2016, 12:14:49 AM

Quote from: Kiwicake on January 26, 2016, 11:37:13 PM

Quote from: Prime Megaten on January 26, 2016, 11:34:29 PM
Quote from: Kiwicake on January 26, 2016, 11:07:31 PM
I'm pretty much going through a process of shedding off that persona I've had for years and becoming an actual person with feelings and emotions beyond just "happy"
Are you going to have an edgy phase?
yeah

i gotta be a teenager all over again

Oh, so do we have to redecorate the house? Because black can either look edgy or modern.

Luciana · January 27, 2016, 04:22:30 AM

Quote from: Kiwicake on January 26, 2016, 11:07:31 PM

I'm pretty much going through a process of shedding off that persona I've had for years and becoming an actual person with feelings and emotions beyond just "happy"

There wasn't even anything to me, other than "happy", and I grew pretty tired of it actually. So now I'm on one of those journeys of self discovery to discover the true self.

Oh, and working through real life issues too, but I'd hate to bring that up for the millionth time.

Don't give up, skeleton!

Cadenza has moved on · January 27, 2016, 04:29:45 AM

Quote from: Prime Megaten on January 27, 2016, 12:14:49 AM

Quote from: Kiwicake on January 26, 2016, 11:37:13 PM
Quote from: Prime Megaten on January 26, 2016, 11:34:29 PM
Quote from: Kiwicake on January 26, 2016, 11:07:31 PM
I'm pretty much going through a process of shedding off that persona I've had for years and becoming an actual person with feelings and emotions beyond just "happy"
Are you going to have an edgy phase?
yeah

i gotta be a teenager all over again
Oh, so do we have to redecorate the house? Because black can either look edgy or modern.

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Doctor Doom · January 29, 2016, 02:47:31 AM

I spend less of my day sitting on my ass now. Turns out social interaction and the outside world aren't that bad.

BaconShelf · January 29, 2016, 04:02:04 AM

Since starting college in september, I've been a lot happier than I was for a couple of years beforehand. When I was at sixth form I was beginning to genuinely consider just not going in - I'm the kind of guy who usually has a 100% attendance rate so me ever skipping classes is unusual. I just stopped enjoying going in, but I ended up doing terrible and then got to do the computer games course I'm doing now so it's all good.

I've not changed much aside from that though.

SecondClass · January 29, 2016, 04:54:01 AM

Things are getting worse, but at the same time, there's honestly nothing I can do. Internally I'm pretty low, but that's not important. I'm in college and prepping for a great career, so nothing aside from the exterior is even in my sights right now.

Word Wizard · January 29, 2016, 06:22:57 AM

I'm have a crush on my teacher but deep down I know we can never be together ;(

Solonoid · January 29, 2016, 07:08:49 AM

I'm slipping back into being that shitty person I used to be.

I trained myself a long time to be an unrelenting optimist, but lately I've been reminded of how good it feels to be a negative asshole all the time.

Highschool never ends.

Ian · January 29, 2016, 09:41:25 AM

I'm a bit more solid compared to where I was a year or two ago.

Spartan · January 29, 2016, 10:49:27 AM

Generally, I'm pretty happy, I've been feeling worried about a few things but they'll be over and done with soon enough but I'm enjoying life and the people in it are pretty great

SecondClass · January 29, 2016, 04:29:58 PM

Quote from: Ramona on January 29, 2016, 07:08:49 AM

I'm slipping back into being that shitty person I used to be.

I trained myself a long time to be an unrelenting optimist, but lately I've been reminded of how good it feels to be a negative asshole all the time.

Highschool never ends.

Pure optimism is a waste of time. I have to balance it with my cynicism or I get a mental stomachache

Turkey · January 29, 2016, 06:29:43 PM

Quote from: Ramona on January 29, 2016, 07:08:49 AM

Highschool never ends.

The best (or worst) part is that none of it matters when it's done.

More Than Mortal · January 29, 2016, 07:07:39 PM

Not great.

Currently trying to deal with an existential crisis, relapsing depression and borderline/low-level drug abuse.

Genghis Khan · January 29, 2016, 07:20:34 PM

I live to annoy the establishment.

Elai · January 29, 2016, 07:33:07 PM

I'm not in a good place right now.

Bonewheel Barry · January 29, 2016, 09:50:34 PM

In a deep low. Depression and thoughts of suicide cloud my mind almost unrelentingly, recently. I've always been able to shrug it off before, but now it's getting to me.

SecondClass · January 29, 2016, 10:01:02 PM

Quote from: Bonewheel Barry on January 29, 2016, 09:50:34 PM

In a deep low. Depression and thoughts of suicide cloud my mind almost unrelentingly, recently. I've always been able to shrug it off before, but now it's getting to me.

This is a big deal

you need to talk to someone privately, IRL or not

Winy · January 30, 2016, 04:35:58 PM

I've started all of my major courses and they're somewhat difficult, so I have to get a lot of extra help to make sure I'm on top of things. Guess the biggest "Internal conflict" I have is wrestling with my confidence in my ability to do this stuff, but that's really it. I'm a hard worker- I'm willing to give it my all so I can succeed in doing what I love.

Oh · January 30, 2016, 05:28:01 PM

Quote from: Meta Cognition on January 29, 2016, 07:07:39 PM

Not great.

Currently trying to deal with an existential crisis, relapsing depression and borderline/low-level drug abuse.

#freshers

More Than Mortal · January 30, 2016, 11:07:22 PM

Quote from: Simseoh on January 30, 2016, 05:28:01 PM

#freshers

Bruv freshers has been over for ages.

Which is a shame, freshers' week was mad.

🍁 Aria 🔮 · January 31, 2016, 02:56:02 PM

Beginning to philosophize a bit again. At least I can aim that in a creative direction.

Verbatim · January 31, 2016, 05:35:46 PM

Quote from: Prime Multivac on January 31, 2016, 02:56:02 PM

Beginning to philosophize a bit again. At least I can aim that in a creative direction.

Anything in particular that you're thinking about?

R o c k e t · January 31, 2016, 05:54:28 PM

Suffering from a lack of motivation along with boredom. Want to do something with my music but have tried for so long without success that I wonder why I'm even trying. Hate my college but it's all I've got for now, so stuck with that.

That's really the worst of it. Nothing really major. Just not as social and happy as I could be at times but it's nothing I can't deal with.