I think the worst part about losing all your friends, apart from the brutal loneliness, is the fact that you know you'll never make more. You get to a point where you push people away and you don't open up to people. Then you get all the fake bullshit pity from people, like us. Even if we have gone through what you've been through, who the fuck cares. "Oh wow that sucks man". Fuck off. Fuck you.We're all alone and that's how we're all going to die. Alone.
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You are just a bundle of bad vibes aren't you
Well I honestly don't know what to say... Euthanasia maybe? It's only going to get more painful from here, and despair sure as fuck isn't going to help that. I had to watch my grandmother go through palliative care, and for the last week or so before her death, when she was awake she was screaming in pain, the amount of morphine they were giving her was probably enough to kill a horse, she could barely think straight because the cancer had fucked up her brain so badly, and she looked like a living corpse. End it before you get to that point. Nobody should ever have to go through that.
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Man, I have real sympathy with Sandtrap. If I was in his situation I'd wanna be a badass as well. And sure there's an element of pity, but no more pity than I'd have for myself in that extremity. Dude, you're earning major points towards your next stage of existence.
My grandmother passed away two days ago, and another cat was killed by a coydog that roams the neighborhood at night.
Quote from: Elegiac on October 23, 2016, 05:54:49 PMMan, I have real sympathy with Sandtrap. If I was in his situation I'd wanna be a badass as well. And sure there's an element of pity, but no more pity than I'd have for myself in that extremity. Dude, you're earning major points towards your next stage of existence.I figure it's fair if I try to reply to most comments as somebody took the time to write them. But I'm afraid I don't know much what to say to that.I'm still around because I've been fighting not to end up in my next stage of existence, whatever that could come across as. Maybe I credit myself too much. After all I'm stuck to a bed. Can't exactly fight much of anything.This is less about me and more about the people around me. I miss them. There's a hole in their absence. And what happened to all of them was not fair.
Quote from: Vien on October 23, 2016, 11:44:56 PMMy grandmother passed away two days ago, and another cat was killed by a coydog that roams the neighborhood at night.Ah shit. I'm sorry matey.Where things at least peaceful for your grandmother as far as you know?
Quote from: Sαndtrap on October 23, 2016, 11:36:04 PMQuote from: Elegiac on October 23, 2016, 05:54:49 PMMan, I have real sympathy with Sandtrap. If I was in his situation I'd wanna be a badass as well. And sure there's an element of pity, but no more pity than I'd have for myself in that extremity. Dude, you're earning major points towards your next stage of existence.I figure it's fair if I try to reply to most comments as somebody took the time to write them. But I'm afraid I don't know much what to say to that.I'm still around because I've been fighting not to end up in my next stage of existence, whatever that could come across as. Maybe I credit myself too much. After all I'm stuck to a bed. Can't exactly fight much of anything.This is less about me and more about the people around me. I miss them. There's a hole in their absence. And what happened to all of them was not fair.Yeah I thought you'd say that, which is why I said what I said.
Quote from: Sαndtrap on October 23, 2016, 11:48:09 PMQuote from: Vien on October 23, 2016, 11:44:56 PMMy grandmother passed away two days ago, and another cat was killed by a coydog that roams the neighborhood at night.Ah shit. I'm sorry matey.Where things at least peaceful for your grandmother as far as you know?As peaceful as cancer spreading from the rectum to the brain can become.
Quote from: Elegiac on October 23, 2016, 11:50:57 PMQuote from: Sαndtrap on October 23, 2016, 11:36:04 PMQuote from: Elegiac on October 23, 2016, 05:54:49 PMMan, I have real sympathy with Sandtrap. If I was in his situation I'd wanna be a badass as well. And sure there's an element of pity, but no more pity than I'd have for myself in that extremity. Dude, you're earning major points towards your next stage of existence.I figure it's fair if I try to reply to most comments as somebody took the time to write them. But I'm afraid I don't know much what to say to that.I'm still around because I've been fighting not to end up in my next stage of existence, whatever that could come across as. Maybe I credit myself too much. After all I'm stuck to a bed. Can't exactly fight much of anything.This is less about me and more about the people around me. I miss them. There's a hole in their absence. And what happened to all of them was not fair.Yeah I thought you'd say that, which is why I said what I said.For what particular purpose then?
Quote from: Sαndtrap on October 23, 2016, 11:53:01 PMQuote from: Elegiac on October 23, 2016, 11:50:57 PMQuote from: Sαndtrap on October 23, 2016, 11:36:04 PMQuote from: Elegiac on October 23, 2016, 05:54:49 PMMan, I have real sympathy with Sandtrap. If I was in his situation I'd wanna be a badass as well. And sure there's an element of pity, but no more pity than I'd have for myself in that extremity. Dude, you're earning major points towards your next stage of existence.I figure it's fair if I try to reply to most comments as somebody took the time to write them. But I'm afraid I don't know much what to say to that.I'm still around because I've been fighting not to end up in my next stage of existence, whatever that could come across as. Maybe I credit myself too much. After all I'm stuck to a bed. Can't exactly fight much of anything.This is less about me and more about the people around me. I miss them. There's a hole in their absence. And what happened to all of them was not fair.Yeah I thought you'd say that, which is why I said what I said.For what particular purpose then?To compliment something worth complimenting.
Quote from: Elegiac on October 23, 2016, 11:56:32 PMQuote from: Sαndtrap on October 23, 2016, 11:53:01 PMQuote from: Elegiac on October 23, 2016, 11:50:57 PMQuote from: Sαndtrap on October 23, 2016, 11:36:04 PMQuote from: Elegiac on October 23, 2016, 05:54:49 PMMan, I have real sympathy with Sandtrap. If I was in his situation I'd wanna be a badass as well. And sure there's an element of pity, but no more pity than I'd have for myself in that extremity. Dude, you're earning major points towards your next stage of existence.I figure it's fair if I try to reply to most comments as somebody took the time to write them. But I'm afraid I don't know much what to say to that.I'm still around because I've been fighting not to end up in my next stage of existence, whatever that could come across as. Maybe I credit myself too much. After all I'm stuck to a bed. Can't exactly fight much of anything.This is less about me and more about the people around me. I miss them. There's a hole in their absence. And what happened to all of them was not fair.Yeah I thought you'd say that, which is why I said what I said.For what particular purpose then?To compliment something worth complimenting.Compliment the docs. Or the kids. I've been a difficult person to deal with since this started. If I didn't have either of them to shape me up then things might be different now.
I missed my man. I was actually just thinking about you yesterday. I was thinking about how it's unfair what life is doing to you. You don't deserve it. You deserve everything and more, you really do.
Quote from: challengerX on October 23, 2016, 04:17:31 PMI think the worst part about losing all your friends, apart from the brutal loneliness, is the fact that you know you'll never make more. You get to a point where you push people away and you don't open up to people. Then you get all the fake bullshit pity from people, like us. Even if we have gone through what you've been through, who the fuck cares. "Oh wow that sucks man". Fuck off. Fuck you.We're all alone and that's how we're all going to die. Alone. lol
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