So I have decided to end it all tonight

Deesbee · March 21, 2015, 07:48:02 PM

I cannot honestly say what lead me to doing it. I just fail to see my point. I have had an alright life, there were twists and turns but there is not really any reason for me to keep going. I won't do anything fancy, just take pills or cough medicine. I hate fighting off this constant depression, and after the first time I tried to commit suicide I have pushed everyone away. I don't really think anybody will care. Especially on here. But I will put some stuff out there. Of course I do not really act like I do on here IRL. It is just a persona I got in to after I came back to B.net. I never really took this site seriously enough to post like I cared and this is my first post in serious to show that. I know that it is selfish for me to do it. I am sure it will affect my family, but in this situation I don't really want to care. I'm sorry to anyone on here that I have become friends with, I wish I was strong enough to keep going, but I just can't. The worst thing about this is that I am supposed to go on a date tomorrow, and I can't help but feel bad knowing she will wait for me but I will never come, and maybe a day later she will find out why. I don't know why I am saying this on here, I guess it is the last place anybody would look to see if I am alright, but I don't really think people would care enough to look anyway. I hope that there is something on the other side.

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Turkey · March 21, 2015, 08:30:53 PM

Please call someone, your mom, dad, a hospital, a random number even. Your life is not pointless, and there are many people that care for you, even if you can't recognize it right now. I'll PM you my number if you are embarrassed of telling someone you know or just want anonymity.

The Lord Ruler · March 21, 2015, 08:31:09 PM

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Get help man. Everything will be fine.

Korra · March 21, 2015, 09:40:39 PM

Quote from: The Lord Ruler on March 21, 2015, 08:31:09 PM

1 (800) 273-8255

Get help man. Everything will be fine.

Comet · March 21, 2015, 09:52:42 PM

Quote from: Korra Valentine on March 21, 2015, 09:40:39 PM

Quote from: The Lord Ruler on March 21, 2015, 08:31:09 PM
1 (800) 273-8255

Get help man. Everything will be fine.

R o c k e t · March 21, 2015, 10:22:06 PM

Quote from: Mr Whiteflame on March 21, 2015, 07:48:02 PM

Don't you do it man. Talk to somebody.

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CK97 · March 21, 2015, 10:47:24 PM

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Please tell us if you made the right choice and decided not to go through with it. The fact that you were last online two minutes after you posted this is already scary.

Sandtrap · March 21, 2015, 10:59:55 PM

Guys. I know numbers are helpful and all that. But I think we're fucked here. I came into this thread a minute or two after it was made. Sent a pm to whiteflame and then to cheat.

I added him on live in case he was there.

Off on both accounts. Cheat can get IPs as far as I know but other than that I think we're actually shit out of fucking luck here. He only posted this and stayed around for a minute or two at best.

I hope this is a joke. But I get the feeling it's not.

Ásgeirr · March 21, 2015, 11:03:46 PM

lol with these numbers. I find that rude.

Korra · March 21, 2015, 11:03:52 PM

Quote from: Sandtrap on March 21, 2015, 10:59:55 PM

Guys. I know numbers are helpful and all that. But I think we're fucked here. I came into this thread a minute or two after it was made. Sent a pm to whiteflame and then to cheat.

I added him on live in case he was there.

Off on both accounts. Cheat can get IPs as far as I know but other than that I think we're actually shit out of fucking luck here. He only posted this and stayed around for a minute or two at best.

I hope this is a joke. But I get the feeling it's not.

Okay, now I'm scared. I really, really hope he didn't go through with this.

Forgewolf · March 21, 2015, 11:08:21 PM

Quote from: Mr Whiteflame on March 21, 2015, 07:48:02 PM

I cannot honestly say what lead me to doing it. I just fail to see my point. I have had an alright life, there were twists and turns but there is not really any reason for me to keep going. I won't do anything fancy, just take pills or cough medicine. I hate fighting off this constant depression, and after the first time I tried to commit suicide I have pushed everyone away. I don't really think anybody will care. Especially on here. But I will put some stuff out there. Of course I do not really act like I do on here IRL. It is just a persona I got in to after I came back to B.net. I never really took this site seriously enough to post like I cared and this is my first post in serious to show that. I know that it is selfish for me to do it. I am sure it will affect my family, but in this situation I don't really want to care. I'm sorry to anyone on here that I have become friends with, I wish I was strong enough to keep going, but I just can't. The worst thing about this is that I am supposed to go on a date tomorrow, and I can't help but feel bad knowing she will wait for me but I will never come, and maybe a day later she will find out why. I don't know why I am saying this on here, I guess it is the last place anybody would look to see if I am alright, but I don't really think people would care enough to look anyway. I hope that there is something on the other side.

Why won't you even give that girl a chance!? I'm not sure if you can still read this, but at least give that girl a chance to meet and see who you are, at your best!

Sandtrap · March 21, 2015, 11:15:53 PM

Quote from: Korra Valentine on March 21, 2015, 11:03:52 PM

Quote from: Sandtrap on March 21, 2015, 10:59:55 PM
Guys. I know numbers are helpful and all that. But I think we're fucked here. I came into this thread a minute or two after it was made. Sent a pm to whiteflame and then to cheat.

I added him on live in case he was there.

Off on both accounts. Cheat can get IPs as far as I know but other than that I think we're actually shit out of fucking luck here. He only posted this and stayed around for a minute or two at best.

I hope this is a joke. But I get the feeling it's not.
Okay, now I'm scared. I really, really hope he didn't go through with this.

I can't say much here. Other than, we can't do much. I've had people do this to me before, more than once.

Basically, we can't do anything but wait and see. If Cheat can find his IP we might know more. What I'm wagering and hoping for here is that he did and the police were informed.

Sandtrap · March 21, 2015, 11:54:08 PM

Gentlemen! Good news. Whiteflame's okay-ish. Just got a message from him in a PM.

R o c k e t · March 21, 2015, 11:58:10 PM

Quote from: Sandtrap on March 21, 2015, 11:54:08 PM

Gentlemen! Good news. Whiteflame's okay-ish. Just got a message from him in a PM.

Awesome, thanks for letting us know!

Korra · March 21, 2015, 11:58:27 PM

Quote from: Sandtrap on March 21, 2015, 11:54:08 PM

Gentlemen! Good news. Whiteflame's okay-ish. Just got a message from him in a PM.

That's good. Hope he gets better.

Anonymous (User Deleted) · March 21, 2015, 11:59:46 PM

Good news!

Upsetting thread though

TB · March 22, 2015, 12:03:25 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on March 21, 2015, 11:54:08 PM

Gentlemen! Good news. Whiteflame's okay-ish. Just got a message from him in a PM.

Good to hear.

The Lord Ruler · March 22, 2015, 12:35:28 AM

Quote from: Sandtrap on March 21, 2015, 11:54:08 PM

Gentlemen! Good news. Whiteflame's okay-ish. Just got a message from him in a PM.

Good. It'd be a real shame if he went through with it.

Not Comms Officer · March 22, 2015, 12:48:28 AM

He was last online like 3 minutes ago.

Forgewolf · March 22, 2015, 01:18:59 AM

So.. does this mean he might still get laid with that lady he's going to see soon!? : D

TB · March 22, 2015, 01:20:36 AM

Quote from: Forgewolf on March 22, 2015, 01:18:59 AM

So.. does this mean he might still get laid with that lady he's going to see soon!? : D

He just might!

Not Comms Officer · March 22, 2015, 01:27:48 AM

Quote from: TBlocks on March 22, 2015, 01:20:36 AM

Quote from: Forgewolf on March 22, 2015, 01:18:59 AM
So.. does this mean he might still get laid with that lady he's going to see soon!? : D
He just might!

I wonder how she'd react if he told her "Yeah, so I was about to commit suicide last night."

If he told her that, he would get laid by her sometime around.... never.

TB · March 22, 2015, 01:28:36 AM

Quote from: GethKhilafah on March 22, 2015, 01:27:48 AM

Quote from: TBlocks on March 22, 2015, 01:20:36 AM
Quote from: Forgewolf on March 22, 2015, 01:18:59 AM
So.. does this mean he might still get laid with that lady he's going to see soon!? : D
He just might!
I wonder how she'd react if he told her "Yeah, so I was about to commit suicide last night."

If he told her that, he would get laid by her sometime around.... never.

That's why he doesn't tell her.

🂿 · March 22, 2015, 01:35:41 AM

Goodbye.

Edit: Oh he's okay?

Nevermind then.

Forgewolf · March 22, 2015, 01:45:30 AM

Quote from: TBlocks on March 22, 2015, 01:28:36 AM

Quote from: GethKhilafah on March 22, 2015, 01:27:48 AM
Quote from: TBlocks on March 22, 2015, 01:20:36 AM
Quote from: Forgewolf on March 22, 2015, 01:18:59 AM
So.. does this mean he might still get laid with that lady he's going to see soon!? : D
He just might!
I wonder how she'd react if he told her "Yeah, so I was about to commit suicide last night."

If he told her that, he would get laid by her sometime around.... never.
That's why he doesn't tell her.

Yes! Do NOT tell her! That will make it go a 180 in an instant. Only tell her after you are done baning her. Say something like, "Phew! That was great! Hey, I've been needing to tell you something. I was going to kill myself yesterday, but something told me I needed to experience you first. I don't support necrophilia, even if it'd be my dead body fucking you"

aREALgod · March 22, 2015, 04:24:39 AM

Nope.

Not Comms Officer · March 22, 2015, 04:31:22 AM

Quote from: Verbatim wird verzögert on March 22, 2015, 04:24:39 AM

Lmao fucking beta pussy

Yeah, you were one of my least favorite users before I talked to you on Skype, but now you are one of my favorites. Oh, how knowing what a person is like behind some avatar changes your perception on them...

>__>

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