Always things to do here in Florida.

I'd better have the right to bump my own thread.

Florida is just as bad as here.

I don't even know why I made this thread anymore. I should have just committed suicide instead of making this fucking thread.

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 22, 2014, 10:20:15 PM

Quote from: LecomingBegend on October 05, 2014, 05:41:02 PM

Always things to do here in Florida.

I'd better have the right to bump my own thread.

Florida is just as bad as here.

I don't even know why I made this thread anymore. I should have just committed suicide instead of making this fracking thread.

But then you wouldn't have us loveable asshats, would you?

In case you can't tell, I've fucking snapped since yesterday. It won't be long until my own anger kills me.

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 22, 2014, 10:24:45 PM

Quote from: Assassin 11D7 on October 22, 2014, 10:23:10 PM

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 22, 2014, 10:20:15 PM

Quote from: LecomingBegend on October 05, 2014, 05:41:02 PM

Always things to do here in Florida.

I'd better have the right to bump my own thread.

Florida is just as bad as here.

I don't even know why I made this thread anymore. I should have just committed suicide instead of making this fracking thread.

But then you wouldn't have us loveable asshats, would you?

In case you can't tell, I've fracking snapped since yesterday. It won't be long until my own anger kills me.

You're still here, aren't you? I wouldn't rule life out just yet.

I can. I had the biggest fucking headache yesterday. I was in constant pain. All because of the bullshit that happened last night on here.

Gotta cheer up brah. Life always gets better

And as for "dealing with everything". Take it from a dude who has dealt with anxiety my entire life, thinking and stressing about everything gets you nowhere and is pointless. You gotta train yourself to relax. Do some yoga, some meditation. I do it almost every day and it works wonders.

Fuck that. I prefer fapping.

Speaking of, why you no respond to my PM?

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 22, 2014, 10:27:32 PM

Quote from: Assassin 11D7 on October 22, 2014, 10:26:05 PM

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 22, 2014, 10:24:45 PM

Quote from: Assassin 11D7 on October 22, 2014, 10:23:10 PM

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 22, 2014, 10:20:15 PM

Quote from: LecomingBegend on October 05, 2014, 05:41:02 PM

Always things to do here in Florida.

I'd better have the right to bump my own thread.

Florida is just as bad as here.

I don't even know why I made this thread anymore. I should have just committed suicide instead of making this fracking thread.

But then you wouldn't have us loveable asshats, would you?

In case you can't tell, I've fracking snapped since yesterday. It won't be long until my own anger kills me.

You're still here, aren't you? I wouldn't rule life out just yet.

I can. I had the biggest fracking headache yesterday. I was in constant pain. All because of the bullshit that happened last night on here.

Just because you can do something doesn't mean you should. I know people here have told you not to take things so seriously before, but why does it bother you so much? Who are those people offending you, to judge or mock you?

Please don't give up, I don't want to see those people that hurt you drive you away.

People here are hypocrites. I really don't mind stupid humor but it isn't even that. It's just assclowns talking shit constantly whenever I say something thinking that it's cringeworthy. These people have no idea what cringing is then.

As soon as I started talking smack about their precious attention whore, then the tables finally turn and they go out of their way to say that I'm a disgusting human being and they began to take the forum seriously by that point.

Maybe if they understood exactly why they'd fuck off with their bullshit, but no. They don't. They're really dense compared to me, and if I'm dense, they haven't dealt with an actual dense motherfucker that's far worse than I am.

I can go into high gear right now and throttle the total asshole pedal, exposing secrets from people, but I won't do that. Even if that person deserves it. I'd have to have a complete mental breakdown if I were to do that because I wouldn't be able to stop and think.

But someone who's far dense than I am would go full asshole and post all kinds of secrets about people, without a second thought.

As much as I love being a dick I have to be serious in this one. You need to contact professional help Deci. I don't mean that in a negative way I mean that in a way to help you. Though I may not be a very nice person and somewhat of a douchebag I don't want to see anyone commit suicide.

Quote from: challengerX on October 23, 2014, 04:18:03 AM

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Deci, he's right.

From the sounds of it you really should seek out a therapist, or even visit your Doctor about it. They can possibly prescribe a few different medications that might help with your present problems. If you genuinely are considering suicide then go here http://www.samaritans.org/ or here http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ and talk to someone who knows what they are doing.

You can always talk to me via PM if you'd prefer, but from the sounds of it you may be better off simply not returning to this site if it is causing you such disproportionate stress from the actions of a few idiots.

I hate to have to point this out too, but if you do decide to start spreading personal secrets on here I will ban you myself.

I'm not going to spread personal shit. I'm sure of that.

You need to leave. Not just here, but the internet. You shouldn't go to any forum. It's not healthy for you, and you can't seem to differentiate between jokes and serious statements. Any playful jabbing sent your way you perceive as somebody that hates you and you have this delusion about imaginary enemies and revenge fantasies. 

Really, get professional help. You're literally considering killing yourself over forum posts from complete strangers. You need some sort of medication for your anger and you DEFINITELY need therapy.

Please get off any Internet forum. For your own safety. I can't stress enough how incapable you are of brushing off insults and not caring. I had a friend like that, he started playing football and he got rid of his anger through that and learned to toughen up. Maybe a sport would be good for you too.

Killing yourself accomplishes nothing, so man up and deal with your problems because they're a hell of a lot smaller and easier to deal with than a lot of other people's problems.

Ummm. No. Maybe I need to leave this site, but not the small communities I'm in. I'm okay in those.

This is why I refuse to listen to you. Ditching the entire internet is the biggest extreme.

There is a higher probability of wanting to kill myself if a best friend or family member dies. I only have suicidal thoughts and have actually never attempted suicide.

And if I wanted to really end it all, I'd go to Oregon and get euthanized or swallow a cyanide pill, which is impossible to gain access of it anyway.

Quote from: Assassin 11D7 on October 22, 2014, 10:23:10 PM

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 22, 2014, 10:20:15 PM

Quote from: LecomingBegend on October 05, 2014, 05:41:02 PM

Always things to do here in Florida.

I'd better have the right to bump my own thread.

Florida is just as bad as here.

I don't even know why I made this thread anymore. I should have just committed suicide instead of making this fracking thread.

But then you wouldn't have us loveable asshats, would you?

In case you can't tell, I've fracking snapped since yesterday. It won't be long until my own anger kills me.

Probably won't matter much but what I do when I have those dark moments from time to time, I think about how I'm going to live once so I may as well see how things go. I used to think there was no hope - just complete despair and greyness for my entire life. Things do get better, and then they get shitty, and then they get better. We are all going to die eventually anyway, so why not let death take you on her own accord instead of throwing yourself into her arms before your time?

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 22, 2014, 10:24:45 PM

Quote from: Assassin 11D7 on October 22, 2014, 10:23:10 PM

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 22, 2014, 10:20:15 PM

Quote from: LecomingBegend on October 05, 2014, 05:41:02 PM

Always things to do here in Florida.

I'd better have the right to bump my own thread.

Florida is just as bad as here.

I don't even know why I made this thread anymore. I should have just committed suicide instead of making this fracking thread.

But then you wouldn't have us loveable asshats, would you?

In case you can't tell, I've fracking snapped since yesterday. It won't be long until my own anger kills me.

Probably won't matter much but what I do when I have those dark moments from time to time, I think about how I'm going to live once so I may as well see how things go. I used to think there was no hope - just complete despair and greyness for my entire life. Things do get better, and then they get shitty, and then they get better. We are all going to die eventually anyway, so why not let death take you on her own accord instead of throwing yourself into her arms before your time?

*shrugs*

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Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 23, 2014, 12:47:39 PM

Maybe I need to leave this site, but not the small communities I'm in. I'm okay in those.

Take a vacation man, you mentioned you had a "Deci appreciation thread" or something along those lines. Just get in there and soak in ego for a while.

Why does this sound more of an insult than a complement?

Hmm. In retrospect, it kinda does. My bad.

Regardless, who doesn't love a bit of positive attention? If anything it'll balance out being here too long.

Well I think I'll post an update now.

Got a job at the JCPenny. I actually work tomorrow from 12-7pm. It's a temporary position but it will do.

I'm also considering on taking classes for the winter to stay busy.